My first love after four years of separation came to my store to buy cakes

Looking at the familiar but unfamiliar woman in front of him, Guan Zishan's mind went blank.

Guan Zishan had imagined countless times the scene when he and that woman reunited. He had imagined countless times what tone and expression he should use to ask that woman why she left in the first place. He had imagined countless times when that woman faced him. What kind of expression of guilt or regret should be used.

But he never imagined that when that woman met him again after more than ten years, she had no memory of who he was at all.

"Are you Xiao Chuan's friend?" The woman gave him a polite but alienated smile, obviously she had no impression of his appearance.

But that's right, even if the mother and son are related by blood and haven't seen each other for more than ten years, how can they recognize each other in the first place?Even Guan Zishan, who has been brooding about this for so many years, would not have remembered the woman's appearance at all if he hadn't kept the only photo of that woman for so many years.

Although Guan Zishan told Guan Zishan rationally that it was justifiable for the woman not to remember him, but emotionally, Guan Zishan couldn't accept it at all.

He can't accept that his biological mother has forgotten him and treats him like a stranger.

He couldn't accept that this woman who had never given him a trace of maternal love gave her maternal love to others.

Guan Zishan could tell that even though Ding Naichuan was not her own son, she treated Ding Naichuan very kindly, which was something she had never given to him as her own son.

Maybe it's just a similar look...

Maybe he remembered wrongly...

After all, there are always a few people in this world who look alike, Guan Zishan tried his best to convince himself in his heart.

How can there be such a coincidence in this world?How could Ding Naichuan's stepmother be the one who abandoned him?How could his biological mother abandon his blood-related son and run to treat someone else's son well?

Just when Guan Zishan was about to be convinced by himself, Father Guan appeared.

Maybe Guan Zishan's appearance based on the photos is biased, but it is impossible for Guan's father to remember the woman who abandoned him and his son and insisted on marrying his first love.

...That was something Guan Zishan didn't know until later. It wasn't until then that Guan Zishan knew that all the reasons he had fabricated for that woman to leave him for so many years were all wrong.There was no reason for that woman to abandon herself, it was just because she wanted to find her true love.

When Mama Guan was young, she had a first love. They used to love each other very much, but in the end they separated due to various reasons. Later, they both got married and had children.It was just a story of a first love that ended without a cause, until they met again.

There is not much relationship between Mama Guan and Papa Guan. They have been married for so many years and have been respecting each other like "ice". In addition, the wife of Mama Guan's first love at that time had passed away, so they quickly rekindled their old relationship. .

Regardless of her husband who was desperately trying to keep her and her ignorant son at the time, Mama Guan resolutely divorced Papa Guan and bravely pursued her true love. She left the house, abandoned her son, and never came back.

Looking at the beautiful woman in front of him who was still as beautiful as when he was young, Guan's father had a complicated look on his face, but he didn't say anything.Except for the shock and complicated expression that he couldn't restrain at the beginning, he didn't show any strangeness throughout the night after that, but he was much more silent than usual.

Guan's father probably thought that Guan Zishan had long forgotten his biological mother's appearance, and he tried hard to hide his emotions, but he didn't know that Guan Zishan had already understood when he saw the shocked and complicated expression on his face. everything.

And that woman, after seeing Papa Guan, her face turned pale instantly.

She looked at Papa Guan in disbelief, and then at Guan Zishan next to Papa Guan, her expression became very complicated.

This former couple who had been divorced for many years, when they reunited by chance more than ten years later, they both chose to pretend to be strangers tacitly, as if they were strangers.

After the parent meeting was over, the woman took Ding Naichuan away in a hurry with a pale face.

Ding Naichuan seemed to have sensed something, and looked at Guan Zishan with a hesitant expression on his face.

Guan Zishan forced a smile at him, and said to him with his lips: see you tomorrow, and wait at the old place.

Ding Naichuan's face softened a little, he glanced hesitantly at the pale stepmother who was anxious to leave, and finally followed her away.

All the way home from school, Guan Dad was very silent.

Although Guan's father was originally a man of few words and not good at talking, every time he was alone with Guan Zishan in the past, he would try his best to find topics to chat with Guan Zishan.

That night, Guan's father was particularly silent until Guan Zishan broke the silence.

"Is that woman just now my mother?"

Guan's father was shocked, as if he didn't expect Guan Zishan to notice something from his expression.

"...Why did you two get a divorce?" Guan Zishan didn't want to explain why he remembered that woman's appearance, after a long silence, he finally asked this question that he had been obsessed with for a long time.

Guan Zishan had made up countless reasons and excuses for the woman's departure. The only reason he hadn't imagined was that the woman had really abandoned their father and son.

Guan's father looked at Guan Zishan with a complicated expression, and he realized that his son had finally grown up.

In his memory, his son is always just a child, always so dependent on him, and the first reaction is always to come to him when encountering something, but he doesn't know when his son has stopped relying on him , has passed the age when the first reaction is to come to him when encountering something.

The current Guan Zishan has grown taller than his father.

Guan's father was silent for a long time, but still told Guan Zishan what happened back then.

In the past, Guan Zishan often asked him this question, but he never talked about it. He talked about him, because he knew how strong his son's self-esteem was. If he knew that his biological mother abandoned him for his love ...

But now Guan Zishan has grown up.

After knowing the truth about the woman's departure, Guan Zishan realized that all the reasons he had fabricated for the woman's departure over the years were so ridiculous.

He used to think that the woman left because of Papa Guan's cowardice and silence, and because Papa Guan didn't keep him. He used to think that the woman left because he was naughty, because he was not a good boy...

During the period of rebellion, Guan Zishan once blamed her departure on Guan's father and himself, but never thought that she abandoned them just to find true love.

Guan Zishan didn't know how he should define that woman in his heart.

He once left a sacred place for that woman deep in his heart, even though he never felt a trace of maternal love from her.

Maybe he should resent that woman for abandoning him, maybe he should resent that woman for not raising him after giving birth to him, maybe he should resent that woman who would rather treat other people's sons than herself...but he is her after all... The child born in October is a piece of flesh that fell from her body. He has no grace to raise but also has grace. In any case, he should be grateful to her for letting him come into this world.

Guan Zishan couldn't hate that woman, but he couldn't laugh it off, as if nothing happened.

He couldn't accept that woman gave others the maternal love that she had never given him, and he couldn't accept that his biological mother was actually Ding Naichuan's stepmother.

So he broke up with Ding Naichuan.

he proposed.

Guan Zishan did not give Ding Naichuan any room for recovery, and resolutely broke up with him, just like that woman resolutely chose to divorce Guan's father back then.

It was a sunny day.

When Guan Zishan came to the "old place", Ding Naichuan was already waiting there.

The so-called old place is actually an abandoned small pavilion on the back mountain of No. [-] Middle School. Although No. [-] Middle School expressly prohibits students from going up the back mountain, there are always a few naughty children who want to go to the back mountain for "exploration". Guanzishan and Ding Naichuan That's two of them.

The back mountain of the No. [-] Middle School was originally where the old teaching buildings were located. Later, for some unknown reason, the school did not allow students to go to the back mountain, and those old teaching buildings were naturally abandoned.As a result, rumors about the abandoned teaching buildings in Houshan spread wildly among the students. Many students swore that there must be ghosts there. "Expedition" went.

... In the end, nothing was found. Those classrooms have long since been deserted. The dust is all over the floor, full of cobwebs, and everywhere is so dirty that even ghosts would hate it.

Guanzishan and Ding Naichuan were very disappointed, but on the way of "exploration", they found an abandoned small pavilion. This small pavilion is facing a small park near No. [-] Middle School. It is a good place to enjoy the scenery.

The teenagers at their age seemed obsessed with finding a secret base, and there were not many people here, so the two decided to use this small pavilion as their secret base.

Ding Naichuan had arrived a long time ago, leaning his back on the railing of the small pavilion, when he saw Guan Zishan coming, he smiled at Guan Zishan against the light.

This was originally a very good picture of a beautiful boy against the light, but Guan Zishan was full of worries and didn't have the heart to appreciate it at all.

"Guan Guan, have you decided which school to apply for?" Ding Naichuan looked at Guan Zishan expectantly, and before Guan Zishan could answer, he continued with a smile, "Our scores are all higher than those of B University in previous years. The score line, but your score is a bit hanging, it is safer to apply for C University with a lower score line, C University and B University are very close... If you take the initiative to kiss me, I will apply for C University with you."

The back of Ding Naichuan's ears gradually turned red, and after he finished speaking, he blushed and looked at Guan Zishan.

Guan Zishan said blankly, "...let's break up."

The dimple on Ding Naichuan's face when he smiled disappeared instantly, and he looked at Guan Zishan in disbelief: "Why, why?"

Guan Zishan's heart twitched: "There is no reason, I don't like you anymore."

Ding Naichuan was stunned for a long time, and then forced a smile with the corners of his lips curled up: "I see, you must be joking, Guan Guan..."

Guan Zishan's heart was empty, but he said stubbornly: "I'm not kidding, I don't like you anymore, let's break up... Ding Naichuan."

He had never called Ding Naichuan's name in such a blunt and cold tone.

Ding Naichuan turned pale for a moment, stared at him blankly, and was speechless for a long time.

Guan Zishan said word by word: "I won't take the test to go to city B, and you don't come to me anymore, don't meet each other... Let's get together and get away."

With such a few simple words, Guan Zishan seems to have exhausted all his strength in his life. He once fantasized about a future where he muster up the courage to come out with Ding Naichuan and confess, but he couldn't accept that he and Ding Naichuan went to Ding Naichuan's house When she came out, she faced the situation of her biological mother.

After all, he is a boy with a lot of self-esteem.

After that, Guan Zishan still received calls from Ding Naichuan every day, but he was in the worst mood at that time, so he changed his mobile phone number with a sigh of relief, and the two of them completely lost contact.