rejuvenation

He didn't believe me, and my voice was trembling: "I'm Lin Guansheng, you know...my tattoos, my appearance...that flood had an accident, I became smaller...you said, I'm not allowed to have any more tattoos... …The day we met in college, I was riding a bicycle, and you and Guan Linfeng were together… Later you invited me to a concert, we were sitting upstairs, and I was still asleep… Our first time The kiss was by the lake, it was very cold that day, you put your clothes on me, but I caught a cold the next day..." I talked about the past incoherently, trying to prove that I was Lin Guansheng.

Xiao Ke took a deep breath, looking at me with surprise and fear in his eyes: "Xiao Wu... I will hire you a psychiatrist, you wait at home... I don't know what Guan Sheng told you before, or whether I should give you a psychiatrist. You left something like a diary, making you imagine that you are him..." His voice also began to tremble, and he seemed to be frightened by me, who was always calm, he almost didn't dare to look at me again, put away his bowl and left in a hurry out of the kitchen.

Then I heard him on the phone, asking for an introduction to a therapist.

I will be sent to a mental hospital by him.

I suddenly realized this, am I going to tell the psychiatrist that I have become a child?A mental hospital and being sent to the Academy of Sciences for research, I think the former is more likely, but I suddenly found out, even if I prove that I am Lin Guansheng, so what?

If Xiao Ke had already decided to be with Guan Linfeng, would he turn around and be with this underage Tianshan Child Elder?He said he regarded me as his son, and he was telling the truth.If he didn't decide, how would he face me?The important thing is not whether I am Lin Guansheng, the important thing is, will Xiao Ke really accept that I am Lin Guansheng?It's because I'm dead that he feels guilty and misses me so much...

Why do I have to tear off this last fig leaf?I can still fantasize that he still loves Lin Guansheng without debunking it. If the final reality proves cruelly that he can no longer be with me, how can I be with myself?

All these years, it's just a little warmth that I stole from his side.

My tears kept falling.

When the psychiatrist came, my eyes were swollen. When Xiao Ke saw it, he silently took a cold towel to apply to my eyes.

I took a towel and pressed it on my eyes, Xiao Ke introduced the doctor to me, and then went out, letting me talk to the psychologist alone.

I calmly told the psychiatrist that I was just quarreling with my father and joking to scare him, because I watched a horror movie a few days ago, in which a girl was possessed by an old ghost, which was very scary.

The psychiatrist was skeptical, and talked with me for a while. I tried my best to conform to the image of a 13-year-old boy, and talked as usual. After talking for more than an hour, he finally went out.

When Xiao Ke sent the psychiatrist away, he looked at me with complicated eyes, I didn't look at him again, walked back to the room, and started to pack my luggage.

He looked at it silently for a while, and said softly: "Xiao Wu, I'm sorry." I didn't speak, and finally he couldn't help asking: "Does your father have a diary?"

I said coldly, "He told me in my dreams every night."

Xiao Ke was silent, and after a long time, he said softly: "I will send you to school tomorrow, you should calm down for a while, and make some new friends... I promise, it will never treat you differently because of this matter... You, don't be angry with me, okay?"

I stopped talking, and the next day he drove me to Linhai High School in S City, a fully closed boarding school, and went through the admission procedures for me. I watched him pack for me without saying a word. , He seemed hesitant to speak, and finally left me a card and a stack of cash, and I took it without saying a word.Watching his car drive away gave me a chill.

Many years ago, I lost my parents overnight, but at that time I still had my uncle and uncle, and Xiao Ke. Later, my uncle withdrew from my life, and Xiao Ke met me again. Today, I found that there is always a glimmer of hope in my life, and then I snuff it out with my own hands.

I thought I still had a chance.

School started soon, and I returned to my old solitary life. This school has small class teaching, one desk in a row, no deskmates, which is quite good. I am actually not used to the deskmate next to me not being Ning Yin.I keep a distance from the people in the dormitory and my classmates. They are older than me and look down on me as a young and arrogant youth. Seeing that I don’t like to talk, they naturally don’t bother to talk to me, which makes me feel good clean.

I still remember what Xiao Ke said, asking me to take over his family business and get to know more rich and powerful children, hehe, does he still dare to say that now?It would be great if I was really his son. I have no other thoughts, and it's good to concentrate on being a father and son.It's just that I have delusional thoughts about him, which is why I am in such pain.

One month after school started, Xiao Ke came to visit me. The teacher in the dormitory notified me by phone. I said I couldn’t see him. I turned off my mobile phone and didn’t return to the dormitory. I took a history book and ran to a corner of the campus to memorize it. I started from my head. Endorsement can make people feel calm.

I turned on my phone at night and found that I received a text message from Xiao Ke: "Is the money enough? Why is the money on the card useless? Don't make yourself miserable, just buy whatever you want."

I didn’t reply, I put his money and card together and locked them up. I eat all my own these days, and I went to talk to the teacher in the library, and asked for a copy to sort out the books after class. My work-study job, the monthly salary is very little, only 300 yuan, the work is very simple, that is, to put back the books returned by the students according to the number, that is, my skin will be a little allergic to the dust on those books, and the edge of the book will itch The skin will leave a line of red marks, slightly itchy, which will disappear after a few hours.The teacher was very moved. This private school has a high tuition fee, and the students are probably either rich or expensive, or they are all students who hold their breath all the time to go to college. No one is willing to work and study.

I smiled, the fully enclosed management of this school is very suitable. I want to avoid Xiao Ke’s mood now. Parents want to see that the students are like visiting prisons. Well, I don't want to be his "son" anymore.

Very late, he sent another text message: "Are you still angry with me? Even if you are angry, don't take revenge on your body..."

I still ignored him and he never texted me again.

But the teacher at the library told me embarrassingly that the school decided not to hire students because of the new assistant recruited. After all, high school students still have heavy learning tasks. The school reports to apply for financial aid.

Of course I don’t know how to fight, I know Xiao Ke did something wrong, and I’m not angry, forget it, the money is nothing, I just want to keep myself busy, I took the history book, page by page He memorized the textbook abruptly.

During the mid-term exam, it was no surprise that I got the first grade in the exam, but the advantage is not obvious. These children are really good, and I received a text message from Xiao Ke to congratulate me at night.I watched it for a long time, and remembered that I had passed a very difficult subject in the past. Xiao Ke took me to eat a seafood feast and said to celebrate the past, and my heart ached a little.I don't know if he and Guan Linfeng are really together. Guan Linfeng has a lot of evil thoughts, but it's a pity that he hasn't conquered it after so many years, so he may not be able to fulfill his wish. I looked at my slightly protruding Adam's apple in the mirror , and once again very hopeless, there was a slight expectation.