Rebirth of a Writer's Life

Tao Sheng's life is very hopeless.

He was born in a single-parent family a few steps away from a well-off life. Although he was not rich in his childhood, he still had everything he should have.He still remembers one of the words that Tao's mother said the most in the past, "Xiao Sheng, it's true that we are poor, but we have the backbone to be poor, and we must never take things that are not ours."

Tao Sheng still remembers the firm expression on Tao Sheng's face when Mother Tao said this, as if the words were not meant for Tao Sheng, but for herself.

After growing up, Tao Sheng realized that he was not without a father, but his father. After becoming his father, he had a son and a daughter under his knees, but his wife was not Tao's mother.

Tao Sheng didn't know much about the relationship between his parents. He only knew that Tao's mother had been very strict with him since he was sensible.She didn't ask for a penny of alimony, and she dragged Tao Sheng to college by just this one person, and even sent him to city B to go to university.

But at this moment, Tao Sheng felt that there would be no hope for his life from now on.

He didn't know how to describe the feeling in his heart when he saw Guo Huai hugging Xiao Qing tightly while standing on the side of the road.

He felt the pain, the heart-wrenching pain, the unstoppable pain, and the pain all over his body seemed to be thrown into an ice cellar.

The pain was numb.

The pain was so bad that I couldn't even move a finger.

It was already dark and it was raining patter, neither too heavy nor too light, Tao Sheng just stood quietly among the crowd, looking at the two people across from him without moving.

The passing crowd walked in a hurry, knocked him away, splashed him with a sound of stagnant water, and even couldn't help cursing.

"Stay on the side of the road on a rainy day and block the road to commit nerves!"

The elder sister's voice was not low, which attracted the attention of several people, and they all looked at Tao Sheng with the same eyes.But the two people on the opposite side remained motionless, as if nothing else in this world had anything to do with them.

Guo Huai hugged Xiao Qing with great strength, Tao Sheng saw it from his bluish fingertips, he remembered that Guo Huai would hug him like this when he really wanted to do it.

Tao Sheng understands that these two "hugs" are completely different, one is hugging someone who cherishes, the other is hugging someone who can vent their desires.

For a moment, Tao Sheng even wished that the elder sister's voice could be louder, louder, so that the two people on the opposite side could hear it.

At that moment, he was wondering if Guo Huai would let go of Xiao Qing if he looked for the voice and saw him.

Even if you don't let go, will your eyes be a little moved?

Or a little hesitation?

Tao Sheng didn't know, he thought he would never know.

Six years ago in the bar, Tao Sheng fell in love with Guo Huai immediately.

He had never believed in this evil before, but the moment he saw Guo Huai, he believed it.

There will really be such a person, just by standing there casually, can become the most dazzling light you have ever seen in your past life.Love at first sight or something is not something that only happens in movies.

That's why Tao Sheng fell in love with Guo Huai so much. He knew that Guo Huai loved to play, knew that Guo Huai had a bad temper, and knew that Guo Huai's bed partner changed as often as his underwear.

But he also knew that Guo Huai didn't like hard things, he knew that Guo Huai had a bad stomach, he knew that Guo Huai seldom smiled, and he knew that Guo Huai must be angry when he squinted his eyes.

His understanding of Guo Huai has continued to deepen after being together, but his liking for Guo Huai has not diminished even a millimeter because of these understandings.

When Guo Huai agreed to make this relationship at least physically one-on-one, Tao Sheng fell completely.

Tao Sheng can be regarded as a rather failed person, he always wanted to take care of Guo Huai more, appear in front of him for a while, and almost turned his entire world around Guo Huai.His career ambition has never been strong, and the only real friend is Jian Miao.He just stays by Guo Huai's side so wholeheartedly, I can't tell what it feels like.

So determined, Tao Sheng even felt that in his life, only his feelings for Guo Huai could be regarded as having a beginning and an end.

In this relationship, Tao Sheng's feelings are very humble, but his love for Guo Huai is definitely deep in his bones, and he can't break up in this life.

So even if he knew that Guo Huai still had this person in his heart, a person named Xiao Qing, he never thought about leaving Guo Huai.

"If one day he comes back, what will you do?" Tao Sheng rarely stepped on Guo Huai's minefield, but after that incident, he still couldn't help asking.

"Sleep." Guo Huai said calmly, smoking a cigarette, squinting at him.

"Let's talk, there won't be a piece of meat missing." Tao Sheng stretched out his hand to hug him, and said with a smile.

"If you don't sleep, get up and continue working." Guo Huai said as he gestured to put out the cigarette, with one arm wrapped around his waist.

"Come on! Don't let me fall asleep, right?" Tao Sheng hastily pulled his hand. His waist was tossed and tossed for the past few days. He pushed his head into the pillow and said in a muffled voice, "Then stop smoking, it's pungent."

He couldn't see Guo Huai's expression clearly, he only knew that Guo Huai was motionless, and the little sparks on the cigarette were extraordinarily dazzling in the darkness, but he still didn't put out the cigarette in the end.

Tao Sheng fell asleep very quickly because of excessive indulgence that day, but even so, he still heard what Guo Huai said in the dark after a long silence.

"He's not coming back."

With nostalgia and hoarseness that Tao Sheng has never heard.

Tao Sheng didn't know Xiao Qing well, and he only knew a few things about him, so when Guo Huai said he would not come back, he really thought Xiao Qing would not come back.

So he shamelessly tried to take advantage of a loophole, he thought, Xiao Qing will never come back in this life, then Guo Huai will be his for the rest of his life, and no one can take it away.

Tao Sheng didn't think there was anything wrong with his idea, he liked Guo Huai so selfishly, to the core, he wanted Guo Huai to stay with him to the death.So he will always be nice to Guo Huai, not for two years in one year, not in ten years in two years, not for a lifetime in ten years.

He felt that if he was so exhausted and treated him well, in Guo Huai's heart, one day he would be worthy of Xiao Qing's weight.

But Xiao Qing came back.

Came back without warning.

He remembered that half an hour ago, Guo Huai, who originally said he would take him to Hawaii at the end of the year, had a smile on his face, and even gave Tao Sheng the illusion that his relationship had finally come to fruition.

Yes, it was an illusion, because a few minutes later, Guo Huai who got the news stung Tao Sheng's eyes with the obviously shocked and excited expression on his face.He still remembered that he quickly made a phone call after he regained consciousness, his hands still trembling uncontrollably, and he remembered that after shaking down an address, he ignored the figure who rushed out the door.

It was so fast that Tao Sheng didn't even have time to say that it was raining outside.

Realizing something, Tao Sheng followed the address Guo Huai wrote down, took a taxi and chased after him. To Tao Sheng's surprise, he arrived earlier than Guo Huai during the six o'clock rush hour.

He looked at the completely unfamiliar flow of people on the opposite side, and foolishly wondered if he was too sensitive and made a mistake?

Such a trance lasted for 10 minutes, but when he saw Guo Huai's figure, he realized how thoroughly he had lost.

Guo Huai came here in the rain.

Tao Sheng and Guo Huai have been together for six years, how have you ever seen him like this?

His Guo Huai should have an indelible arrogance in every move, every move is full of domineering.

However, Guo Huai, who was in such a mess, kissed him in the kitchen a second ago, and even told Tao Sheng for the first time that he planned to go somewhere to play at the end of the year, just the two of them.

The world is changing so fast, people are caught off guard.

"Xiao Qing."

Guo Huai finally let go of Xiao Qing slowly, but his hands were still tightly clutching his shoulders, as if he was afraid that if he let go, the other party would run away again, and it would take another ten years to run away.

Guo Huai's white fingers stung Tao Sheng's eyes. He knew Guo Huai too well, and he knew why he held on so tightly.Even if he couldn't hear Guo Huai's voice, he could still tell which two words he was calling.

Noticing Xiao Qing's pale face, Guo Huai slowly withdrew his strength.

Tao Sheng, who was standing across the road, felt that his eyes were so dry that he almost laughed out loud. During the six years they were together, when did Guo Huai ever care about his thoughts?Ever cared about his subtle actions?

"Long time no see." Xiao Qing's complexion improved a bit now, Guo Huai's hand was too hard, he subconsciously took a step back in pain, but still said gently.

Meng Haoyu told Tao Sheng that there was nothing special about Xiao Qing, except that he was very clean.No matter where he stops, he always looks like a modest young man.The clean ones make people reluctant to touch them, and the clean ones make people want to touch them.

Guo Huai's hand froze in the air, and after a while, he took it back.

When Tao Sheng saw it, he felt that his heart kept sinking. Guo Huai would never let go when he cried out for pain.

Guo Huai had no expression on his face, but the turbulent look in his eyes clearly revealed his obsession with Xiao Qing.

Tao Sheng lost his strength at that moment, and he suddenly realized that after a few minutes, Guo Huai would probably no longer belong to him.

No, it should have never belonged to him from the very beginning.

Mother Tao's teachings echoed in my ears again --- not ours, we don't want it.

Tao Sheng, Tao Sheng, you have memorized this sentence for more than 20 years, how come you are still confused in the end?

That's not your Guo Huai at all, what do you want?

"Since you're back, don't leave." Guo Huai said firmly, looking at Xiao Qing's delicate face.

Hearing Guo Huai's words, Xiao Qing didn't look shocked, but laughed, "Young Master Guo, compared to ten years ago, nothing has changed."

Tao Sheng didn't know how he heard Xiao Qing's words in such a loud noise.

But he just heard it, heard it clearly, and for a while in a trance, Tao Sheng even had some expectations with his fragmented reason.

How much he wished that Guo Huai would suddenly smile at this moment and say, yes, it's been ten years.

How much he wished that Guo Huai could remember how he lived the next six years at this moment.

How he wished that Guo Huai could remember the kitchen at home, and Tao Sheng was waiting for him at this moment.

But Guo Huai did not.

After a lengthy silence, Guo Huai said, "Come back to my side."

Come back to me.

These words made Tao Sheng feel completely chilled from head to toe in an instant.

Guo Huai didn't say such things in the past, never did.

Tao Sheng and Guo Huai have been together for six years, he can bet with everything he has, and keep telling Tao Sheng that Guo Huai, who loves to leave when he wants, is the first time he has said such a thing.

However, this person is not him, Tao Sheng.

It was Xiao Qing, who had bonded with him ten years ago.

At that moment, jealousy surged and almost went to Tao Sheng's head.

He couldn't control his steps to move forward, and he couldn't control his desire to pull Guo Huai.All the noise around him melted into nothingness at this moment, and he only had Guo Huai in his eyes.

He wanted to step forward and let Guo Huai look at him.

I want Guo Huai to belong only to him.

But Tao Sheng had only walked a few steps, when he saw Xiao Qing was about to speak again, tears came down from his anxious eyes.In his intuition, as long as Xiao Qing said the next sentence, Guo Huai would not belong to him at all.

Not even a chance to struggle.

So Tao Sheng wanted to scream anxiously, but found that he couldn't make any sound.

And what if, even after hearing his cry, Guo Huai still doesn't intend to turn back?

Tao Sheng was shocked by this thought, yes, if after hearing it, Guo Huai still only has Xiao Qing in his eyes, or is he going to ignore him?

This thought made his heart twitch violently. He didn't even have time to think about it before he felt a dazzling light piercing into his eyes.

In a daze, he saw a car coming towards him. Tao Sheng wanted to run and call Guo Huai, but found that he couldn't use any strength.

With a sound of "stab---" Tao Sheng could feel that his internal organs were dislocated in an instant, he could even see his blood spreading quickly on the ground, and the pain in his legs came up in waves, several times It almost took away Tao Sheng's consciousness.

In an instant, the surroundings were in chaos, and the crowd began to gather towards Tao Sheng. They were yelling and talking, but Tao Sheng couldn't hear other voices, and just desperately wanted to turn his head to look at Guo Huai.Gritting his teeth desperately, he turned his head to look, and then he saw Xiao Qing who looked astonished, and Guo Huai who didn't move his eyes a millimeter.

Guo Huai only had Xiao Qing in his eyes.

Guo Huai looked at Xiao Qing and narrowed his eyes slightly. Tao Sheng knew that he never liked being distracted when others were talking to him.

Guo Huai...

Tao Sheng's vision gradually blurred, he wanted to call his name, wanted Guo Huai to look at him, wanted Guo Huai to save him, but he couldn't make any sound from his throat.

His eyes gradually lost focus, and the severe pain from his body gradually disappeared. Everything in his sight slowly dissipated, and finally it was completely reduced to darkness.

And what finally reached Tao Sheng's ears was Guo Huai's calm and firm voice.

For Xiao Qing.

"I haven't forgotten you."