night lights up

Going to school the next day, I arrived a little early for the ten o'clock class in the morning.The last class is not over yet, and there are other teachers and students in the classroom.

I stood in the corridor and waited for them to finish class. After a while, three girls also arrived early.

Among them was the squad leader, and they greeted me.

The corridor was very quiet, we stood side by side against the railing, and the monitor asked a few words about my family.I didn't say that it was my mother who was hospitalized, after all, I was still struggling at school.

And because I pretended to be too similar, the posture at the beginning of the school was indeed very big. Now I take the bus to and from class every day, and some people say that it is "the young master experiences life"... There is no need for redundant explanations, I will also pass along By default.

After chatting for a few words, the monitor asked, "An Sifeng, do you know Senior Chu Heng?"

As soon as she asked, the other two girls immediately stared at me closely.

I also took a look at them, and frankly speaking, the girls in our class are really pretty, and it is said that this year's department flower is in our class.Just who it is, I don't know.I don't live in the house, I don't deal with the boys in the class, and I don't know much.Even the squad leader, the three girls are very cute.And it may be because of the ancient literature, the girls in the class are relatively quiet and introverted.

I think, when Chu Heng came to look for me in class for the first time, they probably wanted to ask.

It's just that I'm more introverted, so I'm not ashamed to ask.

I nodded: "I had a few words with him."

The squad leader was very excited: "Wow, you can actually talk to him!"

Ten years ago, the worship of seniors on the university campus was really serious, and for seniors like Chu Heng, even the class monitor couldn't help getting excited, and continued to ask me: "An Sifeng, do you know which building he lives in?" Is it? We only saw him enter the fifth building in the west area near the cafeteria, is it that building? Which one of that building?!"

The monitor asked a series of questions, and I shook my head: "I don't know either."

Yes, I actually do.But this is someone else's privacy, so of course I can't say it.

And I saw that when the class monitor asked, the other two female students listened with their ears pricked up, and somehow they didn't want to tell them.

The squad leader sighed regretfully: "You don't know, it is said that he doesn't live on campus often. Alas, it's a pity that we don't know the junior sister, otherwise we can ask. He doesn't join any clubs, he just helps out occasionally. , can’t find a place.”

They showed regret together.

If I were still the old me, I would probably hate Chu Heng even more like most boys, just like me when I first started school, and I thought Chu Heng was too hateful.How can an ordinary person be liked by so many girls?

But after getting a little familiar with him, I think he deserves the blind worship of so many people.

I thought that was almost the end of the story.

I'm still not very good at communicating with people.

The squad leader was indeed silent for a while, and quickly continued to ask: "By the way, An Sifeng, when senior Chu Heng came to see you yesterday, he was carrying a big paper bag in his hand. It seems to be an iron box. Is this yours?"

……

So he came to see me yesterday, just to give chocolates?

This man is also amazing.

I shook my head: "I don't know. No."

The squad leader probably felt that it was impolite to ask such a question, so he smiled at me embarrassedly, and finally stopped asking me, but turned around and whispered with the two girls.

I stood aside, and the corridor continued to be quiet.

Deep in my heart I couldn't calm down.

In fact, there is nothing wrong, but knowing that he came to me yesterday to deliver chocolates, he couldn't calm down.

No matter how stupid you are, you still understand what it means to send chocolates.

It's just that last night, I didn't know that he came here specially to deliver chocolates, so I thought he just gave them to me.

But at the time, I didn't want to think in that direction, and felt inexplicably dangerous.

Giving chocolates specially and giving chocolates are really two different things.

What's more, that box of chocolates is full of my name.

I was also a little absent-minded in the next three classes. On that day, I was finally cultivated by him to have some conditioned reflexes.

When class is over, I wonder if he will come to me again.

When I walked to the cafeteria, I also wondered if he would come to see me.

Even when I left the cafeteria after eating, I still thought so.

But he didn't come to me, no person, no voice, no text message.

I breathed a sigh of relief, but felt a small and unspeakable loss in my heart.Really small, so small that I immediately pressed it down.

I said to myself, he must be paying me back a box out of courtesy because I gave him chocolates that day.

Even if the chocolate given to him that day was the real deal, he paid for it himself.

Who made Senior Chu Heng so polite.

It must be so!

I comforted myself, bowed my head and walked towards the school gate.

But someone called me from behind, I immediately raised my head and panicked.Then I slowly realized that it was a girl's voice.

When I turned around, it was a girl in the class, and one of the three in the morning.

I stopped, and when she walked in front of me, she smiled at me again: "An Sifeng."

She is so beautiful and has a soft voice. No one would dislike such a beautiful and lovely girl, and I would not speak coldly to her and ask her, "Is there something wrong?"

She pointed to the trees and bushes beside her: "Can we go there and talk?"

I looked around. Many students were walking back and forth. It was lunch time, and they were indeed blocking the way. I nodded and walked to the bush with her.

After standing still, she raised her head and smiled at me, but quickly lowered her head in embarrassment.

I was in a hurry and said directly: "If you have anything to do, just say it."

She smiled and said "um", then lowered her head slightly, and whispered: "An Sifeng, I saw you and senior Chu Heng at the bus stop at the school gate that day, and I was there too, but you didn't see me... ..."

"so?"

"...You tell the class monitor that you are not familiar with senior Chu Heng. I saw you two talking all the time that day. Senior Chu Heng was very patient with you, you—"

"Just say it directly."

She took out a light pink envelope from her bag, handed it to me with both hands, looked up at me, and said expectantly: "Can you please help me give this to Senior Chu Heng?"

I was, very upset.

Until now, I don't know if it was because she was upset because she spied on me, or because of someone else.

All in all I was just not happy.

When I'm not happy, people will become very sharp.

I asked her bluntly, "Does he know you?"

She shook her head foolishly.

"Does he know who you are?"

She still shook her head.

"He doesn't know you, he doesn't know who you are, what's the use of writing him a love letter?"

She is so beautiful and has such a good personality. She should have grown up doted on by her family and friends. This is the first time she has met such a "mean" person like me.She was dumbfounded and speechless.

"Apart from knowing that his name is Chu Heng and that he is a man of the school, do you know him? You wrote love letters to him, do you like him very much? Why do you like someone you don't know?"

"..."

Her eyes were red immediately after I said it, and her tears were on the verge of falling.

I didn't intend to bully her. Seeing her crying, I was very upset: "Don't cry, I just want to tell you, don't think he is handsome and just—"

Before I finished speaking, she turned and ran away crying.

……

I watched her run away, and I was even more unhappy.

In fact, what if I do you a favor and send a love letter to a classmate, no one loses.

Why do you say that to a girl?

People like Chu Heng are receiving love letters every day, right?

But why do I have to help someone send him a love letter? !

I don't know what I'm angry about. After she ran away crying, I turned around and left with a cold face.

The whole day was weird.

Fortunately, my mother is in good condition. During the few hours in the hospital, I calmed down and talked with my mother all the time.At that point, when it was time for me to leave, as soon as I walked out of the ward, my face turned into that virtue again.

Even when I walked out of the ward, I looked back at the place where Chu Heng had been sitting before.Going downstairs, out of the inpatient department building, I also took a look at the place where Chu Heng had been standing before.

None of him.

In the direction of the parking lot and in front of the bus stop, there was no him.

So what am I obsessed with?

Surrounded by this person all day, there is nothing comforting. Is this the sweet life he said?

Go to hell!

In view of Chu Heng, the person in charge of the club has been very polite to me recently.

I changed my clothes with a sad face, and then came out to wait for the order. Except for my colleagues who made sarcastic remarks and still rolled their eyes at me, no one reprimanded me.

A few days ago, Chu Heng either called me at the right time, or simply came with me.

On this day, he never came, and I sat in the lounge all the time.

When my colleagues saw this, they immediately started to mock me, saying something like the young master was tired of me.Until someone used the word "out of favor" to describe me, I was close to the tipping point again, only this time the tipping point would not make me cry, but make me angry.

I stood up quickly, and the chair behind me fell down with a "bang", and I was about to beat him up.

Don't look at the tall and long-legged handsome guys here, this business is mainly for men's business, so the boys here are almost all slender.I'm normal, many of them are weaker than girls.

I stepped forward and punched him on the stomach, he was unbelievably beaten back a few steps, raised his head and cried.

I cried harder than my female classmates.

He yelled again, "I'm fighting with you", and came up to beat me while crying.

I wasn't afraid of him at all, and was about to wrestle with him when security came behind me.

In such a place, jealousy and fights are unavoidable, and there are many, many security guards.

Moreover, these security guards were vicious. They came up to separate us, and I kicked and beat me.A person forcibly pulled me out first. I was not convinced and wanted to run in. The person whispered: "If we really fight, no one will be able to please!"

I looked up at him.

I don't like all the people here, especially these fierce security guards.

It was rare for a security guard to say such a thing to me, and my mind gradually became clear.

He just let go of my hand and asked me, "Calm down?"

I calmed down and thanked: "Thank you."

He smiled and didn't say much.

This is my brother Jin.

I'm going to go back to the rest room, after all, if you fight here, even if you have Chu Heng's face, you will be punished.I don't want to evade these responsibilities, and before I can go in, the person in charge in the distance strode towards me.

I was still a little panicked, but I saw him smiling all over his face: "My child, you are here."

I'm all hairy.

He was getting closer and closer to me, and the security guard behind me laughed softly: "It seems that your young master is here."

I immediately wanted to look back at him, and I wanted to tell him that Chu Heng is not mine!Not even my young master!

But I was dragged away by the person in charge.

After dragging to the private room I often go to, and pushing open the door, Chu Heng immediately stood up.

I saw the eagerness on his face, and when I heard the eager words of the person in charge behind me, my heart was filled with sorrow.

This is really not me moaning without illness.

It's just that you can understand that feeling.

At that moment, I realized that I really seemed to be on the same path as my mother.

Although Chu Heng might not mean that.

But in the eyes of everyone, in the eyes of colleagues, in the eyes of the security guards, in the eyes of the boss, the senior who is still young in front of me is already my benefactor.

As long as he comes a moment late, I will be "out of favor" in his mouth.

When he came, the person in charge didn't dare to scold me, let alone hit me, and even nodded and bowed to me.

And the saddest thing is not in this place, I really can only rely on Chu Heng.

The saddest thing is that the moment I saw him, the first emotion I felt before sadness was joy.

I seem to be done.

Will such a life really be sweet?