Rebirth is more than a year old

It wasn't until the backs of the two were out of sight that Cao Jingyun said, "Why did you and Xiang Nan break up?"

After waiting for a long time for an answer, Cao Jingyun turned his head sideways and saw that Feng Li's gaze was still in the direction where he disappeared to the south just now, as if he hadn't heard his question at all, and his handsome profile showed a deep thought Ning, after a while, Feng Li suddenly said: "If you like someone, what would you do in the situation just now?"

Cao Jingyun thought for a while and said, "I definitely want to hit someone."

Feng Li withdrew his gaze and looked at him, his tone was as calm as his expression, and his charming voice was filled with unnatural tranquility, "But I just wanted to kill that Song Chen, Jing Yun, you What does it mean?" When he said the word "kill", Cao Jingyun had a creepy feeling that his flesh was being cut by a sharp weapon. Feng Li's eyes were always calm when he spoke, but under this calmness, there was a surge of excitement. There is a black undercurrent, just like looking at a calm sea level from a distance, in fact, you don't know what kind of undercurrent is turbulent under its seemingly peaceful surface.

Cao Jingyun looked at him speechlessly, "That means you love Xiang Nan so badly, why do you need to ask?"

Feng Li seemed to be taken aback for a moment, and asked again, "If you fell in love with someone, but later you found out that he is not the original one, what would you do?"

Feng Li also asked Qin Yidao this question, and Qin Yidao's answer at that time was concise and clear, because he is a rough-natured person in terms of emotions.However, Cao Jingyun is different from Qin Yidao after all. According to Cao Qiudong, a man like his third uncle may shock people with his beautiful appearance, but when his mind should be delicate, he is like the tip of a needle.So after hearing this question, Cao Jingyun frowned almost immediately, and looked at Feng Li suspiciously, "What do you mean by that?"

Feng Li looked at him for a while, then smiled softly, "It's okay, you just need to tell me your answer."

Cao Jingyun still looked at him solemnly, and asked in Feng Li's calm gaze: "Don't you already have the answer in your heart?" Then in Feng Li's slightly questioning gaze, he continued: "If it's true as you said Yes, the person you like is not the original one, then you ask such a question now, doesn’t it just mean that you are pretending to be the current person instead of the original one at the moment? If he has no memory of the current person There is no emotion at all, so why do you care so much?" Cao Jingyun said that he almost bypassed himself at the end, what was it all about, he couldn't figure out why Feng Li asked such a seemingly weird question for no reason, and what was even weirder was He also answered him seriously.

Hearing this, Feng Li did not speak for a long time.

Since breaking up with Xiang Nan at his own home last time, in fact, only a few days have passed, but Feng Li feels like his days are like years, and this feeling is very sad.Thinking of the protagonists who were troubled by love in the TV series that he occasionally saw in the past, he was dismissive at that time. Now that he has seen this situation, he knows that feelings are really the most complicated and difficult thing in the world.He has the confidence to become a leader in any field, but he is like a toddler in this field. Occasionally, he dreams back in the middle of the night, thinking of the dream he had for several years, and thinking of holding this man named Xiangnan. When I was young, my heart was full of tenderness, sometimes I felt it was ridiculous, and sometimes it was indescribably sad.

This extreme emotion almost polished off all his willpower.

If today's Xiang Nan is still the boy he admired at the beginning, will they be so tender, sweet and harmonious when they get along.If Xiang Nan is still that boy, is the way he treats this person better or worse than now?If he is still that boy, will this boy bow his head to make tea for him like Xiang Nan, a young man from the past who exists in this space at this moment, and will he talk to him with the same tone, presented in Will the smile in front of his eyes be as calm and peaceful as this young man's?

Feng Li was taken aback by this series of questions, because he found that his mind was filled with that Xiang Nan who told him with a calm face that he was not the one he liked.However, the long and wonderful dream he had was only mentioned occasionally, which meant that Feng Li couldn't be more clear about it.

Time gives everything.

All of this includes the stubbornness of the young Xiangnan, as well as the aloofness of the young Xiangnan.

When Feng Li occasionally calms down, he will think of that night when Xiang Nan bowed his head in his kitchen to make tea for him.If liking a person can reach its peak at a certain moment, Feng Li thought, it was probably at that time that his liking for Xiang Nan changed from liking to love.

It's a strange thing, but it's always been that way.

Feng Li stood by the kitchen door for a long time. He saw Xiang Nan tiptoeing to take out the tea from the cupboard. When he put the tea into the cup, he put his hand between his nostrils and smelled it. An unspeakable satisfaction, Feng Li also felt satisfied looking at this picture.

Many people think that they like to look at you all the time, but what Feng Li understands is to protect that person under his wings. Although he won't overprotect like a baby bird, at least he won't let the person in his heart see you. place injured.

Before meeting Xiang Nan, Feng Li never thought that he would be a good lover, but after taking this person named Xiang Nan as his own, he found that being gentle and considerate is an instinct that does not need to be learned, because he wants to treat him well , so we can do everything in detail, affectionate and considerate.

All this seemed perfect, but it fell apart in an instant when Xiang Nan said, "I don't like the Xiang Nan you like".

Feng Li also remembered that he lost his composure and pressed Xiang Nan under him, asking him to return the original Xiang Nan. Thinking about it now, he was really not a bit of a jerk at that time.How did Xiang Nan answer at that time?He said yes.He spoke so freely and calmly, as if the word was just a simple note to him.

Xiang Nan's ability to be so straightforward is also a factor that makes Feng Li unforgettable.

After several sleepless nights, Feng Li finally spent all his time figuring out one thing.

He likes that tenacious young man, but loves this soul from the past.

In fact, he should have figured it out a long time ago, but after all, he wanted to keep the last attachment in his heart, not certainty.

Why not affirmative?

Probably unwilling to compromise with another self deep in the soul.Don't want to make yourself a joke.I also don't want to hurt this young man named Xiangnan again before I'm fully ready.

Cao Jingyun watched Feng Li in a daze for a long while, and then suddenly approached, "Since you value Xiang Nan so much, why don't you snatch Xiang Nan from Song Chen? He wants to sit back and enjoy the blessings of everyone."

Feng Li put one hand on the table, stroked his chin with his fingers, his eyes were full of emotions when he looked into the distance, and after a closer look, it seemed that it was just a quiet pool of spring water, and then he said: "Although Song Chen is a strong opponent, but he is not on the list of rivals in love."

"Could it be that your rival in love is someone else?" Cao Jingyun touched his chin, Xiangnan's popularity was simply beyond his imagination.

Feng Li glanced at him, then stood up suddenly, "It's getting late, let's go down the mountain."

Cao Jingyun looked at the back of his striding meteor, and glanced at the disheveled dining table in front of him speechlessly. Since the time was so fast, whoever drove up the mountain overnight when he heard that Xiang Nan was here yesterday, and who was there early in the morning? Pulling himself to run to stand outside the door of someone's house, seeing his expressionless face, the more Cao Jingyun thought about it, the more he felt that Xiang Nan deserved it for ignoring Feng Li now!

******

When driving down the mountain from the hot spring hotel, Song Chen's mouth never stopped.

Probably due to the absence of Xiang Nan's audience in the past three years, he has nothing to say.

From the moment he was found dead at home, he babbled on for almost half an hour and didn't finish. Fortunately, Xiang Nan was also a patient listener, and he was very cooperative throughout the whole process, occasionally interjecting a few sentences. Let Song Chen continue to speak.

"Hey, let me tell you, I met a man, his name is Zhai Qing." Song Chen said happily.

Xiang Nan put one elbow on the fully open car window, turned to look at him, "Is that the one you like?"

Song Chen nodded, "What occupation do you think he is?"

In Xiang Nan's words: "Teacher."

"Damn! How did you hit the right guess!"

Xiang Nan smiled slightly, "Since you confirmed your sexual orientation at the age of 19, which one of your jobs was not a teacher? What does this Zhai Qing teach?"

Song Chen seemed to remember something, his facial muscles twitched, and then he replied: "Anatomy."

Xiang Nan was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed belatedly, Song Chen glared at him, "Smile!"

"If you dare to mess around behind Zhai Qing's back, you'll probably be a corpse the next morning, and it's still piece by piece, haha." Xiang Nan was really amused. Seeing that Song Chen was about to lose his temper again, he had no choice but to hold back Stop laughing and return to a serious look, "Does Zhai Qing know that you are here this time?"

Song Chen held the steering wheel and leaned against him again, "So what if I know? I haven't even had an affair with him yet."

Xiang Nan was a little curious, Song Chen was very good at chasing people, he remembered that many years ago, Song Chen fell in love with a physical education teacher in a university, but that physical education teacher was straight, and in the end he was rejected within two months. Song Chen was broken. As for why the physical education teacher and Song Chen didn't get together, that's something for another story. In short, this incident is enough to show how powerful Song Chen's pursuit is. Xiang Nan asked: "Zhai Qing is straight?"

Song Chen shook his head.

"Then he doesn't like you?"

Song Chen shook his head again.

Xiang Nan was puzzled, and wanted to guess again, but he heard Song Chen say, "He wants me to be the next one!" This sentence was quite gritted, and the goose bumps on Xiang Nan's body were sore.

"Since you like him, you can do the next one."

Song Chen glared at him again, and said angrily: "Even if I like him, he can't make such an exaggerated request! I always attack, when did I accept it! It's too shameful!"

Xiang Nan looked at him contemptuously, "You mean all men who suffer are shameful?"

"Oh, I didn't mean that," Song Chen frowned, very confused, and suddenly his expression straightened, looking straight at Xiang Nan, "Has Feng Li already touched you?"

"No."

Song Chen had an expression of "you're lying to a ghost", "It's true!"

"Really not." Xiang Nan was also anxious.

Song Chen looked at him from head to toe, and then turned his head to continue driving with peace of mind, and said: "Then he must have hugged you and kissed you, right?"

In fact, Xiang Nan didn't want to hide it from him, so he simply admitted it.

Unexpectedly, Song Chen cursed again, and roared carelessly: "You want to leave after eating all of it?! Let's see how I deal with him!"

Xiang Nan looked out of the car window speechlessly, already too lazy to argue.

It took nearly an hour to arrive at the No. [-] Middle School. Song Chen parked the car at the school gate and insisted on going in with Xiang Nan to see how their dormitory conditions were.Hearing Song Chen's tone, if the dormitory made him dissatisfied, he would definitely find an apartment outside for Xiang Nan to live in at ease.

The campus during the winter vacation was very deserted. The two walked through a long row of flowers and entered the back playground of the school. The boys' dormitory building was right in front of them.

Song Chen put his hands in his pockets, and glanced at Xiang Nan beside him from time to time, until now he still felt a little unreal in a dream.

Xiangnan is back, really back.

"By the way," Xiang Nan stopped suddenly, "Have you visited Ye Su?"

Song Chen was taken aback for a moment, then nodded, "I've read it, Yan Jun said that his condition is already quite bad, maybe...maybe he won't be able to survive this Spring Festival."

Xiang Nan was speechless for a while. Some things don’t feel so painful or uncomfortable when we deliberately don’t think about them. The feeling of being so worried sometimes, there is a kind of panic and helplessness at a loss, and it is more of a powerlessness to reality.

Seeing his gloomy face, Song Chen couldn't help but grabbed his shoulders and patted him twice in relief, "Everyone must die, don't do that. Maybe death is a kind of relief for Ye Su now, Yan Jun said He has been sleeping more and more badly lately, and sometimes he can't even sleep for two hours a day. I just went to see him the day before yesterday, and he is so weak that he can no longer walk."

Xiang Nan didn't speak, and in fact didn't know what to say.At this time, it seems that any language is just in vain.

Dying is sometimes extremely easy.You only need to accumulate a little courage, lying on the rails, jumping off a building, taking | drugs, cutting your wrists, as long as you can endure short-term pain, these methods can free you.

But what requires more courage than this is to live with the feeling that one day you will die.You know you're going to die, and it won't be too long, maybe next month, maybe tomorrow, or maybe you fall asleep and never wake up again.

That's why Ye Su like this made Xiang Nan feel distressed.

I am so distressed that sometimes I am afraid to see this person, I am afraid that I will not be able to suppress the bitterness in my mouth, I am afraid that I will not be able to control the trembling of my fingertips, and I am even more afraid that Ye Su will be even more sad when he sees him.

Xiang Nan bowed his head and thought for a while, then suddenly remembered something, "Since that old Wu can save me, maybe he can save Ye Su too? Let's go to him for help!"

Song Chen shook his head firmly, "When I went to find him that time, I also asked about Ye Su, and he said there was nothing he could do."

"What does this mean? Can't he be saved?"

Song Chen took him into the dormitory building and said, "So many people die every day in this world, if everyone can perform some kind of magic and come back to life, then the world is not in chaos? Old Wu said, have He has only seen two people who can be reborn with this kind of fate, one is you, and the other is a person named Xiao Ning. So if someone else is changed, without this kind of fate, naturally there is no chance of doing it again opportunity."

Until the two of them entered the dormitory, it seemed that Xiang Nan's mood hadn't recovered.

Song Chen didn't urge him, found the bed in Xiangnan and sat down on his buttocks. He looked up at the four-person dormitory. Although the space was a bit small, it looked quite tidy. Each bed was equipped with A wardrobe, with a desk next to the wall, in short, the conditions are better than Song Chen imagined, "Xiang Nan, you are now... uh, your current body," Song Chen touched his nose at this point, no matter how hard he heard it. Feeling very weird, "How are you doing now? How is your family condition?"

Xiang Nan poured him a glass of water, then sat down next to him, and said softly: "He also has a younger brother and a younger sister, and the family is not very good." Xiang Nan automatically called the original Xiang Nan "he", Apart from making Song Chen sound more comfortable, more importantly, he didn't want to confuse himself with that child. As Feng Li said after knowing the truth, there are still people in this world who really hope to return to the south. Parents and Xiangbei Xiangxi know the truth, they will probably hope that Xiangnan they are familiar with will come back like Feng Li.

Xiang Nan couldn't tell what he felt in his heart.I felt a little bitter in my mouth, and a twitch in my heart. It didn't hurt very much, but it was also very uncomfortable.He sometimes thinks that if the original Xiangnan can't come back, then he will borrow this body for the rest of his life. Naturally, he feels guilty, but at the same time he feels a lot of melancholy. If he didn't take this body by accident, he should have That's great, at least there was no such thing as him and Feng Li afterwards.This morning at the hotel, I heard Song Chen say that the real Xiangnan died of natural causes, which meant that he would never come back. Feng Li's hard and sharp eyes appeared in Xiangnan's mind at that moment.

One step wrong, step by step wrong.

Thinking of this, Xiang Nan sighed involuntarily, Song Chen beside him glanced at him, understood what he just said, and said, "Why don't you see this, I'll buy three houses here, one One set for his parents to live in, and the other two sets for his younger brother and sister to marry in the future, even if they don’t get married for the time being, they can still live here, what do you think?”

"No way."

Song Chen bumped his shoulder and stared, "Why? Are you being polite to me?"

Xiang Nan looked at the ceiling speechlessly, "No, it's so expensive to buy a house here, and my parents will definitely be suspicious. If you dare to buy it, they may not dare to live in it, and then they will ask where the money for the house is. What do I say when I come here?"

"Just say that you made money by doing business."

Xiang Nan really wanted to roll his eyes, but he held back, "What kind of business can make so much money at once?"

Song Chen suddenly said solemnly, "Your clothing store is not closed. I'll ask someone to watch it for you. I will return it to you when you come back someday. Your courtyard house has also been rented out. Then you can go home. It’s still yours, as for the savings in your account, I’ve been keeping it for you, and now it’s just for you in case of emergency. You will take the college entrance examination next year, right? Have you ever thought about going back to your hometown in the south to study in university?”

Hearing this, Xiang Nan felt that a pie fell from the sky suddenly, smashing him to pieces.

Two days ago, he was still thinking that if he made up classes during the winter vacation, he would not be able to work part-time to earn living expenses. Now that Song Chen fell from the sky, all the problems were solved instantly. There is nothing more gratifying than this.

Then Xiang Nan suddenly thought of a question, "How do you know my password?"

Song Chen smiled contemptuously, "Isn't it your birthday? It's so easy to guess, but fortunately, it was not picked up by someone with ulterior motives." Then he turned his head and remembered something, "You might as well stop going to college, Why don't you come back to your old job, reading is so tiring, you won't get dense phobia when you face those densely packed words every day?"

Xiang Nan shook his head, and said seriously, "This child named Xiang Nan is carrying too many people's expectations. Since I accidentally took over his body, I will help him achieve his goal no matter how difficult it is, and you Said he died of natural causes, just because he may never come back, and I can't let him down."

Song Chen thought about it, and then said, "Then will you be able to go to university next year?"

Xiang Nan raised his head and looked at him, "I'm studying hard, and I'll start making up lessons tomorrow."

"It's okay, the big deal is that I will hire someone to teach you when the time comes, and I will keep you admitted to university." Song Chen patted his chest and promised, looking at his expression to the south, and remembered that he got an egg in math in an exam, and hid alone He was crying on the corner of the courtyard of his grandma's house, and was just seen by Song Chen who came to play with him. At that time, Xiangnan was 12 years old and had just entered junior high school. Song Chen, who was two or three years older than him, stood by and looked at him, He lifted him up from the ground with a ferocious expression, "Didn't he just pass the exam, I still get duck eggs every day, don't be afraid, tomorrow brother will find you a good grade to make up for you repair."

The next day Song Chen really came with a senior boy wearing glasses. Thanks to Song Chen, Xiang Nan never cried again because of failing the exam.

This situation is so familiar, as if it was yesterday, it is vivid in my mind.

As if time had never gone far, he was still a 12-year-old crybaby, and Song Chen was still that domineering boy who liked to call himself Lao Tzu.

At this moment, Xiang Nan suddenly realized something that he hadn't figured out.

If he really liked men, why didn't he like Song Chen who had been kind to him for half his life, but Feng Li who came from behind?It's actually not difficult to explain all this. The bottom line is that Feng Li's domineering and gentle liking made his heart that had been empty for half a life suddenly burn, and then no matter whether this person is a man or a woman, good or bad, that's it. As if swimming, he plunged headlong into the water with a very crisp movement.