Slag Gong wants to remarry me [Double Life]

(One)

Xia Xi did not expect that this night was just the beginning, Qin Ruilin's symptoms did not improve, but became more serious, but Xia Xi's thoughts were not clear enough for him to tell what was wrong. Satisfied, but the other party can't find any serious faults. His attitude towards outsiders remains the same, he handles official affairs vigorously and resolutely, his image is majestic and solemn, and he can hardly find any flaws.

Even so, Xia Xi was still extremely disturbed. He was sure that his memory was not confused. That night Qin Ruilin was anxious and worrying about gain and loss, but if something really happened to him, how could he have no symptoms now?

No, it's still symptomatic, if clinginess counts.

When Qin Chen just came back from the United States, he kept sticking to Xia Xi's side every day, calling daddy worriedly when he didn't see him for a while, Xia Xi stayed in the kitchen while cooking, and lay on Xia Xi's body while watching TV, as if I wish I could stick to him. Xia Xi enjoyed this atmosphere in the first few days, but she couldn't bear it as time went by.

But the current Qin Ruilin is even worse than Qin Chen.

He tried his best to keep his work at home, and even stayed in a place where he could see Xia Xi in the video conference. If Xia Xi moved a step away, he would immediately follow him, and he would only relax after confirming that he could see Xia Xi. Xi was so disturbed that he negotiated with Qin Ruilin many times, but was rejected by the other party's oppressive and painful eyes.

In addition to being clingy, Qin Ruilin is also a little worried about gains and losses. Sometimes Xia Xi's casual words or an unintentional action can arouse his strong reaction, and he will rack his brains to think about Xia Xi's purpose for doing this. , Does he hate himself very much, and does he want to stay away from himself?

Even when he went to bed at night, he would find excuses all over, just to sleep in Xia Xi's room, even if he could only sleep on the floor, he was as happy as if he had harvested a great treasure.

Xia Xi was forced to be a little breathless by him, no one likes to live under surveillance, not to mention that even his normal happiness and anger were firmly restricted, every time he showed an impatient expression, Qin Ruilin would always be angry one after another. When asked, he said in a low voice if I made you angry, but these words were the reason why Xia Xi couldn't bear it. He didn't know how to answer, but he couldn't keep silent.

Because when he was silent, Qin Ruilin would become even more anxious. No matter whether Xia Xi was happy or not, he would keep pestering her until Xia Xi said: I am not angry.

Xia Xi didn't know what these four words could represent, what could he do if he said it, what Qin Ruilin should do was not to force him to deny that he was angry, but to give each other a distance, he was already forced to be upset.

When Qin Ruilin tried to follow into the room again, Xia Xi stopped in front of the door first, and he firmly said: "Don't follow me anymore."

Qin Ruilin was startled, and then he looked at Xia Xi uneasily.

Xia Xi covered her face, almost collapsed and said, "Don't look at me like that again! You are not a child, don't stare at me every minute from morning to night, I can't stand it, no one can stand it! He Can you give me a little space to be free, I feel like I'm tied up with a rope!"

"I just want to see you..."

"What kind of logic is this! Can you respect me a little bit?"

Qin Ruilin's eyes flickered, and he didn't hide the panic and panic in his eyes. He said in a flustered and helpless way: "I don't, I respect you, and I like you too."

He spoke very seriously, Xia Xi believed the sincerity in his words, but he had seen enough these days, he held the door frame, and then opened his mouth, only to find that he didn't know what to say, Qin Ruilin's statement seemed to be meaningless Wrong, but his behavior was imposed on himself, and he never thought about whether he would accept it or not.

After a while, Xia Xi said powerlessly: "I don't want to argue about right and wrong. I checked the flight information, and I will take Chen Chen back to country Z tomorrow." If it wasn't for the flight delay before, he would have left by now. There is no need to endure this pain.

Qin Ruilin said dully: "You...you want to go?"

"Well, I should have left a few days ago. I've already booked the plane ticket. You can go back to your room tonight. I have to pack my luggage."

"..."

"You must sleep here?"

"Um……"

"What if I don't want to?"

Qin Ruilin didn't speak.

"I don't want to, can you go back to your room?"

Qin Ruilin lowered his head, clenched his teeth, and said in a low voice after a while: "I can't sleep."

Xia Xi didn't hear clearly, he asked, "What?"

"I can't sleep. Before I came here, I couldn't sleep for several days."

Xia Xi felt that this was ridiculous, "Sleeping in this room is useful? Then I will let you, and you can rearrange the room for me."

"..." Qin Ruilin stared at Xia Xi without moving, "No, because you are in the room."

Xia Xi was speechless again.

That night Xia Xi still ended in failure, but Qin Ruilin looked at him with gratitude, as if he could come into this room thanks to Xia Xi's gift.

When Xia Xi was packing his luggage, Qin Ruilin walked around him uneasily, his brows were tightly frowned, his nerves tensed into a tight string, during that period of time, countless thoughts flashed through his mind, he wanted to crazily put Xia Xi The luggage was thrown from the window, but reason warned him that Xia Xi would hate him even more. He wanted to force Xia Xi to stay by his side forever, not allowing him to leave half a step, but reason held him back, he dared not Taking half a step across the thunder pool, I'm afraid it will offend Xia Xi a little bit.

But the turbulent rage stared at him like a poisonous snake.

The next day Xia Xi didn't see Qin Ruilin's figure until he went out, and Carlo was hesitant to speak at the side, with a particularly complicated expression on his face.

Qin Chen reluctantly bid farewell to Carlo. At the same time, he looked around for Qin Ruilin. He clearly felt the tense atmosphere between daddy and daddy, so he lowered his voice and asked, "Carlo, where is my dad? Isn't he seeing us off?"

"He has something to do, let me take you to the airport before he leaves."

"Is Dad busy?"

Carlo didn't answer, he said to Xia Xi: "Let's go."

Xia Xi glanced at the room for the last time, then nodded silently.

The car stopped at the airport, Xia Xi opened the door to go out, but stopped abruptly, he looked at Carlo, hesitated for a while and said, "What's the matter with Qin Ruilin? He seems... not quite right."

With a smile on Carlo's face, he said rigidly as if reciting his lines: "Don't worry, Mr. Xia, Mr. Qin will be fine."

Xia Xi walked away, but Carlo didn't drive back. He looked at the direction Xia Xi left, and his eyes were quickly covered with a layer of haze. As he expected, Xia Xi soon turned back, his face was ugly I made a phone call, but no one answered it.

Qin Chen saw Carlo, he rushed over and panicked: "Carlo, daddy's passport is gone!"

Carlo glanced at Xia Xi from a distance, and asked, "Did you forget it at home?"

"Daddy said he packed it up, it's impossible to find it."

Xia Xi had already walked over, he gave up making the call, his face relaxed a bit, and said in a deep voice: "Carlo, please take us back."

"Okay, don't worry, even if you lose it, you can apply for a replacement."

Qin Ruilin was not at home, which largely verified Xia Xi's guess. He saw Qin Ruilin get up in a daze last night. He didn't pay much attention to it at the time, but he didn't expect him to do such a thing. Xia Xi's mood was quite complicated. He I don't know what Qin Ruilin wants to do, his logical thinking has completely deviated from Xia Xi's imagination.

But apart from Qin Ruilin, he couldn't think of anyone else who would do this.

Qin Ruilin kept trying to avoid Xia Xi, but it was useless. Xia Xi waited for the rabbit and caught him. Qin Ruilin looked at Xia Xi pretending to be calm, but he was so panicked that he didn't know what to do. With unprecedented severity, he stared at Qin Ruilin intently, as if he could see through all his thoughts.

"Are you avoiding me?"

Qin Ruilin panicked: "No...no."

"You haven't been back for two days."

"I... I'm very busy, you know, and I have come back to live, but you are already asleep, I don't want to disturb you anymore...Really, I didn't lie to you, it was the project discussed last time, and many things need to be done. I will make the final decision, I also attended an important reception, it is difficult to get out, you can find Carlo if you have anything to do, I have told him, he will obey all your requests..."

Xia Xi interrupted his chatter. He found that Qin Ruilin's mental state was extremely bad again in just two days. There are too many flaws, and it seems that it has lost sufficient strength to support it.

"You don't even answer the phone." Xia Xi asked calmly, "You have nothing to say about my passport?"

Qin Ruilin was at a loss.

Xia Xi said: "I don't know what your purpose is, but it won't help at all. If you are still awake, return your passport to me. Chen Chen will start school soon, at least you can't delay him from going to school. In addition, you need to calm down. You Recently... I have done too many things that ordinary people can't understand."

Qin Ruilin froze in place, unable to speak for a long time.

Xia Xi didn't wait for his answer, and his expression was full of disappointment and helplessness. He glanced at Qin Ruilin, but that glance made Qin Ruilin feel as if he had been stabbed in the heart. His body shook slightly and turned away. Xia Xi, who was far away, didn't see it.

(two)

The next day, Xia Xi went to the embassy to submit a replacement application. He had already lost his patience by Qin Ruilin. Since he insisted not to give it, he had to re-apply. There are countless ways to go for everything. He didn't understand Qin Ruilin The motivation and purpose of doing that, but you can move in the direction you think.

Coming out of the embassy, ​​Xia Xi didn't go back to the villa immediately. That place made him feel a little suffocated. He walked along the secluded street, and passers-by cast curious glances from time to time. He was not angry, but responded with With a gentle smile, he tried his best to avoid the bustling streets, so as not to meet people who knew him, then he chose a teahouse with a beautiful scenery, and spent a long time alone leisurely.

It was getting dark before Xia Xi got up to leave. There were many missed calls in his mobile phone, but Xia Xi glanced at them and put them away as if he didn't hear them.

It takes a few days to reissue a passport, which means Xia Xi has to stay in the villa for a few days, but Qin Ruilin's neurotic behavior makes him almost unbearable, and he begins to think about how to persuade Chen Chen to live in the hotel, whether Qin Ruilin He doesn't plan to accompany any unbelievable plans.

But Xia Xi didn't expect that on the day he went out, Qin Ruilin sent Qin Chen back to country Z without authorization. When he heard the news, he was so angry that he smashed his phone at Qin Ruilin. Under the eyes of everyone, Qin Ruilin unexpectedly He didn't hide or evade, his forehead was smashed with blood, but he was still staring at Xia Xi without realizing it.

Carlo looked at Xia Xi in shock. He didn't expect that he would dare to behave like this. Then he asked all the servants to go out. He found the medicine box to bandage Qin Ruilin, but was stopped by the other party. Qin Ruilin wiped his forehead with his hand , said in a deep voice, "Carlo, you go out too."

"Master Qin, you!"

"go out."

Carlo glared at Xia Xi angrily, and left reluctantly.

Xia Xi was still immersed in anger, his face seemed to be covered with a layer of frost, his body trembled slightly, and his breathing was particularly rapid.

Qin Ruilin explained with lack of confidence: "You said that Chen Chen still has to go to school."

Xia Xi gritted her teeth, "Why do you send him away without authorization!"

"He's going to school..."

"Don't use this as an excuse! What on earth do you want to do?" Xia Xi asked angrily, "Hide my passport and send Chen Chen back to China, do you think you can keep me here!"

After he shouted, there was a dead silence in the room, Qin Ruilin's face was bloodless, he took two steps back as if he had been hit hard, opened his mouth and throat but was too hoarse to say a word.

Xia Xi bent down and breathed hard, so angry that the blood in his body was surging. This was something he didn't expect. Damn it, Qin Ruilin would do such a thing. Isn't he crazy!

The two were in a stalemate, but Xia Xi suddenly covered his stomach with a painful expression. The sharp pain made him curl up, his strength seemed to be taken out suddenly, and he could hardly stand still. Qin Ruilin was startled, and he quickly reached out to support Xia Xi, Xia Xi wanted to push him away, but he really didn't have the strength to push him away. Qin Ruilin grabbed his shoulder with one hand and hugged his leg with the other. Stay in shape.

Qin Ruilin knew that this was due to his recent poor condition. If it was the past, even two Xia Xi would not make him stagger half a step.

Pain and worry made Xia Xi anxious. He wanted to escape from Qin Ruilin's arms, but was rushed out of the hall by the other party. He seemed to be more nervous than Xia Xi, and his body was as stiff and tight as a hard stone.

Xia Xi closed her eyes exhausted, and gently comforted the restless child with her hands.

This is a fuse that fully arouses the contradictions of the past few days. Qin Ruilin's compromise and Xia Xi's intolerance are all suffering under the burning of this flame.

……

"Mr. Qin told me not to blame you, saying that it's all his fault." Doctor Tiffany with blonde hair crossed her hands on her knees, her blue eyes were like water in the deep sea, "Don't worry, the child will be fine , my name is tiffany, I am an expert in this field, but I want to remind you that you have to pay attention to your emotions, you are almost 6 months pregnant, if you get angry, it will hurt the fetal gas, and it will also cause certain harm to the child Abdominal pain is very likely to be a harbinger of miscarriage..."

She paused for a while, seeing Xia Xi's nervous face, she said again: "But you're fine, the stomach pain is because your shortness of breath caused the child to lack oxygen, he will naturally be restless and restless, it's no wonder you don't feel pain."

Xia Xi breathed a sigh of relief, and said seriously, "Thank you."

Tiffany nodded, "Hmm, but you must remember what I said, and don't be overjoyed in the future! Emotional changes during pregnancy will affect the growth of the child. If you want a healthy and lively child, you must recognize it from now on. Be realistic, be good, don't make unnecessary resistance, keep a happy mood, it won't do you any harm."

"Is this what he asked you to say?"

"No, of course not. He knew he was wrong, so he was ashamed to see you. I guess, if you have a conflict with Mr. Qin, of course I have to persuade you to recognize the reality. Who is Mr. Qin? What do you think?" Who will he compromise for? If you fight against him, you won’t be the one who loses in the end.”

Xia Xi lowered her head and pondered for a while, then smiled wryly for a while and said, "You're right, I really can't beat him."

"That's it." Tiffany said with a smile, "How can a person live without compromising, sometimes when you think about it from another angle, things will be completely different."

"It's not as simple as you think."

"It's not complicated, isn't it? There are no hurdles you can't overcome. You just have to think about it. Is the conflict itself important, or the child in your stomach? Are you going to continue to get angry and destroy this child, or choose to take a step back and make both of you happy?" , this is a very simple multiple choice question, right?"

Xia Xi didn't speak, no matter whether Tiffany was speaking for Qin Ruilin or not, she was right on Xia Xi's weakness, he had to take care of his children now, Qin Ruilin could act recklessly, but he couldn't, he couldn't let his emotions get out of control , at least until the child was born, he did not allow himself to do so.

After a long time, Xia Xi raised his head slightly, and he smiled meaningfully and said, "You're right, it's true."

Tiffany was stunned for a moment, as if she didn't expect Xia Xi to figure it out so quickly, but she didn't think about it either, she stood up and clapped her hands and said with a smile: "Okay, that's right, keep a good mood, and put all the unhappiness behind In the back of your head, with Mr. Qin's status, his temper may be a little bit bad, so you should be more tolerant, and don't care about him like him."

Xia Xi was silent.

Tiffany walked out of the ward, and Qin Ruilin, who had been guarding outside, immediately looked at her, his eyes were a little anxious and worried, and he asked nervously, "How is it?"

"It's okay." Tiffany said.

"Is he in a calm mood? Will it affect anything if I go in?"

"He's calm, not as serious as you say."

"Can I see him?"

"can."

"I..." Qin Ruilin took two steps forward, then hesitated, "Forget it, I still won't go in."

Tiffany glanced at Qin Ruilin's dark red wound, and suggested again, "Mr. Qin, he's fine, let's bandage the wound first?"

It took Qin Ruilin a while to react, he turned his eyes away from the wall, and said slowly, "Okay."

After wandering outside the ward countless times, Qin Ruilin didn't have the courage to push the door in. This floor is a separate ward, so he doesn't have to worry about anyone passing by, so he closed his eyes and pressed his body tightly against the wall, as if he could A little closer to Xia Xi, the wall is cold and there is no temperature at all, but he seems to be able to feel Xia Xi's breath, which makes him extremely addicted to it every minute.

Qin Ruilin began to think, how did things come to this point, which completely deviated from his original intention, he didn't want Xia Xi to be angry, and he didn't want him to lie down in the hospital, but all this was caused by him, he did it by mistake His brain began to think about things that he couldn't even understand. Xia Xi's alienation made him panic, and Xia Xi's displeasure made him afraid.

He was afraid that Xia Xi would leave him every second, this fear was infinitely magnified, he couldn't even contain it, every nerve in him was screaming, he knew it was wrong, but he couldn't control it For himself, he began to worry about gains and losses. He didn't want Xia Xi to leave the United States. If he left here, he would never come back. He would hate himself, and he would lose Xia Xi forever.

Once the fear reaches the extreme, it will fall into the never-ending abyss.

All his actions are rooted in the fact that he is afraid of the word, afraid, how afraid is it?Qin Ruilin clutched his heart, he was so frightened as if someone had strangled his throat, but Xia Xi was the hand that could give him breath.

The night was as quiet as water. After everyone fell asleep, Qin Ruilin opened the door silently. He looked at the hospital bed with breathless breath, his eyes became gentle in an instant, Xia Xi was already asleep, and Qin Ruilin walked towards the bed step by step. He approached, and his movements were so solemn that he was afraid of desecrating the other party.

Finally approaching the bed, Qin Ruilin looked at Xia Xi motionlessly for a long time, then slowly squatted down beside his bed, and put his head against Xia Xi's hand, which gave him the illusion that he was getting close to Xia Xi, he Slowly closing his eyes, the approach of this moment gradually calmed his restless heart, as if he had found his final belonging, and he no longer needed to drift away.

He had suffered from insomnia for many days, but with Xia Xi, this symptom was easily resolved. Qin Ruilin soon fell asleep. He had such a beautiful dream that he still had a smile on his face when he woke up. .

He still maintained the posture when he fell asleep, his arms were stiff and numb under the pressure, and his knees were almost numb. Qin Ruilin moved a little, and the paralyzing current made him almost cry out in pain. He moved his feet out little by little. , This is a very difficult movement, with a feeling of bending the bones.

He was fighting against the numb pain, but he didn't expect Xia Xi to wake up. The two looked at each other, and Xia Xi frowned slightly, as if he didn't expect Qin Ruilin to appear here suddenly. He then glanced at Qin Ruilin The posture of the other party was quickly associated with the behavior of the other party last night from the situation some time ago, and he couldn't help asking: "What do you want?"

"I do not have……"

Xia Xi was silent.

Qin Ruilin said again: "I only want you." He paused for a moment, then with firm eyes, he added word by word, "I just want to be with you."