The whole world thinks I'm inscrutable

The 11-year-old Ke Shao'an has passed the childhood when he can be carefree and don't think about anything. It is the darkest trough stage in his life.

After losing his elder brother, he was withdrawn, introverted, and cynical, but he met another personality who appeared out of nowhere. I can't extricate myself from the panic situation, and I feel like an enemy or an assassin when I see anyone, and I don't want to say a few words to others.Keep your head down all day long and don't give people a straight look.

Originally, because Ke Shaoan was born in an orphanage, he felt a little inferior and proud since he was a child.On the one hand, I have low self-esteem that I don’t have parents, and I am afraid of being laughed at, and on the other hand, I look down on those classmates who have no worries about food and clothing, are naive and romantic, and are dumbfounded.

Later, because of the death of his elder brother in the third grade, Ke Shaoan took a few days off from class. The teacher and the classmates told him that they should treat Ke Shaoan better after he came back, and not touch Ke Shaoan. sad thing.Perhaps this is the reason behind it, no matter how distorted and gloomy Ke Shaohan's personality is, and his reluctance to contact people, it is "in line with common sense" and does not seem too abrupt.

At that time, it was not that no adults came to enlighten him and tried to contact him.It's just because the understanding of the disease is wrong, and I mistakenly think that Ke Shao'an's autism is just because of the loss of his family, so no matter how hard he persuades him, he can't open the door of Ke Shao'an's heart.

Those classmates whom Ke Shaochen looked down upon originally had no choice.Hitting a wall and encountering doubts about life is simply challenging the limits of human psychology.So they retreated and dodged one after another, unwilling to contact him again.

In the end, because of another personality's intensification of "torturing him", Ke Shao'an became more and more independent and withdrawn, and finally became an existence that could not communicate at all.All the people who have tried to be friends with Ke Shao'an have cut off their thoughts one after another without any accident.

Only Xia Jun, who is not afraid of being beaten or scolded, insisted on staying and never gave up on him.

In Xia Jun's words, "I also lost my father, so I can understand your feelings."Probably because he didn't want to make Ke Shao'an as pitiful and helpless as he was back then, so he persevered by his side, trying to help Ke Shao'an get rid of his sad mood.

Borrowing the name of "competition" to obtain the opportunity to keep in touch with Ke Shaoan, he repeatedly "troubled" Ke Shaoan and took the initiative to talk to Ke Shaoan.

It's a pity that Ke Shao'an at that time couldn't take care of himself, his mind was full of how to protect himself, and naturally he couldn't see the people and things around him, and he had the energy to take care of other people's emotions.

Xia Jun also bumped into the wall from the beginning to the end. Nine years have passed, but Ke Shao'an has not been able to make Ke Shao'an say a word to him.

It's just that Ke Shao'an couldn't say these things to Yin Sijin, who was full of concern and worried that he would be unhappy.

The closer you are to the person who wants to treat him well, the less you want to talk about your pain and pain with the other party. You just want to say something happy to make the other party happy.

So the current situation at this time is attributed to the responsibility of the outside world.

"I was very smart when I was young, and everyone always felt that I had privileges and treated me as a special existence." Ke Shaochen said: "Even if something happened to me, most people would not think about asking why. , just thinking 'this is genius' and using that to explain my anomaly."

It was as if most people only cared about why Ke Shao’an was late for the exam and didn’t want to retake the exam, but didn’t care much about why he was late or whether something happened on the way.

Because that's "that doesn't matter at all" in comparison.

Yin Sijin also had a good understanding of this: "It is true."

As long as you are as strong as a ghost, even if your behavior is weird and out of common sense, people around you will explain that this is the demeanor of a strong person.

Everyone can only see their identity and ability, but no one can see their true heart.

Even if he is as strong as Yin Sijin, he will be shy, laugh, cry, and emotional.

Because of awe, he dare not explore and contact, because of fear, he only knows how to surrender, everything will only make him feel empty and boring, as well as unspeakable desolation and sadness.

But Ke Shaochen was different.

From the first time Yin Sijin saw Ke Shao'an, his heart was disturbed by this fearless, fearless human being who went forward bravely.Become alive and colorful, as if for the first time in my life, I understand the meaning of "alive".

He was made to laugh, cared for, comforted, proposed, taught, hugged... Everything, even troubles, looked so beautiful.

From the first time he met Ke Shao'an, he has completely fallen in love with this little human being.

Seeing that Yin Sijin understood the meaning of his words and was no longer so worried, Ke Shaochen didn't say anything more, opened the Chinese text, and began to read ten lines at a glance.

They are all simple ancient poems, classical Chinese and excerpts from articles.

It's not difficult, but it's all knowledge that he has forgotten.

But he didn't like taking notes very much in the past. The content that the teacher said was all recorded in his head without moving the pen. The whole book was as clean as new.

So Ke Shaochen can only use the 20-plus minutes in the middle of the exam to memorize all the knowledge points that may be tested in the entire book of the midterm exam by rote, engrave them in his mind, and think about it slowly when he goes back to the exam How to answer the question.

Time passed by so unknowingly, and after finishing the second exam, Ke Shaoan sat in the classroom and took out the lunch box and ate it by himself.

The same goes for the rest of the students.

"Hey, Xia Jun, why are your dishes so salty!" Xia Jun was undoubtedly in the middle of the crowd in the area with the highest per capita density in the class.A boy picked up a piece of eggplant from Xia Jun's lunch box and ate it. As soon as he took a bite, he showed a bitter face, covered his mouth and said loudly: "Haven't you told your mother to make the dish lighter?"

"I've said it." Xia Jun pawed at the food and said, "But my mother still cooks like this, forget it."

"It's a shame you can eat it." The classmate took a sip of water in disgust.

"Just eat more food." Xia Jun said, "My family has no money, so I know my mother did it on purpose."

The classmate didn't understand: "If you don't have money, you still put so much salt! Salt doesn't need money!"

If you want him, you will definitely be very angry that your parents always refuse to listen to what you say, and make trouble with them when you go home.

It's not surprising that Xia Jun said indifferently about his family's lack of money. After all, almost everyone knew something about his family's situation, and Xia Jun never thought of hiding it.

——The father died early, the mother was seriously ill, and the medical expenses almost brought down the family, but he had to die, otherwise Xia Jun would really lose his mother.

Fortunately, Xia Jun was not defeated by the painful reality, his personality was still sunny and cheerful, and he did not hide his family situation, but he was able to speak directly. This kind of magnanimity made people love him more and more.

Xia Jun shrewdly said: "You don't understand this. If the vegetables are salty, you can't help but eat two more mouthfuls of rice. If you eat too much rice, you will be full easily. Is salt more expensive than vegetables and rice?"

The classmate turned his little head, thought about it carefully, and seemed to understand: "Oh... that's right."

The girl beside her had a red face, stars twinkled in her eyes, and she admired Xia Jun: "Xia Jun, you are so smart, you can think of all of this."

"Of course, I'm a genius!" Xia Jun said triumphantly, "It's not the first day you know me."

Everyone laughed, and the classroom was filled with a joyful atmosphere.

It is also one of Xia Jun's skills to be able to say such a heavy matter to make everyone laugh. When the teacher came over with a lunch box, he heard the conversation of a few children. A big, fragrant and tender pig's trotter was put into Xia Jun's lunch box, and he said, "Look at you making everyone laugh so happily, I'll reward you."

Xia Jun giggled, said "wow" happily, looked up at the teacher, and said glibly: "It is said that pig's trotters can beautify the skin. After eating, can I be as beautiful as you, teacher?"

The teacher was so teased that he couldn't close his mouth from ear to ear: "You are the only one with a sweet mouth."

Everyone saw that Xia Jun had pig's trotters to eat, so they didn't shout, saying that teacher, I want it too, or Xia Jun, you can give me a bite too, so that you can eat your own food with peace of mind.

After the teacher finished talking with Xia Jun, he walked over to Ke Shaoan, saw the pale color in front of him, and could hardly find a few drops of oil and a few slices of meat in the lunch box, and put another pig's trotter into Ke Shaoan's bowl inside.

"eat more."

"..."

Ke Shaochen glanced at the red-skinned and yellow-fleshed pig's trotters soaked in oil in front of him, and gave a slight pause to the chopsticks he held in his hand.Then said softly: "Thank you teacher."

These simple four words made the teacher happier than Xia Jun's flattery just now.

Her big round eyes were almost invisible with laughter. For the first time, she felt that this hedgehog-like child was finally willing to show her soft side, and she was very relieved.

"If you like it, the teacher will make it for you next time."

After speaking, he stroked Ke Shao'an's extremely soft short black hair, which was completely opposite to his personality, and left with the empty box in his arms.

Ke Shaoan picked up the chopsticks and took a bite of the pig's trotter, chewing slowly with a more careful mood than tasting the food of a Michelin restaurant.

The taste of the pig's trotters was not cooked evenly, and the thickness ratio of the skin to the meat was also quite bad, but it carried the warmth and thoughtfulness that Ke Shaochen didn't notice back then, and was full of love for Ke Shaochen that no chef could cook. caring.

One bite at a time, he carefully ate this seemingly ordinary food with extraordinary tenderness.

Back then, he missed so many things worth cherishing.

I was just busy struggling to survive, and had no chance to discover these shining existences.

It was all the fault of that damned alter ego again.

Thinking of this, Ke Shaochen felt unhappy.

He quickly finished the food in the lunch box, cleaned up the things on the table, stuffed them into the drawer, and then said to Yin Sijin beside him in a soft, inaudible voice: "Let's go out."

After speaking, he quickly walked out of the classroom with the other party.

Passing through the playground where a group of children were playing, and finding a blind spot, Ke Shaoan asked Yin Sijin, "Can your ability to make yourself disappear from the eyes of others be used on me?" ?”

Yin Sijin followed suit and asked, "What's wrong?"

Ke Shao looked annoyed at Yin Sijin's finger pointing on him twice and then stopped, so he asked, "Okay?"

Yin Sijin nodded.

Ke Shaoan took Yin Sijin out of the main gate of the school swaggeringly, and said, "I want you to help me with something."

Yin Sijin naturally didn't ask anything, and immediately said "yes".

Ke Shaoan brought him to the side of a big tree where a group of elders and aunts were sitting on a small bench talking to each other, and said, "Can you feel anything?"

Yin Sijin: "There is a demonic aura."

"Where?"

"Under the tree."

"Can you take out that monster-like thing without disturbing these people?"

Although it was a request, it sounded like an established fact to Yin Sijin's ears.As soon as Ke Shaoyan finished speaking, he poked his palm towards the root of the tree, and took out the thing—a simple, old, small round mirror with a little dirt—directly, like a parent Just like satisfying the child's little request for a toy, he handed the thing to Ke Shao'an.

"Give."

"..."

Ke Shaochen knew it would not be difficult, but he never thought it would be that simple.

He said "thank you", and then said, "Can I store this with you temporarily? I'll ask you for it later."

Yin Sijin put his straight arm on the hand in the air, put his things back a little bit, and said, "Okay."

Ke Shaoan looked at the big tree loved by everyone in the town again, and said, "How about this tree?"

Yin Sijin looked at it twice, and said: "From the old age to the twilight years, although the anger has been nurtured by this thing for a period of time, it will still wither and die after a while."

Ke Shao said angrily, "Do you have a way to revive it?"

Yin Sijin: "It's easy."

After speaking, he flew forward slowly for a short distance, and his shiny and slender palm gently stroked the tree's torso.It was just such a small movement, but Ke Shao'an found that the rotten trees that had faintly carried a dead breath before, seemed to be reborn, and there was a layer of mysterious and indescribable aura around them, just like that The thriving saplings are full of vigor and vitality.

Even if Yin Sijin didn't tell him the result, Ke Shao'an could clearly know that the tree had completely come back to life.

Witnessing the whole process before and after, his eyes could not help but reveal a bit of novelty.Seeing Ke Shao'an's reaction like this, Yin Sijin asked, "Are you reluctant to let it die?"

Ke Shaochen: "Of course, it is a part of my memory after all. If it just disappears like this, it will still be a pity."

Even if it's just a tree.

After Yin Sijin listened, he seemed dissatisfied with the answer. He lowered his head slightly, remained silent for a long time, and suddenly said, "Life has a beginning and an end, and nothing lasts forever. You are so affectionate and sensual, but it is easy to be deceived." hurt."

"I'm just doing what I can." Ke Shao'an's character has always been like this. "As long as it is something I can do, I will try my best to do it the best, no matter the process is easy or difficult. Only the result after doing my best is the result I can agree with, and I will not accept the rest. Dead right For me it's the biggest failure, and the thing I hate the most is failure."

After a passage of words, I don't know which nerve in Yin Sijin was touched, and he smiled wryly, with a deep sadness and sadness in his eyes.

Ke Shaoan remembered the difference in their identities and the unavoidable life expectancy gap. After thinking about it, he still endured and did not continue to push forward his claim.

He didn't want to ruin the relationship and mood between him and Yin Sijin because of this kind of problem that everyone would face sooner or later.

So he found a new topic at random, and easily and skillfully made Yin Sijin forget the conversation just now, and the two walked together towards the campus again.

The exams in the afternoon were mathematics and science, both of which Ke Shaochen could easily answer without reading a book.Take a few minutes to review and answer the questions, and after answering, put down the pen and walk out of the quiet classroom expressionlessly in the eyes of everyone.

He went out and found an empty corner, sat down and chatted with Yin Sijin, enjoying this rare time alone.

Then he watched the time go by with regret, seeing that the sun was about to go down, the exam was over, and he had to go home.

——There is no point in procrastinating any longer.

After going back, he could see Yin Sijin again after all.

Then he stood up and said to Yin Sijin while everyone was handing in the exam papers before leaving the classroom, "I should go back too."

Yin Sijin's expression changed slightly, revealing a particularly reluctant and lonely look.

How happy he would be every time Ke Shaoan appeared, how lonely he would be when he sent Ke Shaoan away.

But even though he was sad, he had to do it.Otherwise, the future will not be able to move forward, and they may not even be able to see the first face.

“时间是x164年，12月1日上午9:37分。”柯少嗔道：“那面圆镜先放在你那里，以后我会找你要的。”

Yin Sijin nodded silently.

Ke Shaoan saw the other party's emotions, stretched out his hand to pull Yin Sijin's hand, raised his head and said, "Don't worry, we still have many opportunities to meet in the future. Ten years later, we will be able to live together, and Will never be apart."

Yin Sijin held back his sadness, and said in a harsh voice, "Really?"

Ke Shaochen smiled at him and said, "Of course it is true. Didn't I tell you when we first met? 'I will marry you in the future'. In the future, we are already a family."

Yin Sijin laughed through his tears, his eyes were sad, but he still nodded.

"Ah."

Then, with the help of the connected hands of the two, Ke Shao'an was sent back to the future.

Then he sighed.

— If it’s true, that’s fine.

Raising his eyes, he looked at the crowd rushing out of the classroom in front of him. He saw a boy with a bright smile but an obvious death appearance, and ignored him without any fluctuation in his eyes.

……

The moment Ke Shaoan came back to his senses, he found himself sitting in the office.

Glancing at the clock on the wall, he was surprised to find that the time was correct.

Immediately afterwards, something was wrong.

Why did he subconsciously look up at the wall?Where is the watch on your wrist?

Also, why is he sitting in the office, shouldn't he be in that bright cafe?

Frowning, he raised his head and looked around, and found that Zhang Yilai and the rabbit demon were sitting opposite each other, with a contract book spread out between them.Bu Dao was wearing a black suit and stood beside him with a blank expression. The desk of the accountant in the office was also gone.

Also missing was the young Wang Qiong who always appeared within his sight and tried his best to make his presence felt in front of him.

as well as……

Looking at the long-haired Yin Sijin, Ke Shaoan slightly parted his thin lips in surprise, and immediately understood the seriousness of the matter.

The next moment, a huge, complex, familiar but different memory flooded into Ke Shao'an's mind without warning, almost bursting his brain.

Ke Shaoan bent down in unbearable pain, the veins on his forehead bulged, his face turned red and his lips turned pale, he pressed his head with his hands and gasped for breath.

Yin Sijin realized something was wrong at the first time, so he ran over and asked, "Shao Chen, what's wrong with you?"

"..." Ke Shaoan raised his head in pain, frowned and looked at the blurred figure in front of him, and said with difficulty: "Xia...Jun..."

Yin Sijin: "Who is that?"

Ke Shaoan closed his eyes helplessly, panting heavily.

--really.

Distinguishing the memories flooding into his mind, Ke Shaoan quickly found the biggest difference between the two memories.

Xia Jun is gone.

He hadn't seen this person since the end of the mid-term exam in the fifth grade of elementary school.

The cold and lifeless memories kept pounding Ke Shao'an's mind, and the completely different emotions seemed to be as real and strong as coming from his body.

This person is not him, definitely not him.How could he be so world-weary and indifferent, so lonely as if his soul had already died, and what remained here was just a walking and moving body.

Zhang Yilai and Bu Dao found out what was wrong with Ke Shaoan, but no one came to ask him what was wrong.It wasn't because he was unfeeling and unwilling to approach, but because he was afraid so he didn't dare to go forward.

Looking at the eyes of the two of them staring at him, Ke Shao'an felt very strange.He said, "Didn't we go to the cafe today?"

It was just a simple ordinary question, but it shocked several people present all over the place. It seemed that Ke Shao'an did not expect that Ke Shao'an would speak in such a gentle tone, and his expression was not so cold and permeable.

Zhang Yilai hurriedly said: "You just asked me to pick up this rabbit demon, and you didn't..."

After saying that, Ke Shaoan hugged his painful head, and saw that there was a very hideous and conspicuous centipede scar on Zhang Yilai's face, and his panic expression could not find her usual silly and silly smile. Still a little unbearable.

"enough."

As soon as the voice fell, several people in the room fell silent, not daring to make a sound.

Ke Shaochen said to Yin Sijin: "Sijin, take me back to the time when I was in the fifth grade of elementary school and went to find the round mirror for this guest."

Yin Sijin obviously didn't expect Ke Shao'an to mention his ability in front of so many people, and he was quite surprised why Ke Shao'an would call that little demon a "guest". , Behavior, so abnormal that it seemed like a different person, he couldn't help but asked worriedly: "——What's wrong with you?"

"Something went wrong, the future has been changed, I didn't expect you to be so afraid of me in this time and space." Ke Shaoan held his head and said helplessly: "Because you can't remember, so I'll tell you straight—— In my memory, we were originally good partners, we trusted each other and helped each other...how did we become like this ghost."

After speaking, I really couldn't bear the erosion of the strange memory and emotion, resisted the desire to vomit, and said in a difficult voice: "Please, please send me back first."

Although Yin Sijin didn't know why, he hurriedly followed suit: "I see, I'll send you back now."