back to innocence

This time Fei Yizhen didn't step off the stage after singing one song, but sang several songs in a row, and when he stepped off stage, he felt his throat was a bit sore.Just as I was about to take the mineral water handed over by my senior, a thermos was inserted horizontally.

Fei Yizhen looked at Ye Minghe holding the thermos in surprise, and took it after a while.

It turned out to be warm honey water.

Zhao Jingxi shrugged, and tactfully stepped aside, leaving the space for Ye Minghe.

Fei Yizhen sang a lot of songs this afternoon, because of the venue, he felt more exhausted than during the concert.When it was over, a group of people had dinner at a roadside food stall, and then turned to the famous bar street in the city.

When I was active in Bar Street, it was different from the previous day.Fei Yizhen originally thought he could see a gay bar that he had never seen before, but in fact, although he saw it, it was different from what he imagined.

The volunteer team does not stay in a certain bar. From this point, it can be seen that the volunteer team is still a volunteer team after all, and what they participate in is not a recreational activity.

A group of people almost walked along the street bars one by one, and did not stop at a certain bar. Generally, a family can stay for 10 minutes, no more.During this process, Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe followed other people to distribute leaflets and manuals to people, while several cadres were responsible for giving short knowledge popularization speeches.

At this time, the eye hat has been put on again, and it is night again, and it should be difficult to see clearly in the dim and blurred lights of the bar.But he still couldn't avoid being molested by the guests inside again and again, both men and women.

He was not annoyed, and learned to deal with it from his seniors and sisters.The people in the bar were more relaxed and casual, not only he and Ye Minghe were molested, even senior seniors like Ding Ruining and Wang Tiannan were inevitably teased and teased.Wang Tiannan and his group were obviously very familiar with this aspect, and they handled it with ease.They were a propaganda team, not boys and girls who came here out of curiosity. The people in the bar knew it clearly, they just wanted to tease them casually, and they didn't really come to provoke them.

But even so, after walking down a street, Fei Yizhen still felt that his energy was exhausted too much.But this is not the end - although a street has come to an end, they have only walked through half of the shops.

Then I walked back to the street from the end on the other side, and visited the shops on the opposite side one by one.

Wang Tiannan and the others are familiar with the bars in this area, and they don't go to every bar or club.There were quite a few stores, but they didn't even glance at them, and just walked past the door.Some are private clubs where outsiders are not allowed to enter, while others are smoky places.

They couldn't get in the former, but the latter was because Ding Ruining also remembered to be responsible for the students in the club, so it wasn't bad for one or two stores.

When he returned to school, Fei Yizhen almost didn't even have the energy to go back to the apartment to take a shower.

He pondered for a while, and finally compromised, opened the door of the bathroom in the dormitory, and washed it casually.

As a result, he was teased by Yang Hai as soon as he went out: "Miss, why don't you make a fuss today?"

Fei Yizhen wiped his hair, stepped on the edge of his chair, and said, "Call me Young Master!"

He Man immediately spat out a mouthful of water.

Fei Yizhen sneered, stopped making trouble with them, and climbed into his bed.

Participating in Rainbow Club has brought many benefits to Fei Yizhen. For example, the day he participated in club activities, he gained a lot of knowledge and figured out some things.

On the other hand, he also knew many people.It is not easy to find people like them, let alone someone who can act as a mentor in love and future planning.There are very few homosexual rights organizations in China. Even if some children suddenly discover that their sexual orientation is abnormal, they cannot find institutions to consult and elders who can serve as guidance.Traditional parents seldom make allowances for such situations, and only work hard to reverse the other's sexual orientation.

And that's usually one tragedy superimposed on another.

Fei Yi really couldn't help thinking, what if he had met a guide like Zhao Jingxi before?Although these seniors and sisters are not very old, when they unite with each other, help each other and communicate with each other, at least they will eliminate a lot of the lingering loneliness like him in the previous life.

Fei Yizhen has always felt that it is very difficult for a person like him to find a companion, so he never reveals his secrets to others easily. In his previous life, Mo Yao was the only person who knew his sexuality, even if he was Qi Wentang, apart from the occasional ambiguity and temptation between the two, they have never confessed to each other face to face.

He had indeed been tempted by Qi Wentang, but he was very hesitant to respond to his temptation.What's more, although he didn't know what happened, he vaguely heard that Qi Wentang had a girlfriend, and it wasn't that he couldn't communicate with girls.

At that time, he had a sense of inferiority compared to other people, and this inferiority complex caused him to consciously retreat from straight men and straight women.It's because I don't want to drag others into the quagmire, and it's also because of cowardice and low self-esteem.

According to Zhao Jingxi, even he himself did not really have the awareness of "freedom of orientation and equality of sexual orientation", so even though Qi Wentang's goodwill had clearly shown his own wishes, Fei Yizhen still retreated.Because of his own inferiority complex and the education he received, he naturally made the subjective conclusion that "being a heterosexual would be happier".

But thinking about it now, Qi Wentang might not have hesitated - thinking about it, they are all the same, so in the end Qi Wentang chose the woman he liked without breaking through the veil.

Wang Tiannan and Zhao Jingxi conveyed a completely different idea to Fei Yizhen.

——Don't be afraid of the so-called unfortunate future, but use your own power to change the factors that cause the misfortune.

However, the existence of the Rainbow Club is different from the world that Fei Yizhen has been exposed to through entertainment and cultural activities in the past, and it has broadened his horizons from another aspect.

The existence of the Rainbow Club has another advantage, that is, it allows people like Fei Yizhen Ye Minghe to meet more people, who either share the same goals or can understand each other.This will undoubtedly give Ye Minghe more opportunities to choose a future path.

The Rainbow Club is a big club in P University, and the number of members is astonishing.Fei Yizhen hasn't figured out how many members there are in the Rainbow Club until now, but there are obviously quite a few, at least he still can't recognize them all.

When Fei Yizhen participated in the speech salon on the weekend, he also saw an acquaintance.

He was on the same floor as his dormitory before, but the Xi Liang in the dormitory was changed because of the fight.

The other party also saw him, and was obviously surprised to meet Fei Yizhen here, but instead of asking about him, he said, "What a coincidence."

Fei Yizhen also greeted him.

In fact, although the Rainbow Club has a large number of people, it is still a drop in the bucket compared to the gay population that P University may have.More people are like Fei Yizhen in the previous life, hiding among the crowd and not wanting to be known.Among the deeply homophobic people, a large part of them are themselves homosexuals.

So Fei Yizhen, on the contrary, admires people like Xi Liang who can face himself honestly.Once he stood in the opponent's position, he was not as frank and brave as the opponent.

Fei Yizhen didn't see Xi Liang when he went to activities with Zhao Jingxi last time, but there were not many people there last time, I don't know if it was because of off-campus activities.But this time there were many more people, and the lecture theater was full of students of all grades.

Ye Minghe came a little later, so he was almost unable to find Fei Yizhen's whereabouts in the crowd, and he found him only by calling to ask for his seat.

Ye Minghe had never met Xi Liang before, and was surprised to see Fei Yizhen talking to a strange boy.Fei Yizhen took advantage of the opportunity to introduce the two to each other.

Xi Liang glanced at the two of them, thinking about the relationship between Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe, but he didn't ask verbally.Everyone consciously abides by the rules of the Rainbow Club and does not step on other people's bottom line.Ye Minghe is calm and restrained, and he hasn't revealed any clues in his contacts with Fei Yizhen for so many years, so naturally he won't be seen by someone who just met him for the first time.

Fei Yi is really happy that Ye Minghe's attitude towards him has not changed.He knew that Ye Minghe was in a single-parent family when he was a child, and was rejected by the group because of family reasons. He had few friends, so he hoped that he would know more people.

That's why he suggested Ye Minghe to join the Rainbow Club with him.I'm sure I can meet a lot of people here, and it's better than Ye Minghe being alone, and it's better for everyone.

Although Ye Minghe didn't make it clear, Fei Yizhen already knew about Ye Minghe's feelings.Even so, after all, he couldn't just alienate Mo Yao like he did when he saw Mo Yao again.When she saw Mo Yao again, Mo Yao was still just in love, she didn't know anything about their previous friendship, the time they spent together... As long as Fei Yizhen distanced himself a little, Mo Yao would understand him The meaning is to rein in the precipice in time, so that you don't have to fall into the big pit of "Fei Yizhen" for the second time.

But Ye Minghe is different.Fei Yizhen has been friends with him for many years, and he did not pay for this friendship alone. Although he clearly rejected Ye Minghe, as long as the other party does not want to sever the relationship, Fei Yizhen will not easily separate from him relation.

However, he does not want Ye Minghe to continue like this.

Therefore, he encouraged Ye Minghe to join the Rainbow Club and meet more people.There has never been any behavior between lovers between him and Ye Minghe, and there will never be any in the future.Ye Minghe's affection for him may be very intimate and sincere, but it is not irreplaceable.

Time always changes everything.

A person's feelings are feelings because they are always alive.It is like a seed buried in the soil, which will slowly germinate, sprout twigs, and open flowers.Some feelings will die young, but some feelings will grow into big trees in the sky over the years.

In this day's lecture, Fei Yizhen and others first watched a movie, and then listened to a well-received section, followed by a period of free exchange and questioning.

Ye Minghe didn't talk much, and was relatively silent most of the time, but Fei Yizhen and Xi Liang exchanged a lot of information.Because of Ye Minghe's attitude, he didn't say much about Ye Minghe, but he talked with Xi Liang about a lot of topics. He mainly wanted to know about the other party's affairs and observe Ye Minghe's attitude.

He couldn't force Ye Minghe to do something, but he hoped to create a way for him to meet more people.