[Comprehensive] The leader's knot occurs in this life

I looked at the blood-soaked dark red shirt, and my face turned pale.

The panic that hadn't reappeared for a long time occupied my heart. I haven't been so scared in a long time, even more panic than on the first day of rebirth.At that time, I opened my eyes from death, sat up suddenly, and smashed the medicine bowl beside the bed. Not to the east, I trembled all over.

— The East is dead.

—Only I survived.

This knowledge made my mind go blank, and my heart felt as if it was falling into an icehouse. Then I sat silently for a while, grabbed the porcelain piece and cut it on my wrist. I used all my strength, stroked back and forth three times, and tried to stroke it a fourth time, but I couldn't cut it no matter what.

I heard a voice shouting in the distance: "The sun rises in the east, and I am the only one who is invincible. I will rule the rivers and lakes forever!"

A glimmer of hope was ignited in my heart, I ran out frantically, and finally saw the man outside Chengde Hall from a distance.

Standing on a high place with his hands behind his back, he was dressed in red to show off his arrogance, but no one could feel a trace of charm. He looked down at the congregation kneeling down on the mountain, with an expression of aloofness and indifference, the coldness piercing through his bones.

At that moment, I couldn't feel anything, only one thought came and went.

He is still there.

I watched for a long time, until everyone dispersed, I slowly bent down, raised my bloody hand to cover my eyes, and howled silently in the dark.

Since then, that kind of fear and anxiety has seldom appeared.The new life couldn't be simpler. No matter the future is bitter and bitter or the will will be bright, I know that as long as I hold on to this person, even if it's a piece of clothing, I can feel at ease.

But this soaked garment made me shudder.

"...East?" I asked tentatively towards the empty room.

No one answered.

The surrounding area was too quiet, so quiet that my whole body became stiff, and even the blood in my whole body began to coagulate.I opened my mouth, but could hardly make a sound.The clothes on the ground seemed like a corpse. I could only stand at the door, unable to retreat, unable to move forward, and unable to move any more.

After an unknown amount of time, footsteps came from behind.

"Yang Lianting?"

I was shocked and turned around abruptly.Dongfang walked towards me slowly. He wore a moon-white coat on his shoulders, his long hair was wet and scattered, and he looked at me strangely.

"What are you doing standing here?"

I just looked at him and didn't speak.His body carried the clear water vapor after bathing, he acted as usual, and there was no scar on his body, but his face was a little tired and looked a little haggard. Only then did I feel that the hand that had been pinching my heart had disappeared, and the blood in my body had reappeared. flow up.

He walked up to me, found my pale face, and asked eagerly: "What's wrong with you? Did someone bully you? Who is it! You tell me, I will kill them for you to vent my anger—"

His voice broke because I wobbled and took a step towards him, like a deflated ball, falling forward.

Dongfang raised his hand in surprise to help me, and my back, which had been tense all the time, collapsed.Suddenly feeling very tired, I rested my forehead on his thin shoulders and closed my eyes.I think that his death in the previous life shocked me too much. Even if I live a new life, perhaps before the end of my life, I will still worry about losing him from time to time.

Leaning on his body, the warm body temperature came through the fabric, and everything in my heart slowly receded like a tide, only quietness and peace remained, as if the only destination in this world was lost and found again.

The lights in the room were blown by the night wind and flickered on and off. Dongfang was silent for a while, put my arm on his shoulder, and supported me to walk in slowly.He didn't speak all the way. When he stepped on the clothes, he paused, as if he understood something, and whispered in my ear: "That's not my blood."

"On the way here, Yingying sent people to follow me and keep looking for my whereabouts, trying to follow me to find you. I dealt with those people with my hands, and I got some blood on my body, so I went outside to wash it. I'm fine."

I didn't say anything, I just raised my arms and hugged his back tightly.

He stretched his hand behind his back and covered the back of my hand.His hands are not delicate, before he mastered martial arts, he also used a sword, the calluses on the tiger's mouth and the palm are still there, and the touch is rough.

We fell on the bed together in an awkward position. The moment we fell down, Dongfang was lying on top of me, but he immediately bounced up again and sat sideways.

I know what he is taboo about, but I don't want to have any distance from him at this moment.I grabbed his hand and pulled him into my arms.He didn't resist, but moved his waist back slightly.

I hugged him and found that his body was colder than usual, with a chill.I suddenly understood in my heart—it was so late, the hot water in the boiler room had long since run out, and he certainly didn’t know how to boil hot water. He took a bath in cold water, and it was still frosty in early spring.

"It's such a cold day, how can you take a cold shower?" I was so distressed, I quickly shook off the quilt and wrapped him up and down tightly, holding his two hands while exhaling and rubbing him gently, " Even if you need to wash it, can you wait for me to come back and let me boil the water for you? Why are you in such a hurry?"

Dongfang stretched out his hand in a daze, and then his face turned red a little bit, until I frowned and looked up, he said softly: "I'm covered with other people's blood, I don't want to see you dirty."

I didn't expect him to say such a thing. I was a little surprised. He froze when he saw it, pursed his mouth, and turned his head away unnaturally, as if he was annoyed that he had accidentally told the truth.

I looked at him and couldn't help but want to touch his head, but when I lifted my hand, I touched a piece of wetness.

It's really not worrying at all... I sighed, pulled down the quilt to expose his shoulders, fished out his wet hair, and got out of bed to get a cloth towel.

Crawled back into bed, turned him around, and sat behind him with my legs spread apart, brushing his hair.

Dongfang obediently hugged the quilt, slightly bent his knees, and let me manipulate his head.There is a stove in the room, and the air is dry and warm. I scratched his scalp with my fingers while rubbing it, and then combed his long black hair from head to tail.The light illuminated the room, which was warm and quiet. I looked at Dongfang's side face, which was a little red from the steam, and suddenly remembered that when a woman gets married, a long-lived Shiquan old man will be invited to comb her hair while singing auspicious words. .

One comb to the end, two combs with white hair and eyebrows, three combs full of children and grandchildren.

I also combed him three times with my fingers.

There is no need to think about the children and grandchildren, if he can be strong and healthy, and my white hair and eyebrows are as good as mine, it will be a blessing from two lifetimes of cultivation.

I suddenly thought, should I prepare three letters and six appointments for Dongfang, and hold a grand wedding?

Even though the marriage of two men would be ridiculed and become a chat after dinner, I have already decided that I will never run away from it, and I don't want to have any regrets.Dongfang and I are not street rats, why bother to hide?

What's more, we have been with him for so long in the previous life, and we have never had a serious wedding night in the bridal chamber. It is even hopeless for him to choose to be with me.This has always stuck with me.

That kind of pain, never let him suffer a second time.

But it may be too early to think about this now. When we meet again, I can feel that he is much closer to me. I think he has decided to accept me, but I also understand that he still has lumps in his heart, and the secrets of his body are like The sharp sword hanging from the top hurts his heart every day.

Only this I can't help him, he has to come out by himself, I am willing to wait.

After wiping my hair half dry, I slanted my body and leaned out, trying to pull the heater over the bed and dry Dongfang's hair with the heat, but just as I stretched my hand over, there was a sudden sinking on my left shoulder.

Dongfang leaned back, leaned on my shoulder, closed his eyes, and fell asleep.

Finally, a deep tired look appeared on his face, as if he had been chasing sleepless nights for many days and was extremely tired.

I didn't dare to move anymore, I lowered my head and kissed the top of his head, carefully put his hands into the quilt, and just hugged him from behind.He turned his head sideways and burrowed into my arms, and murmured in a dream, "Yang Lianting..."

I smiled and kissed his forehead lightly: "I'm here."

He seemed to hear it, with his eyes closed and the corners of his lips slightly curved.

Feeling so warm, I leaned back on the bed frame, wrapped my arms around his chest, and wrapped his hands in my palms.Dongfang is thinner, and his frame is thinner than mine. This posture puts his whole body in my arms.I felt my heart was full, and I suddenly realized that in the past few days, my heart was full of emptiness.

The bright and warm candles swayed slightly, and the breath from the east was like a soft night wind blowing past my ears.

In such a cold night, with the person I miss in my arms, snuggled up by the fire, and the stars outside the window, the night that once felt so long and endless suddenly became so gentle.

It's so gentle that people feel that there is nothing wrong with passing like this for a lifetime.

When I woke up the next day, my whole body was inevitably sore, but looking at the man sleeping soundly in my arms, I felt that everything was worth it.The sky outside the window was already bright, it was a sunny day, and the sun had risen very high.I yawned, and felt that all the bones in my body were rusted. I just shook my neck and it made a rattling sound. I was numb for a while, and I grinned.

Then I caught a glimpse of this man who slept on me like a meat pad all night, and still looked comfortable after being exposed to the sun. I felt more and more upset, and wanted to tease him.

Gently pinched his nose, and after a while Dongfang frowned, subconsciously opened his mouth to breathe, I laughed twice in my heart, copied the teapot on the stove, took a few mouthfuls of tea, and leaned over to kiss him , the tea in his mouth slowly entered, Dongfang was forced to swallow, and hummed twice in displeasure.

I pinched his face again, his face was very soft, like white dough, I was reluctant to let go after touching it, rounded and flattened, the more I played, the more vigorous I was, I didn't notice Dongfang's peaceful sleeping face at all, The blue veins on the forehead have burst out.

"Yang Lianting!"

A few silver lights brushed against my ears and my hair whizzed by. I quickly rolled to the side, and the silver needles hit the bed frame heavily. I couldn't help wiping off a cold sweat when I saw it.Ouch, my God, other people get angry when they get up, but just curse a few times and throw a few things, my leader was disturbed in his sleep, it will kill him!

Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of Dongfang sitting up with a gloomy face. I was in a bad mood and made people anxious.So I paused when I was about to get up, so I just lay there relaxed, covered my face, and pretended to hum in pain.

"I hurt you?" Dongfang was taken aback, and hurried over, wanting to break my hand nervously.

I took the opportunity to push the person under me. Dongfang was startled and resisted subconsciously, but he always remembered that I was a person who didn't know martial arts, so he didn't dare to struggle too hard. When he moved, he looked after his hands and feet. This made me bolder, I clasped his wrist and pulled it to the top of my head, bowing my head and kissing him carelessly.

"East...East...let me kiss you..."

Then he stopped struggling, he seemed to like to make out with me like this, whether it was hugging or kissing, every time I did this, he would quickly obey, I let go of his hand, and he took advantage of the situation to hug me neck.It was a long kiss. When we parted, I sucked hard on his lower lip and made a loud "boo", and Dongfang blushed.

I like to see him blushing, obviously shy but trying to be calm, the more I watched, the more I liked him, so I kissed him again on both cheeks.

After such a fuss, Dongfang was sweating a little. He loves to be clean the most. I knew he wanted to take a bath again without him telling me, so I pinched his earlobe and said with a smile, "I'll heat it up for you." Water, wait."

"Yeah." He leaned lazily against the head of the bed.

I immediately turned over and got out of bed, and found clothes from the stool to wear.When I put on clean underwear, I didn't shy away from him, and took it off in front of him calmly.

He looked at my naked body, and his face was a little red at first, but slowly, the look in my eyes became more and more lonely. When I fastened my belt and turned around, I saw his expression.

I felt a pain in my heart, turned around and walked back, pressing him into my arms.He put his arms around my waist, and I could feel his fingertips trembling.I stroked his hair, but I couldn't think of comforting words, I just hoped it would make him feel better.

"Yang Lianting... Did you like men before?" He suddenly asked.

I shook my head: "No."

"Then why did you..." He couldn't say the rest.

I held his face with both hands and asked him to raise his head. I looked into his eyes and said slowly: "Dongfang, if I hadn't met you, I might have found a woman I liked to marry, and I even wanted to What is my wife like? She doesn’t need to be very good-looking, but she is gentle and diligent. She is a good hand at washing, cooking and tidying up the house. I really thought about it. But now, none of this will happen, because my heart It's so small, it's too small to pretend to be a person. Even if there are many good girls in this world, or many outstanding men, so what?"

"So what?" I stroked Dongfang's face and smiled, "I already have someone in my heart who wants to be together day and night, even if I don't say anything or do anything, As long as he is by my side, I feel very good, very good, life is too short, and I don't feel enough getting along with him day and night, how can I have the heart to think about others?"

Dongfang listened quietly, with no superfluous expression on his face, but the arms holding me got tighter and tighter.

"You asked me why I like it, actually... I don't know either," I lowered my eyes, and my voice became softer, "Maybe we were together in the previous life, but I betrayed you, so I will spend my whole life to pay you back in this life. For the rest of my life, I am yours, I will never leave you, no matter what happens, I will never leave you..."

He leaned against me and didn't speak.

I don't know if he believes it, maybe he is with me, and he is already ready to be separated. Sometimes he believes in others, but he refuses to believe in himself.But I want to give him a little courage. If he can't believe in himself anyway, then give himself to me. I will spend my whole life to prove to him that what I said is true.

I let him go and was about to go downstairs to fetch water, but when I was about to go out, Dongfang's voice suddenly came from behind.

"Get some more buckets of water," he said.

My steps froze by the door.

He sat on the edge of the bed, his legs were tensely folded, and the cold spring sunlight leaked in through the window of the fishing, woodcutter, plowing and reading, and shone on him, making one feel as if he would melt into the thin and lonely light.

"Get more water..." He didn't look at me, his lowered eyes stared at his toes, his voice was so soft that one could think it was hallucination, "Come here and wash with me..."

I slowly opened my eyes wide. Such words are nothing to the people in the rivers and lakes who don’t care about trivial matters. When the wind is sleeping outside, it often happens that a group of people jump into the river to take a bath, but I understand that this sentence means something to the East. Thinking of something, my heart beat uncontrollably.But this sentence was so unexpected that for a long time, I still thought I heard it wrong.

Dongfang who couldn't wait for my answer slowly raised his eyes.

His eyes were clear.

I finally understood that he was serious.