My first love after four years of separation came to my store to buy cakes

Facing the milk pudding, Guan Zishan suddenly had a strong urge to confide.

Guan Zishan hesitated for a moment. Although the relationship between him and milk pudding is not very familiar, he somehow developed a sense of trust in milk pudding. This trust made him feel at ease. He felt that milk pudding He shouldn't be the kind of person who would gossip about other people's gossip.

There are some people who can date but not heart-to-heart, and some people not only can date but also deserve deep friendship. Guan Zishan thinks that he is quite accurate in judging people, he can see that milk pudding should be a friend worthy of heart-to-heart.

So Guan Zishan hesitated for a while, and told the milk pudding about the matter between him and Ding Naichuan.

In fact, Guan Zishan also has his own thinking. He doesn't know how to face Ding Naichuan, let alone how to deal with his previous entanglements with Ding Naichuan. Confused thoughts in the brain.

What's more, he and Milk Pudding only have friendship on the Internet. Once the computer is turned off and the network cable is unplugged, who will know who is who?He is not afraid that milk pudding will know who he is, and the Internet is the best barrier between them.

After Guan Zishan told the matter between him and Ding Naichuan in a few simple words, he silently waited for Milk Pudding's reply, but Milk Pudding didn't reply him for a long time.

Just when Guan Zishan thought that the milk pudding might have left the computer, the milk pudding finally replied to him——

Milk Pudding: So, the reason why you broke up with him in the first place

Milk Pudding: ...is it because of his stepmother?

For some reason, Guan Zishan somehow felt that Milk Pudding was gnashing his teeth when he typed those two sentences, and every word seemed to pop out from between his teeth.

Lotus seed soup: ... I don't know

Guan Zishan looked at the computer with a confused expression. He didn't know who he hated more at that time, the woman who abandoned him to be someone else's stepmother, or Ding Naichuan who robbed him of his mother's love?In fact, he knew that his hatred for Ding Naichuan was completely unreasonable, after all, it was not his choice to be that woman's stepson.

But human rationality is easily defeated by sensibility, and it is impossible for him to calm down and think as a young man, so he chose to break up with Ding Naichuan so impulsively.

Milk pudding: you don't know?

Milk Pudding: Forget it, do you think...the person you mentioned is wrong?

The milk pudding refers to Ding Naichuan, Guan Zishan knows that after so many years, he has been able to calm down and think.

Lotus seed soup: ...that's right

Milk Pudding: Do you think it's fair to punish other people for their mistakes?

Guan Zishan once again showed a confused expression. He has thought a lot over the past few days, and he knows that what the milk pudding said is not wrong... He broke up with Ding Naichuan because of that woman, and he is using that woman's mistakes to punish him he himself.

Because no matter how much he deceives others, he cannot deceive himself.

He knew that deep down in his heart, he still liked Ding Naichuan.

Lotus seed soup: ... I don't know

The milk pudding was silent again.

Just when Guan Zishan was about to ask himself: "Can you chat! Can you chat!"... Milk Pudding finally replied.

Milk Pudding: Why are you so awkward?

Milk Pudding: In fact, you are a tsundere and awkward!

Lotus seed soup: ...

It's quite complicated to be ridiculed by a dog who insists that he is an attack.

Milk Pudding: Another Angle

Milk Pudding: If he really breaks up with you this time, are you sure you won't regret it?

Lotus seed soup: ... I don't know

Milk pudding: ... can't continue talking [manual goodbye

As soon as Guan Zishan's brain became hot, he sent out a sentence——

Lianzigeng: Actually, I still like him

Milk pudding:! ! ! ! ! !

Milk Pudding: So what are you still hesitating about? !

Lotus seed soup: I...don't know either

Milk Pudding:  …

Guan Zishan sighed and continued typing.

Lianzigeng: Maybe I still like him, but I can't imagine that one day I muster up the courage to come out with him, but his family is facing...my mother's milk pudding: Is it because of this reason that you Want to break up with him?The person you like is not as good as a woman who abandoned you?

Guan Zishan looked at the words of the milk pudding, and suddenly felt like being poured from head to toe by a basin of cold water.

He was in a daze, was the woman who abandoned him more important to him than Ding Naichuan?

If it's a choice between family affection and love, maybe it's worth weighing for him.But is there really a family relationship between him and that woman?In the heart of the woman who abandoned him, maybe he was just a burden born between her and a man she didn't love.

If she still has his son in her heart, will she not come back to see him once in more than ten years?Would you still leave the scene in a hurry with a pale face when you clearly recognized him back then, but you didn't want to come up to recognize him?

It's ridiculous how he hurt someone he cared about who cared about him because of someone who didn't care about him at all.

... What's even more ridiculous is that it took him four full years before he understood this truth.

Guan Zishan thought sourly.

After going offline, Guan Zishan lay on the bed, thinking of his high school days with Ding Naichuan again.

Guan Zishan has had a good life in the past 20 years, but the high school period was the best time in his life for him, because someone accompanied him to spend the best three years in his life.

In the dream, Guan Zishan saw the time when he and Ding Naichuan had just met again.

When he saw Ding Naichuan for the first time, he seemed to see a beautiful boy who had just come out of a shoujo manga. Immediately, he felt that his whole body was sunk into that dimple, and he could never get out again.

As it turned out, he never came out again in his life.

But the next moment, the boy Ding Naichuan in the dream turned around and left. Guan Zishan reached out to grab Ding Naichuan's back, but he didn't catch anything. Ding Naichuan's back got farther and farther away, and finally disappeared.

In the dream, Guan Zishan was in a trance, and things changed in the blink of an eye. The four years of loneliness in the university passed before his eyes. Seeing other people in pairs, he was not without yearning and envy, but since Ding Naichuan, he There is no way to fall in love with anyone else.

Scene after scene passed, freshman, sophomore, junior, senior, Guan Zishan graduated, and after leaving the campus, he opened a cake shop.

Suddenly one day, Ding Naichuan, who has become a mature young man, pushed open the door of the cake shop. Accompanied by a clear and melodious sound of wind chimes, Ding Naichuan walked into his shop.

Ding Naichuan, the young man in the dream, smiled slightly at Guan Zishan, his dimples were the same as before.

Just when Guan Zishan couldn't help walking towards Ding Naichuan, Ding Naichuan turned and left again...

Guan Zishan couldn't help stretching out his hand to keep him, just when he was about to touch Ding Naichuan's back——

An alarm clock rang, and Guan Zishan woke up abruptly from his dream.

He opened his eyes and stared blankly at the ceiling, only to realize...it was just a dream.

Guan Zishan's heart was empty, the dream was a subconscious reaction, he knew what he was afraid of.

He was afraid... Ding Naichuan would really leave.

He was afraid that Ding Naichuan would leave his world completely if he left this time.

Guan Zishan got up from the bed, and after washing up, he wanted to find Ding Naichuan, but he suddenly remembered - he didn't know where Ding Naichuan lived.

Although he knew that Ding Naichuan lived in the postgraduate dormitory of University D, but the postgraduate dormitory of University D was so big, could he still find them one by one?And he didn't know when Ding Naichuan would return to the dormitory.

Call... He didn't even know what Ding Naichuan's phone number was.

Guan Zishan was suddenly lost.

When Xiao Qiao came to work, Guan Zishan finally made up his mind to go to D University to find Ding Naichuan.

He has been in D University for four years. Although he can't say that he has been to every corner, he also knows almost all the places that students love to go. He does not believe that he is looking for one place after another. not coming!

After making up his mind, Guan Zishan left the store to Xiao Qiao and hurried to D University.

After entering D University, Guan Zishan's feverish brain slowly cooled down when he saw group after group of students approaching him.

Just when Guan Zishan was hesitating where to find Ding Naichuan, a voice suddenly sounded.

"……elder brother?"

Guan Zishan was taken aback, and turned around to see that Ding Yongxu, who was wearing the school uniform of the No. [-] Middle School, was standing not far from him, with a band-aid on the corner of his mouth, which seemed to be injured, but when he looked at him, he immediately showed surprise. expression.

When Guan Zishan saw Ding Yongxu again, his mood was actually a bit complicated.

The first time he saw Ding Yongxu, he found that Ding Yongxu looked a lot like that woman.

Even though so many years have passed, he has long forgotten the appearance of that woman back then, but he used to carefully treasure the photo of that woman, so he is naturally very familiar with that woman's appearance.

He knew that he didn't look like that woman, except for those slightly raised phoenix eyes.

Ding Yongxu, on the other hand, has a pair of red phoenix eyes that are very similar to that woman. Not only that, his eyebrows and facial features are seven or eight points similar to that woman.At first glance, Guan Zishan knew that Ding Yongxu should be the son of that woman.

Guan Zishan saw that Ding Yongxu's face was almost similar to that woman's, and he thought calmly, that woman should like Ding Yongxu's son very much, right?After all, Ding Yongxu looks so similar to her... Which woman would not like a child who looks so similar to herself?

Guan Zishan knew that Ding Yongxu might already know something, otherwise he wouldn't call himself "brother".

After all, in terms of blood relationship... he and Ding Yongxu are indeed brothers.

They are half-brothers, half-brothers.