Number One Player

"Swipe-"

Suhang closed the curtains, grabbed the hem of the T-shirt, threw the clothes on the bed with his backhand, and walked into the bathroom.

The shower spouted warm water, and the heat quickly evaporated, and Su Hang closed his eyes.

Water that is a few degrees higher than warm water poured on the body, in addition to bringing a slight burning sensation, there is also an illusion of drowning in the deep sea without knowing it.He Qi said that he had never experienced the love between his parents, and Suhang didn't have time to tell him, so did he.

He has never met his parents, and he doesn't even know how they left him.

For a long time, Suhang felt that they just left like this, leaving him alone in this world, leaving him a lot of messy things, which made Suhang think, it would be fine if he died, maybe It was indeed a relief to leave.But when he was in the dense forest of Fengchuan, when a bullet grazed his cheek, what he thought in his heart was, how can I die?

There has never been a moment in his life where he was more sober than that time. He remembered the time when the child who was in Fengchuan but ended up at the He family looked at him pitifully.He was thinking, how can I die?What if I die?

Suhang let out a long breath, and when he opened his eyes again, he saw the blurry mirror on the opposite side. He wiped the water vapor with his five fingers, and then the water vapor quickly condensed, dropping drop by drop from the clear mirror surface again.

The person in the mirror looked very young, with a very fair complexion, which contrasted with the dull blackness of the eyes.Suhang stared at the mirror, the image appeared distorted and bizarre due to the water droplets.Frankly speaking, Suhang didn't have too strict requirements on his appearance, he felt that he was pretty good-looking, and he was enough to be liked by others.It's just that once this person becomes He Qi, he can't help but re-examine himself.He Qi's living environment is special, he can't get in touch with too many things. In other words, there are many people in this world who are prettier than Su Hang, and He Qi has never met a beautiful girl. What should he do if he meets a girl and suddenly feels that the one he likes is actually a girl?There is always someone in the world who is much better than him.And most of the time, Suhang seems a little unreasonable and unenthusiastic.

This is not what he thinks, many people judge him that way.

Thinking about it this way, if He Qi really likes him, then his vision really isn't that good.

Suhang laughed at himself, and without leaning forward, he walked into the bedroom in a bathrobe, and casually wiped his dripping hair.He raised his hand to turn off the light, lying on the bed, staring at the beating air molecules in the darkness.

He Qi said that it was because of him that he wanted to survive, but what He Qi didn't know was that the same was true for the later Suzhou and Hangzhou that supported him to go on.

Suhang closed his eyes, and countless identical figures emerged from the drowsiness—standing under the porch and looking at him without saying a word, sitting on the sofa eating grapes, standing in the rain and fog, Standing next to the tombstone... or even a long time ago, in the corridor where the white porcelain flakes were peeling off on the wall, and there was only a white light lamp every few tens of meters, the filament sizzling and flickering like ghost fire .He Qi just stood in the boundary between light and dark, and cast a quiet gaze at him, his face was cold and his eyes were soft.

The room was quiet, Suhang was lying motionless on the big bed, the scent of shampoo still lingering in his hair that hadn't been dried was in his nose.

- "Dong dong dong."

Su Hang's eyes opened suddenly.

Someone knocking on the door?No, it wasn't knocking on the door, the sound didn't come from the door, it was—knocking on the window? !

Suhang was stunned for a moment, got up from the bed, walked to the window, opened the curtains and took a look, then he was stunned, he almost subconsciously wanted to rub his eyes, wondering if he was wrong ,"you!!!"

The one holding the drainpipe beside the window sill outside the window was He Qi.

Actions came faster than thoughts. Before Su Hang could think of anything to say, he opened the window and grabbed He Qi's hand. He Qi used his strength to jump into the room, staggering even with Su Hang.

Suhang let him go and asked, "Are you crazy? This is the fourth floor!"

He Qi nodded, "I know, but there are cameras outside. If someone sees me coming to you in the middle of the night, I'm afraid I'll be in trouble." He spoke in a low voice, as if he was wronged.

"Only at the corner of the stairs, not here." Su Hang was a little confused, "What exactly do you want?"

He Qi, "..."

The two looked at each other, and He Qi scratched his hair, "How about...or I go out and come in through the main entrance?"

Su Hang was about to reprimand him angrily, but he suppressed his anger with He Qi's next sentence. He said, "I'm sorry, I thought about it for a long time, and I feel that some things should not be said because of embarrassment."

Suhang, "..."

"I like you." He Qi looked at him and whispered, "I have liked you since a very early age, when I was really a child."

Suhang has lived for more than 20 years, and this is the first time that he has directly faced other people's overtures. Although He Qi had expressed similar emotions before, it was not direct, and rather roundabout, so that Suhang was indifferent at the time. I was a little stunned.And He Qi just looked at him fixedly, with a deep gleam in his eyes.

"Then...then you..." Suhang finally squeezed out a sentence after a long time, "Then you can say it tomorrow."

"No, I think I shouldn't waste time when I think it through. I want to see you when I think it through. I can't wait for a moment."

"..."

He Qi is indeed too young, he hasn't even made any plans yet, facing Suhang, he can't even maintain the most basic sense.He is almost in a sense of insecurity, desperate to express his mind, and the desire that has been suppressed for a long time is in urgent need of a breakthrough.

There is no way, Suhang is really special to He Qi, his short life of 18 years, from the very beginning, was just one person, it was Suhang who broke in unexpectedly, which made He Qi defenseless.

Suhang seems to be personable, but he always speaks with such malicious intentions; when he smiles, he seems to be full of bad intentions, but his eyes are so gentle; When it's good, it's so solid and reliable, there's nothing wrong with it.

It's hard for him not to like it.

He Qi looked at him, and without waiting for Su Hang's reply, he approached him involuntarily, and pulled Su Hang into his arms. He Qi rested his chin on Su Hang's shoulder, "Brother."

Suhang didn't react yet, he just felt the strength off his shoulders, He Qi looked directly into Suhang's eyes, and said seriously, "I like you."

Suhang felt a sudden pain in his heart. He had been thinking about when did He Qi start liking him since he was really a child.He vaguely had an answer in his heart, but if it was true, all the things he had experienced in the past would completely change.Suhang didn't dare to think about it, he wasn't sure if he could bear He Qi's feelings.

But now, seeing He Qi like this, and seeing the starlight in his eyes, Su Hang felt his throat was dry and sore, as if it was blocked by a sour lump.

A lot of words went round and round to the tip of my tongue, but I couldn't utter a single word.

He Qi was very gentle, even slightly lowered his head and pressed his lips against Su Hang's cold cheek, and asked in a low voice, "Do you like me?"

——He should have taken the initiative to go forward and give his child He a hug, and then He Qi would immediately hug him back even harder!

But those doubts were still lingering in his mind, and even made Suhang feel a little uneasy. As early as when He Qi told Suhang that he came to the He family for himself, Suhang felt something was wrong.It's just that I didn't have time to think about it at that time, and now the answer seems to be ready to come out.

Then how long has he thought about himself this way?

Suhang didn't dare to think about it, he looked at He Qi, and the pain in his heart aggravated a little bit.

He took He Qi's hand and asked, "When did you like me? How early?"

He Qi knew that he couldn't hide it, so the two stalemate for a while, and he tried to speak calmly, "When I first met you in Fengchuan, I felt that you couldn't remember it yourself, so I didn't want to mention it. You can’t be nice to me for no reason and think you remember. But later you said you were nice to me because you are my elder, and I think you don’t remember. I thought I was the only one who cared about it. "

Su Hang's eyes trembled, the face that always had relaxed muscles and no expression except casual perfunctory, was really a bit indescribably complicated at this time.

When I went to Bongcheon by myself?As early as that time, He Qi had been tempted by him?

Looking back at the countless confrontations since then, whether it was Yu Suhang or He Qi, everything was different.

In that rainy and foggy weather all over the world, the boy standing under the porch looked as if he was waiting for him, but looking back now, it didn't look like that, but was indeed waiting for him.

Suhang only came back to He's house occasionally, but he happened to be able to see He Qi under the grape trellis, and maybe he could be seen in other places, as long as he was closer to Suhang, it didn't matter what he passed.

He once carefully asked for a compliment in front of Su Hang with the arrogant look unique to young people.

In order not to disturb Suhang, during the league competition, he stayed alone among the fans, just to see Suhang.

Obviously it's my own birthday, and I think about Suhang in everything, even the taste of the cake has to take into account whether Suhang likes it or not.

The child who didn't dare to speak out his mind, faced with Suhang's questioning, had no choice but to say that he regarded Suhang as his own relatives, and Suhang even let go of such cruel words to him...

……

Counting the past in detail, Su Hang's heart seemed to be clenched tightly, he couldn't help but suddenly raised his head, and looked at He Qi in an instant.

"You..." Su Hang spoke hoarsely after a long time, and there seemed to be something unspeakable hidden behind his tone, "How old were you then, you... at such a young age, you already know what liking is?"

The strange thing is that there was no doubt in his tone, but a trance that could not be recovered from the shock for a long time.

He Qi shook his head, "I didn't understand it at the time, I didn't understand that my feelings for me are called liking." He Qi approached again, and the eyes that had been alienated and frozen in the face of other things all year round were shining with hot light, he said , "I didn't know the name of this kind of relationship until later. Where do you like it and what age? It doesn't matter."

"But you're right. I was too young at that time, and I was too at a loss when faced with this kind of emotion. I didn't know how to deal with it, and I didn't even have the courage to express it."

"It's not that I have the courage now, it's just that I have lost it, so I feel that I still have to say it. Compared to losing without knowing anything, I would rather know at least one result."

"Okay, I'm done, what about you?"

The starry sky outside the window is bright, and the wind seeps in through the open window, together with the shimmering light and shadow of the street lamps downstairs, reflecting fleeting shadows on the ceiling, just like fish wagging their tails from a long river and passing by again and again .

"Brother." He Qi grasped Su Hang's waistline with both hands, and kissed his temple hair with his head, his voice was as soft as touching a dream hidden in the deep sea, "What do you think of me? of?"