[Black Basket] Shooting a Lover

Dark clouds overwhelmed the sky, and the gray sky became darker as night fell.The rain that had spread across the city for several hours, after a period of baptism, not only did not get better, but flowed through every street and alley at a more severe level than before. The strong wind and heavy rain kept shaking people. eardrum.

I don't know when she started crying, let alone when she stopped crying. Chiaki Sugawara only knows that when her chaotic thoughts became a little clearer, she was already sitting in the car holding the glass with both hands. Cup fell silent.

The warm touch of the boiling water in the glass passed through her whole body through her cold hands, and a chill soaked by the heavy rain slowly permeated the space inside the car with the rising white smoke.

"What's the matter? Don't you want to drink? If you don't want to drink, put it down." Noticing Sugawara Chiaki's behavior of bowing his head and silently, Akashi paused for a moment when he wiped her hair with a soft white towel: "But Let’s have a drink, and there should be a limit to what you can do, you’ve been drenched in the rain all afternoon. If you’re worried about Uncle, I’ve already said hello to Uncle, so you don’t have to worry.”

"...No, it's not like that." The careful and thoughtful consideration of her childhood sweetheart made Chiaki Sugawara loathe her self-willed self even more, and before Akashi finished speaking, she couldn't wait to interrupt Akashi's words.However, after the interruption, she didn't know how to refute Akashi. The girl with her little black head dangling under the white towel clenched her hands hanging by her sides, and said those words in circles: "No, that's not the case. of."

So what is it like?What exactly do I want to say: Do I ask Akashi not to be so kind to me and let her fend for herself, or ask Akashi to give me some comfort and find a solution for her?

No matter which kind of thinking is inseparable from Akashi's intervention, Sugawara Chiaki knew from the beginning that she could not do without Akashi, but it was not until the choice was placed in front of her that she realized that she had ushered in a person of her own. The topic that I have been trying to avoid: Akashi is impossible to be with her forever, there is always a moment in her life to go on by herself, if she continues to rely on Akashi...

The glass in his hand fell to the ground due to the owner's loss of consciousness, and the transparent liquid soaked the blanket along the glass lying on the ground.Sugawara Chiaki, who understood what she had done wrong almost instantly, was about to reach out to pick up the glass, when Akashi, who was sitting beside her and was wiping her hair, suddenly reached out and stopped her.

With knuckle fingers, he picked up the glass and placed it on the side of the car. Akashi, who also put down the towel in his hand, looked sideways at the fidgeting girl with fidgety eyes.

After noticing his gaze, the girl's already uneasy psychology wavered even more.Like a frightened little rabbit waiting for Akashi to speak, she subconsciously held Akashi's hands, as if she wanted to gain some strength to support her body, but this move seemed to be beyond her own expectations, and she realized that she was seven When she bit her lip and wanted to let go of Akashi's hand, she bit her lip and wanted to let go of Akashi's hand, just like when she wanted to pick up the glass, Akashi stopped her again.

"What are you afraid of?" Clenching his cold hands, Akashi half-closed his eyes and asked her: "Dissociative wandering disorder is indeed a very rare disease, but it is not untreatable .I haven’t undergone any treatment yet, and I don’t know what the outcome of the treatment will be. If you want to give up here, then no matter how good the treatment is, it’s useless.”

Akashi knows his childhood sweetheart very well, even if she doesn't say it clearly, he can know what she is thinking in the bottom of her heart: what Sugawara Chiaki fears now is whether she will become another person, and whether people around her will hate her because of it she this.Her thoughts, stuck in a self-deadlock, have long been contradictory and messy, so even though Akashi has given her the answer, she still shows a timid and restless mood here.

"No, I know, I still know." Without affirming Akashi's words, Sugawara Chiaki who seemed to have calmed down in a short period of time looked at her and Akashi's clasped hands and opened his mouth.

"I was afraid that I would become another person in the future, and I got a kind answer from you and my father, but even so, I didn't feel at ease. Why is this? It's because my consciousness is no longer connected." Chiaki Sugawara, who began to self-analyze himself, said slowly: "My memory is missing too much, and the world I see living in the fault world is incomplete. I admit that this is because of my original The result of being cowardly, even if I don’t remember anything now, the fact that it was my fault will not change. I will be responsible for my mistakes, and I will accept no matter what happens in the future.”

"But, am I still Chiaki Sugawara with my incomplete memory? I who should have a complete thinking mode have forgotten too much, which leads to my thoughts being incomplete and broken. Maybe you don't know, Akashi, Sometimes I feel that I have become another person. I can’t remember what kind of person Sugawara Chiaki is. You said that you have already noticed that something is wrong with me. For example, when I went to your grandfather’s house, I Said that I don't know what important things happened that day. Now that I think about it, that day is probably the anniversary of my mother's death. It is impossible for me to forget that day, that is to say, before that day...my memory is incomplete, and I just Not the complete Chiaki Sugawara."

A series of seemingly orderly but in fact chaotic words confused Chiaki Sugawara, who was speaking, but Akashi, who had been listening to his childhood sweetheart from the beginning to the end, did not show the slightest expression of impatience.When Sugawara Chiaki finally couldn't think of what else she should say, Akashi's clear and soft voice slowly sounded, but what didn't match the clear and shallow boy's voice was Akashi's eyes full of anger: "You better Don't make me angry, are you using my patience with you as an excuse for being willful?"

The strength of holding the hands of the childhood sweetheart in his hands was a lot heavier, and the young man who could no longer find traces of warmth on his face lowered his head to look at her.The fine rose-colored hair fell on her face along the outline of the boy's delicate face. The close breathing distance between the two did not make Chiaki Sugawara turn his head sideways. He was determined to explain everything clearly to Akashi. Instead, Sugawara Chiaki met Akashi's condescending gaze frankly: "If you think so, I'm sorry, but you're right, I'm indeed using your tolerance for me as an excuse for being willful. "

The young man in front of him is no stranger. Chiaki Sugawara, who has seen Akashi look like this countless times during his years of getting along with Akashi, knows that Akashi may have a dual personality.She never thought of going to confirm this guess, because for her, no matter which Akashi it is, the tolerance for her is not fake.So, she wants to—

Disregarding the dark meaning of the wind and rain in the air, Chiaki Sugawara smiled and rubbed Akashi's forehead. She was a little shy when she did this kind of intimacy since she grew up, and there was a smile on her face. There was a thin layer of blush, but she was determined to face everything, and then she put her forehead against Akashi's after she collected herself.

The boy's soft red hair touched her forehead with some icy cold temperature, and when she saw Akashi's cold eyes, she showed a gentle smile as always.

"Although you already know about this matter, I guess I have forgotten this sentence in my memory, but it doesn't matter if I say it again." Turning a blind eye to Akashi's indifferent expression, he tilted his head slightly and leaned against Akashi She whispered on the shoulder: "I didn't intend to say it at first, but after thinking about it, I think that if I don't say it, I will probably regret it for the rest of my life."

"..." Said that sentence in a raving tone, as if relieved in her heart, she relaxed her body, leaned quietly on Akashi's shoulder, and her soft and clear voice flowed slowly like a mountain stream: "I hope You are living a better life than anyone else, better than anyone else. I will actively cooperate with the treatment, Akashi, you have to work hard to help me find a way!"

Changing her sad and powerless tone before, she smiled brighter than ever before and gestured with her fingers: "But another me, or countless other me, may imitate me in order to prevent them from disappearing. Of course, I have no experience in this area, this is just what I saw on TV—" Muttering softly that she was really thinking too much, Chiaki Sugawara heard Akashi next to her reassure her in a firm tone: "I will If you find a way, you will."

"Then that's really great." Said briskly, Sugawara Chiaki pursed her lips and smiled: "With Akashi's words, I think everything will be fine."

——So, as long as Akashi is gone, no one can beat you anymore.Because Akashi is such a person you hate.

Although she was very afraid of forgetting everything, if one day the person who hurt her important person was herself, she would rather not remember anything and become another person completely, completely away from her important person.

Following Akashi's footsteps and getting out of the car, Chiaki Sugawara saw Akashi's father standing outside the door with a hostile expression staring at Akashi. In her heart, she had nothing to do with his father who was sometimes serious and sometimes off-line. She turned around and thanked Akashi who sent her home .

But Akashi didn't leave immediately, Chiaki Sugawara, who raised the corners of her mouth slightly in a daze, bent her beautiful crescent eyes, ignoring her father's "Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo" into Akashi's arms.

The clean breath of the young man overflowed into her body through the fresh air after the rain. Sugawara Chiaki took a deep breath and smiled faintly in Akashi's arms: "It's okay, everything will be fine, I promise."

She made such a promise, and Akashi also believed it, but she left after making such a promise.

After Luoshan and Seirin finished the final of the Winter Cup, Akashi, who lost the match, saw her leaving back.

The dim street light elongated her shadow, and she left without looking back at Akashi.

The countless branches and leaves of youth withered the soul in the boundless night.

The author has something to say: I was too excited to write the ending yesterday, and I only wrote 0 words all afternoon, what would I say? TVT My credit has already fallen below 3, and it has reached a negative number... If it was me before, This chapter will definitely try to exaggerate the tragic atmosphere, but now I almost took OTZ [She Gone] is the ending I set when I started the article. Later, when I wrote more than ten chapters, I changed the ending, and I said I wanted a lover. At the end of the chapter, I changed the ending again, and I changed the ending again when I got stuck in the ending yesterday, so the ending I use now is the ending I will use when I write more than a dozen chapters.The finale of the next chapter, the author who has given up on exaggerating the atmosphere promises not to be cruel, all kinds of descriptions (╯‵ ′)╯︵┻━┻╭(╯[-]╰)╮Jiyou’s column asks for support and picture copywriting I can’t find the place, the custom map is too big, so I’ll put it here→_→