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Regarding Mrs. Qin, Lin Yu has always been in a half-knowledgeable state.

He doesn't know much about human affairs, even though Cheng Xi explained to him what happened in his own family, his understanding of Mrs. Qin is probably just "a mother who treats Cheng Xi badly".

It has been half a year since I arrived in the United States, and graduate students have to make their own course plans. Even in China, Lin Yu is not the type of person who devotes all his time to studying every day. Here, he has more time. The most important thing for graduate students is to publish papers in authoritative journals , he lives in the school's newly built New Ashdown dormitory, just like in S University, full of documents, and concentrates on writing papers.Cheng Xi is a bit busy, after all, he is new here, and it is another financial system, so it takes a lot of time just to understand the status quo of the industry.What's more, Wall Street has been famous for decades, and the cake has been almost divided. In just one short street, there are thunderous monopoly groups everywhere.In a social society like the United States, he has black hair and black eyes, and it is more difficult for him to enter the social circle than others.

Fortunately, he is Cheng Xi after all.

Things have been sorted out one by one, dinners, important meetings, investments, Lin Yu's entrance ceremony... He bought real estate in two cities, worked as a trapeze man, and took a rare vacation for himself, so he flew to Cambridge to find Lin Yu. Yu, took a picnic basket to go sailing on the Charles River, lying on Lin Yu's lap and chatting with him about recent events.

Occasionally he really can't get away, Lin Yu will go to him, he bought a house in Manhattan, there is an open-air swimming pool on the roof, flowers are placed on every table, Lin Yu can't swim, sit by the pool and play in the water, waiting for him Finished.

Fortunately, he usually comes to Lin Yu very soon. He seems to be taller because of his fitness habit. His shoulders are broad and his waist is narrow, and he looks good in a suit. When he walks over while unbuttoning his shirt, Lin Yu There will always be momentary lapses.

Fortunately, he is still the same Cheng Xi, who will teach Lin Yu how to swim in his spare afternoon, who will smile at him gently and rub his hair after a hasty farewell, and who will be careful when he goes to bed late at night so as not to wake him up Lin Yu kissed him lightly on the cheek.

When New York was about to snow, Cheng Xi received a letter.

At that time Lin Yu was sitting in front of the fireplace reading a book, the carpet was warmed by the fire, and there were Chinese desserts on the plate.

Lin Yu raised his head blankly when he heard Cheng Xi calling his name.

There seemed to be something hidden in Cheng Xi's eyes, but it was fleeting.

He said, "Xiaoyu, would you like to meet someone with me?"

"who?"

"Mrs. Qin."

When we arrived in Hong Kong, it happened to be early in the morning.

This is a city that never snows.

When Cheng Xi came to this city last time, it was time for Mrs. Qin to lock her up.

But this time the meeting was not at the Qin family's old house, but at a villa under Mrs. Qin's name.

In my impression, Mrs. Qin is not a person who likes to grow flowers, but this house has a large-scale glass greenhouse, which is full of grass flowers that don't know if they are daisies or what. It is two worlds.

Mrs. Qin was sitting in front of the French windows, looking at the glass greenhouse. It was obviously very warm in the room, but her legs were covered with blankets.

As soon as Cheng Xi entered the room, she felt it.

"coming?"

As she spoke, she turned her head, but she didn't see the expected person.And the young man standing at the door is taller and taller than half a year ago. It seems that he has already taken root in a foreign country. Given time, he will grow into a big tree with luxuriant branches and leaves.

"Little fish is sleeping." Cheng Xi briefly explained: "Jet lag."

"Oh." In just half a year, she has become much haggard, probably because she no longer monopolizes power. The heroic spirit of killing and decisiveness between the eyebrows and eyes may be mistaken for another person.

"I'll see you at dinner." She is still used to making decisions by herself: "You must be tired after flying for so long, go down and rest first."

Such a crisp and neat style made it impossible for people to even ask a question of concern.

Lin Yu stood at the door, a little nervous.

"Actually, I've calculated that among the people I've met since I was a child, about three-thousandths of them can accept my character." He tightened the bag in his hand and explained to Cheng Xi: "I think we should still believe data……"

"It's okay." Cheng Xi patted him on the shoulder with a smile: "The result is not important."

The door opened.

"Ma'am, invite the two of you to go in." It was Lao Lin who came out.

Lin Yu glanced awkwardly at Cheng Xi, who took his hand and walked into the room.

Mrs. Qin was still in the same posture in the morning, when she heard the sound, she turned around.

She has investigated Lin Yu, her family background is clean and outstanding, but she has a withdrawn personality, but fortunately, she is not too aggressive.I don't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, she has never seen Lin Yu's photo, and today is the first time she has seen it.

"Are you Lin Yu?" She nodded slightly to Lin Yu.

Lin Yu stuttered a little nervously.

"It's...it's me." He glanced at Cheng Xi, almost forgot the introduction he had memorized in advance, and passed the gift bag in his hand blankly: "This is...a gift."

Mrs. Qin hooked the corners of her lips, pushed the wheelchair, and approached Lin Yu.

Cheng Xi frowned in surprise.

He met Mrs. Qin in a hurry in the morning, and he didn't know that she was actually sitting in a wheelchair. With her character, she would never be willing to sit in a wheelchair unless her health was too bad. Such big news.

Lin Yu resisted the urge to retreat.

Fortunately, the middle-aged woman in front of me, although she has aggressive and beautiful facial features, and a serious and indifferent expression, but when the corners of her mouth curled up, she was actually exactly the same as Cheng Xi.

Lin Yu lived here for three days.

Lin Yu never saw Mrs. Qin again, but Cheng Xi was called over three nights later.

It was already dark at that time, and the lights in the villa located in the middle of the mountain were dim, but the lights in the flower room were brightly lit. Through the floor-to-ceiling glass windows, you could still see the lush herbs inside, and the flowers were blooming brilliantly.

Cheng Xi sat quietly with her for a while.

Speaking of it, it is rare for mother and child to have such a peaceful time together, either Cheng Xi is deliberately alienating, or she wants to imprison Cheng Xi, this is the first time that they sit together so calmly and without their own thoughts.

"How long?" Cheng Xi asked her suddenly.

She glanced at Cheng Xi before she realized that he was asking about her illness.

"Not long ago, I only found out about it years ago." She turned her face to look at the greenhouse, her lips were pale: "It's just a common disease."

"What common disease?" Cheng Xi will not be easily perfunctory by her.

She smiled, that smile was very cold, as if she was congratulating heartlessly, but also as if she was laughing at herself for making jokes with others in this life.

"cancer."

In the future, there are actually not too many twists and turns.

Her body fell sharply. The power of the Qin family had been handed over a long time ago. Qin Yun was still young, and the old people of the Qin family were not vegetarians. They all wanted to be the regent. Even the Hong Kong media tabloids secretly ridiculed, Laugh at them eating ugly.

After all, she is the married daughter of the Lin family, and there was a vague rumor that she sent her younger brother Lin Danzhu to come and see. Cheng Xi was here at the time, and when she went out, she bumped into her "uncle", who was also 30 years old, with a pale complexion. , with an indecisive look, the Lin family has gone from bad to worse over the years, he should be credited first.

Some things in this world are often like this. I would rather let others ruin it than give it to you. But if you are a little bit small-minded, you will get angry with your demons.Back then, if Lin Chenbi had half of the family business by his side, he could have strengthened his waist in front of the Cheng family, and the ending would not have been so ugly.

Fortunately, she doesn't care anymore.

Qin Yun also came here, but it was not a visit, but to ask something, what was discussed behind closed doors, no one knew.It's just that the new head of the Qin family slammed the door and left angrily. From then on until her death, she never came again.

Cheng Xi has been staying here.

The cancer cells have metastasized, and her time is numbered.No matter how dazzling her beauty was, she also withered day by day, gradually thinning, pale, and having difficulty eating. After Christmas, she has been relying on drips to maintain herself.The spirit is getting shorter, and one sleep is a day.

It is said that people who are about to die have good words, but she has always been cold and stubborn. It's not that there are no people who inquire about the news, but her methods are still ruthless. After repeated attempts, fewer people think.

Cheng Xi stayed with her all the time.

She is indifferent, assertive, unreasonable, and ignorant. She tried to tie him up countless times, and she was once his greatest resistance.

But she never gave up on him.

So he stays with her till the end.

When she left, the cold snap hit, and it was the coldest day in the whole winter.

Cheng Xi was sitting in front of her bed. At that time, she had been in a coma for three whole days, and her funeral affairs had been settled. The custom here is that a married woman does not return, and she will be buried in the Qin family.

When she woke up in the early morning, the vegetation outside the window was covered with frost, and the flowers in the greenhouse were in full bloom.

She was very calm and talked to Cheng Xi for a while. Even at the last moment, she was still conscious and organized. The Qin family has a great career. She has taken over for many years. Although she is often constrained by those elders, she has left many ways to escape. , and now they are delivered to Cheng Xi.

She knew these things, so she hated Cheng Zejun. When Cheng Xi was assassinated, she went to Cheng Zejun. Cheng Zejun said that the situation was stronger than others, and he had to intercede.

If you are determined to quibble, how many excuses do you have?

It's just all over.

This world is very cold, only when people are alive can they have affection and scruples. After she leaves, Cheng Xi is the meat on the chopping board. He is only 20 years old and at the age of college. How can he defeat those old monsters who are eyeing him? No matter how hard she tried to live another day or two, she couldn't protect him well.

At the beginning, Cheng Xi provoked her with words, blaming her for restraining him, blaming her for not letting him go free, and saying that she didn't have far-reaching plans for him.In fact, there is nothing far-reaching about an illegitimate child, he is a treasure she stole 20 years ago, a child who can't see the light, is a thorn in the side of those people.If she can live one day, it is one day. If she dies, the flood will be raging, and she will not be able to control it.That's why she didn't feel at ease until she died.

However, she couldn't say these words.

She is Lin Chenbi, the daughter of Lin's parents.The only person she would speak softly to him had already broken up with her 20 years ago.

She didn't say these words until the last moment.

She just told Cheng Xi those passwords, those routes, those people who could go to when there was nowhere to go, word by word, clearly, she even wrote the suicide note, because she was afraid that her mind would not be clear enough and she would make mistakes after she became seriously ill. What.

Finally, in the early morning, in very cold weather, she lay on the bed with a bitter smile on her lips, looked at Cheng Xi and said, "You have to walk the rest of the way by yourself..."

For a strong person like her, she refused to intubate until she died, and refused to inject Demerol in the pain. At this time, there was still no warm word.

Cheng Xi didn't speak, just held her hand.

When he was young, he wanted to hold her hand and leave school together, like any child with parents, and talk to her about trivial things in school, and then happily go home together in the sunset.

In his dream, her hand is always warm.

However, now that she is sick, skinny, and tortured by the disease, he is the only one who will accompany her on this final journey.

"It's no big deal," Cheng Xi told her, looking into her eyes, "I will live well. I am your son, and I won't be knocked down so easily. You have to rest assured and trust me."

Her eyelids drooped.

"Sorry……"

"It's okay." Even though she knew she might not be able to hear her, Cheng Xi still answered her with unprecedented caution.

When you gave birth to me, it was already difficult in every way, no matter how difficult the road ahead is, it is my own destiny.There are hundreds of origins in this world, and there is nothing to be sorry for.As a man, he should be responsible for his own life, so it doesn't matter.

mother.

Her will was to have her body cremated and sent to Yunnan.

Cheng Xi didn't know why until he went to that place.

It was a beautiful valley with clear lake water and cattle and sheep everywhere. The grass by the lake was full of wild flowers in early spring, each branch swaying in the wind, exactly the same as the flowers growing in her greenhouse.

As early as 20 years ago, she may have been here, and she may have had a very unforgettable time here with someone, so that in the remaining 20 years, she recalled time and time again that she would die here even if she died.

Half a month after her funeral, Cheng Zejun took the initiative to find Cheng Xi.

He called Cheng Xi and asked about Cheng Xi's recent work and life abroad, his tone was always calm.

What is so painful that he has his career and his family, and the dust has already settled when he made his decision 20 years ago.Now that half his life has passed, he is Cheng Zejun, the head of the Cheng family, and he is happy with everything.

What can't be forgotten is just a wrong story, and he also took the most correct path. He was young and frivolous, and left with a burst of courage, but people still have to return to reality in the end.It may not be wrong to give up in time back then, it was the best to stop at that time, you don’t have to be polished by time, you don’t have to be humiliated by the world, and you don’t have to become someone you don’t know...

But Cheng Xi said to him: "Mrs. Qin gave me a piece of jade, the Khotan Jade Bi. She said that if there is really no way out, she will exchange this jade bi for something with you."

Cheng Xi said: "She has not lived happily these years. She said that as early as 20 years ago, the world was not attractive to her. I know that she has lived for me. She knows that she doesn't have much time, and she was so abnormal some time ago. Because she doesn't believe you. "

There is nothing in this world to support her to live, the family is cold, the marriage deal, and the Cheng Zejun she loved has long since died in the overwhelming snow in Beijing, in the valley full of wild flowers in Yunnan, The remaining person is just a stranger to her.The only thing supporting her painstaking efforts is Cheng Xi.She didn't dare to believe in Cheng Zejun, so she didn't dare to die.

If Cheng Xi didn't say it, Cheng Zejun almost forgot.

That piece of jade was inherited from the Cheng family's ancestors. The jade bi passed down from the Tang Dynasty was used by the Cheng family to wear for their eldest grandson.The ancients used blue jade to salute the sky, what did he say back then?Is it "this piece of jade just fits your name"?Still just smiling, he handed the warm ancient jade to her.

After returning to Beijing, the Cheng family was overjoyed when he reined in the precipice. He said he lost the piece of jade, and they didn't pursue it anymore.

It turned out that she kept it all the time.

Cheng Xi said that she was not happy.

But a person does not need to be happy in everything in his life. He was not happy in the past, but after these years, no matter how serious the wound is, it can be healed. No matter how bad the past is, just get busy. People live with responsibility In life, you don't need to move, life will push you away.Everything will pass, he made the right decision, everything is expected.It's no big deal, he's not wrong, and he needn't be sad.

Cheng Zejun sat in the study for a while, feeling better, and began to read the documents.

When I saw the early morning, I saw the light coming in from the window, and then I realized that it was already dawn, and the table was full of cigarette butts.

He went downstairs to rest, and saw his wife and children sitting at the table eating breakfast, and when he came down, they were stunned and pale with fright.The youngest daughter, Cheng Yun, seemed to want to say something, but she opened her mouth but made no sound. The wife threw the knife and fork heavily on the plate, seemed to be holding back her anger, pushed the chair away, got up and left.

He didn't bother to care.

It was only when he was washing up that he realized why his wife and children were surprised.

It's just one night.

In the mirror, the middle-aged man who had always been upright and energetic, had all his black temples turned gray.