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Luo Xi is a very comfortable person.

I can't find another adjective.

I don't know if it was because he was trying to get close to me, or if he was like that with everyone, but in the half hour I sat at the bar with him, we only had a few words and no one felt embarrassed or cold.It’s obviously crappy songs, crappy wine, and there are mops and buckets for cleaning hidden behind the monstera in the corner, but I feel like sitting on the balcony with my old friends in the summer afternoon, basking in the sun, the sun is just right, and the years are lazy , You don't need to say a word to make people feel at ease.

But I don't have old friends, and I won't be lucky enough to suddenly have an old friend I can trust with all my heart.

I wasn't that lucky in my past life, and I won't have a sudden change of luck in the future. If there is, it's probably an exquisite deception.

The Li family has a special status, and I can't bring them any trouble.

"What are you thinking?" He asked me suddenly, probably seeing me thinking.

"I was thinking," I put the glass back and stood up: "Maybe I should go back."

"Oh, good." He was a little surprised by my abrupt behavior, but he also stood up: "Waiter, check out."

It's not like He Lianshan, who can't speak Chinese after studying abroad, who calls "waiter" wherever he goes.

I took out my wallet, but he handed the money to the waiter before I did.

"It's not expensive." Seeing that I still need money, he explained with a smile: "It's just the price of a cup of coffee. If you really want to buy it, you can buy me something to eat next time."

That's why I don't want him to pay. If there is a favor, there will be involvement.

But I would like to know what kind of coffee he usually drinks.

The two walked downstairs together, it was late at night, the temperature outside was quite low, the vendors were all scattered, and the ground was full of garbage, I walked in front, Luo Xi followed me two steps away, I just went down the iron stairs, A sign was stretched out in front of me, it turned out to be the person who just ignored my hotel soliciting business: "Accommodation?"

I followed the man's gaze and turned my head to look behind me. Luo Xi's eyes were already crooked with laughter.

I really don't know if it's because the society is more open now, or because the people in this hotel are hungry.

"I'm going back." I stood by the side of the street and turned around to tell Luo Xi.

I don't believe that someone from such a big family can't understand the hint of "we should go our separate ways" in my words.

"Okay." He followed me: "Where are we going?"

I laughed angrily at his upright look.

"Aren't you going home?" I asked him.

"I live on campus. The dormitory is closed now." Probably because of the cold, he put his hands in his coat pockets and looked at me quietly.

"There are many hotels around here." I glanced at the hotel owner who was still looking here unwillingly.

"I don't like sleeping in hotels." Luo Xi looked into my eyes and said, "I thought we were friends."

He is not a person with aggression. In fact, when he said this, his expression was very peaceful, but his eyes were still gloomy, without any accusation, as if he was stating an irrelevant fact.

I can't help it.

"My house is not very comfortable," I hesitated: "But if you are willing to sleep in my house..."

I finally know why I feel comfortable around him.

Because this man named Luo Xi has the most melancholy eyes I have ever seen, but when he smiles, it makes people feel that there is no purer happiness than this.

"This is my slippers. Both the towel and the toothbrush are new." I stood in front of the bathroom, hesitated, and handed over the brand new pajamas in my hand: "This is the pajamas."

It was originally bought for Zheng Ao.

However, presumably he will not come here often in the future.

Luo Xi took it, he had already taken off his coat, and inside was a white shirt, he was very thin, thin and tall, he was the kind of boy in school that girls were most likely to fall in love with secretly.The back is slender, and the shoes that have been taken off are neatly arranged.

After drinking in the evening, I brewed two cups of green tea, turned on the computer, and continued to check things. In the company group, Senior Xue and the others were chatting happily. This group is a private group created by their girls, all of whom are interns and assistants. , in the clothes and shoes worn by Lawyer Ba Su all day long, and occasionally in Ba Yiba's emotional life.If I hadn't joined this group, I wouldn't have known that Lawyer Yan from Yuansheng Firm had always liked Lawyer Su.I have also met Lawyer Yan, a very capable professional woman, ageless, with her hair tied up, wearing diamond earrings, slim and beautiful.

After looking at the computer for a while, the phone rang.

I picked it up, and the other side said: "Dad told you to come back at the end of May!"

Li Xiu's habit of making phone calls is the same as fighting a war, it seems that he can't get rid of it in his life.

The end of May is the anniversary of my grandma's death, and my father wanted to take me back to visit the grave.

Luo Xi is taller than me, so I let him sleep on the bed and sleep on the sofa by myself.

Waking up to the smell of food in the morning.

When he opened his eyes, the door of the kitchen was not closed, and Luo Xi was standing in the kitchen, frying eggs.Juice and milk are already set on the table, as well as pasta for each person.

I went to wash in my slippers, but he heard it and didn't look back: "Are you up?"

"Hmm." I looked into the kitchen with my head: "Where did you get the frying pan?"

"Just went out to buy."

I did a quick scan, and there were probably seven or eight more things in the kitchen, not counting the huge pile of ingredients and the unopened coffee machine.

Therefore, human relationships are endless.

After tidying up, the two of them sat at the dining table and ate this grand breakfast.

"Do you have class today?" I took a sip of milk and asked him.

"No." He ate his pasta with his eyes downcast.

"What is your major?"

"Computer." He didn't know what to laugh: "Programmer."

"Oh."

"The ape of the ape," he explained.

"Oh."

I ate half an egg before I realized it was a joke.

"It's so cold."

He smiled helplessly: "Yes."

After eating, I went to wash the dishes. He probably has no common sense in life. He made a breakfast, and the apron was still in the same place.

I was washing dishes in the kitchen wearing an apron when I heard a knock on the door.

"I'll open it." He read a book in the living room and volunteered to open the door.

By the time I reacted and ran out, it was already a few seconds later.

Zheng Ao stood at the door, looking at Luo Xi standing in front of him with a cold expression. Luo Xi was just like his master, throwing a pair of slippers to him: "Change these shoes."

"No need to change, just come in." I wiped my hands on the apron: "Have you had breakfast?"

Zheng Ao didn't speak, and still stood at the door without moving.

Luo Xi didn't know what he understood, so he turned around and walked past me: "I'll go wash the dishes."

I gave him the apron despite seeing the grease spots on his shirt.

"Why is he here?" Before Luo Xi entered the kitchen, Zheng Ao asked in a bad tone, regardless of whether others could hear him or not.

"He's Luo Xi." I introduced him.

"I know he is Luo Xi, but why is he here." Zheng Ao was still aggressive: "Your home is not a tourist attraction."

I am not unfamiliar with this argument.

When I was young and fantasized, I thought it might be because I cared about my performance, and I was secretly happy about it, but after a lot of experience, I gradually understood.This is just a desire for monopoly that everyone in the world has, and because he and Li Xiu have never learned to share, it is even more serious.When they were young, he and Li Xiu could beat their noses and faces bruised and swollen for a piece of wood, but this does not mean that the two of them really love that piece of wood.

Even pigs are rushing to eat more delicious food, let alone people.

In the past 15 years, I may not be very promising, I have not paid back the money owed to the Li family, have no friends, have never been in a relationship, and I am still obsessed with him secretly.

But I understand at least one thing.

No matter what, it is absolutely impossible for this person named Zheng Ao to fall in love with me.

Only when I understand this, I will not have illusions in my heart, and I will not do so many clumsy things like when I was young, and I will wish I could go back and stop myself at that time when I think about it. Only then can I continue to play my role well. The character, as his friend, watched him live a carefree and unrestrained life.Only in this way, one day in the future, I can completely give up, live my own life at ease.

Along with his name engraved on my heart is the fact that he couldn't possibly like me.

Maybe it’s because I’ve been cold for too long. Recently, I’m wondering if I’m too attached to Zheng Ao, treating him as the only light in my life, so I cling on and refuse to let go.Maybe there are many warm things in this world, maybe I'm not always so unlucky, maybe I can find something else, warm and bright.

I don't know if Luo Xi can hear you in the kitchen.

But if he heard it, he would probably show the same kind of smile that made me feel very warm like last night.

I said, "He's my friend."