Divorce!I want to feed you.

I thought I could always avoid it, but in fact it backfired.Qiu Ye ran into him the next afternoon while waiting for the elevator.

The sudden darkening of the light startled Qiu Ye, followed by the strong smell of smoke that made Qiu Ye pursed his mouth and coughed twice.I wanted to stay away from the big smoker behind me, but I was waiting for the elevator and had nowhere else to go, so I could only wait for the elevator to come down quickly.

"Cough...cough..."

Qiu also didn't look back, but he knew that the man coughing behind him was Jing Shan.Although he was as unapproachable as if he had been smoking for a whole day, there was a familiar perfume smell among the strong tobacco.

"Ding--"

The elevator door finally opened, and after the two of them entered together, Qiu also pressed on the seventh floor while pressing on the sixth floor.

"Thank you."

His voice was so hoarse that Qiu also suspected that he was not Jingshan, and he never had the courage to look at Jingshan, but he raised his head because of the hoarse thank you.

Jing Shan was originally such a man who paid attention to his image. Even if his clothes were not formal, they were wrinkle-free and smelled of light perfume. His hair was always well-groomed.But now the man in front of him has no haircut at all, his beard is messed up, and he occasionally coughs due to excessive smoking. It seems that he has lost a lot of weight after not seeing him for a few months...

He opened his mouth to say hello, but when he remembered that he was a stranger, he closed his mouth again.

What exactly has he experienced in the past three months, and why is he in such a miserable state now...

But no matter what, Qiu also thought, it has nothing to do with him.It's better not to think about it, lest the feeling of guilt for Muma weigh on my heart again.Besides, I really shouldn't bother the other party anymore, and it might be the best choice to pretend that I didn't see it.

Putting the ingredients for dinner into the kitchen, Shuya took off his coat.In the mirror, his hair has also become longer. Under the black and slightly curvy slender hair, there is a pair of eyes that are very strange to him, and the eyes are full of depression and calmness.

How can I forget this man?Can't do it.Maybe time is the best medicine, but it can't resist the other party's intrusion into your sight all day long.But is the wound healed by time considered healed?Maybe time can only help you temporarily forget.

It appeared in front of my eyes again, making people unable to move their eyes, for fear that they would not be able to move away after staring at it for a long time.It was like a wound that had just scabbed, and it was cut open again, and those parts covered by fresh skin were branded with that person's name.

Qiu didn't feel the pain anymore, but why?Maybe it's too close, there is only a ceiling between the two, this kind of difference is like living together, it's not a difference.

It's just that they can't look at each other anymore, can't touch each other, and can't feel each other's breath.If one's love is so longing for the other person's body, maybe that is not considered love but at most desire.

"Like a fool..."

Lowering his head in frustration, Qiu also put on an apron and planned to cook a dinner for himself.At noon, he received the news that Muma wanted to celebrate with his girlfriends, so he could only eat alone at night.

For dinner, there was only ordinary stir-fried assorted fresh vegetables, and I swallowed it whole, then took a shower and lay back on the bed.

But Jingshan's hoarse voice is always in his head, he must be sick, right?

What the hell is going on, is it because of smoking too much?Why did the addiction suddenly become so heavy?

Or is it that the work pressure is too great recently, causing him to neglect himself?

Tossing and turning insomnia, even with the lights on, I still feel worried.I usually worry about Muma, and tell her to take care of herself, and don’t give her greetings. She will also be reminded of weather changes, and occasionally cook Muma’s favorite dishes.But for Jing Shan, he always wanted to know what happened to him, what was hidden under that expression.

"No, no, don't think about it, I still love Muma very much."

Consoling himself like this, Shuya finally fell asleep.It's just that in the next few days, whether it's commuting to get off work or going shopping, Qiu Ye will always run into this man by chance.

The man who used to smoke in the fire escape always sat on the steps in front of the apartment, his eyes were dull while smoking and he didn't know what to look at.Every time he walked by his side, Qiu Ye would feel empty for a while.

He was still the same, like a slovenly homeless man, wearing a loose blouse, leaning against the dark brown doorpost, and occasionally coughing because of too much smoking, so serious that Qiu also guessed that one day he would put himself coughed up his lungs.

Stopping at the door again, Qiu Ye frowned deeply and looked at the figure in the shadows.He hunched over and kept twitching his body, covering his mouth with one hand and coughing non-stop, while the other hand was still holding a cigarette.

After thinking for a while, Qiu Ye still walked towards Jingshan.

"Are you okay? If you smoke less, you won't cough like this. Do you want to drink water?"

Qiu Ye was like his mother who was a nurse since he was a child, good at taking care of others, and gentle in nature.But facing Jingshan, Qiu also often felt helpless.It was the same this time, no matter how much he tried to persuade the other party to drink water, he didn't reply at all, he took out the cigarette between his fingers and pressed it out, he just kept coughing and pushed Qiu Ye away again and again.

"Jingshan! If you continue like this, your lungs will be damaged. Don't smoke anymore, okay? You heard me say that it's okay, Jingshan, Jingshan...!"

She has never used it against anyone, but this evening, Qiu also felt that she lost her patience for a moment.He doesn't want Jingshan to smoke like this again, the voice in his throat has already started to feel wrong, how can he continue to let it go.

"Can you look up? Jingshan! Are you dumb? Or deaf? Quickly... answer me! Don't be willful!"

Forcibly pulling the person up, because the too tall stature gap made it difficult for Qiu Ye to move an inch.He was still carrying the bag in his hand, and he was still dragging the man to walk in together. The other party was still so uncooperative, and finally made Qiu Ye, who was enduring the heat, shout out loudly.

"You...cough cough...leave me alone, let go...cough cough..."

There were waves of vibrations, and the two people who couldn't stand on their feet stumbled and moved to the elevator entrance, but Jing Shan insisted on not going up, leaning on the wall and coughing so hard that he could hardly breathe.

"Jingshan, listen to me, do you choose to go home or be sent to the hospital by me? Can you choose one? If you don't go back, follow me to the hospital?"

"Go away! Don't, ahem... don't get too close to me!"

People who have already coughed and have no strength are still willful. Qiu Ye stretched his legs to prevent the elevator doors from closing, while trying to drag people in.But Jingshan is too heavy, and those who don't cooperate can't move it by themselves.

"Okay then, I'll call an ambulance."

Taking out the mobile phone from his pocket, Qiuya was so exhausted that he lost all energy, so he leaned against the opened elevator door to make a call.

"unnecessary!"

Reluctantly standing up, Jing Shan quickly grabbed Qiu Ye's cell phone, and the ruthlessness of the attack actually startled Qiu Ye. Qiu Ye who quickly closed his eyes felt a stabbing pain from the side of his face!

"Ah, it hurts..."

The phone fell to the side, and Jingshan coughed twice, watching Qiu Ye cover his face in pain and tried to move his hand away.

"... hurt you?"

The hoarse voice is still the same, but the tone is obviously not as cold and blunt as before.

"It's okay, it's okay, let's go back."

Qiu, who kept covering her face without taking her hand away, avoided Jing Shan's gaze.The man in front of him had a perceptible look of grief, which was so hard to face.

"Qiu Ye, show me, did I hurt you?"

"No."

The approaching face was terrifying, and the hoarse voice was terrifying, so Qiu could only keep avoiding it.But in the small elevator room, where is there any place to hide?

"Why do you lie to me? Why do you always lie to me? Do you know how afraid you are of pain? Whether it's in your heart or your body, as long as it hurts, you will cry...Look!"

Jing Shan raised his hand, and there was a gap in his index finger with his nails, which should have been caused when he snatched the phone just now.

"I'm fine, stop talking nonsense!"

Qiu Ye's flustered and dodged eyes were exactly the opposite of the tough aura just now.There was an urge to flee immediately, but the elevator opened the door only to the seventh floor, waiting for the two to leave.

It was already like this, so Qiu could only send him back.

"Send you back, I should go back too."

Turning his face away, Qiu also deliberately hid the injured side so that Jingshan could not see it.Although I am not a handsome guy, but this face is always traumatized, it is a disaster.

"Show me over here!"

Forced to retreat to a corner, Qiu Ye pressed the door several times to close it.He didn't press the light on the floor, turned around and held Qiu Ye's face with both hands, forcing the other party to look at him forcibly.

"Didn't you mean to be a stranger? Why do you still care about me? Do you have to be so cruel?"

Who should be called cruel?He tortured himself so that he was neither human nor ghost, and he still appeared in front of him, looking like he was dying, why did he say that he was cruel?

His body was pressed against the corner, and Qiu Ye couldn't push Jing Shan's arm away no matter how hard he tried.He was attracted to the wall like a magnet, and he became a meatloaf in the sandwich.But this is a piece of meat pie with human emotions, and Qiu also has to think sadly that he will go to hell one day.

"That is... even if a stranger is unconscious in front of me, I will help... let alone you..."

It was obviously a very normal explanation, but Qiu Ye had no confidence at the moment.The dodging eyes kept looking away, even though he knew that Jingshan was looking at him, he couldn't look back at all.

What should I do if I fall into his eyes again?Qiu didn't want to face this anxiety anymore.

"I told you to look at me, do you hear me? Qiuya!"

The stagnant elevator is obviously not stuffy, but Qiu also has difficulty breathing in this space full of tobacco smell.He knew that calmness and rationality would calm him down, but he couldn't do it anymore. In front of this man, he couldn't do anything.

"..."

Pursing her lips and not speaking, Qiu also shrank herself as much as possible, her shoulders were constantly hugging tightly, and her head was so low that only the shoes of the two could be seen.Without speaking or responding, Qiu Ye silently resisted the man in front of her like a cocoon wrapped up in her body.

"It was you who were disobedient, don't blame me..."

Before he finished speaking, the strong force belonging to Jingshan's fingers lifted Qiu Ye's jaw, and then kissed him as if he was about to die of thirst.

The special smell of tobacco hits, and the greater lack of oxygen makes people dizzy, Qiu Ye's tightly pressed lips are pried open, and then the bitter lips and tongue are like a deadly addiction after a little taste, which makes Qiu Ye crazy Like a longing.

He hugged the man's waist back with his hands, and the body that was constantly clinging slowly melted in the closeness, surrounded by the thick and frightening smell of tobacco, but Qiu Ye was suddenly desperate and wanted to die at this moment.

No one understands how distorted Qiu Ye's state of mind is at the moment. He has been depressed for so long that he has forgotten that the man he once loved dragged him into an even more desperate abyss just between the touch of his lips and teeth.

He melted in the kiss so strong that it made people sink, lost his strength, and his consciousness dissolved...

The author has something to say:

My essay has no plot at all. . .But the next step is the whole process of high energy (compared to other parts).

Hey~~~ Zaitun's Danmei "You are like a star, shining brightly" is also in the middle of writing, and the pace is much faster than this, so the number of words is very small.But I still think it's more fun than this, at least in my opinion~

Happy holidays to all the angels.