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Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe took the leaflets, only to find that one was for an AIDS prevention campaign, and the other was for a lecture on homosexuality.

Zhao Jingxi explained: “The publicity activities on AIDS prevention are about twice a semester, and the lectures on homosexuality are held once a month. The publicity activities are organized by us to organize students to go to the streets, bars, communities and other places to conduct publicity and speeches; the lectures are held in schools , on weekends, Building 16 will be open to people inside and outside the school to visit and listen to lectures."

"In addition, we also have individual activities to help gay family members understand relevant knowledge and enlighten their parents and family members, but this is not for everyone to participate in. We generally conduct some psychological and social ethics for the corresponding volunteers. To ensure that everyone can express the purpose of volunteering activities more correctly and persuasively, so as not to be self-defeating and harm the objects in need of help.”

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For nearly an hour, Zhao Jingxi gave a brief introduction to Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe's club activities, which made Fei Yizhen know many things that he didn't know before.In the past, his knowledge about this aspect was obtained from reading books or searching for information privately, so it was naturally not as comprehensive and down-to-earth as Zhao Jingxi knew.

Moreover, compared to Fei Yizhen who has always only focused on his own situation, he has to admit that Zhao Jingxi and others are much more generous than him.

He has been passively waiting for people's minds to become open and the public to become more accepting of some special groups, but he rarely thinks about whether he should do something.

Fei Yizhen has never experienced a big twists and turns in his life. Although he often wants to do his part when he sees some things, he has no self-consciousness to take the initiative to do something.Even with regard to the current charitable express fund, it is the result of thinking that one can be easily established because there is one abroad but not in China.

He didn't really realize that there was anything he should or could do.

But when Zhao Jingxi proposed to let him participate in club activities, he was really moved.

Although he had this idea, Fei Yizhen did not immediately propose to join the club's promotional activities, but only expressed his desire to learn about the club's specific activities first.

Zhao Jingxi didn't force it either.

The Rainbow Club is unexpectedly a relatively large club in P University, and the members even have special uniforms.

Of course, the uniform cannot be colorful, but a striped sportswear with blue, white, and pink as the main colors. Zhao Jingxi smiled and told Fei Yizhen that this was a sponsorship from the president of their club.

Fei Yi really knew that this uniform should be designed based on the international transgender pride flag as a template.

The birth of this flag is not long ago, only a few years ago.Monica Holmes, who designed the flag, described her design concept this way: "The airy blue is the traditional color for boys, the pink is for girls, and the white in the middle represents those who straddle the two genders: intersex people. , asexual, transgender (whose gender consciousness and physical body are not unified), or other types of people who are not clear about their gender or think they are in the third gender. The design of the flag makes it appear in any display direction It is correct, which means we should find the correctness of our own life."

When Fei Yizhen heard such remarks for the first time, he felt that his past decades had been wasted.

He felt that this might be the difference between ordinary people and achievers—although this matter was completely different from the object he lamented when he had the same feeling last time.

Facing people like Wang Tiannan and Zhao Jingxi, who can bravely face themselves and clarify their self-worth and future direction, Fei Yizhen realized his shallowness, cowardice and narrow-mindedness.

Monica believes that even transgender people should find the correctness of their own existence and recognize themselves.

But Fei Yizhen looked back on his own life and counted down what he was doing in his previous life?

Before the age of 12, he was well-behaved, smart, and lively. He was his mother's well-behaved baby, no different from other well-behaved children.And at the age of 12, the awakening of adolescent hormones during the first growth and development directly turned Fei Yizhen into a loner like a frightened bird. It's his nature's bad struggle and pessimism, which together make him a cowardly evader, afraid of being alienated by others, so he takes the first step to alienate everyone, including the object of his first love and his former friends. Classmates and friends.

In fact, until he started this journey of life again, at the age of 25, he did not make any progress.

Do you think that if you have found your life goal, you don’t need to go around looking for a way to reflect your self-worth? Growth and maturity?Fei Yizhen finally discovered how big a mistake his concept had.

Compared with these members of the Rainbow Club, he is obviously just a cowardly deserter, who lives in a corner, thinking that this is the so-called happiness he is after.And this kind of happiness, in fact, is like graffiti in the hands of children, with innocence and a little naivety and stupidity, it will be broken when it is torn.

On this day, Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe went to many places with the community team. In the morning, they went to two welfare organizations. In the afternoon, they gave publicity speeches, performances and distributed leaflets in the central square. In the evening, it is said that they also went to bars.

Speeches or personalized knowledge popularization and publicity have nothing to do with Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe. The staff in the club have been trained in basic knowledge before they come out this time. Fei Yizhen and Ye Minghe came here temporarily Yes, I don't have this kind of basic skills yet, at most I can only help Wang Tiannan, Zhao Jingxi and a group of people, run errands and distribute leaflets or something.

Because it is the weekend, there are actually a lot of people here.In addition to the students in Fei Yizhen's club, there are many other buskers or street performances, which can attract a large number of people.

A group of young people from the club, wearing uniform uniforms, are actually quite eye-catching.

But even if someone is attracted by the sound of the speech, once they hear the content of the speech clearly, most of them will leave feeling bored.Even so, the students in charge of distributing leaflets will still be very enthusiastic in distributing the coloring pages to the hands of onlookers.Although most people tend to throw away the leaflets after a few steps, and the rest, even though they took the leaflets with them, may not even read them in the end.But the condoms that are taken away are rarely thrown away.

Fei Yizhen felt a little anxious, and couldn't help but ran to pick up those leaflets that were still brand new and intact.Zhao Jingxi is used to this kind of thing, and instead explained him: "Most of the time, this kind of thing is what it is. AIDS prevention and treatment has always been regarded as the focus of publicity at home and abroad, but most people still don't care about it, unless Personal experience or close by. People are like this, they only care about things that are closely related to their interests. For example, if you write and sing, you will care about sales and piracy. If you read books, you will care about grades and exams. In many cases, people who pay attention to AIDS prevention are also those who have been affected by AIDS or have taken away their relatives and friends. Although sometimes it is too late to pay attention to it at that time, but every change of concept is inevitable After such a traumatic process, the efforts we are making now are destined to be a difficult, slow, subtle process with half the effort."

After she finished speaking, she suddenly walked towards the students who were speaking, clapped her hands twice, and said, "Let's end the speech here. Let's change the content."

Fei Yi really didn't understand what she was going to do, but the other students seemed to be very clear. The student who was giving the speech put down the microphone, and then another girl walked up, picked up the microphone and stood still.

Then someone clicked a few times on the laptop, adjusted the stereo, and played music.

After playing the accompaniment for a while, the girl holding the microphone began to sing, her voice was soft and soft, and she sang quite well.

"When / the mood is no longer pale / when / sigh and go away / when / life is anchored in the harbor of love / let life be full / full of various colors..." (World AIDS Day theme song "Floating Red Ribbon)

Fei Yizhen had never heard this song, but thought it was quite nice.The girl's voice is soft and gentle, and it really fits the tone of the song very well.

The singing quickly attracted the attention of passers-by, and some people began to stop and watch in twos and threes.Other students seized the opportunity and went up to distribute leaflets to passers-by and introduce information about AIDS prevention to others.

The girls who sang saw that their singing was effective, and they sang more attentively.Although she didn't have a lot of skills when singing, the rich and heartfelt emotions in her singing abruptly raised her singing to a new level, which made people feel quite touched.

"...Who sent it/A piece of true love/Who made the fate re-arranged/Who brought it up/The true love in the world has gone through the wind and rain/Let the dream go/To the splendor of tomorrow..."

More and more people stopped nearby and began to appreciate the girl's singing.An older aunt even asked, "What song is this? It's so nice. This little girl can sing well too. Is she a singer?"

Students who are knowledgeable and interested immediately went up to introduce the content of the song and volunteer activities to the aunt.

As more and more people watched, the girl's song gradually reached its climax, and the high-pitched singing repeated the same tune, reminding me of the shades of trees: "...red ribbon / fluttering red ribbon / red ribbon / love The call/red ribbon/fluttering red ribbon/red ribbon/anticipation of love/floating over the mountains/over the sea/floating in the blue sky/floating in the sea of ​​hearts/floating over the mountains/floating over the sea/floating in the years/floating in the future... ..."

After a song was sung, there was quite warm applause from around.A young man whistled and shouted, "Okay! Another one!"

The girl didn't hesitate and said, "Thank you. I'll play another one soon, but before that, can you give me a few minutes and listen to me?"

Then she briefly introduced her identity and the purpose of this publicity campaign, and popularized the basic origin and prevention methods of AIDS.

Although it was only a few minutes, some people were impatient with the publicity for a few minutes, turned around and left in twos and threes.

The girl had no choice but to say a few words, and then said: "The song I will sing for you next is also a promotional song for AIDS prevention and control, and it is also a very warm and pleasant song."

Then the music started again.

But the girl singing this song is not as good as the previous one. The main reason is that the positioning of the song is not in harmony with the girl's voice, so it always gives people a feeling that the painting style is not suitable, and the effect is not as good as the previous song.

Some people left after hearing half of it.

Fei Yizhen was still standing there watching, but Wang Tiannan walked over after almost talking to Zhao Jingxi.

Fei Yizhen realized that the other party's target was him when he walked in front of him, and immediately showed a questioning expression.

But Wang Tiannan asked, "Can you sing?"