godfather

Meng Xiaobei finally meets Shaotang.When the two met, they didn't have the tragic feeling of bearing the humiliation and crying when they met on the magpie bridge after thousands of miles away.When they met each other and glanced at each other, they were both happy and relieved by the haggard, sloppy, bearded and silly look of the other party-they haven't changed their minds yet.

Meng Xiaobei touched Shaotang's chin, looked around, "I never noticed it before, your beard is like this, if you keep it longer, you will feel like a beard, and you will have a tough guy temperament, just don't shave, just keep it Up, I love this look,"

Shaotang asked quite concerned, "Does this make you look old?"

Meng Xiaobei didn't look old either, Shaotang had a prickly head and a beard, like a young man who was crazy about love, he stared blankly at him!

Meng Xiaobei teased someone with a smile: "I just like men with a lot of hair... um... just like you."

"If you leave it on your face, it will become the place with the most hair!"

Meng Xiaobei smiled badly, his eyes curved into small crescents.

Shaotang laughed with a "poof", showing his white teeth.It's been almost two months since we separated, and it's the first time I laughed.

"The place with the most hair", this dirty joke has become an allusion for the two to flirt with each other at ordinary times. In the bamboo horse era, there was also a "children's childhood sweetheart", what a pure and beautiful memory.

Qi Liang put his hands in his pockets and walked with his head muffled: "I can't take it anymore, I can't take it anymore, I'm leaving."

Meng Xiaobei: "Are you blind?"

Qi Liang rolled his eyelids proudly, and said in a low voice, "I like men with little hair and no hair."

Meng Xiaobei pointed out something: "Hey, who has less hair?"

The point of this question was rather obscene, Qi Liang's ears turned red, and he refused to answer, "Let's go", turned around and ran away.

Shaotang shaved off his beard afterwards, and when he saw the lively and lively baby, he immediately regained the mood to tidy himself up and look handsome.

A scar was left on the right brow bone, echoing the scar on Meng Xiaobei's forehead.

The two are worthy of the sky above, and worthy of the earth below.Back then, Shaotang carried the stretcher and watched the fleshy Xiaobei slide to the ground, with scars on his head all his life; today, Meng Xiaobei watched Shaotang kneel in front of his grandparents to beg for mercy from his elders, blood spattered three feet.

Shaotang did not take Meng Xiaobei home, but went to a hotel to open a room, shaved, took a bath and changed clothes, so that Meng Xiaobei could completely wash off the vicissitudes of life left by the March Anti-Japanese War, and wash off his original appearance.After washing and taking a picture in the mirror, the whole person looks like two people, which makes people feel distressed.

Meng Xiaobei was naked and came out of the bathroom naked.Shaotang sat on the edge of the bed, Meng Xiaobei sat face to face on Shaotang's lap with his legs apart, hugged him, and then curled up tightly, like a small animal coiled up to keep warm in the harsh winter, with his face buried in his arms. To Shaotang's shoulder.

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Later, the two went out to eat.

As a result, on that day, I suffered from a serious illness after eating.

Shaotang first took Meng Xiaobei to Lao Mo to have a Russian-style meal, and a pot of stewed beef and buttered chicken legs was enough for a meal.Meng Xiaobei's mind and body were extremely excited all day long, and he dragged Shaotang to go to Guijie Street to eat spicy hot pot and drink beer to let off steam.

It may be that the malatang from individual vendors on the street is not clean, or that Meng Xiaobei has been cooking for too long and has not eaten seriously. If he eats too vigorously, he will die all of a sudden.

That night Meng Xiaobei vomited and diarrhea in the hotel room, holding the toilet tank with both hands, while Shaotang hugged his waist from behind and patted him.He vomited so much that he was about to turn his stomach out. When he vomited at the beginning, it smelled of alcohol, in the middle it was stomach acid, and at the end it was bitter, so bitter that tears streamed down his face.

Shaotang stroked his back and teased him: "Where did I do this, did you get pregnant?"

Meng Xiaobei laughed while crying: "If I can really conceive, it's worth it if I vomit like this!...Honey, I will definitely leave you a queen."

And diarrhea several times.At first he was able to walk out of the bathroom by himself, but later he couldn't walk out and couldn't move.When Shaotang rushed into the bathroom again, Meng Xiaobei was covered in sweat, his hair and clothes were soaked, and he collapsed on the floor...

In the middle of the night, I went to the emergency room.Meng Xiaobei got out of the car and walked from the parking lot to the gate of the hospital. At that time, he couldn't walk on his own two legs and squatted on the asphalt road in pain.Shaotang picked up the big baby and carried it inside.

This is not ordinary gastroenteritis, this is acute dysentery.

Dysentery is a very severe emergency, and the more adults, the more unable to bear the rapid and violent danger of the disease.If it is not treated in time, people will die, and at the end of the diarrhea, people will become comatose and dehydrated.

In the doctor's consulting room, Meng Xiaobei couldn't sit up by himself, so he could only lean against Shaotang's arms, and let Shaotang barely prop him up.After struggling for two months, my physical and mental state were at the end of my strength, as if all my strength had been drained away, as if suddenly, my whole body was overwhelmed and was about to collapse.

He was leaning on Shaotang's shoulders, in a state of extreme weakness and dehydration, already out of physical pain.The person seems to be slowly floating up, floating comfortably in mid-air, looking down at the crowd, feeling that he may be about to die.

Shaotang was anxious, coaxing in a low voice: "How can you be so powerful? Are you still doing it?"

Meng Xiaobei sneered, and beads of sweat covered his lips: "Diarrhea is so uncomfortable, my stomach feels like it's on fire, and my butt hurts too."

Shaotang: "...Why does my butt hurt?"

Meng Xiaobei was weak and confused: "I have pulled too many times, and my butthole is burning... It hurts more than doing it with you... Oops, my anus is prolapsed, I can't fuck anymore, no one loves me anymore, What should I do……"

Shaotang wanted to say that as long as your little ancestor can be better, you will fuck me from now on... I feel so sorry for me.

Meng Xiaobei stayed in the hospital for two days because of the severe dysentery. He was given fluids, and several bottles of anti-inflammatory drugs, normal saline and glucose were poured into his body one after another.

He was lying under the covers of the hospital bed, his face was pale, his voice was weak, and he was sweating, and he would tease Shaotang with a playful smile from time to time: "It's good to let you take care of me after being ill, hehehe."

Shaotang asked, "What to eat, you order, I'll go out and buy."

Meng Xiaobei's eyes rolled: "Which Cantonese restaurant is the most popular now? I'll order lobster for three meals."

Shaotang: "Come on! Nourish your stomach and drink porridge."

Xiaobei Yile: "Forget it, I won't kill you, you can eat three crayfish from Guijie."

Shaotang frowned and refused: "Crayfish is spicy, so spicy that your ass hurts."

Meng Xiaobei blinked, cared about the room full of patients, and seduced the man with his lips: I'm idle, I'm idle, you wipe my body, wipe me...

Shaotang bent down and stretched out his hands, and fondled Meng Xiaobei's hair on his head, but as a result, his hands were sweating, his face was calm, and his heart felt like a knife was twisted.

The nurse came in in the afternoon, and it was time for the IV drip. Shaotang first helped Xiao Bei to go to the toilet. Every time the IV was administered, the kid lost his kidney, and he always wanted to urinate.

The nurse inserted the needle on the back of Xiaobei's hand, and Meng Xiaobei squinted at the pretty chick: "Sister, my blood vessels are thick enough, why don't you still look for them?"

The nurse put her head down and stroked her skin: "Don't move, don't move, how can you find me if you don't touch me?"

Meng Xiaobei said unabashedly: "Sister, you can prick the two beds next door very quickly, but you prick me so slowly. I know that my hands are good-looking and slender. You just want to touch me for a while longer."

The nurse smiled and said, "Bah! Save yourself! You are the poorest in the house."

Meng Xiaobei: "A corridor is the best for you, sister, see you later."

Meng Xiaobei said "Sister" on the left and "Sister" on the right. The little nurse blushed from being slapped with flattery, and she carried the plate out with a smile, expecting to see Meng Xiaobei.Shaotang watched silently, then came over and turned over Meng Xiaobei's hand, pointing to the scar on his wrist: "...how did you get it on your wrist?"

The onset was too sudden yesterday, and I didn't see it clearly at night. Shaotang only discovered it when he got the needle just now.On the inside of Meng Xiaobei's left wrist, there was a horizontal scar embedded in it.The wound seemed to have been embedded in the flesh, the wrist seemed to be cut in two, and the flesh was faintly stained with ink from a fountain pen.

Shaotang was shocked and couldn't believe it: "What did you do?... Are you fucking crazy?!"

Meng Xiaobei withdrew his hand and hid under the quilt: "No, no, it's not something."

Shaotang's eyes were confused for a while, and he was furious: "What is it? Do you understand? What do you want to do!"

Meng Xiaobei knew that he was in trouble, so he quickly comforted him: "I didn't want to do anything, don't get me wrong, I won't do that!... I know it well, I didn't scratch too deep, and nothing will happen."

When people suppress pain, they want to vent and go crazy, especially those with extroverted phenotypes.Meng Xiaobei would never hide all his joys, anger, sorrows and joys in his heart and torture himself. He is not that kind of character. He must torture others. He peeled off his chest and took out a red heart to express his truest feelings.What's more, those who are engaged in art are somewhat crazy and neurotic in their personalities, with a strong desire for expression, and they have to find a sense of presence when they get an opportunity.

A small part wanted to threaten the family members, and most of them were still thinking about Shaotang crazy. When they were drawing, they used the tip of the pen to scratch their wrists, the hand with the ring.Where the skin was torn apart, a layer of small blood droplets slowly smeared out, mixed with fountain pen water.Red and black are the most essential and true expression of the soul.

Shaotang stroked the horizontal scar, slowly squatted down, put his face on Meng Xiaobei's hand, and kissed his son's hand that was tied with the infusion tube.

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Later, Shaotang still called the old lady of the Meng family and Meng Jianmin.

Meng Xiaobei refused to let him tell: "I don't want to see them, I don't want to see anyone."

Shaotang said: "This matter between the two of us is not about the two of us, and we can't escape even if we run away."

Meng Xiaobei said: "I understand that being together is a matter of two families. But I am an adult, I love freely, I can support you and you can support me, what am I afraid of?"

Meng Xiaobei did have this confidence and confidence at the time, and came out very arrogantly.What's more, he has such an iron backing as Shaotang.People have climbed to a certain social class, have sufficient economic strength, and the road ahead is very wide. I really have no choice but to go abroad together!

Shaotang said: "You are still young and haven't experienced it. You don't care about losing some things now. You think that you have the upper hand in the current situation and you have won this battle! I don't want you to regret giving up too much in the future because of me." Lots of things."

"When I was young, I also fought with my dad. He was the one who cried bitterly and begged me to turn back. Now I regret that I want to turn back and make up for it. Nearly half of my dad's blood was replaced. When I wanted to go back to that home, I found that My dad can no longer live at home. He lives in the hospital for half a year every year, doing various dialysis and treatment... My home will never exist, I have no home, how much money can I spend to turn back time and buy it back Over the past 20 years, the family has been reunited in harmony?"

Meng Xiaobei was indeed too young.He doesn't care, lives extremely free and easy, looking forward all the way, striding forward, not looking back to take care of his parents who are getting older and gradually left behind by him on the road.A 20-year-old boy, it is impossible for him to imagine in advance that when he is 40 or 50 years old in the future, everyone will inevitably experience a period of life and death in his life. wait.

Meng Jianmin and the old lady came to the hospital to visit immediately. They were very anxious, thinking that Meng Xiaobei was really overwhelmed and wanted to commit suicide or something.

Meng Jianmin still didn't talk to Shaotang in front of his son, and turned his eyes away, unwilling to face him.The relationship between brothers of the same generation was completely turned upside down, and Meng Jianmin didn't know how to treat and address each other—in the future, will I treat you as my son-in-law, or will you call me father?

Meng Jianmin's hair turned white in January.When this man came from Xi'an, his hair was still black, and his temples were covered with frost. Now sitting in front of Meng Xiaobei's hospital bed, his head was covered with flakes of snow, all white.With such an appearance, he could indeed be Shaotang's father.

School will start in a few days, Meng Xiaobei is going back to the university threshold, the sky is high, and the efforts of Meng's parents to make up for it may be in vain.

Meng Jianmin finally persuaded his son a few words.Meng Xiaobei's face was buried in the pillow, and he glanced out of the window, in a state where oil and salt did not enter, and intentionally or unintentionally put his left hand in front of his body for the infusion.He had a pale and slender hand, and the anti-inflammatory liquid dripped into the blood vessel drop by drop.The light blue blood vessels and the K gold ring on the ring finger are also eye-catching, dazzling and unavoidable.

Meng Xiaobei's expression was cold at the time, and he roughly said, "Dad, the money I earned in the past two years is still with you. You said you would not embezzle me, and keep it for my marriage in the future. It's a few thousand yuan." , give me my passbook, and I won’t ask you for a penny in the future.”

Meng Jianmin was stunned, there was something on his heart that was torn apart, and was torn in half.

Meng Jianmin's voice was intermittent and hoarse: "Do you want to draw a line between me and your mother? Will we still be a family in the future?"

Meng Xiaobei threatened: "Do you agree with us?"

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Grandma Meng was in the grandson's ward, her eye sockets were red and swollen, she kept wiping away her tears, she babbled, distressed, and occasionally turned her face to complain to her son. "What's the use of worrying now? You don't raise your son yourself, someone else does it for you, and now you raise your own son as someone else's son, who are you relying on?... It's useless to blame me. I didn't take care of the big one for you. Bring the stele!!"

The gloom on Meng Xiaobei's face was wiped away, and he changed into a monkey child's face to flatter his grandma: "Grandma, you are welcome, you are the best to me, and you love me the most."

Grandma Meng glared at him with a stern face: "Little bastard, you have no conscience! How dare you jump off a building..."

The old lady hid biscuits and fried noodles on the top of the cupboard at home, hiding left and right, not at ease.The hiding is too tight, and I am afraid that the grandson will not find it; the hiding is not strict enough, and I am afraid that others will find Meng Xiaobei stealing it.Every morning, I have to find out and count secretly, how many biscuits have been eaten, and whether my grandson is full! ...

Meng Xiaobei said: "Grandma, from now on, Shaotang and I will be filial to you, and we will never change our hearts to you."

The old lady's eyes dimmed, as if covered by a layer of fog, she sighed, and said for a while: "Our family must have committed crimes in previous generations, and our descendants have suffered retribution, so this happened... The retribution is on my big stele. , why don’t you repay me.”

Meng Xiaobei asked: "Grandma, what feudal superstition are you talking about?"

The old lady said: "Your grandfather and I are in debt to our family."

For the first time in her life, Grandma Meng held her grandson's hand and told her grandson about the family history of 50 years ago.Meng Xiaobei had never heard it mentioned by his grandparents, and he had never heard of such a thing!

Grandma Meng said, your grandfather used to be in his hometown and married a wife.

It is said that the old man of the Meng family was born in a rich peasant family in the countryside before liberation. The family had a house and land and lived affluently. He was taught by his husband in a private school since he was a child.The young man was handsome and well-groomed, and having been to big cities broadened his horizons, and filled his mind with new free thoughts.

When I was a child, I made an appointment for a baby marriage, and the marriage contract should be fulfilled when I reached the age.The new couple had never seen each other before, it was all the words of the matchmaker, the order of the parents, and Grandpa Meng was also the Young Master Meng back then, so he was not happy.

In some places in rural Shandong, the marriage rules are extremely complicated and traditional. There are three matchmakers and six engagements, and several rounds of bride price and dowry exchanges. The couple are not allowed to meet before the wedding, and they live in their own villages.

As a result, when the wedding chapel entered the bridal chamber and lifted the hijab, Young Master Meng discovered that he had married a blind man.

It is popular in rural areas to marry a big daughter-in-law, who can work for her husband's family as soon as she enters the door.The bride was a few years older than him and blind in both eyes.

Of course Young Master Meng quit. He was a young and promising young man who had studied and married a wife all his life. He is a blind man with no emotional foundation at all!The Meng family also found out that they had been cheated, so they went to ask their in-laws what was going on. This girl was obviously good when she engaged in a baby marriage, so why is she so blind? !The bride's parents and elder brother begged them three times. The daughter was indeed good before, but she suffered from a serious illness when she was a teenager, and her eyes gradually broke down.The bride's family deliberately concealed the fact that their daughter was blind, so they were naturally at fault.This girl is also pitiful, if she can't get married, she can only be thrown into her own hands, so I only ask Young Master Meng not to divorce his wife, treat her as poor, give her a bite of food, and take concubines as she likes in the future.

Young Master Meng did not divorce his wife, and he was determined not to marry the bride. He was probably very angry with his parents' absurd arrangement. After the wedding, he ran away from home and went to Qingdao alone.

Qingdao was the largest city in Shandong at that time, with a developed coastal industry and trade, and a colonial occupation area, which was a very modern and fashionable city.Young Master Meng was educated, so he worked in a German-owned textile company. During the Republic of China, he was also a "white-collar" employee. He lived in a small western-style building allocated by the company and earned a lot of money.He goes out in a suit and leather shoes every day, carries a leather briefcase to work, and walks on the ups and downs of Qingdao City.A few years later, through the introduction of the media, I met a young embroiderer who came to the city from the countryside and made handmade embroidery for a textile company at that time—this is Meng Xiaobei's grandmother.

When she was young, Grandma Meng was a beautiful Shandong beauty with a long face, apricot eyes, and a beautiful face.

Meng Xiaobei looked at the old photos later, and his grandmother never lost to Gong Li.

The two got married. In a wedding in the 40s, the groom wore a top hat and tuxedo, and the bride wore a western-style white wedding dress.There is also a best man and a bridesmaid beside her, leaving a pair of young and beautiful shadows in the photo studio.

A year later, the eldest son Meng Jianmin was born in Xiaoyanglou Church Hospital in Dezhan District, Qingdao.

In the 50s after liberation, the capital built a large-scale state-owned cotton textile enterprise. The family moved to Beijing with hundreds of employees of the company, and they have been living in the imperial capital ever since.

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Meng Xiaobei couldn't believe it. He beat the bed and screamed. His grandma, who was known far and wide, was actually his grandfather's "concubine", and she was not the original match at all! !

"You have been hiding such an important matter from me, and you didn't tell me!" He hurriedly asked, "What about my grandfather, did he leave after that? Where is the blind wife?"

Grandma Meng said: "There is no separation, there has never been. The eldest sister is also very pitiful. Divorcing a wife is unkind, unrighteous, and unfilial."

Meng Xiaobei: "Where is that person?"

Grandma Meng: "It's still in your grandfather's hometown."

Meng Xiaobei: "...Ah, still there?!"

Meng Xiaobei shook his head and rubbed against the pillow under the quilt, confused and couldn't accept it: "Then, didn't my grandpa commit bigamy? In fact, he married two?!"

Grandma Meng frowned and denied, "What about bigamy? If you married before liberation, there is no such thing as bigamy."

Meng Xiaobei asked seriously: "Grandma, then you count as my grandfather's second wife?...Fuck, I still have a 'big grandma'!"

Grandma Meng suddenly became furious: "Nonsense! The old man only has one room, and I'm the only one! You only have one grandma!"

Meng Xiaobei howled: "Why do I feel like I was Jia Baoyu and suddenly I became Jia Huan overnight!!!!"

Grandma Meng slapped her precious grandson's cheap mouth: "Nonsense, hit you! You are my Baoyu!!"

Meng Xiaobei covered his face with a quilt, he couldn't even make up novels about things beyond imagination, and it took time to digest them.

Grandma Meng has always called her original partner "big sister" and called each other to exchange "greetings".From the first day of marriage, the old man has never lived with his first wife, and now it has been 50 years.The old man probably has a debt in his heart, and sends money to his hometown every year to support his parents and wife.Grandma Meng also packs some clothes every year and sends them to the countryside.

After liberation, the blind wife has been living with her parents-in-law, dependent on each other, living alone in the vacant house all her life, but she has no worries about food and clothing, and takes care of herself in the Meng family.After the previous generations passed away one after another, the blind woman actually inherited all the family property and land of the Meng family's hometown.

Meng Xiaobei asked: "Grandma, how long have you been married to my grandpa?"

The old lady said: "It's been 40 years. When I married your grandfather, I was only eighteen, and he was thirty."

Meng Xiaobei shouted: "That's a ruby ​​wedding, it's not easy, can you two get to the golden wedding?"

The old lady snorted, "That depends on how old the old man can live... If he lives to be eighty, it will be a golden wedding. If he lives to ninety, we can have a diamond wedding!"

Grandma Meng said, she was also happy.

Meng Xiaobei said: "Grandma, look, it's fortunate that my grandfather ran away from home and didn't obey his parents' orders, otherwise he wouldn't have met you."

"If you two don't make up a couple, there will be no my father, nothing. Today, there will be no me, and our whole family will not exist."

"So fortunately, my grandfather ran away against the marriage. How wise, wise, courageous, and legendary!...As expected of my grandfather!"

The old lady was so flattered by her grandson that she was smiling, and there were deep lines in the corners of her eyes. After 40 years of life and hardships, it is not easy to make a family.

Meng Xiaobei said: "Grandma, you don't have to feel guilty, it's nothing."

The old lady said: "The big sister in the countryside has lived alone for so many years, and she doesn't remarry. It's hard work without a man."

Meng Xiaobei said: "A marriage without an emotional basis is a wrong marriage. It was her previous generation's decadent ideas that caused her to be a widow. It's not bad for you two!"

"Grandma, you and my grandfather gave birth to five children in ten years."

Grandma Meng prevaricated: "At that time, people didn't know how to use contraception. Every family gave birth like this."

Meng Xiaobei retorted: "No! You must love my grandpa very much. You two are very, very special in love with each other, so you keep talking and talking, and finally gave birth to a bunch of children!"

This kind of topic, the old lady immediately felt embarrassed, her face was rosy, and she stared: "At that time, I didn't know how to love it... little bastard!!"

Meng Xiaobei's eyes were slightly bent, and his lips twitched: "Grandma, I love him too."

Grandma Meng was silent and did not respond.

The old lady's face is still stern, but her heart has actually softened.But she couldn't open her mouth to take on such a thing.Those who are not relatives can't bear such a heavy responsibility.This is about the happiness of the child's life.What will Xiaobei do when he gets older in the future?