back to innocence

Although Ye Minghe did not show corresponding enthusiasm for Fei Yizhen's positive attitude, he was cooperative enough and did not show his gratitude.

However, when he got to the dormitory, he still couldn't help looking at it for a while with his portfolio.

I remember that when I was young, I just started to learn painting together. Fei Yizhen, who was still a little childish at that time, always had a little unconvinced hostility in his eyes.But he didn't know when, he let go of that hostility, and the smile in his eyes was so dazed that the fireworks were even colorless.

Ye Minghe knew that he should let go.

Fei Yizhen in the painting book is still smiling, either smiling or in a daze, even when he is in a daze, the brows and eyes are extremely soft, just like his temperament.He always said that he was thinking about the plot, and there were countless unconstrained ideas hidden in his mind, and his whimsy and whimsy were amazing.

Let it go, Ye Minghe said to himself, if Fei Yi really wanted him to get to know others, he didn't want to disappoint him and put more pressure on Fei Yi.

But it is not always easy to let go of the feelings that have been waiting silently for so many years.

Ye Minghe thought: Give me a little more time.

Ye Minghe gradually became acquainted with the people in the club, and would take the initiative to communicate with people when Fei Yizhen was away.In Fei Yizhen's view, this is always a good start.

But even though he knew many people, every time Fei Yizhen tried to observe who Ye Minghe had a crush on, it was difficult to see the clues—he was really good at hiding his emotions and thoughts.

In this way, as time passed, Ye Minghe finally got to know many people gradually, and the two people's sense of presence in the Rainbow Club gradually became stronger.

In November of this year, Ye Minghe participated in the painting competition in the province and city where P University is located, and the painting he submitted successfully won the grand prize.

Fei Yizhen has seen the works for the competition, and they are arranged in order of clasped hands.

Child holds child, boy holds boy, woman holds woman, man holds woman, man holds man.

Those who can understand can naturally understand its deep meaning.

Many people in the Rainbow Society are very fond of this painting, at least Ye Minghe doesn't care what the outside world thinks.Painting is inherently a relatively abstract art with strong symbolic meaning. The same painting will have different interpretations in the eyes of different people. No one can easily say that their own interpretation is the original intention of the painter.

The title of this painting is called "Coming Together".

Fei Yizhen, like everyone else in the club, also liked this painting very much.But apart from the meaning represented by those hands, he prefers the gentle and warm feeling of the picture itself.

He stood in front of the picture frame, looked at it for a while, and felt that what this picture represented was not just a simple composition of different loves.

It should also represent the existence of different feelings.Family affection, friendship, love, and human feelings are intertwined like that, comforting and supporting each other, bringing warmth.

Holding hands, turned upside down, is a character from childhood to adulthood, and it is also the process of a person's growth-in the process of growth, everyone will walk with many people. Someone can accompany you to the end, and someone can accompany you to the end. You can only walk for a while and then let go of your hands.

But no matter what, the warmth on those hands will never be forgotten.

Ye Minghe obviously has an understanding of what he can do.

Fei Yi really thought: What can I do?

It's not that Fei Yizhen doesn't understand what Zhao Jingxi said.He can understand what kind of expectations the senior sister has for him, but he is always hesitating, whether this is the right time, what kind of impact his actions will have on his relatives and friends... such questions.

That's how it is, and it's hard to change.

But the hesitation is endless.He had said to himself before that there was never a better time for anything than "now".If something needs to be thought twice, at least set a clear deadline.

On the weekend, he said to Liang Qing: "Ah Qing, I want to write a novel about your uncle and uncle, and then adapt it into a script... What do you think?"

Liang Qing was taken aback when he heard him say that, and then asked, "Why did you suddenly have this idea?"

"It's not a sudden idea, I think I have always had this idea, from the first time I heard about it. Or from an earlier time, from the first time I discovered my sexual orientation, I Maybe I've always had thoughts like this. After all, I don't want anyone, and even liking someone is a life-long shame... Am I conflicted? Probably because I have never had much courage Bar……"

Fei Yi really didn't care about dissecting himself in front of Liang Qing.

Liang Qing said: "You can't say that. You see, my side is open enough now. In some places, same-sex marriages are directly allowed. But anti-gay activities in churches are still very popular. Do you know what is the most exaggerated?"

He said with a mocking smile: "Many members of anti-homosexual organizations in the church here are homosexuals themselves. They believe that they can change their sexual orientation by believing in God... These are actually deeply homophobic people. Every time When I heard their remarks, I found it very ridiculous, reminding me of Zhu Xi's "preserving the principles of nature and destroying human desires", as well as feminism and mother-in-law dramas in China...Fortunately, my mother doesn't like to watch that."

Then he spoke softly, with a tone that was completely inconsistent with Liang Qing's usual gentleness: "Yizhen, you are very good. I don't know why you doubt yourself, but in my heart, you are the best. You are my only one." Do you know the reason why patience is better than indulgence now, Yizhen?"

Fei Yizhen didn't really understand Liang Qing's words.

But he understood Liang Qing's tone.

"Ah Qing, do you feel hard? Is Auntie treating you badly?"

Liang Qing shook his head: "It's not bad, but some things are hard to explain. I don't think it's too hard, as long as I can talk to you like this every day. Yizhen, you know, you are my sweet dream, I faith."

Fei Yizhen's ears were flushed, and he felt a sense of hotness all over his body. He never understood why Liang Qing could say such nasty things so easily.At this time, he was very glad that Liang Qing couldn't see his real appearance, so he pretended not to care and said, "You are the only one who can speak well."

Liang Qing heard the embarrassment in his tone, smiled lightly, and said, "I mean it."

Fei Yizhen sometimes thinks, after more than five years, will their relationship last forever?

From the hands of the two immature children holding together at the beginning, to the gray-haired, haggard hands of the two white-haired old men at the end—as long as I think about it this way, I feel warm and sweet at the same time.

He really wanted Liang Qing to be right in front of his eyes.Although they would say at least two sentences every day, and sometimes meet each other in the game, Fei Yizhen would also watch Liang Qing's old and new dramas and movies over and over again, but they never had real contact.

Sometimes he would miss Liang Qing's breath very much, wanting to touch each other's fingertips, want to hug each other, and feel the temperature of his breath.

That's something you can't feel even if you try to touch the TV screen.

Sometimes when he was sitting on the bed, he would fantasize that Liang Qing was sitting beside him, and as long as he tilted his body, he could lean on the other party, causing the other party to let out a cry of annoyance because of the tragic death of the game character.

It turned out that separation was not as easy, as insignificant, and as bearable as they imagined.

It was rare for Fei Yi to take the initiative to say: "Ah Qing, I want to hug you."

It took Liang Qing a while to say: "...Me too. I want to hold you, I want to kiss you." Then he took the phone, put it to his mouth, and kissed the screen lightly.

Fei Yizhen tightly clutched the phone in his hand, leaning his back against the wall, trying to restrain himself so as not to cry out.

Finally, Liang Qing said: "I don't care about my uncle and uncle, but I just don't know how my parents' attitude is. Why don't you go and talk to my dad about it during the holiday? He is right My uncle has deep feelings, so he may care more about this matter."

Fei Yizhen only hesitated for a moment before agreeing.

He really wants to adapt this story into a script and put it on the big screen.

When the first semester finally ended, Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe were also ready to go home.

When there were only two people left, Fei Yizhen said, "What do you think Minghe will look like?"

Ye Minghe was taken aback for a moment, obviously a little surprised that Fei Yi was really sensitive.

Fei Yizhen said: "When you come back next time, Minghe, you should be more active." Don't be like me.

After only a while, Ye Minghe said, "Okay!"

After arriving home, Ye Minghe did not perfunctory Fei Yizhen.

He put the picture book that he always carried with him in a drawer.

He will not tear up or burn the drawing, because it is the sustenance of a very important relationship when he was young.Even if Fei Yizhen himself asked, he would not easily destroy these meticulously created drawings.

But he wants to say goodbye to this relationship.That would be better for everyone.

Ye Minghe was a little bit disappointed and reluctant, but he didn't give up and stalk him.Life taught him to be calm, but it also taught him to be open-minded.

In the days that followed, he devoted himself even more to Estar's work.Because of his laptop, he doesn't need to stay in the company all the time. Even during school, he can communicate with the minister remotely and complete some work, but it will undoubtedly be easier if he can communicate face-to-face.

And as he improved his work in this area, Chen Qiao became much more relaxed at work, and no longer worked as busy as before, as if burning his own lifespan.

But all this peace was broken one day during the holiday.

Chen Qiao, who helped Ye Minghe tidy up the room on a whim, opened the drawer of Ye Minghe's desk and saw a picture book that Ye Minghe liked to carry with him since middle school.

Out of concern for Ye Minghe and pride in his son's painting ability, Chen Qiao opened the picture book with the idea of ​​seeing what he drew...