I was crying stupidly by myself [rebirth]

"Dad, listen to me..."

Before Gu Dong finished speaking, he heard a sound. He turned his head to see the gradually clear slap marks on Gu Yan's face, and felt that Gu Cheng's slap hit his face, and it hurt.

It happened suddenly, Gu Dong took a few deep breaths, trying to break free from Gu Yan's hand, but he was held even tighter, so tight that even his joints ached.

There was buzzing in the ears, and the brain went blank for a moment. Gu Yan rolled his tongue around in his mouth, licked the burning left cheek, narrowed his eyes, and stared at Gu Cheng.

The hanging hand was a little numb, and Gu Cheng was trembling all over. He had never hit a child since he was a child, and his heart felt like it was being tightly clenched, painful and desperate.

His voice trembled even more, his eyes widened with anger, "What are you doing? Gu Yan, he is your brother!"

"Yes, that's right, he is my brother." Gu Yan frowned, his facial features were resolute and firm, just like his feelings for Gu Dong, "Dad, I dragged him down."

Hearing Gu Yan's words, Gu Dong's nails dug into the palm of his hand. It's still uncertain who fell in love with him first, and Gu Yan doesn't need to bear his guilt alone.

"I have complete judgment, and there is no compulsion."

When Gu Cheng heard this, his hands trembled, and anger and struggle arose in his eyes, which gradually turned into a kind of deep sorrow. He looked at Gu Dong, and held on to the last little hope pitifully, "Dongdong, you Said girlfriend..."

"It's Gu Yan." Gu Dong didn't know where to start, he was at a loss for words when he was able to make a lot of sense, and spit out dry words, "I'm sorry."

Gu Cheng is sick.

A person who usually has very few headaches and fevers fell ill. He felt that his son would become like this because he had not taught him well. He locked himself in the room and was haunted by negative emotions of self-blame, tragedy, and disgust. He didn’t know how to let go. How many tears, eyes swollen like walnuts.

Gu Yan went out to buy medicine, while Gu Dong was sitting in the living room smoking a cigarette, Mao Qiu probably sensed something happened, so he stopped moaning and chirping, and just nestled aside and licked his paw honestly.

Gentle and honest people are better than ordinary people. Gu Dong felt a piercing pain in his temple, he stood up suddenly, the hairball was startled, his tail was tightly clamped in his buttocks, he thought he would be beaten.

Gu Dong took the last puff of his cigarette, pressed down the cigarette butt, and only paused for a few seconds before turning around and walking into Gu Cheng's room.

The person sitting on the chair had his back facing him, his thin back arched into an uncomfortable arc.

Hearing the footsteps behind him, Gu Cheng trembled. He covered his face and wiped away the tears, "Go out."

"It's me." Gu Dong stopped and stood behind Gu Cheng.

As soon as Gu Cheng heard the voice, he got up quickly, and pressed Gu Dong's shoulders regardless of the fallen chair, "Dongdong, you have always been a good boy. You heard from your father that homosexuality will bring a lot to your life and work. Unexpected trouble." He would be discriminated against, ridiculed, and Gu Cheng's nose was blocked, he didn't want his children to face those gazes in the future.

"You are still young, you can find a girl you like to marry, you can't ruin yourself, dad please." Gu Cheng cried bitterly after speaking.

The hands on the shoulders were trembling, Gu Dong looked at the tearful person in front of him, he stretched out his hands to hug him, and patted the other person's back lightly, "It's too late, I can't turn my head back."

Gu Cheng couldn't control his emotions. In his eyes, those two were sons, even after knowing that the other was not his own.

No one knew how he felt when he saw his two sons do that kind of thing. He was more worried about their future than being kept in the dark.

Once the three words of homosexuality are buckled, you will have to sneak around for the rest of your life, and you will not be able to see the light and receive blessings.

Gu Cheng thought more than once that if he hadn't decided to transfer Dongdong back then, and the two were still strangers when they were young, they might not have developed like this, but he would overthrow him again. Without that transfer, he would never have To get this son who can understand how good he is to him, the current life will only be a fantasy.

"I'm tired, let's go."

Gu Dong pursed his lips, took out a tissue to wipe off the snot and tears on Gu Cheng's face, "Dad, no matter what kind of relationship I have with Gu Yan, we are a family."

Gu Yan, who came back from the outside, saw Gu Dong sitting motionless on the sofa as soon as he entered the door, and he felt distressed.

"I bought you chestnuts fried in sugar."

Seeing that the clothes on his body were all wet, Gu Dong turned his head to look at the balcony. The rain was pattering on the window, and he hadn't noticed it before.

Stretching out his hand to press the gap between his eyebrows, Gu Dong held Gu Yan's hand and let out a sigh of relief, then took a dry towel to wipe the other party's wet hair, "Sooner or later he will know that it is impossible to hide it for a lifetime, although the present situation is somewhat different from what he expected, But the result won't change."

Gu Yan put on his clothes, dripping from his temples, "I'll go see him." After walking two steps, he turned around, hugged Gu Dong's head and kissed him forcefully, "I'm your man, remember."

Gu Dong stood where he was, touched the place where he was kissed, raised his eyebrows, didn't I?

He sat next to Mr. Xiong, listening to the ticking rain with Fat Mao, and he calmed down. After talking about this matter, he would not wake up in the middle of the night with fear in the future.

Gu Dong didn't know what Gu Yan told Gu Cheng, but he only knew that when he came out, his eyes were full of blood, and his outline made people feel chills, as if he would run away in the next moment.

Even Gu Dong was taken aback, he couldn't help but sigh, the man has changed a lot.

At night, Gu Cheng suffered from insomnia, tossed and tossed, and the neighbor next door, Gu Dong, couldn't sleep either. He got up and drank a glass of water, then lay back under the bed, his waist was strangled by a hand, and there was a deep voice above his head.

"Don't drink water at night, it will wet the bed."

The corner of Gu Dong's mouth twitched, he curled his feet and put them between Gu Yan's legs, leaning his head, "Why didn't you sleep?"

"I'm waiting for you to sleep." Gu Yan closed his eyes and rubbed his lips against Gu Dong's forehead, "In one night you turned over twelve times, sighed seven times, sat up twice, grabbed your hair three times, kicked hit me twice."

The corner of Gu Dong's mouth twitched again, and he buried his face in the socket of his shoulder and took a deep breath, "I seem to hear the sound of a fur ball."

"Normal, spring is here." Gu Yan pulled the quilt up, stretched out his arms, and hugged Gu Dong with the quilt in his arms, "Sleep, I will sing for you."

After kissing Gu Yan's chin, Gu Dong uttered an indistinct syllable from his nose, and fell asleep to the low singing voice in his ear.

Because Gu Cheng didn't go to work, Li Shu worriedly called home, but Gu Dong answered it. He thought about it, and it's good to have someone to chat with.

Li Shu came over that afternoon. She looked at Gu Cheng with a bad complexion, and forgot to hide the concern and worry on her face.

A woman is careful, Li Shu thought about it and asked, "Gu Cheng, do you have something on your mind?"

Gu Cheng paused, and he squeezed out a smile, "No, it's just that the picture of taking over has been changing all the time, so I'm a little tired."

Li Shu frowned, "Don't always think about others, the newcomers below can't protect them, otherwise they will become more lax and lazy, and they will all rely on you."

"Okay." Gu Cheng smiled, "You're right, I'll listen to you."

Li Shu blushed, and brushed back her hair uncomfortably, "Have you seen a doctor yet?"

"Look." Gu Cheng put down the water glass, and casually lifted it up, "I came back from get off work two days ago and saw two boys hugging each other by the side of the road, why do you think the kids nowadays just... just..."

"Whether it's heterosexuality or homosexuality, it's a relationship between two people, and the same deserves to be respected. I have a cousin who fell in love with a man when he was young. The family didn't agree, and there was a quarrel for a long time." Li Shu paused for a long time before sighing, "In the end, I forced a living person to commit suicide by jumping off a building."

Gu Cheng was taken aback for a moment, and then an invisible fear flooded his heart, he pinched his fingers tightly to keep himself from thinking wildly.

In the next few days, Gu Cheng started to commute normally, but there was still no smile on his face. He didn't communicate with them until Gu Yan went to the army.

After Gu Yan left, only Si Lian was left for Gu Dong. Life seemed to be peaceful, but it made people feel bored and panicked for no reason. Even the fur balls at home became startled.

The temperature is gradually rising, and the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming.

Xia Zhiyuan took his father back to the country, saw Gu Dong's absent-minded look, and quickly guessed, "Are you out of the closet?"

"En." Gu Dong frowned lightly.

"Although Gu Cheng still can't accept it now, he will accept it after a long time." Xia Zhiyuan stroked his hair, and said in an affirmative tone, "Because you love him."

Gu Dong raised his eyebrows imperceptibly. For the past two lifetimes, he regarded Gu Cheng as his father. Even when he knew that Ning Wen was his biological father, he never thought about it, including Zhong Bowen. Gu Cheng had preconceptions.

"He can feel it all these years, and wants you to be happy." Xia Zhiyuan squeezed Gu Dong's shoulder, "Let's go, I bought you a lot of food."

When Gu Dong came home, he saw Gu Cheng in a daze in the kitchen. He walked over and shouted, looking for a topic to ask what to eat for dinner. Gu Cheng panicked suddenly, his hands moved wildly, and the kitchen knife on the edge of the cutting board shook.

As a result, Gu Cheng's frightened expression changed, and he was in a hurry to grab the kitchen knife. Gu Dong pushed him away suddenly, and the kitchen knife cut a big gash between Gu Dong's palm and fingers, and blood splashed all over Gu Cheng.

This scene happened in the blink of an eye, without any chance to think, it was an instinctive reaction.

Seeing more and more blood coming out of Gu Dong's palm, the knife seemed to cut off his palm, Gu Cheng was frightened and said incoherently, "Dongdong, don't be afraid, dad is here, dad is here"

The smell of blood spread, and the hairballs spun around them anxiously, making sharp cries from their mouths.

Gu Dong leaned his back against the wall and stood firmer, gritted his teeth with a pale face and endured the severe pain, "Dad, go to my room, the second drawer, take the money, card, and ID card..." before saying anything I'm dizzy when I'm done.

Xia Zhiyuan rushed from home to the hospital when he received a call from Gu Cheng. Gu Cheng's voice was trembling on the phone. He ran a red light all the way and almost hit the oncoming truck.

Going upstairs and heading straight to the destination, Xia Zhiyuan saw the man sitting on the bench, his eyes were hot from the blood on his clothes, "How is he? Where is he?"

Gu Cheng was in a trance, and he didn't know whether he was scared or blamed himself, "I haven't come out yet."

After an unknown amount of time, the door of the operating room opened, and Xia Zhiyuan and Gu Cheng went over to ask about the situation.

"Will his hand have any effect in the future?"

When Gu Cheng heard Xia Zhiyuan's words, he also looked at the doctor nervously, not daring to blink.

"Nerves in the ring finger and middle finger are broken, and there may be numbness for several months to half a year, and you can't lift heavy things." The doctor took off the mask, "Receive treatment and repair it, and you will be cured." Strong, he has recovered during the stitching process, and cooperated with us calmly."

After the doctors and nurses had left, Xia Zhiyuan turned to look at the silent people, "They have been together for many years, and it is not easy to get to where they are today. Gu Cheng, nothing is more important than their happiness and happiness."

Gu Cheng wiped his eyes, "I'll go and see Dongdong."

"How much Gu Xiaodong cares about you, you know better than anyone else." Xia Zhiyuan said to his back, "Life is so long, some things are really unimportant compared with a limited life."

This is also the reason why he wanted to understand and come out.

Gu Cheng's footsteps stopped, his red eyes were moist, he never blamed that child, even after seeing that scene with his own eyes, it's not that he doesn't understand, but he just doesn't know how to face the feelings of his two sons in the future.

He envied his colleague's son to marry a wife and have children, and he also looked forward to it. He often talked about his grandchildren. When the truth was presented to him, the feeling was too great. At that moment, he blamed Gu Yan for ruining Gu Dong.

Such a good child should have a family, a wife who loves him, well-behaved sons and daughters, and be happy, instead of being instructed and abused by others in the future.

After Gu Yan left, he and Gu Dong were the only ones left at home. The two no longer soaked their feet in the same basin and chatted like before. They were basically silent when they met. ,accept.

Xia Zhiyuan notified Gu Yan of Gu Dong's injury, perhaps this is an opportunity for Gu Cheng to accept.

When Gu Yan came home, he saw Gu Dong flipping through the book with one hand, his left hand wrapped in gauze was hanging down, he stood outside the door and stared for a long time.

He knew that Gu Dong was calm on the face, but he cared very much in his heart, and wanted Gu Cheng's forgiveness and acceptance.

Gu Yan went downstairs, sat and smoked on the stone steps in the community, until Gu Cheng's figure appeared, the father and son stood in the garden behind the community, silent.

Gu Yan's thin lips pulled out a resolute straight line, bent his knees, and hit the cold ground, throwing everything away, begging silently.

The shopping bag in his hand tightened, and Gu Cheng was stunned. He looked at his proud son kneeling in front of him, and his mood was complicated for a while. The recent incidents happened one after another, and it made this situation, isn't it? what he wants to see.

The community garden at this point is very deserted, the only silence is the chirping of sparrows on the trees.

Gu Cheng closed his eyes, every bit of the past few years was in his mind, his eyes were sore, he didn't want his two sons to be gone.

"Treat him well, don't bully him or hurt him."

Gu Yan looked up, grateful from the bottom of his heart, "Thank you."