Rebirth is more than a year old

I don't know when it started snowing outside.

Snowflakes fell one after another, paving the yard in front of the former residence into a sand field, and the lights shone down, reflecting their crystal bodies into a warm yellow.

Standing at the gate of the Past Life Residence, Xiang Nan looked at the slowly falling snowflakes. For some reason, he suddenly remembered that it was also here not long ago, and it was also snowing. He told Feng Li to give it a try.At that time, he really didn't have any feelings for Feng Li, but it was because Feng Li's aggressive posture pushed him into a dead corner, and there was no way to retreat.He always thought that Feng Li was a very good person, so even if he really fell in love with him later, he didn't think it was too strange.

Not too long has passed since the day he said to try.He had never doubted Feng Li's sincerity, so when the truth hit him so unexpectedly, he was even more restless than he imagined.

My heart was empty, and I couldn't think of anything for a long time.

Only the phrase "I can't take what is not my own" lingered for a long time, unwilling to let go.

He likes Feng Li, it was confirmed before.However, at this moment, the indifferent liking was suddenly torn away from the peaceful and warm appearance, revealing the sharp emotions that can stab people inside.It turned out that at a specific time and place, he actually liked this person so much.

Probably a gentle person will always be easier to win the hearts of others, let alone someone like Feng Li.As long as he stands there, he can easily attract other people's attention without saying a word, so when he treats him tenderly and lingeringly, no one can withstand this fatal temptation.

Xiang Nan thought that he probably fell in love with this person because of his tenderness and consideration, so much that he couldn't bear the shock of the truth.

Since he was sensible, Xiang Nan determined to be an honest person, not bragging, exaggerating, conceited, or causing trouble.

I also don't like to trouble others.

So when he suddenly learned the truth, his heart was full of contradictions.

I want to maintain my honesty, but I am also a little afraid that I will lose my seal because of it.

No, maybe he never really had this person at all.

Standing beside him, Feng Li stretched out his hand to wrap his cold palm, his voice was as gentle as ever, "It's snowing, let's go home."

Looking south at him for a moment, then nodded slowly.

He didn't speak, but the expression in his eyes was full of exhaustion, as if he had just gone through a big battle and consumed all his enthusiasm and anticipation, leaving nothing but dust and despair all over the sky.Love is a double-edged sword. When it makes you happy, it will cut you cruelly, but there are still many people who yearn for it, thinking that it is rare and precious.

There was an unexpected silence on the way back.

As soon as Xiang Nan got into the car, he nestled in the seat, closed his eyes, and didn't know if he was asleep or awake.

Feng Li turned his head to look at him from time to time, the worry in his eyes had nowhere to hide.

The silent atmosphere in the carriage felt suffocating, and Xiang Nan shrank himself into a ball.In the dark, I seem to see myself when I was a child. When I was scolded as a wild child, I was afraid that I would cry and be seen by my grandma, so I secretly hid in the closet and wept.Language is the sharpest weapon in this world. The abuse and dislike are infinitely magnified between the lines. At that time, his mind was not yet mature enough to turn these humiliations into air. Keep the words in your heart and use them as motivation to motivate yourself.

The tightly closed wardrobe was like a huge and empty tomb, wrapping him in it, and he couldn't hear any sound except his own crying.He didn't feel scared, but felt a pain in his heart. He was obviously not injured, but it was as if he had been stabbed by countless knives, full of holes and devastated.

Feng Li drove the car to the parking lot of the building.

The parking lot was quiet, and the sound of shoes rubbing against the ground became harsh and shrill.

The elevator door opened, and Feng Li walked in southward.

The mathematics above the head was glowing red, counting to the south, and suddenly said: "Ye Su said that you liked me two years ago, is it true?"

Feng Li smiled lightly, and there was lingering tenderness in his eyes that were often full of emotion, "At the school celebration two years ago, you spoke as a freshman, and I saw you back then."

"Then you..." Did you like Xiangnan since then?

"what?"

"……fine."

That night, Xiang Nan went to bed early, returned to Feng Li's house, and lay down after washing up.

Feng Li stood outside the door for a long time, Xiang Nan knew that he had doubts in his heart, but he really didn't have the energy and mood to say more to Feng Li now.It was destined not to be a good night's sleep, Xiang Nan tossed and turned on the bed until it was almost dawn, and finally fell asleep with his eyelids unable to hold on.

When I woke up again, it was almost 12 noon.

Xiang Nan sat up from the bed, the dim sky seeped in from the half-opened window, making the whole room a bit gray.He hugged the quilt and sat on the bed for a few minutes, a long sigh came from the bottom of his heart, exhausted and helpless.

After washing up, he opened the door to the south.

Feng Li was standing just outside the door, holding a tray in his hand with a bowl of millet porridge and a few dishes of side dishes. Seeing Xiang Nan's exhausted face, he frowned slightly and said softly, "I didn't know what to do last night." sleep well?"

Xiang Nan smiled dryly, and his voice was a little dry, "Feng Li, I have something to tell you."

"Let's eat first. You didn't eat breakfast, so you can't miss lunch."

Xiang Nan said, "I want to say it now."

Most of the time when the two of them get along, Feng Li has always been making the decisions, and Xiang Nan's temper destined him to be the one who cooperates forever, so at this moment, Xiang Nan's rare insistence made Feng Li slightly taken aback, and then agreed.

The two sat down on the sofa in the living room on the first floor, separated by the hot air of tea. Although they were so close, Xiang Nan felt that there seemed to be a whole century between them.No, it's a strange space, he came from the past, and he exists in the present.

Silence stretched all the way, Xiang Nanduan sat there with his hands on his knees, which was a kind of restrained etiquette, his slightly clenched fists trembled a little, and his whole person gave a feeling that he was nervous.

Feng Li looked at his hesitation and hesitation calmly, and finally couldn't hold back, and asked, "Xiang Nan, what do you want to tell me?"

Xiang Nan raised his head, and when he really decided to go all out, his voice was much calmer, as if he was talking about the most ordinary trivial matter, without any ups and downs, "Feng Li, I'm not the Xiang Nan you like."

Feng Li frowned slightly, and Xiang Nan continued before he was about to speak: "My name is also Xiang Nan, a southerner, born on June 19, 6xx, my parents divorced early, and my only grandmother passed away, I opened a clothing store, A 27-year-old woke up one morning and found that he had become another person," he kept looking into Feng Li's eyes when he was talking, his eyes were calm and unwavering, and there was no sadness or joy on his face, no matter how shocking the words he said were , his expression was always calm, like a prisoner who is waiting for the verdict, knowing that his punishment is definitely not light, the calmness and calmness, repeating the previous sentence: "So I am not the one you like southward."

Feng Li has always been a restrained person, he knows how to restrain his emotions, and does not show his emotions.

Even if he heard such shocking news at this moment, regardless of whether he believed it or not, his expression seemed calm to Xiang Nan.

The air around the two of them was a bit stagnant, Feng Li leaned on the sofa with his slender legs crossed, and did not say a word for a long time.

Xiang Nan also remained silent. After saying those words, he knew that the relationship between him and Feng Li would never be the same as before.He accidentally occupied the body of this child named Xiang Nan, and this person was someone Feng Li liked.So strictly speaking, he was the one who was sorry for Feng Li, and also for the innocent boy whose body was taken away by him.

I don't know how long time passed, Feng Li's voice came slowly, probably because he hadn't spoken for a long time, his voice was hoarse, and he said, "Where did you really go to the south? Who are you?"

Feng Liyu Xiangnan is a gentle person.There is always a layer of tenderness and tenderness in the eyes.So Xiang Nan didn't know that when these narrow and beautiful eyes were sharpened, there was a texture that could cut people into pieces.He swallowed his saliva under Feng Li's slightly sharp eyes, and felt a slight pain in his heart, "Xiangnan. As for where Xiangnan really went, I don't know."

Feng Li's eyes were half-closed, and a few rays of cold light shot out of them, hitting Xiang Nan, making him feel like falling into an ice cave, the man's voice was slightly stiff, and his alienated attitude was removed from his teeth The words that slipped out from time to time zoomed in, "The one that Shen Qinglan likes is Xiangnan?" Although it was a question, the tone was already confirmed.As smart as he is, as long as he thinks about all the previous things together, he can easily get the clue.For example, why did Xiang Nan care so much about Ye Su's illness, and the problems between Shen Qinglan and Yan Jun? If it wasn't because he had deep feelings for them, it would be hard for him to see a few of them. Countless people have such sincere concern.

Xiang Nan swallowed, "Yes, if you don't believe me, you can check it out, I don't have to lie to you."

Feng Li sat up straight, fixed his eyes on Xiang Nan's face, and said in a low voice, "Do you know what you are talking about?"

"I am not sleeply."

There was still no expression on Feng Li's face. The education he had received since he was a child was to face everything calmly and calmly, so even though his heart was already turbulent at the moment, he still had a calm expression on his face.He got up from the sofa with a blank expression, walked over step by step, and then stopped a step away from Xiangnan.

Xiang Nan felt that the air around him was getting thinner due to the approach of the other party. This oppressive feeling made him a little restless. He also got up from the sofa, but was pushed down on the sofa by a sudden external force. The man's face was livid, and the strength of his hands and arms was unexpectedly strong. It seemed that any more force would crush the bones of his hands.The gentleness and demeanor of the past are gone, and the distance is too close, so that Xiang Nan can clearly see the black flames burning in his eyes, so angry and fierce, as if he would be willing to burn himself to death.

This man who had stripped off his gentle and humble shell made Xiang Nan feel at a loss for a moment.

It turned out that there was a reason for all the tenderness and affection. When this reason no longer existed, he withdrew all the love and consideration. No matter how passionate the relationship was, it was completely changed because of the change of partner.

Xiang Nan subconsciously resisted and struggled, but instead attracted more intense suppression from the other party.He was pressed under him in a weird way, the two bodies were tightly stuck together, but Xiang Nan felt that his body was terribly cold, Feng Li was like a huge piece of ice, covering him from head to toe It was frozen, so even the heart beat very slowly, as if it would suddenly stop anytime and anywhere, and then it would never recover.

The spacious room looks like a huge black hole. From a distance, the two people on the sofa seem to be engaged in a silent fight. There is no half a word between each other, only the eyes collide with each other from time to time.One calm, one intense.The strange atmosphere continued silently. After all, Xiang Nan's body hadn't grown yet, so he was not Feng Li's opponent at all. In the end, he was successfully suppressed by Feng Li and couldn't move.

Both of them were panting heavily, Feng Li grabbed his wrists and lifted them above Xiang Nan's head, with naked resentment in their eyes, but the calmness before the storm in their voices, "Give him back to me .”

The last light in Xiang Nan's eyes slowly disappeared, he opened his mouth to say something, but finally said nothing.He just tilted his head, fixed his eyes on the back of the sofa, and said softly, "Okay."

Xiang Nan was holding the backpack that he had brought to this room a few hours ago, standing at the stairs a little awkwardly.

Feng Li was still sitting on the sofa just now, smoking a cigarette one mouthful after another. The tea on the coffee table was already cold, the air was filled with thick miasma, and in the mist of Xiaoxiao was his beautiful and lifeless body. Turning his face, Xiang Nan clenched the strap of his backpack tightly, his voice seemed to be stuck in his throat, and he couldn't make it out.

He always thought that Feng Li didn't smoke, it turned out that he just didn't smoke in front of him.

Standing there in the south, I suddenly felt a lot of emotions.

Probably because he clearly knows that once he likes someone, he will inevitably get hurt, so he has been refusing to have feelings with so-and-so.But this is like the calamity mentioned by the Buddhists, no matter how you hide, it is inevitable.

The world he lived in and everything he experienced corresponded to that sentence: I live in the mirror, thinking that it is all in your eyes, and when I wake up, my world is all about you.

The atmosphere of silence is embarrassing.

Xiang Nan exhaled, then walked towards the entrance, when he was about to reach the shoe cabinet, he suddenly heard Feng Li say: "I'm sorry just now."

Xiang Nan paused, and then pulled out a smile that wasn't a smile, "I'm the one who should say I'm sorry." His eyes didn't turn to Feng Li's direction, but stared at the unknown patterns engraved on the shoe cabinet , the voice echoed in the quiet space, "Although I took this body by accident, I am the one who is sorry for Xiang Nan. If I knew that the person you like is him, I would never be with you, but Now let's talk clearly, at least I won't feel so guilty that I can't sleep or eat. Mr. Feng, thank you for your care during this time. If you think of a way to bring Xiang Nan back, I will cooperate with you. In addition, I hope you can Help me keep this secret for now, don't tell Ye Su and the others, thank you."

He can't say such cruel words as "you will regret today's decision one day", that is not his character, and it also violates his consistent principles.He just thought over and over again, if the boy with the same name as him can't come back in this life, and he will always occupy this body, does that mean that he will never be able to appear in front of Feng Li again? ?Even if you run into each other on the road one day, you should avoid them far away, so as not to bring back those unpleasant memories of the other party.

He didn't think about whether this was unfair to him, even if it was really unfair to him, in the end, it was just a misunderstanding.Since it was a misunderstanding, what else is there to say?

The relationship between people is often so wonderful.

A few hours ago, they were full of smiles in each other's eyes like all lovers in love in the world, but now, they are talking like strangers.

sorry.Thanks.

Once the unfamiliar and polite words are spoken, they are like a rest.Erase everything that has ever happened without leaving a trace.

The door opened and closed, and the room fell into a deathly silence.

There is a mobile phone lying on the shoe cabinet, it stays alone in that somewhat dark place, as if it has been abandoned, there is a kind of desolate loneliness.

He pulled his eyes away from the phone and looked at the coffee table in front of him. There were two cups of tea facing each other on the coffee table. The light green tea against the white porcelain green bamboo cup was a beautiful art.He is different from most men who love coffee. He likes tea, its sweet and astringent taste, and the root of his tongue, so he hopes that the people he likes can also fall in love with drinking tea like him.This was specially prepared by him, and now these dead creatures sat on it peacefully, as if silently laughing at his stupidity.

His handsome face was cold, and he raised his hand and swept the things on the coffee table to the ground.

The white porcelain collided fiercely with the marble floor, making a sharp and piercing sound, and he looked at the messy eyes as deep as a cold pool.

He is the youngest child of the Feng family and has been loved by the elders since he was a child. His father Feng Zhi even threatened that he would be the future heir of the Feng family.He was trained as a successor from an early age, and he had to endure loneliness and loneliness at a young age. The only partners were various textbooks and social etiquette. He had no childhood.

Before the age of 13, he had been working hard to make himself better, to live up to everyone's expectations and become someone who could support the Feng family on his own.

He appreciates all those who are strong and tenacious, because most people have weak minds and can't take a little blow.So when he saw the young man standing on the lecture seat, he was immediately attracted by the unyielding and firmness in his eyes.This kind of charisma that only a few people have appears in a teenager, and it becomes an almost irresistible quality and advantage.

He admired this boy who was only 15 years old.

Two years later, he met him again.

Although the means are a bit despicable, but he has him after all.

He decided to pamper him, love him, and care for him with the best feelings and attitudes.In fact he did.However, when everything was going in the direction he expected, the other party said that he was not the one he liked, Xiang Nan, which made everything deviate from the track and went in an uncontrollable direction.

In the eyes of the elders, Feng Li is calm and calm in every situation, just like a father.

In the eyes of friends, Feng Li is a well-deserved nobleman who is restrained and decent.

In the eyes of the outside world, Feng Li is a young man with long sleeves and a good dancer.

However, at this moment, no matter how good and steady Feng Li was, he couldn't keep his inner peace. He was so angry that he acted so aggressively towards Xiang Nan.

In fact, calm down and think about it, this Xiang Nan is so innocent, and when he woke up, he found that his appearance had changed, needless to say the shock and fear at that time.All the cultivation of reason is telling him that he has no qualifications and position to ask Xiang Nan to return the real Xiang Nan, even though Xiang Nan did occupy this body that does not belong to him.

Feng Li is an adult, and he consciously needs to use adult thinking to think about problems. No matter whether what Xiang Nan said is true or not, no matter how much he wishes for the boy in his memory to come back, he clearly realizes that, It's almost impossible.

There are many anecdotes in the history of human development, but in the education Feng Li received, there was never such a thing as novelism.

He sat there for a few minutes in front of a pile of broken tiles, then pulled out his cell phone and dialed a number.

"One knife," he said to the phone, "check someone for me."