rejuvenation

I have never been able to take transportation, whether it is by car or plane, I will feel sleepy after a while, and then doze off. It is said that this is also a kind of motion sickness and airsickness, but it is not strong.

So I started to feel drowsy after the plane flew for a while. Xiao Ke looked at me, put down the arm of the chair, turned me over to let me rest on his lap, covered the blanket, and said softly: "It's 20 more It's been a few hours, sleep well."

I lay my pillow on his lap, smelling the faint smell of his body, and remembered that when we lived together in the past, I often pillowed on his lap and read an e-book at night, and he leaned on the sofa, stroking my cheek with one hand head, also holding a book in one hand.

I closed my eyes, fell into a deep sleep, and indulged my last nostalgia - when I return to China, I will leave him soon.

The familiar feeling makes me sleep well, as if I have returned to the time when everything has not started and everything is still too late.

Rabindranath Tagore wrote a poem, "If I never meet you in this life, let me never meet you—let me never forget, let me carry the pain of this sorrow in my waking hours and in my dreams."

Sometimes it may be even crazier for engineering men to become obsessed with literature and art. This poem is obviously very logically unreasonable, and the words and sentences are not colorful, but when I turned to this poem, it seemed as if I was hit hard in the chest by a hammer, and my nose was sore and my eyes were hot After that, every time I wake up from a dream, I think of this sad pain, the emptiness of nothing and the loneliness that can never be filled. Living in a mansion, with good friends by your side, and the house full of music and music, you still feel that the whole world is extremely empty without that person.

When I got off the plane, he hugged me. In fact, I wanted to go by myself, but he kept hugging me, as if he wanted to gain strength or prove something.

A driver came to pick us up. I was silent and looked out the window all the way. I haven't seen so many yellow people for a long time. I was fascinated by the familiar domestic scenery.When I entered the urban area, I could hardly recognize the street scene on the road. I could only know the familiar road name by looking at the street signs... It was only five years, but it seemed to me that a lifetime had passed. When I came back, people were things. No.I noticed that the car was going to Xiao's old house, and I felt a little uncomfortable.

I don't like any members of the Xiao family, except for the reason of jealousy, and the members of their family seem to have a pair of snobbish eyes. Before we were ten years old, we lived in the same compound. At that time, my parents were still in high positions. When Xiao Ke's mother saw me, a smile appeared on her face, and she called me enthusiastically: "Guan Sheng came to play with our Xiao Ke, come and eat sweets." Later, my parents died, and she When she saw me, she was cold and indifferent, and sometimes she didn’t even say hello, and once she even taught Xiao Ke’s younger sister in front of me: “When Xiao’e goes to play at other people’s houses, she should take the initiative to call her elders when she sees her, and she didn’t let the elders take the initiative to come.” The reason for greeting." Then my uncle and aunt also died, and she said in front of me: "Guan Sheng, why don't you go to an expert to see if you can change your life? This relative is too weak, isn't it? Life is too hard, it’s a nuisance.”

At that time, she was young, but later she also knew that the world was hot and cold, so she gradually stopped setting foot in the Xiao family.

I sat up straight and felt my spine stiff. Xiao Ke noticed this and probably thought I was worrying about the unknown future. He whispered: "I'll have a meal at my uncle's parents' house in a while, and get to know him. Uncle's parents, you can call grandpa and grandma, they are all very nice, don't worry, just ask me if you have any requirements."

I pursed my lips and didn't want to speak, so I leaned towards the window, away from Xiao Ke, Xiao Ke glanced at me, but didn't speak.But when the car stopped, he got out of the car first, opened the door for me, and carried me out of the car.

I struggled to get off the ground, but Xiao Ke patted my butt and said softly, "Good boy, uncle hugs you."

The Xiao Family Mansion is a villa with a combination of Chinese and Western styles. It is surrounded by mountains and rivers. It is said that it was the private residence of a high-ranking Kuomintang official in the former Kuomintang period. He spent a lot of thought and went to Taiwan before he could move in. After passing several hands, it is said that this house An expert was invited to investigate Fengshui, the location is very good, Wang family, Xiao Ke's grandfather spent a lot of effort to get it down, and he was happy with his son soon after living in it, and he believed it and went straight to it. It was designated as the home of the family, and the Xiao family had a strong population. When the old man of the Xiao family was still there, I came to visit with my parents once, because my deceased grandfather and old man Xiao were comrades-in-arms in the same trench, and they really lived and died together. My father and Xiao Ke's father happened to work in the same city and lived in the same compound. At that time, our friendship was quite good, and Xiao Ke and I were so close.

Who knew that our Lin family would wither later, and I was the only one left in just a few decades. In fact, Xiao Ke and I were separated in the third year of junior high school. His father was promoted to another city, and I wanted to live with my uncle and aunt, so we separated like this , When I met again, I became an orphan again, was admitted to university, and reunited with Xiao Ke in the university... Then, we fell in love, and the gluey time was only four years, but it seemed that the feelings that could be used in a lifetime had been burned. Xiao Ke told me that he decided to get married.

The Xiao family advocates having more children, more blessings, and brotherhood, so they have always married early, and the old man of the Xiao family has a clear military style, saying what he says, and the marriages of the children and grandchildren are almost finalized by him, and no one dares to disobey.Father Xiao was his second son, and the eldest son had already died in the cannon fire, so Mr. Xiao especially valued the second son of his wretched wife. Xiao Ke was the eldest grandson, and he doted on him since he was a child. Later, Mr. Xiao added three uncles to Xiao Ke at once. , the youngest of them is younger than Xiao Ke, and it really is the spirit of the dragon and the horse.

I especially remember that once I overheard Father Xiao teaching Xiao Ke's uncle: "Look at the old man of the Lin family, he is determined not to remarry after he is widowed, and he refuses to marry his son a daughter from a big family. A daughter-in-law who has no foundation, in the end, the only seedling is gone, and the remaining grandson has no one to entrust, and is reduced to being raised by a foreigner. Who will help you? Such a good foundation, if it is gone, it will be gone. Continue to marry, have a few more children, and have a few uncles around to help. With the merits earned by the old man of the Lin family, the comrades-in-arms will take care of face, and they can prosper the family no matter what, or find a daughter-in-law with some background. There is also a family with a strong background who lifts up the little grandson. As a result, who still remembers the Lin family? So in a family like ours, marrying a wife and having children is a responsibility and obligation to the family. In just a few years, the blood vessels have thinned and the population is sparse, don't let others push you, you will fall yourself!"

Look, my house turned out to be such a negative teaching material.

Entering the iron gate is the lawn, and beside the road are some old sycamores, tall and thickly shaded. Xiao Ke carried me all the way in, and someone stopped on the road and greeted him: "The third brother is back?" They all have more or less similar faces. The characteristics of the Xiao family, deep eyes, thick eyebrows, high nose and a particularly hard jaw.In general, Mr. Xiao is a successful winner in life. He used the capital he worked hard for to the fullest. His children and grandchildren have made achievements in all walks of life.

After Mr. Xiao passed away, Father Xiao justifiably presided over the Xiao family. After getting married, several half-brothers also lived in the city where they lived. They only came back for a gathering during the holidays. However, they also sent some nephews to study here. , I think it is also to borrow the blessing and fortune of the house.Xiao's father was in charge of the military industry back then, and the three uncles were all from the military, politics, and business. When Xiao Ke arrived, he had a unique vision and established a communication company outside. Now the several branches of the Xiao family are all relying on the dividends from Xiao Ke's dry shares to eat, so naturally they all sent their children here one after another, so that they can get closer to the direct line, so naturally there will always be a share of the pie.

In fact, when he started from scratch when he was a student, when he raised funds by himself and started a company with a few classmates, he didn't get the support of Xiao's father. Over the years, the domestic communication industry has developed rapidly and the market demand is huge. Xiao Ke, a high-tech company, quickly entered the vision of the upper-level people. Afterwards, it merged with several companies, reorganized, restructured, and went public. With the full support of the Xiao family, it transformed itself into Behemoth.Who knows that Xiao Ke's original intention at the beginning was to start his own business, to be able to support himself, and then to have the right to speak, to be able to make decisions about his own life-long affairs, not to marry a famous lady as Xiao's father asked, but to be able to marry a famous lady? I am together.Who would have thought that this small communication company would become more and more powerful later on, and in the end the interests of all parties would become intertwined, and Xiao Ke, as the founding leader of the company, would unknowingly become the key to the family's interests, and the focus of all parties' games, but he would never be able to escape. .

He decided to get married after careful consideration. He didn't talk to me about his difficulties. I also know why he chose this way. The two of them are fighting against the whole world, delaying their youth, exhausting their passion, complaining, regretting and suspicious. Resentment, turning against each other and eventually becoming strangers, if we hadn't made a decision earlier when we still have a good impression of each other, maybe we can each have a good life.

We parted peacefully.

But there is no one difference and two widths.