[Comprehensive] The leader's knot occurs in this life

Buckets of hot water are poured in, and white mist rises, like layers of spun yarn and overwhelming rainwater, blowing moistly towards the face.

I added cold water again, and after testing the temperature, I took a few steps back and looked at the screen.

"Dongfang, the water is ready."

The screen is painted with light smoke and flowing water, the vague shadow behind it moves, and a hoarse voice comes out.

"……it is good."

Dongfang came out with his back to me.He folded his hands slightly in front of him, and his body leaned forward uncontrollably. He was very thin, and the way he bent down made the spine of his back protrude, making his whole person look extremely fragile.I looked at him, feeling very uncomfortable, and couldn't help closing my eyes.

I remembered that the first time I saw Dongfang's body, it was similar to the current situation.At that time, I was a silly little guard, and I was so happy that I was so happy that I was lucky enough to be by the leader's side.I tried my best to please Dongfang, because I was very afraid, I was afraid of going back to that handyman's yard again, I was fed up with being called around and insulted by others.In comparison, the days around Dongfang are as beautiful as a long dream.

I don't think this rumored cruel leader is scary at all. Although he often has a straight face, he will listen to me quietly. His expression is very cold, and his voice is very soft when he calls my name. He occasionally smiles at me, He also gave me things, and those eyes that were as clear as water never looked down on me. At that time, I was always full of joy to win him a smile or a look, and I could laugh foolishly when I was covered by a quilt at night. muzzle.

At that time, I admired Dongfang Bubai from the bottom of my heart, I chased him eagerly, and planned for him with all my heart, but it was just a pure and simple emotion, which can be summed up in two simple words—— —Looking forward to.

Have you ever dreamed of someone?

This person has everything you don't have - fame, status, wealth, his martial arts are so powerful, everyone surrenders to him, everyone fears him and respects him, and such a person stands where you can just look up, on him Everywhere is the self you want so much, but you can't do it.

I never thought that this feeling would change in Dongfang's eyes, but when I think about it now, I can't help but have doubts—because in my memory, I look more like a young man who has just begun to fall in love than anyone else. I even remember At that time, someone asked me if I was in love with a girl who was giggling all day long?But who knows, I never have girls in my eyes, it's all about the East.

That day, Dongfang took a bath in his room for the first time, just like today, he stripped himself behind the screen and stepped into the bathtub.Then he said to me who was waiting outside, let me bring him a change of clothes.

I never thought about why Dongfang suddenly took a shower in the room, nor did I think about why he forgot to take a change of clothes.I just ran off to do things for him with glee like I always do.

When I walked in with my clothes in my arms, what I saw was a completely naked Dongfang.

I didn't know how determined he was at that time. I was stunned when I went in, because I was about the same height, the first thing I saw was his nervous face, and then I looked across his chest, and finally fell on his incomplete body. Two horrific scars remained on the crotch.

There was a bang in my head, and I was just stupid there.

Dongfang Bubai has always been a perfect person in my eyes. He is as clean as the never-melting ice and snow on the top of Kunlun Snow Mountain. He is a god I enshrine in my heart. I don’t understand why he has such a flaw .

I don't know how terrified, panicked, and unbelievable my eyes were at that time. I only know that under my gaze, Dongfang's face gradually turned pale, and finally he swung his palm and knocked me out of the door with a strong wind, and the door followed. close.

Before the two long carved windows closed, I saw his desperate eyes.

I finally realized that I had hurt him.

For many days afterward, he was nowhere to be seen, and he never returned to the inner courtyard.I lived alone in his room, staring at the dry floor in a daze, obviously I could no longer see the water that flowed all over the floor that day, but there was still a puddle of dark water stains that fainted on the ground, like tears of grief .

I clean the room for him every day, make the quilt fluffy and warm in the sun, prepare meals in the kitchen and keep them warm in the pot, and then sit at the table and watch the light, my head is so sleepy that I can’t sleep .

About ten days later, I waited until Dongfang, who was very drunk, was holding a big wine jar staggeringly, and kicked open the door. I was so frightened that my head slammed on the table, and my eyebrows were almost burned off by the oil lamp.

I quickly went up to him to help him, Dongfang looked at me dimly for a long time, finally recognized me, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Brother Lian?" Before this, I had never heard him call me that, only later did I know, He has been secretly calling me that in his heart, but he dare not let me know. At this point, he still has to get drunk to call me in front of my face.

I was taken aback, and responded with a hmm.

"Brother Lian?" He called again in a daze.

I had no choice but to respond again: "Well, I am here."

He suddenly shed tears.

When he cried, he didn't make any sound. He squatted there with his head buried, his shoulders shrugged violently, and one hand pulled his chest hard, as if he couldn't breathe.

At that moment, I suddenly understood that Dongfang Bubai is not the perfect god in my heart, he is also an ordinary person, he has joys, sorrows, sorrows, sorrows and pains.

I couldn't bear his appearance, as if there was a knife cutting back and forth in my heart, I squatted down with him, reached out my hand clumsily to wipe the tears on his face, and leaned over to hold him trembling in my arms Li, repeatedly said: "Don't cry, don't cry..."

After the hug that night, there was a complete difference between us.

"Whoa-"

The sudden sound of water made me break away from my memory, and when I opened my eyes, there was still a white mist.Dongfang sat in the bathtub with his back to me, warm water flooded over his shoulders, he turned his head and glanced at me, just such a small movement, but the muscles in his back became stiff, his face The tense expression on his face was exactly the same as in his previous life.

I took a deep breath, lowered my gaze, and began to untie my clothes, collar buckles, belts, coats, jackets, trousers... In an instant, Dongfang blushed, turned her head suddenly, and stuck her body tightly against the bathtub. on the barrel.

With bare feet, I slowly approached him. With every step, his breathing became heavier and faster, and his body even trembled with my steps.I got to the edge of the tub and stepped in behind him.

The moment I entered the water, he held his breath, and his hand was shaking hard on the edge of the barrel.The bathtub can barely hold two people, and because of the crowding, I almost stick to his back.

Dongfang does not belong to the kind of person with fair skin like a woman, and is easily tanned. However, he has not seen the sun for almost a winter, and he has grown whiter. Since the palace, not only has he no longer bearded, even the hair on his body is almost gone. there is none left.Now his back is facing me, the shoulders half exposed to the water are covered with water droplets, two shoulder blades protrude, and a straight line in the center of the back is submerged in the water. I close my eyes, even though the situation below is blocked by the water, I As long as I imagine Dongfang standing in front of me naked, my body will immediately heat up. What's more, I'm so close to him, and if I move a little, the hip bones at the waist will rub against his two buttocks, or even his two sides. The deep gully between the buttocks.

I can imagine his strong and straight legs due to years of martial arts practice. I have stroked his legs many times, and I even remember the slender and slender legs when they were on my shoulders. lines, and his curled toes.

I suddenly felt that the heat was unbearable, and there was a faint tendency to raise my head below.I tried my best to suppress the revived desire in my body, as if I wanted to hide it, I took the cloth towel and soap placed by the bucket, and wiped it on Dongfang's body.

Just as my hand touched Dongfang's back that was exposed in front of me, he trembled as if he had been scalded.

I swallowed my saliva, trying to make my voice less hoarse: "Dongfang?"

"No... nothing..."

His voice sounded breathless and trembling, and during this time he kept his face buried in his arms, with only his red ears showing.

My hand went down along the line of his beautiful back, and the palm was close to his skin. The smooth and warm touch made my breath hot. When I touched his thin waist, I could feel his whole body like A fully drawn bow is taut.At this moment, I couldn't even hear his breathing. I think he probably held his breath again, and even bit his lip hard.

I leaned my head against his ear and called him in a low voice: "Dongfang..."

He shrank his neck suddenly, and I took the opportunity to pounce on him, clasping his waist with both hands.He was so frightened that he looked like a cat with fur all over his body. He jumped up with all his strength and almost fell out.I quickly pulled him back, hugged him tightly from behind, and kept kissing his ears and cheeks: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, Dongfang, don't be afraid..."

He was clinging to the edge of the bucket like a drowning man, shaking even more violently.I simply turned his head away, and he looked at me in horror, his lips were almost bitten off.

"Don't bite, Dongfang, don't bite," I kissed him distressedly, and licked the teeth marks on his lips with my tongue, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I won't leave you, no matter what happens I won't Don't be afraid to leave you..."

He whimpered a little, I kissed him tenderly, stroked his back lightly like coaxing a child, he kept trembling, his waist moved forward, he was still afraid of being discovered by me, even if he did this by himself It was decided, but the courage he had worked so hard to muster seemed to have been exhausted.

I clasped his waist and dragged him back, bent my knees, pushed his legs away, and then dragged him hard again, allowing him to separate his legs and sit on my lap without hindrance.

This action made his whole body tighten up as if being stabbed by a needle. I saw with my own eyes that his face was flushed red by the heat and instantly turned pale. Then he stopped moving, motionless, without blinking his eyes.

I didn't move either, and my hand was still on his waist dutifully, without moving an inch.I know I'm forcing him, but since he has decided to face it, I won't let him run away, otherwise I'm afraid that he will never want to show his sincerity to me again.I want him to know that no matter what he looks like, I'm still willing to stay by his side.Because I don't want to see his expression of despair, and I don't want to see him cry again.

After a long, long time, the water in the bucket became cold for a long time, and Dongfang closed his eyes.

"Yang Lianting..." His voice was hoarse.

I kiss his ear.

He slowly opened his eyes, but his eyes were scattered, as if he was looking ahead, but he didn't seem to be looking at anything.After being silent for a while, he spoke very slowly: "I used to think that I could give up everything for the sake of practicing Kung Fu, but I did it, but I lost the spirit of giving advice to the country. In fact, I already had the idea of ​​being world-weary, I couldn’t get interested in anything, I didn’t have an appetite for anything, and my practice was stagnant. Gradually, I almost couldn’t find a reason to live. Killed a lot of people, seeing them fall in front of me with blood dripping, I feel disgusted and happy in my heart, holding their lives, so easily deciding a person's life and death, so that I can give birth to a little feeling that I am still alive .”

"I wanted to kill you too, but you always gave me a very strange feeling. When you first came here, you gave me a look before you left. That kind of look actually made me unable to kill you. Afterwards, every time you The next time I come here, I can bring very tasty meals, so I thought, if I stay with you for a few more days, maybe I can let you work as a cook in the inner courtyard. After all, it is hard to find even a caring cook in this world. I didn't expect you to be so bold at that time. I really wanted to kill you at the time, but you looked at me so sadly. I was surprised when I heard you say don't cry. Since I was sensible, Dongfang Bubai has never I have shed tears, why would I cry? I obviously thought it was ridiculous, but looking at you, my heart also felt uncomfortable, and I still don’t understand what happened to me back then.”

Dongfang smiled wryly and lowered his head.

"Later you said that you would stay with me. I don't know why this nonsensical sentence has been remembered in my heart. I feel as if I have been waiting for a long time for this sentence... But we have never met before Ah. You passed out, and you kept grabbing my clothes. I tried so hard that I almost broke your fingers without breaking them. I was very puzzled. You didn’t know, until you woke up, I I kept looking at you all the time, and I thought to myself, you handyman is so audacious, you dare to do such a thing, I should kill you, but when you woke up, I looked into your eyes, but I couldn't do anything. "

"Then I looked at my hands and thought to myself, why can't I kill a defenseless person? It's an easy thing, but I can't do it. I don’t want to practice anymore, I hurried out of the customs, I just wanted to put you by my side, I think that after a long time, I will definitely understand why.”

The voice of the East became difficult.

"I've been looking at you all the time, and I hurt you a few times during this period. I regret it. I often tell myself, I should treat you better, don't always be angry with you, do something to you, but no matter how I think about it, I can't control it at the end. Stay with yourself, you can always easily irritate me, and you can always easily comfort me. Today I finally understand, maybe you are really right, we met in the previous life, even if I entered reincarnation, everything The smoke disappeared, but I still can't forget you, otherwise why would I... always... always be so hard-hearted..."

His words made my chest ache, and the hands holding him trembled.

After being silent for a while, Dongfang suddenly turned back and smiled at me. His smile was too forced and desolate. according to.

The palm brushed against the front and touched the two uneven scars below. The parts that should have been spherical and swelled were deflated.

Even though I had seen it in my previous life, I was still shocked. After a moment of froze, I immediately turned my head to look at Dongfang. He rolled his eyes away in self-loathing. His face was as pale as paper, like a condemned prisoner waiting to be guillotined.

"Isn't it disgusting?" He said hoarsely, "In order to practice, I personally turned myself into an eunuch who is neither male nor female..."

My heart felt sore, I moved my fingers, and stroked gently along the scar.

His drooping eyelashes trembled, but he still didn't dare to look up at me.

I also looked at him, looked at him as calmly as possible, then pressed his head down, let him lean on my shoulder, and sighed a long time: "Don't you hurt, how can you let go?"

This sentence, in fact, I wanted to ask him in my previous life.

He trembled all over, and when I lowered my head, I saw his eyes were red.

After a while, he suddenly turned around, sat on my body, put his arms around my neck, his throat was choked for a long time, like a wronged child.

"pain."

"Yang Lianting, I'm in pain."