rejuvenation

Ning Yin was 13 years old when he found out that he would respond to boys.The object is the tablemate who has always been regarded as the best brother and best friend.

He met him when he was seven years old. He was small, with double eyelids, big eyes, red lips and white teeth. He skipped two grades and entered the third grade when he was only six years old. When he first became the same deskmate, he was very satisfied, because this new deskmate and The other students are different, it is annoying to ask long and short questions, he seldom speaks, and most of them are silent to others, and when he is not speaking, he can always see a trace of melancholy.He hated making friends since he was a child, because the other party would always ask him: "What does your father do? What does your mother do? Where do you live?" Later, when he learned that he was an illegitimate child from other places, he would He began to ridicule, disgust, and ostracism. Later, he beat his classmates and changed schools. His father spent money to change him to a school that was said to be the best. He always treated him well in terms of material and conditions, but he What you want is not these.

He knew that he was different from the other brothers. When the father's wife was with her children, she would deliberately alienate him and never hug him, but she was especially kind to those two children.Afterwards, probably because of guilt, he would buy him gifts and sweets in private. He ate sweets and drinks casually since he was a child, but his two brothers were strictly disciplined by their father and wife, and they were not allowed to eat indiscriminately.Few people in the family took the initiative to talk to him. Even the driver and nanny tried to ignore him as much as possible. No matter how good his test scores were, no matter how much he was praised by the teacher, no one cared.

He has no friends, no parents, and no one who loves him. His titular guardian, grandma, regards him as a cash cow. Occasionally, when he goes back to see her, she always talks about asking him to ask for money from his "father" and to please his new "mother". the emergence of.

Later, he accidentally heard gossip from other classmates, and he realized that Xiao Wu was as embarrassing as himself. He was an adopted orphan, and the Xiao family did not welcome him.No wonder he didn't like to talk, he was still so young, he felt a little sympathetic when he looked at the kid who was obviously bored but still forced himself to sit upright when he was in class.

Later, he found that the child seemed to be very kind to him. He would sharpen the pencil for him by the way. He would hand himself a whole plate of fruit, and when it was their turn to be on duty, he was obviously a year younger than himself, but he was extraordinarily diligent. He finished all the work of sprinkling water, sweeping the floor and wiping the blackboard, unlike other desks on duty, who were all It takes half of one person to do it.

Other students began to be rude, calling him a pug, but he didn't seem to care at all. He observed carefully and found that he was not flattering him, and he didn't care about being cold-faced by him. His attitude in doing those things was very natural , didn't think it was a big deal, he was actually taking care of himself who was older than him.

He let go of his arrogance a little bit, and found that the child became close to him, and gradually he discovered that the child and the people close to him would take on a different appearance, and seemed to be more pleasing and nagging to himself.I don't like to talk with other classmates, but I talk a lot to myself alone, and I am especially gentle with myself.

For a long time, he liked this kind of special that was different only to himself. He even hoped that that friend was just his friend, and he didn't want him to make friends with others, and he didn't want him to talk to others. He knew it was wrong for him, but he Really think so.

He later found out that he had such a paranoid possessive desire since he was a child because he lacked a sense of security and a sense of belonging, and nothing really belonged to him. Someone else's husband and someone else's father, he raised himself, but refused to have a legal relationship with himself, so he longed for something and affection that really belonged to him.

On the day he found out that he had a reaction, he was curious to see Xiao Wu's new tattoo. He had never seen anyone else's tattoo, and he never expected that the obedient and silent Xiao Wu would get a tattoo.

The golden sun shone into the dormitory at noon that day, and the youthful and immature body was lying on the quilt. The waist and hips, which were extraordinarily flexible and strong because of practicing Taekwondo all the year round, formed a beautiful arc. In the depression at the bottom of the tight back, a cluster of blue roses bloomed on the fair and delicate skin. At that time, he felt a rush of heat rushing towards his lower abdomen. He reached out and touched the rose. The obvious change in his lower abdomen made him Shocked, he patted the tattoo, and hurried to the bathroom to cover up the change. He thought a little angrily, how could he react to boys?wrong!It must be because only looking at the back, Xiao Wu looks too much like a woman!It must be so!

He had a dream at night, and dreamed of the seductive waist and full curves again. When he woke up, he was sweating profusely and the sheets were wet.

He was frightened by the possibility of being gay, he didn't understand that there are many people in the modeling industry, but he never thought that he was one of them.

He alienated Xiao Wu, and quickly found a girlfriend. She was tall and slender, with long legs and thin waist, short hair and big eyes. Some classmates teased him that he was in the model circle, so he liked tall girls with flat chests. In fact, he knew that Among so many girls who confessed to him, this one looks the most like Xiao Wu.

He walked with the girl hand in hand, kissed under the flower tree, went shopping with her, watched movies, and did all the things that boyfriend and girlfriend should do. He told himself that he was normal, it was just a momentary confusion, he probably liked Xiao Wu this type of girl.

However, during a self-study class in one afternoon, Xiao Wu lay on the desk and fell asleep sleepily, with his side face buried in his arms soundly, flushed, with long eyelashes, rosy lips slightly parted, white shirt pulled up, revealing With a white and tight waist, he had a reaction again. The strong and direct reaction made him no longer able to deceive himself. When he was with his girlfriend, even if it was kissing, he didn't respond. , but he had the urge to kiss her.

He went to the bathroom, closed his eyes, thought of Xiao Wu, released it, and tears flowed from his eyes.

If Xiao Wu knew that he had such thoughts about him, would the face that had always treated him tenderly turn into disgust and fear?

He broke up with his girlfriend unilaterally. The girl didn't understand. She made a fuss and joined the sisters. That fool foolishly helped his cousin to ask the reason for the breakup. Of course he ignored him, and he went on his own. Read the book, but not angry at all.

He seems to have no temper, he is very tolerant to himself, nagging all day long like an old woman worried about his studies, but if he knows that he is the same... Will he still be so tolerant to himself?Will he still smile at himself with such a good temper?

He tells himself to be a brother every day, don't think about it, he is still young, the most important thing is to be self-reliant, leave the Ning family as soon as possible, he wants to earn a lot of money, have a life that he can decide, and then...then what?He very much hopes to have that kind of future, Xiao Wu's future, a home of his own, a warm person who only treats him well, and that person is Xiao Wu. For the first time, he has a desire in his chest, such a desire. To have such a person, who belongs to him completely, only smiles at him, only nags at him, cares about him, loves him, worries about him, and worries about him.

At the shooting site that day, he saw a colleague rushed in by a woman and beat him up, insulting him for seducing other people's husbands, male vixen, sissy, and many people standing by. He stepped forward to pull those shrews away, but was Pointing his nose and calling him gay, he was in an extremely bad mood.

In order to avoid Xiao Wu, he hid from him for a long time. That day he went back to school with a bad mood, went through the formalities of applying for leave, went back to the dormitory to pack his luggage and went abroad, but when he returned to the dormitory, he saw Zhang Lingyuan laughing while pressing Xiao Wu, that child His face was flushed with laughter, tears were streaming down his face, he was gasping for words, his clothes were completely crumpled, revealing his fair and firm skin, which naturally tempted him. He was laughing, but he had to suppress his emotions again and again!The feelings he had suppressed for so long and the pain he suffered repeatedly made him say hurtful things to him. In his anger, he didn't know what he said. The face that had time to retract the smile slowly flushed, and the eyes were full of shock and grievance, staring at him at a loss.

He didn't dare to look at his injured eyes anymore, he took his luggage and fled the classroom indiscriminately, staying in Thailand for a month.

When he returned to school, his heart had already calmed down. He wanted to say sorry to Xiao Wu. I must be able to understand it!They can still be good friends, the same as before, he is so young and defenseless against himself, they can go back to the old days.

he thought guilty.

However, fate never gave him this chance again.

The school was already on vacation. During that summer vacation, he mustered up the courage to make a phone call, but that person had already traveled abroad with his adoptive father, and the phone could not get through.

It was only when school started again that he found out that his deskmate had already taken the high school entrance examination, skipped two grades, and went directly to high school... He has always had good grades, so skipping grades is not surprising.

As long as you want to, of course you can still contact him, but he looked at the empty table on the other side with some blankness, thinking, that's it.

It's just that he hasn't told him yet that he doesn't hate his nagging, he likes the feeling that someone cares about him, he likes him so much, he once boldly imagined a life with him in his future, he knows that the future will not be It may be possible to grasp, there are too many variables, but he really, very, very much liked him.

But when he was only 14 years old, he had already begun to lose love.