Self-reliance

Ji Qin didn't say a word to Ji Meng, he didn't want to show weakness in front of anyone.

Ji Qin knew that he was really a very weak person, his heart would never be strong enough, and he couldn't let go of many things, but his self-esteem was surprisingly high.

Later, Zhou Zui came to the company twice, and was invited out by the security every time.

This security guard is new, so he doesn't know Zhou Zui, and Ji Qin is quite satisfied with him.

Ji Qin was worried that Zhou Zui would go to his house or Xinxin's kindergarten and say something in front of Xinxin, but Zhou Zui did not do such a thing.Zhou Zui is a smart person, he also knows what it means to be kicked away, he will not change to different places to stalk him, since Ji Qin doesn't want to see him at all, blocking people around will only make people more annoying, he is not a person who can be intoxicated Yu himself is a fool in the fantasy of a lover.Besides, according to Jiqin's character, if he did that, Jiqin would definitely call the police, and it would be even harder to see him.

Zhou Zui didn't pester him endlessly, but he would send a very long email every other month, which was full of trivial matters and things he thought Ji Qin would be interested in, but he would always add an apology at the end Every time, Ji Qin would almost believe it. When he read the words "I'm sorry, and I miss you" for the first time, his heart jumped. He really hated himself for being worthless.

——It was already half a year later when I saw Zhou Zui again.

Ji Meng went to Africa, and Ji Qin attended a charity dinner on his behalf.

The news that Ji Qin got in advance was that Zhou Zui was not invited, so the moment he saw Zhou Zui after entering the door, Ji Qin actually stayed there.

Zhou Zui was still so conspicuous, he could be seen in the crowd at a glance.He seems to be thinner, and his person has become a little different. In the past, he could always attract a group of men and women talking and laughing around him, but now he looks a little alienated and unapproachable.

For some unknown reason, Ji Qin looked at the recently recruited event manager from the marketing department who was walking side by side, crossed his arms, and gestured slightly.

Chu Ge was stunned for a moment, and then quickly realized that it was for him to pull it up.She looked at Ji Qin, who had no expression on his face.

"Don't linger."

"En." Chu Ge agreed, and lightly put his wrist on Ji Qin's arm.

Ji Qin adjusted his mood, pretending that he didn't notice Zhou Zui at all, and brought Chu Ge into the venue.Chu Ge is a very beautiful and temperamental person, and Ji Qin feels lucky to have brought her here.

After walking a few steps, Zhou Zui saw him, his eyes were shining brightly, as if he didn't expect that it was Ji Qin and not Ji Meng who came to the dinner.But he also saw Chu Ge soon, and the smile froze on his face for an instant.

Ji Qin restrained himself from looking at him, lowered his head and asked Chu Ge softly, "Would you like something to drink?"

The other party shook his head.

Ji Qin said, "Then let's wait for the official start."

He didn't go to talk to anyone, his character was just like this, and no one thought it was strange.

Throughout the night, Ji Qin was absent-minded, and he didn't even realize that the target he wanted to bid for appeared. He didn't realize it until the painting created by the famous artist was auctioned.So, he sat there all night without calling out the price once.This is actually very strange. People who come here should know what they want in their hearts, because the auction information has already been released, the catalog has been printed into a book, and the auction items have also been previewed.Charity auctions like this kind of dinner party have few things, maybe only a dozen or so, and they mainly rely on telling the history of the exhibits to support time, so generally nothing will be missed.

Then Ji Qin realized that Zhou Zui hadn't spoken either.

Since the next day was the 20th anniversary celebration of the sponsor magazine, most people chose to stay directly at the hotel.

Ji Qin's room was farther away than Chu Ge's, because he liked to be quieter, so after Chu Ge returned to the room, Ji Qin continued to walk forward.

As a result, I saw someone I didn't want to see in front of the room.

Originally, Ji Qin thought that Chu Ge was beautiful and elegant, and he chose one in a million, thinking that he had won some intangible contest, but now, when Zhou Zui stood in front of him, Ji Qin realized that it was not the case at all. .

"You already have a new lover?"

"Nothing to do with you."

Ji Qin wanted to tell a lie like others, telling a lie about how he loved her, but he still couldn't get the words out of his mouth.

Ji Qin thought he was ridiculous.After tossing and tossing all night, even if he planned to deceive him, he gave up in the end.

"You are not sincere." Zhou Zui said suddenly.

"……Um?"

Zhou Zui looked at Ji Qin: "When you love someone, your eyes don't look like that."

Ji Qin immediately felt annoyed and became angry: "What? What do you mean? You are only allowed to play with others? I can't do it?"

Zhou Zui gently leaned against the wall, looking down at the carpet: "Then play with me."

"……what?"

"Let you relieve your hatred a little bit."

"..."

"You can do it now." Zhou Zui said again, "You can do anything to me."

"I'll feel disgusted no matter what I do," Ji Qin thought.It's not about the physical stuff at all.

"Zhou Zui," Ji Qin said again, "I have nothing to do with you anymore, go find someone else."

Zhou Zui forced a smile: "Can I have a sentence? If I do something wrong, I will always be punished, but can I have a sentence? Ten years, 20 years, 30 years, after this sentence, I can Reappear in front of you?"

Ji Qin sneered: "It's already a death sentence for me. Zhou Zui, can you stop being such a mother-in-law?"

Zhou Zui looked a little dazed: "I don't know what to do. I can't lie to you a second time, so besides apologizing and begging you, I don't know what else to do."

Ji Qin had never seen Zhou Zui like this before, in his impression, that person would always be dazzling.

Ji Qin's tone was a little softer: "If you really regret it, you should do less sinful things in the future."

"Regret..." Zhou Zui tilted his head and thought for a while, "I don't regret it."

"..." Ji Qin was so angry that he couldn't speak.

"I feel guilty, but I don't regret it. If I hadn't done that, I wouldn't be in love with you."

"..."

"At the beginning, I would think, is it just that I have never been close to you...? I am still the original me, and I will be happy every day. But then I feel that if I have never been with you, I will come in vain Once in this world, you can't even experience the best things. Once you taste that kind of taste, you will never forget it. Before this, I never knew that as long as you are by someone's side, even if you don't even talk much, you will never forget it. to be so happy."

"..."

"So, from my point of view, I'm still grateful for God's arrangement. But I also know that I hurt you, and I did it. It's natural for you to leave, so I want to do something to make you feel better." Be a little angry, and then use my whole life to prove to you that I really want to cherish you. As for the result, maybe I can’t force it, because I asked for it completely, I’m sorry for you, some mistakes just take a long time to pay back, even It will never be clear."

"...Do whatever you want, it's none of my business." After Ji Qin finished speaking, he opened the door and entered the room, and then locked the door.