rejuvenation

After the game, there is an exam. After the exam, the results are obtained. Ning Yin is really a little bit higher than me.This makes me even more regretful. I am a person who likes to follow the traditional path. I am only born with sexuality and cannot change it. Because of this, I hope to have an ordinary life. When I was 16 years old, I had no relatives. It was so heavy. Under the blow of the school, I was admitted to a prestigious school. When it was very difficult, I recited vocabulary while working, but never gave up studying.

Why don't I know that everyone has his own way, and 360 lines can lead to the champion, but I can't see Ning Yin's waste of talent like this. He can easily surpass many people, but he is too anxious to skip the accumulation. The life stage of knowledge, the seedlings are encouraged.

After the winter vacation, Ning Yin still asked for leave so often, probably my habit of preaching still annoyed him a bit, and we gradually became a little unfamiliar.

At the end of the first semester of junior high school, Ning Yin and Xiao Weilin had a falling out because he dumped his girlfriend. Somehow, Xiao Weilin and that girl seemed to belong to the student union, and they had a good relationship, so they quarreled with Ning Yin Fall out.

And as Ning Yin's friend, I was angered by Xiao Weilin and refused to talk to me anymore. This is really a youthful and colorful youth, they are always angry, annoyed, bickering and turning their faces over some trivial things.

That day during the lunch break, Zhang Lingyuan and Zhang Lingyuan were joking in the dormitory, and for some reason, they moved their hands while talking. Zhang Lingyuan stretched out his hand and squeaked me. Leaning over, she shouted, "Stop making trouble, I'm ticklish..."

Before he finished speaking, the door suddenly opened, and Ning Yin came back. He glanced at us, with an indifferent expression, and walked directly to his bed, pulled out a luggage bag and stuffed his clothes inside, as if he was about to travel far again look.

I pushed Zhang Lingyuan away, sat up and straightened my crumpled T-shirt, and talked to Ning Yin: "Xiao Yin, you haven't come back for a few days, and the final exam is coming soon."

Ning Yin suddenly broke out: "Exam exam, can you stop being so annoying?"

I was stunned, Ning Yin stared at me with dark eyes, and there was disgust inside: "Xiao Wu, I thought that you are like me, no one can rely on you in this world, so you can only work hard, but I Unexpectedly, you are willing to live a parasitic life, coveting comfort, using other people's money and things without shame, having no ambitions, no purpose, and being at the mercy of others all your life. That's all, everyone has their own ambitions, but I think at least you should understand me , You are really bored to death, you know? You are so self-indulgent like a woman! You talk about boring truths every day! Do you think you are a saint who wants to save everything? Do you think you can interfere and control others life? Stop being self-righteous! You should go to church to preach!"

I was stunned, my face was flushed, I never thought that Ning Yin would be like this...hating me, Ning Yin gave me a cold look, took the luggage bag and pushed the door directly out.

Zhang Lingyuan looked at me and said cautiously: "He probably got angry elsewhere, don't take it to heart."

I looked at him and explained: "I'm not trying to interfere and control other people's lives... I just think he's very talented, and it's a waste not to study."

Zhang Lingyuan comforted me: "I know, you have a good heart, and you are not the kind of person who loves to point fingers. You usually don't like to talk to outsiders. You only treat yourself like this."

I'm very sad, Zhang Lingyuan's comfort doesn't make me feel good, maybe I regard Ning Yin as my best friend, but he doesn't think so.

After that, Ning Yin didn't come back for half a month, and he didn't even take the final exam. Until the summer vacation was coming, he heard that he went abroad to shoot commercials... In fact, he really went farther and farther, maybe it was really I manage too much.

I reflect on myself, looking at the empty other half of the table every day, but always feel uncomfortable.

Then Zhang Lingyuan also came to me that day: "Xiao Wu, I'm going abroad, I'm here to say goodbye to you."

I was taken aback: "You went abroad at such a young age?"

Zhang Lingyuan nodded: "First go to the United States to study in a language school for two years, and then go directly to the high school there. Familiar with traditional culture, but higher education is more advanced and more creative. In fact, I should go after graduating from elementary school. I was reluctant at the time, and I stayed for another year. Now I should go. Xiaowu, I am very reluctant your."

Zhang Lingyuan's eye circles were red: "Don't forget about me, I will video chat with you when I arrive in the United States, okay?"

I nodded, feeling really sad in my heart. This kid has a big heart and a gentle temper. After all these years, I still remember the first time he saw me, he looked like a little gentleman who wanted to play with me, Baozi's face was pink, Trying to put on an adult face and said to me: "What do you like to play? I will play with you."

There is no banquet in the world that never ends, and we went our separate ways at such a young age. I suddenly remembered that when Xiao Ke’s father was promoted to another city, he came to say goodbye to me. At that time, I first knew what reluctance in life is. Nothing in the world can be forced, relatives, friends, lovers, all are not controlled by others, and nothing can be kept.

When I went home at night, I was downcast. When I saw Xiao Ke, I remembered what Ning Yin said that I was willing to be a parasite. I suddenly felt that I was greedy to stay by Xiao Ke’s side these years, drifting with the crowd, my body became a child, and my personality changed. After becoming a child, he has achieved nothing for so many years. Indeed, he is not as good as a self-reliant child like Ning Yin.

Xiao Ke could see that I was in a bad mood and asked me: "What's the matter? Did you hear that Zhang Lingyuan was going abroad and was in a bad mood? If you really don't want to part with it, I'll take you to fly there to meet him during the holidays. This is all modern. With the advancement of technology, even videos are available every day, so don’t be depressed.”

Xiao Ke was gentle to me, and I lost my backbone. Now it seems that my body shows no signs of being able to change back. I can only grow up slowly. Is it true that I will be like this in the future, and everything will be arranged by Xiao Ke? Just let Xiao Ke pamper him like a son?Don't I want to stand by his side and become his equal lover?If I depend on him for everything and let him grow up, one day he will know the truth, will he still like me?He must...will hate me...

I can no longer rely on Xiao Ke like this, I must become independent as soon as possible, I am not even as good as Ning Yin.

I raised my head and said seriously to Xiao Ke: "I want to take the senior high school entrance examination directly and skip a grade to enter high school."