rejuvenation

I don't know what kind of visa he applied for. He stayed in Colombia for more than a month, and there were constant phone calls from the country, which could be heard urging him, but he just prevaricated with a sullen face.

One day he came to look for me very tired, with bloodshot eyes and obvious stubble on his chin, but he still tried to maintain a gentle tone: "Your father has not been found yet, and my visa is about to expire. In order to ensure your future I need to transfer your guardianship to my name, and we will transfer it when your father comes back, okay?"

I looked up at him, nodded in silence for a while, he must give up, if he doesn’t give up, I can’t bear it anymore, watching him go out after answering the phone every day, and then go back to the house exhausted at night, He wanted to smoke like hell, but he was still depressed. When he got up in the morning, he would always see him sitting on the sofa and staring out the window in a daze. He lost weight at a speed visible to the naked eye.Sometimes he would ask me about "your father"'s living habits and preferences, but because I was always concise, he gradually stopped asking me, probably because he was afraid that I would be sad. He has always been a very gentle person.

Xiao Ke stretched out his hand and touched my head, he seemed to be hesitating again and again, and then said softly: "Did your father tell you my name and phone number, and who I am?"

I raised my eyes to look at him, his eyes were full of anticipation and well-hidden uneasiness, but unfortunately I couldn’t hide it from me who knew him too well, this question had probably been in his heart for many days, but he hoped to hear What?He is my favorite person?Is he the one I wish I could miss forever?But he is married, it is true that he is very sad, but I am just a passerby, he has his family, time will make him forget me.

It hurts my heart to think about it, so all I can say is, "He says you can be trusted."

He smiled wryly, picked me up, and put me on his knees. My whole body froze, but his chest was still so warm. How many times have I buried myself in his arms and acted like a baby to him? He found me He was very nervous, patted me gently, and did not let me go. Gradually, I relaxed my body and leaned against his arms, smelling that he still had a faint smell of cigarettes. I haven't smoked in front of me either.

The procedures were completed unexpectedly quickly. One day he came back and told me that he was my newest guardian. The next day he started to pack things. He packed all the books on the desk and bookshelf without missing a single volume. I tidied toys and clothes aside. In fact, these things probably wouldn’t be taken away, but Xiao Ke still asked me to tidy them up.These are all Xiao Wu's old things. In fact, if you look closely, you can find that his clothes are a bit narrow and short. After all, he has always been thin, and I was well nourished when I was a child, much stronger than him. Suspicious, I made do with it.When I was tidying up these things, I thought of Xiao Wu, and felt sad again. After tidying up for a while, I looked up and saw Xiao Ke standing still, quietly looking at a notebook.

I was a little curious, pretending to be passing by to pick up something, glanced at it, and found that it was my previous work diary... But some pages were densely written with Xiao Ke's name, I was dumbfounded... I have forgotten that there is such a hypocrisy It's time!At that time, when I first arrived in Colombia, I rushed to visit the construction site every day to extinguish the burning flame in my heart, but I couldn't control it, so I wrote the name page by page, as if this could alleviate the name that was deeply visible in my heart. inscription.

The feeling of shame surged up again, but I really didn't know what to do, so I had to pretend not to pay attention to tidy up those picture books. He stood there motionless in the corner of my eyes, and slowly slid his fingers across the names. I didn't dare to look at his expression, so I had to pretend to be casual and asked him: "Isn't it too much to bring all these things back to China? Do you want to throw some away?"

Xiao Ke looked up at me for a while, as if he just woke up after a while, and replied: "Throw it away?... No need." He carefully closed the notebook, and said softly: "You don't have to worry about not being able to take it with you. Questions, as long as you think it is important, you can take it with you... I have chartered the plane, don't worry."

I was silent, knowing that the Xiao family is no longer what it used to be, but I really didn't expect it to be so proud-look, how could Xiao Ke give up his family business, give up his family, and come to live with Lin Guansheng as an ordinary person with such a big stall? Chai Mi life?

The date of returning to China has been set, but Xiao Ke has not given up running out, he has not given up.

I was leaving the next day, my luggage was already packed, Xiao Ke still hadn't come back, I couldn't wait, the child's body was overwhelming and overwhelming, so I went to bed first.

In the middle of the night, I was awakened by strange noises from the living room.

I got up and went out, the weather was already in May, and the night was not cold, I went out barefoot, without making a sound, and then saw the living room with the lights off, in the darkness, Xiao Ke was sitting on the sofa, Leaning forward, covering his face with his hands, he let out a choked and suppressed sob.

In the dark night, the extremely suppressed sobbing sound was very soft, but I could feel the great sadness in it.

Xiao Ke seldom cries. Since I met him, he has been indestructible. His will is like steel. Nothing can hit him. He never loses his composure. His hands and feet were numb, and he just hugged me without saying a word.

I love him, seeing him sad, I feel pain and pain in my heart, as if there is a cold and thin knife, gouging it out one by one, I walked over gently, with my small hands I went to put my arms around his shoulders, he raised his head to look at me, his face could not be seen clearly in the dark night, I only heard him say to me in a hoarse voice: "I am really useless... I can't even take him back... ...how can I leave him here alone...he is so afraid of heat...he is thousands of miles away from his hometown...would he get lost..."

My tears also welled up, and the heat was choking in my throat. I had an urge to tell him that I was still alive, and I was here...but I saw my trembling little hands...even if I told him, I could How about it?What's more, when we return to China, his family and his wife are still waiting for him.

He is no longer mine.Time will take everything away.

In the end I just whispered, "He's not dead, he's just missing."

He opened his mouth, as if he wanted to speak, but let out a long, uncontrollable sob. He covered his face with his palms, and some long forehead hair hung down, covering his face.

I hugged him tightly, hoping that he would not be so sad, and that time would pass quickly and give my lover the forgotten gift.I began to regret my choice when I saw his grief with my own eyes, but fate made me have no other way to go, and I had lost the right to decide where I would go.

Later he carried me into the room, put his cold feet on his stomach, then hugged me and said in a low voice, "Sleep, we still have to fly tomorrow."

I curled up in his arms, and tears flowed silently. He has been hugging me, and his movements have not changed.At dawn, I saw him sitting still with his eyes open, watching me get up to dress me after waking up, and regained his calm appearance, as if the fragility and tears of the previous night were all a dream.

Then the doorbell rang, and his assistant should have brought us breakfast, and then he would take us to the airport. Others cleaned up my apartment. From then on, the traces of Lin Guansheng in this world will also be wiped clean.

The plane passed through the clouds, and Xiao Ke covered me with a blanket. I looked at the clouds that had been cut outside, as if I were dreaming.