The whole world thinks I'm inscrutable

It didn't take too long to kill the six kings and conquer the demon world.

Perhaps for Sijin, he has gone through countless reincarnations before he got to where he is now step by step, but in the eyes of other monsters, Sijin is like an invincible, all-knowing and omnipotent god. Raging Waves quickly stole everyone's adoration, transforming into a mysterious, powerful, and omnipotent being in the distance.

He has become stronger and his status has changed, but he is no longer as happy as he was when he was weak and humble.

Everyone can see the loneliness in his eyes, but no one can really understand the feelings in his heart.Even Doudou, who has personally experienced a little bit and glimpsed the tip of the iceberg in Si Jin's heart, still feels that this "brother" he has watched grow up with his own eyes has become too unfamiliar.

Whenever seeing Si Jin's distraught appearance, Doudou would always sigh with regret in his heart, feeling the regret that could not be saved, and the indescribable sorrow.

——After avenging Yin Chen, Si Jin quickly lost weight as if he had lost some support.After returning home, he didn't go anywhere, and sat alone in front of the window sill that Yin Chen liked to sit on during his lifetime, looking into the distance alone.

Looking at the pale moonlight illuminating the earth, I imagined how Yin Chen felt when he witnessed this scene.In the dead of night, silently savoring the taste of being alone, recalling Yin Chen's voice and smile back then, deep nostalgia appeared in his eyes.Occasionally, when he is in a trance, half dreaming and half awake, he will still show a lingering look of intoxication, and then he will inevitably wake up, facing the reality with pain that cannot be restrained, grabbing his heart and hiding under the bed, crying like a lost relative, helpless A helpless child.

After depriving the Six Kings of their abilities, the flame patterns on the center of his eyebrows turned into six flowers, like a group of red flowers in full bloom, bright and dazzling.He seems to have obtained a steady stream of demon power, a face that will never age again, and an endless lifespan.But no matter how powerful his ability is, he can't change the thing he most wants to change in his heart.

He became not talkative, always felt lonely suddenly, didn't want to meet new people, didn't want to know new things, his only hobby was to close his eyes and take a nap, enjoy the half-dream and half-awake state, and meet Yin Chen in his dream , just imitating Yin Chen's appearance back then, playing the piano and playing music at home.After a long time, I gradually became very proficient, but it's a pity that most of the songs played were meditation, sorrow and joy, and I couldn't feel the slightest warmth and happiness.

Later, he didn't even dare to dream. He just sat in the courtyard in a daze all day long, and then talked to Doudou who occasionally came to visit him.

"Why hide the crystal ball."

Si Jin muttered to himself: "Hearing his voice, I felt like I was going to suffocate. I couldn't take it anymore, so I didn't dare to watch it anymore."

"Maybe it's a good choice to just forget."

"I've thought about it too." Sijin lowered his head in a broken mood, his voice hoarse: "What should I do... I dare not let myself forget his existence, but at the same time I wish I couldn't remember anything, it's so uncomfortable dying……"

Doudou walked over and gently hugged this younger brother who had never grown up in his heart since the day he became an adult. Time seemed to have stagnated on him, and his tone was gentle: "You just need to let yourself be happy. If you are in Kyushu If so, he would certainly say the same."

"happiness……"

Doudou said: "I will leave you soon, and after that, you have to take good care of yourself. Even if the monsters around you leave one by one, even if no one can understand you, you should make yourself as good as possible. Be happy. Sijin, life is not only sad things, there may be regrets, it may be unbearable, but as long as you keep going, you will always see a day full of hope."

Sijin said in a low voice, "Will that day really come?"

"Of course!" Doudou said, "Didn't those humans say that? When the formation fails, Kyushu's soul will break free and reincarnate, and you will be able to see him again! But before that , you can’t go on like this, do you want Kyushu to see your dejected and decadent appearance, his wish has not been fulfilled, don’t you want to realize his dream for him?”

Si Jin slowly raised his head, his face was finally not as pale as before: "Then... what should I do."

Doudou breathed a sigh of relief, as long as Si Jin wanted to change, there was always a way to solve the problem, he said: "Let's find something to do! For example, stabilize the demon world, stop disputes, and make the demon world become like Like the world, there is a stable order..."

Sadness will eventually pass, people will not be immersed in the past forever, and sooner or later they still have to look forward.

With the help of Doudou, Sijin gradually came out of the confusion of not knowing what to do. Although the process was a bit slow, the result was good after all.

Because Yin Chen said that he hoped that Si Jin could protect everyone well, so Si Jin inherited Yin Chen's position, proved with his strength, convinced all the monsters, and became the leader who did his part.He spares no effort to protect everyone, and has protected all his partners. He has also learned many skills of monsters and Taoism of humans.

He let the humans who stayed in the demon world live well in this land, asked them to teach the monsters various deeds in the world, and even set up a school.The books left by Yin Chen were placed in the library for the monsters to check by themselves.They have gradually learned the characters of the human world, and they have also mastered the skills of changing into human forms. Although they are in the demon world, "people come and go". It seems that they are using this method to commemorate the memory of the person who once protected them.

Sijin always remembers what Doudou said to him, "Live as if Kyushu will appear next moment", so even if the loneliness and sadness in my heart can no longer burn any blazing flames, somewhere in my heart, There is still a sliver of light, the shape of the light is Yin Chen in his memory, illuminating his heart, allowing him to find a hope that can persevere.

As time passed, Sijin finally understood that his ability was indeed a punishment as he watched his companions leave one by one.Living longer than everyone else is a kind of invisible torture, but the situation of having the ability to restore everything but not daring to use it at all is a kind of hurtful and embarrassing spiritual torture.

This pain lasted until Doudou, who always comforted him, was about to leave, and finally reached its peak.

The brave and strong-hearted monster who loved his family back then no longer has the energy to get up and hunt and take care of everyone.Lying on the bed, surrounded by ghosts who were sobbing because of him, Doudou's cloudy eyes looked at Si Jin, his pale lips moved, and his withered palms held Si Jin firmly. .

"Don't think about coming to save me, let alone come to see me..."

Until the moment when he was about to die, what Doudou cared about in his heart was still his worrying younger brother.

"Live your life and think about nothing."

Si Jin thought that the tears that he had already cried dry fell down uncontrollably and hit Doudou's body, making a low hoarse roar of pain.Doudou patted the back of Sijin's hand in relief, the warm and soft temperature was the same as before.

Sijin watched with his own eyes that the vitality in Doudou's body was getting weaker and weaker. Every minute and every second seemed like endless torture. He desperately restrained the urge to do something, suppressed his heart and stretched out his hand to grab the last straw desire, until the end, he still did not manage to extend Doudou's life, nor did he send him back to the past...

Seeing the moment when Doudou died completely, Sijin's figure was in a trance, unable to stagger half a step back, as if he had also died because of it.

The people around who had a deep relationship with Doudou were in great pain, crying Doudou's name, hoping that he could open his eyes and look at them again.A few monsters were driven to a dead end by the collapse of emotions, found Sijin, took his hand, pressed his shoulders, and begged bitterly, "Please save him, don't you have a way! Why don't you save him".Sijin was pushed and questioned, but there was no response.She just kept her pale face, lowered her head without saying a word, and her tears rolled down silently, but she didn't dare to tell anyone about the pain in her heart.

He and Doudou have lived together since childhood, and their deep relationship is definitely no worse than that of any monster.Doudou is the only pillar in his heart at this time, the last family member who guides him forward.

And... the only bridge to communicate with Yin Chen...

More than anyone else, he didn't want Doudou to leave, but he didn't dare to do anything.According to Yin Chen and Doudou's instructions, silently feel the despair, pain, and loneliness in my heart, restrain the emotion of wanting to see Doudou again, and break the last chain tied to the past.

Sijin finally became the "last person".

Living in a past that no one can remember, being left behind by everyone.

Since then, looking forward to Yin Chen's return has become his only obsession that supports him to live bravely.

Manage the demon world, appoint thirteen lords, and watch the monsters around him come and go.It seemed like spring and autumn, everything was changing, but he was the only one who was still alive and seemed out of tune with everything around him.

Time flies, the sun and the moon fly by, and sad emotions will always be smoothed out one day, and living peacefully and peacefully has finally become the main theme.Sijin began to learn to face people and things with a positive attitude, play his role as the demon king well, take care of the monsters under him who depend on him, and develop the atmosphere of the demon world in a direction that Yin Chen would like.

I kept imagining what Yin Chen would look like when he finally returned to him after a hundred years, or a thousand years later.Try to make yourself live a normal life, like the new monsters around you who have forgotten Doudou, forgotten Yin Chen, and can't remember anything, take the current life seriously.

But I know in my heart that I have always been in an "incomplete" state, and I have been waiting for the missing part, waiting, waiting, holding hope and beauty, waiting for the day when I don't know when it will be the end.

Thousands of years, whether it is long or short, calm down and wait, and the day will eventually arrive.

"Si Jin."

After seeing the extinct human being in the demon world, who had not been seen for hundreds of years, appeared in his palace with a smile on his face, calling his name softly.A cry instantly evoked thoughts in his heart that had been silent for thousands of years, and once the surging emotions erupted, the corners of his eyes turned red instantly, and he sobbed loudly.Si Jin even thought that he was still in a dream, his body controlled his brain, and he couldn't wait to fall into the arms of the other party, as if embracing his soul that had finally returned after many years.

"You are finally back……"

Si Jin couldn't believe it was true at all, without any preparation at all, the person he was thinking of appeared in front of him like this.Relief and joy are not enough to describe his emotions at this time. He just wants to follow the other party forever and ever from now on, and then never separate.

"I miss you so much, I really miss you so much..."

He carefully looked at the young man in front of him, reached out and stroked his face, the corners of his eyes, and the ends of his hair, trying to remember every detail, every expression, and intending to engrave him firmly in his mind and never forget it.

"How are you doing?"

"Very good." The young man looked up at him and said with a bright smile, "The most important thing is that you are by my side."

Sijin's eyes were in a trance for a moment, imagining the picture of living with Yin Chen in the future, the picture was so happy and beautiful that he even felt that none of this was real.

"We can meet anytime in the future." The young man held Sijin's hand, looked up at him, and said, "Si Jin, do you like me?"

"Of course I like it." Sijin said impatiently, "I've been looking forward to your return all the time!"

"Me too." The boy said, "I like you very much, or rather, I love you."

Si Jin was agitated, and his thinking was a little disordered. He still felt like he was dreaming at this time, and he just nodded and smiled, immersed in joy, and couldn't understand what the other party was saying.

"From the first time I saw you, I have fallen in love with you." The young man smiled very calmly, and said what was in his heart without the slightest shyness: "I fell in love with you at first sight."

Si Jin blinked his eyes, took Ke Shao'an's hand, and walked towards the pavilion not far away, but didn't understand Ke Shao'an's meaning: "Huh?"

The boy said: "Don't you understand? I'm confessing to you."

Si Jin tightened his grip on the opponent's hand, and his voice became tense: "What, what?"

Confession?Why?what happened?What exactly are you talking about?

The young man said seriously: "I like you, and I want to be a partner with you."

Sijin's face instantly turned red, and his heart that had been silent for many years had never been so restless and flustered like this moment: "I, I, you..."

The boy said again: "I won't let you say no."

"But I never..."

"We are already together in the future, and we have a child."

Si Jin couldn't help hissing, his face became even redder, and he touched Ke Shao'an's stomach carefully, and said, "You turned into a girl?"

The teenager couldn't laugh or cry: "Of course not."

Si Jin whispered: "But I have always regarded you as a friend..."

"I know." The boy's face was shining with unquestionable conviction, and he looked so dazzling: "I just came here to tell you, so that you can be mentally prepared. I really want to be with you."

Si Jin's heart was pounding like a deer, and he never expected that the meeting scene he had envisioned countless times would turn out to be like this.Although it was enough surprise, it was also too confusing for people, blushing and said: "I, I know, I will work hard."

He was forced to say such a sentence by the one who drove the ducks to the shelves, but in fact, Si Jin didn't know what he should know, what he was trying to do, he just looked at the boy's pretty face in a daze, and was fascinated, what? I don't know anymore.

"You're here this time, so why don't you leave?" Sijin thought he was asking a question that was a matter of course and whose answer was already predetermined, but the young man said, "I should leave in a couple of hours." gone."

Si Jin was stunned for a moment, then immediately said: "Then I will go with you."

The boy didn't seem to expect him to propose such a proposal, he hesitated, but he still agreed: "Okay..."

Seeing that Yin Chen agreed, Si Jin was very happy.He was happy that Yin Chen had finally returned. For a moment, he felt that the long wait for so many years was worth it, and he was so excited that he could barely speak.There are a lot of things in my heart that I want to say to Yin Chen, and things that I want to tell Yin Chen. The pile is full, and I am so excited that I don't know where to start to mention it.

"By the way, Bell." The young man spread his hands towards Si Jin, Si Jin blinked, thought for a second, and then realized with a smile, "I almost forgot!"

He reached out and took out the bell from the air, and handed it to the boy.

The young man shook his hand casually, and then withdrew his hand back. That familiar movement brought back memories that Sijin thought he had forgotten, and his heart tightened again, almost crying.

It's really Yin Chen, Yin Chen is really back.

Is there such a happy thing in this world?He felt that he was about to be moved enough to melt into Yin Chen's extremely gentle eyes.Walk around his palace with Yin Chen, talk to him, and look at the scenery.The scenery that was once extremely dull and boring has become extraordinarily lively and interesting in the blink of an eye. It seems that no matter what you do, say, or watch now, everything is extraordinarily colorful, which makes people feel happy from the bottom of their hearts.

Just because there was one more person, life changed from black and white to colorful. He was finally convinced that the obsession he had been firmly believing in all these years was not wrong. Everything he paid and the suffering he endured was worth it.No matter what, Yin Chen is back, that's enough.As long as he can be by this person's side, no matter what he is asked to do, he is willing and happy.

The future is bound to be bright, he thought so.

Seeing the sun set, Yin Chen told Si Jin that he wanted to go back.Si Jin opened the passage for the two of them, took Yin Chen's hand, and came to the world together.

After thousands of years, the human world has already become a completely unfamiliar appearance in Si Jin's heart, which made him feel a little novel and excited--then, he will live here with Yin Chen, and he must be as ordinary as the demon world, The days without new ideas are different, it will be extra exciting and interesting.

Standing on a flat stone road, Yin Chen raised his head and said to Si Jin: "I'll go back first."

Hearing the word go back, Sijin's heart tightened.But he understood that Yin Chen was only talking about going back to the time he was in, and Yin Chen in his youth would still be by his side, so he smiled slightly and said, "Okay."

The demon force spread over Ke Shao'an's body, and Si Jin raised his lips, just about to ask "when".

People are like being poured by a basin of cold water on the top of their heads, freezing to the bone, like falling into an abyss.His face paled in an instant, without any trace of blood.

What does it mean……

Why can Yin Chen be sent back 12 years at most...

Yin Chen will die?

No, it's impossible, there is no trace of death on his face, and as long as he is alive, he will definitely protect Yin Chen's comprehensiveness, and it is absolutely impossible for him to suffer any harm.

and so……

I just felt that my heart was cut by an invisible blade, with cold and embarrassing wounds.It was as if the sky was falling down, and the pain was so desperate that he was about to die.

Why, why did God treat him so cruelly... What did he do wrong, why did he suffer this kind of torture? !The happiness that I had waited for thousands of years to finally come, why should I trample him to pieces so soon! !

"What's wrong?" The young man held Sijin's hand tightly, and asked with concern, "Are you alright?"

"..."

Sijin lowered his head, with an expression as if he was about to cry, tears half filled his eyes, and his lips trembled slightly.

His heart was throbbing uncontrollably, and he was about to faint from the pain.The words of collapse hovered in his throat countless times, but in the end he shook his head, desperately suppressing the thought of stretching out his hand to retain the last ray of hope: "It's okay..."

He couldn't, couldn't let Yin Chen suffer from the situation he had suffered all these years.I can't let Yin Chen, who confessed to him and also likes him, live a life of endless longing and sadness.Looking back now, it's still too late.

"But you-"

"It's really all right!" Si Jin was in so much pain that he could hardly bear it anymore, he turned his head heavily, not looking at the person he desperately longed for, and said ruthlessly, "I'll take you back."

After finishing speaking, he mobilized his demon power and sent Yin Chen back to the time where he was.Then he finally couldn't bear the surging emotions in his heart, and a sad look instantly filled his face.

Looking down at the young man Yin Chen with an incredible expression on his face beside him, Sijin stared at him deeply with yearning, yearning, and lingering eyes, but did not say a word.

When the young man saw Shang Sijin's beautiful face, he was stunned for a moment, thinking that he saw the fairy who came down from the sky.

Si Jin took one last look at him, then let go of his hand, turned around and left resolutely.

The moment he set foot on the land of the demon world and closed the passage, Si Jin couldn't bear the heart-piercing sadness anymore, his knees softened and he knelt down on the ground, crying on his back, not understanding why he became like this.

Why has thousands of years passed, why finally met Yin Chen, and why he suddenly couldn't live anymore.Then what is his time all these years, what he waited for for a thousand years turned out to be such a result.Despair overwhelmed his brain, and there was nothing he could do but cry.Sitting on the ground sadly, the pain was so painful that he was about to suffocate, crying and calling Yin Chen's name, but he couldn't call back the figure that had already left.

Suddenly, an unbearable feeling of vomiting surged up in his chest and abdomen. He knelt on the ground and vomited out uncontrollably while pressing his stomach. His face was livid in embarrassment, and his eyes stared at the ground in pain. He had been driven to a dead end.

What should I do... What can he do... Who can save him and tell him how he can support himself to live in the future...