Turns Out I'm Crazy

There are many things, if you don't experience it yourself, you are doomed not to understand what it feels like.

Lu Zhengfei knew that Chen Qianqing was in pain when his parents died, but he didn't expect him to be in such pain.

It was a kind of despair that would be pale no matter how it was described. Only by experiencing it personally can one know what it feels like.

In this life, without Lu Zhengfei's participation, Chen Qianqing's parents still died.And still died in a car accident, on the highway leaving the airport.

It was as if the god in charge of fate was mocking him in his own way, telling him that he had to taste all the things that made Chen Qianqing extremely painful one by one.

In the end, Chen Qianqing did not go to see Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang for the last time.This was the first time he had tasted fear since he came to this world.

The doctor said that when Chen Qingyang was dragged to the hospital, he was already dying, and Liu Huamei died on the rescue table.Their deaths were not very good-looking, Chen Qingyang's head was almost cut off, and Liu Huamei was not much better.

The driver who caused the accident also died on the spot, and the cause of the accident was simple and ridiculous—the driver was smoking while talking on the phone on the expressway, with his right wrist leaning on the steering wheel, and did not react when encountering an emergency, so he directly rear-ended the seat where Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang were sitting. car.

It's ridiculous for a reason, but the result is that people can't laugh at all.

Chen Qianqing felt that his entire body had been hollowed out. He only felt this feeling when the real Chen Qianqing died in his previous life.The feeling that his mind was blank and the people around him couldn't understand what he was saying made him very tired.

Lu Zhengfei saw Chen Qianqing's reaction in his eyes. He knew that the comforting words at this time were pale, so he just hugged Chen Qianqing and let him lean in his arms.

It's always a little strange for two big men to lean on each other like this.

The news of Chen Qingyang's accident quickly reached Chen Qingyang's sisters, and that night, Chen Qingyun and Chen Qingyu came.

Chen Qianqing didn't listen to a word they said. He and Lu Zhengfei sat in the corridor in the middle of the night. It wasn't until almost three o'clock that Lu Zhengfei helped him to find a hotel near the hospital to stay.

Chen Qianqing took a bath quietly, then sat on the side of the bed silently with her wet hair on her head.

Lu Zhengfei was worried about him, and while taking a bath by himself, he kept looking in Chen Qianqing's direction. Fortunately, Chen Qianqing didn't respond until he came out of the bathroom after washing.

Lu Zhengfei sat beside Chen Qianqing and put his arms around Chen Qianqing's shoulders.

After a long wait, Chen Qianqing said, "Give me a cigarette."

Lu Zhengfei took out a cigarette from his pocket and handed it over.

Chen Qianqing put the cigarette in his mouth, lit it with a lighter, took a deep breath, and said, "Lu Zhengfei, I'm a little scared."

Lu Zhengfei was stunned, he had almost never heard such a weak word from Chen Qianqing, he said: "Qianqing, I am here."

Chen Qianqing exhaled the smoke and looked at Lu Zhengfei indifferently: "Do you know what I'm afraid of?"

Lu Zhengfei said: "What are you afraid of?"

Chen Qianqing laughed mockingly, and he said: "I'm afraid, I know, but I can't change things." For example, the deaths of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang, such as Chen Qianqing's injuries, such as their ending.

Looking at Chen Qianqing's pale face and indifferent expression, Lu Zhengfei felt distressed. He tightened his arms and said, "Chen Qianqing, I love you, and I am willing to protect you from the wind and rain."

Chen Qianqing shook his head slowly when he heard the words. In the end, he said nothing, threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray, and lay down on the bed ready to sleep.

Lu Zhengfei really wanted to do something for Chen Qianqing, but he found that there were very few things he could do.

Chen Qianqing didn't sleep all night. As soon as he closed his eyes, fragmentary pictures and sounds began to appear in his head. Those pictures and sounds were so real, as if they appeared in front of his eyes and rang in his ears.

Lu Zhengfei didn't fall asleep either. He hugged Chen Qianqing, trying to use his own temperature to warm this cold person who seemed to be curling up.

Early the next morning, the first thing Chen Qianqing said when he woke up was: "Lu Zhengfei, take me to see a psychiatrist when you have time."

He couldn't take it anymore.

Lu Zhengfei should have been happy, but now he was a little unhappy, so in the end he didn't say anything, just nodded.

No matter how sad you are, you still have to do what you have to do.

After breakfast, Lu Zhengfei and Chen Qianqing went to the hospital. Lu Zhengfei contacted a family and started preparing for the burial of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang.

Chen Qianqing went to a nearby cemetery that afternoon and chose a cemetery.It is planned to bury Liu Huamei and Chen Qianqing together.

Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang's deaths were accidental, not happy funerals. According to the local rules, it cannot be a big deal, so Lu Zhengfei asked someone to watch the day, and prepared to take the two of them to be cremated.

Chen Qingyang's sister came again during this period and gave Chen Qianqing three red envelopes.

Chen Qingyu was comforting Chen Qianqing, but she was asking how much compensation Chen Qianqing could get.Chen Qianqing just pretended that she didn't understand, and ignored her, she was dumbfounded.

In the end, Chen Qingyun who came together couldn't stand it any longer, glared at Chen Qingyu several times, and pulled her away.

Chen Qingyu walked out of the hospital, and complained to Chen Qingyun aggrievedly: "Sister, I didn't mean to ask this question. My brother is gone, but Qianqing is still alive. I'm not thinking of him!"

Chen Qingyun snorted.She sneered: "Chen Qingyu, don't call me sister, did Qingyang give you less benefits when he was here? Are you thinking about his life money when he is gone?"

Chen Qingyu said: "What do you mean I miss you? Isn't Qianqing still a child? He was taken to cremation before the compensation money came down. What if the driver who caused the accident reneged on his debt?!"

Chen Qingyun said angrily: "Otherwise? You want Qing Yang to wait for the money to come down before being buried? Chen Qingyu, why didn't I realize that you are so vicious before."

Chen Qingyu sneered and said, "Chen Qingyun, what are you talking about? Let me tell you, don't pretend to be a good person here..."

The two were arguing at the entrance of the hospital when they were met by Lu Zhengfei who just came to the hospital.After these few days, Chen Qingyu finally got to know Lu Zhengfei, so she hurriedly stopped and said, "Hey, Xiao Lu, come to the hospital to see Qianqing?"

Lu Zhengfei glanced at Chen Qingyu indifferently: "I advise you not to make any fools."

Chen Qingyu was annoyed: "Can you talk, kid? I'm Chen Qianqing's aunt. Why do you, an outsider, tell me not to be a moth?"

Lu Zhengfei answered the wrong question: "Your daughter went to have an abortion again, do you know?"

Chen Qingyu was taken aback.

Lu Zhengfei said: "It is said that I have been pregnant for more than three months, and it is still a boy."

Chen Qingyu's face was extremely ugly for a while, and she didn't know how to refute Lu Zhengfei, so she spat on the ground, turned around and left.

Chen Qingyun's face was not very good-looking, and she said hello to Lu Zhengfei and left.

Lu Zhengfei entered the hospital with a blank expression.How could he care about what Chen Xiaohui was doing recently? What he said just now was nothing more than random nonsense.Unexpectedly, Chen Qingyu had no confidence in her daughter, and walked away in disgrace without saying a word.

Lu Zhengfei is the kind of narrow-minded person in his bones. He is usually forced to be generous in front of Chen Qianqing. Once someone else provokes him, he will never forgive him with kindness.

As soon as Lu Zhengfei entered the room, he saw Chen Qianqing sitting on a chair in a daze.

Liu Huamei has brothers, but they are far away from here, and they will arrive in a few days, so once Chen Qingyu and Chen Qingyun left, the whole house was deserted.The dirge played, making it even more desolate.

Lu Zhengfei said: "Qianqing, the time has been set, the funeral will be held the day after tomorrow, and the burial will take another ten days or so."

Chen Qianqing said, "Thank you."

Lu Zhengfei said: "Qianqing... If you feel uncomfortable, just cry." Ever since he learned of the news of Liu Huamei and Chen Qingyang's death, Chen Qianqing didn't shed a single tear, but even if he didn't shed a tear, it could still make people cry from him. From his face and spirit, we can see how uncomfortable he is.

Chen Qianqing glanced at Lu Zhengfei indifferently, and said even more indifferently: "I'm not Chen Qianqing, why should I cry."

Lu Zhengfei was immediately dumbfounded.

Chen Qianqing didn't explain what he meant by this sentence, he just got up, took out a cigarette, lit it and walked out.

Lu Zhengfei knew that Chen Qianqing's mental state was not right from the time Chen Qianqing masturbated in front of the mirror, and now he heard Chen Qianqing's words as if he had understood everything.

Xu Shaoren's theory of split personality has obviously been perfectly confirmed.

Ever since Chen Qianqing's leg was broken by him, her whole person seemed to have changed. Not only could she not play the piano, but her personality had also softened, so... all this was caused by a split personality?

Thinking of Chen Qianqing's indifferent and disgusted expression looking at him, Lu Zhengfei felt as if something was stuck in his heart for some reason, and he panicked.

Lu Zhengfei took advantage of Chen Qianqing's time to go out to smoke, and sent a text message to Xu Shaoren, giving an overview of the situation here.

Xu Shaoren replied to the text message in seconds, and there was only one sentence on it: "Professional inspection, early treatment for illness"

Lu Zhengfei gritted his teeth. Although Chen Qianqing agreed to go abroad for medical treatment, he didn't have time right now.Fortunately, however, Chen Qianqing is not yet prone to self-harm.

According to Xu Shaoren's statement - as long as you don't commit suicide, everything is easy to talk about.

After Chen Qianqing finished smoking, she went back to the room and sat on the chair again without speaking.

Lu Zhengfei thought for a long time, didn't know what to say, and finally choked out a sentence: "What do you want to eat tonight?"

Chen Qianqing glanced at Lu Zhengfei speechlessly.

Lu Zhengfei: "..." Well, he also knows that this topic is terrible, but it's better than saying nothing...

In the end, Chen Qianqing actually answered Lu Zhengfei's question, and he said, "Let's have porridge."

Lu Zhengfei let out a hey, and finally relieved his heavy heart because of Chen Qianqing.He thought, as long as Chen Qianqing is willing to work hard to live, one day he will come out of the shadows, right?