unrestricted relationship

"Are you the one who replaces Xun's gift to Sara every year?"

"Ah."

"You carpenter is doing a good job."

"Thanks for the compliment, don't forget that I have a master who was born as a mason."

"Want to meet Sharo?"

"How is she doing?"

"I said that she is happy and healthy, but you may not believe it. Don't you believe what you hear, and see what you see?"

"... Long Su."

"What's the matter?"

"You don't want to ask me... how did Xun die?"

The sword was still raised like that, and he put his head on the crossbar of the chair back and looked at the sky. The sky was split into pieces of blue by the branches, shaking slightly in the dark part of his pupils... There was no answer for a long time.The silence Long Su stared at him was so long, it was so long that he almost forgot the past and future.All that remains are memories and the shadows of trees shaking in the sunlight.

"Do you want to say it?" He whispered softly, as if he was afraid that falling on his heart would make it shatter.

Jianzi finally turned his head, as if smiling, "If you're trying to comfort me..."

"——I don't do superfluous things."

The strong tone was so cold that it was annoying, but Jianzi caught his true heart in an instant: "Yes, yes, comfort is a hallucinogen that doesn't help. However, as a friend, I don't expect you to say anything. Be obedient, you can always borrow your shoulders."

Saying this, Jianzi moved his head slightly towards Long Su.The flickering sunlight is blocked in front of the broad back, the nose is lingering with the familiar aroma of mixed tobacco, and the words that have been tossed in my heart a thousand times slipped out of my mouth like this: "... Until now, I haven't really felt that... Xiao Xun is dead."

Xun's death is a collection of various accidents. Originally, he only worked as a bartender in a bar as a cameo thug. In order to raise money for Sharo, he asked the boss behind the scenes for a lot of work such as debt collection.As a result, he often appeared on campus with wounds, which aroused the uneasiness of the surrounding students, and finally turned into rumors like snowballing.One day, when he was fighting with a gangster outside the school, he was caught by the discipline committee member of the student union, Xiao Hongchen.By mistake, Ao Xiao, who is straightforward by nature, thought that he was the one who recently sold ecstasy to art students, and immediately sued him to the teaching office, and Xun Ye was suspended for this reason.In order to prove his innocence, Xun went to investigate the matter alone, but was accidentally stabbed to death when he was arguing with another gang of gangsters.

"It was me and Fojian who found him. Those gangsters were also very young, with their hair dyed in a mess. When they saw someone being stabbed, they all ran away in fright. At first, we thought nothing was wrong. There was only a little blood on the ground, and there was very little A little bit of blood, like cutting vegetables. Xun was still able to speak before the ambulance arrived. He said that he had remembered the names of those boys, and asked me to go back and call the police. I can’t let them continue to harm my classmates..."

The sword stopped, and he seemed to have returned to that night, the fear in his heart when he looked at the ambulance going away.No taxi dared to carry the blood-stained two, so they had to run all the way to follow.He had never run so fast before, until Mu Shaoai rushed out from the hospital and grabbed him, telling him——

"The spleen ruptured and hemorrhaged, and he fell into a coma in the ambulance. He died before entering the emergency room."

"It's not that I'm denying the fact that I've seen his body, I've been to his funeral, I've seen him cremated, and I know he's declared dead by every definition. But ... it feels weird. , It seems that as long as I am still alive, remembering, and remembering, he has not become a photo, a tombstone, or a faded name. Every year when I prepare gifts for Shaluo, I feel that he is still alive, It feels like this is a gift for two people at the same time. Because a certain part of Xiao Xun's life continues in Sha Luo."

Long Su touched his face lightly, as if to confirm that he was not crying: "You can't let go, but you are worried, you are worried, because you haven't figured it out. What are you unable to figure out?"

It took a long time for Jianzi to sigh and whisper: "Maybe, I still can't figure out why his death can't be attributed to anyone."

I couldn't figure it out, so I wandered around the scene repeatedly, asking hard questions about the small pool of blood.

I can't figure it out, so I hold it in my heart, so I can't let it go, so I keep criticizing it all the time, as if I was the one who did the wrong thing.

Gaining and losing have never been mastered by one hand as advertised in success books.Think that if you don’t make mistakes, you can embark on an unquestionably happy life; think that in a long story, you can change your choices to reverse the results at will – after seeing too many ridiculous things in the world, you will slowly lose confidence.Too many people, in repeated doubts and hesitation, slowly kill the time.

"Then do you figure it out now?"

"No." The answer was crisp and clear, "If you can't figure it out, don't think about it. The realm of a sage who knows his destiny by doing his best is too far away from me. Now I have no choice but to do his best and not accept his fate."

His hand froze, Long Su never thought that Jianzi would say that, but this unrepentant attitude was truly "Jianzi's fairy tale".The words I wanted to scold rolled in my throat for a long time, but I still didn't want to give up. "Let's go to see Shaluo together." Long Su finally said.

"...Okay, but don't let Shaluo see me, otherwise I don't know how to turn her into a 'big brother'."

Hearing Jianzi's lightening voice, Long Su's heart sank little by little.

Sharo's favorite fairy tale is "The Happy Prince" by Oscar Wilde.She was, she said, the sick child who was given a good gift.But everyone knows the end of the story: the happy prince, who lost his beautiful appearance, was melted down, leaving only a cracked lead heart, and was thrown into the garbage heap with the swallow who loved him so much.

Long Su has always wondered why Sha Luo would like a story, the ending of this story is too sad and tears, too unsuitable for a ten-year-old child full of fantasies.Now he understands, maybe... that sensitive and gentle little girl already knew faintly in her heart that her favorite big brother would never come again, just like the happy prince in a fairy tale, who would be removed from the world forever after dedicating everything. disappeared without even hearing a heartfelt thank you.

So, Sharo also believes that the Happy Prince and the Swallow will have eternal life in God's garden?

Long Su didn't know the answer, nor did he want to know it.He just thought faintly, don't let Jianzi know about this matter.

Monday happened to be the day when Shaluo could go to school, Longsu had greeted Jianzi in advance, and they skipped work together after lunch.The location of Shaluo's school is very remote, and it takes more than half an hour to drive from the company.The name of the school, Jianzi, is quite impressive. It is said to be the best all-residential private school in the city. Although it costs a lot of money, there are still countless parents who want to send their children here every year.

"The management of this kind of school should be stricter. Wouldn't it be a problem for Sha Luo to be sick and absent from work?" I learned a lot about Sha Luo's situation from Long Su, and there is no need to worry about his health for the time being, but children do not have peers. lonely.

"It's okay, a good friend of mine has a good relationship with this school." In fact, Chu Junyi's father is the school's biggest sponsor, and Chu Junyi himself comes to teach guqin every week. With these connections, Sha Luo can be said to be a standard student who enters through the back door.

Jianzi turned his head to see the smile on the corner of his mouth, and felt strange that the uncle was in a good mood today: "What makes you so happy?"

"No." The golden eyes lightly brushed over Jianzi's changing expression, and the lover who was full of black water was occasionally undisguisedly curious, and it turned out to be very cute.Leaning over to kiss the cheek full of doubts, Jian Zi was so startled that he held onto the steering wheel: "I haven't got insurance yet, Long Su, you want to play Fast and Furious and drag innocent passers-by into the water."

There was no one going straight ahead, so there was room for Long Su to turn around calmly and ask, "Who is the passerby?"

Ask again, "Who is innocent?"

Finally, he raised his eyebrows with a smile, "Fast and Furious? Huh?"

Jianzi pretended not to hear, turned his head and looked out of the window intently, thinking about whether he should simply take the bus for "personal safety" on the return trip...

The school occupies a large area. Two rows of green belt plants are separated by the guardrail. From a distance, several basketball courts and a football field can be seen in the distance. A group of students are practicing volleyball serve by the side of the court.For the sake of students' independence, parents are not allowed to visit during class, so Long Su had no choice but to continue to save the country - the car stopped not far from the gate, and he saw Chu Junyi standing in front of him smiling.

"Long Su, you're late."

As an opening welcome speech, it was a bit too sharp. Long Su showed a very good temper: "There is a traffic jam in the city, and you are tired of waiting for a long time."

Chu Junyi was taken aback. Normally, when encountering such passive mistakes, Long Su would always take it lightly. When did he become so considerate.Turning his gaze to Jianzi, the latter smiled at her, "Hello Miss Chu, I am Long Su's friend, Jianzi Xianji."

On the phone yesterday, Long Su only said that a friend happened to sponsor Sha Luo and wanted to see how she was doing.Chu Junyi did not expect to meet such a person: he is not considered handsome in appearance, but he has a calm demeanor in his movements, which is so unique that he overwhelms all perceptions in an instant.Jianzi laughed, and the black color in his eyes stretched, making people immediately realize that this is a person who loves to laugh, and smiles very sincerely.

Chu Junyi thought in surprise, did Long Su have any friends like this before?In the confusion of thoughts, she shook hands with Jianzi and introduced herself. She finally remembered the topic again: "Long Su, the teaching director does not allow you to watch outside the classroom, for fear of affecting other students, but Sha Luo in the second session in the afternoon Her class is physical education class, you can watch her from outside the fence."

Long Su looked at Jianzi, who nodded apologetically at Chu Junyi: "That's fine, just look at her current appearance. I'm sorry, I made it difficult for others to disturb the normal order of the school."

It's easy to talk to Jianzi, he has an affinity to shorten the distance between strangers naturally, so Chu Junyi didn't say too many polite words, she smiled at him and said it's okay, "It's almost time, let's not stand at the door, go Over there on the playground."

The three of them walked a few steps along the green belt when the get out of class bell rang.The campus, which was quiet just now, boiled within 1 minute.The boys hurried down the stairs with the ball in their arms and rushed towards the playground, occasionally accompanied by the girls' shrieking and laughing and cursing.The bare classroom corridor suddenly grew many small heads, and the students could be seen pushing and jostling in the corridor tens of meters away.

Chu Junyi often comes to school, and her eyes are sharper. She suddenly stopped and pointed: "Look, it's Shaluo."

Looking in the direction she pointed, a group of elementary school students wearing sports jackets, sports trousers and sneakers came out of a building that looked like a gymnasium in twos and threes.They should be wearing the required uniforms for the school's physical education class. The boys are light blue, and the girls are light pink, just like the junior high school students who played volleyball before.

Sharo's pink hair and pink clothes are very conspicuous, so Jianzi recognized her at first sight.She was walking with a little dark-haired boy who was dancing and scribbling something.The boy seemed to be the king of children, and there were a few little boys with their shoulders and backs beside him, and they laughed a lot while listening to him.The break time between classes is only 10 minutes, and the students who are playing ball every second have already started sprinting towards the stairs before the class bell rang. Soon, the corridors of the classroom became empty again, and there were only three students in the physical education class on the playground. class.

After finishing the team, the physical education teacher led Shaluo and his class to the sandpit far away from the stadium. Jianzi involuntarily walked two steps faster, then turned around and waved to Longsu: "I can go alone, let Shaluo Luo found that you are not easy to explain."

He was thoughtful, but Long Su couldn't insist, "Then I'll wait for you here."

After Jianzi walked about ten meters away, Chu Junyi sighed greatly: "I must say, your sudden attack this time really caught me by surprise." Seeing Long Su's puzzled eyes, she couldn't help laughing, "So Didn't you realize it yourself? Your friend is really... different. "

There is probably no one in the world who doesn't like his lover being praised like this, Long Su asked calmly, "What's different?"

Chu Junyi did not overwhelm his sinister intentions, "To be appreciated by Shulou Longsu, who has his eyes above the top and does not make friends with the world, this in itself represents a great difference."

Long Su was very disappointed, and it was better to ask for others than to ask for himself: "I thought you would praise him for his outstanding demeanor and his lack of pretentiousness."

Chu Junyi glanced at him strangely—I have never seen such a way to encourage others to praise their friends, "At first, I thought it was incomprehensible that the two of you are so different from each other that you can be friends with each other. But Ruo Jianzi Talent and knowledge are as outstanding as his temperament, it would be a strange thing if you don't appreciate it."

"The two of us... Are we in opposite directions?" The corner of Long Su's mouth smiled, but he couldn't tell whether it was irony or playfulness.

Chu Junyi said truthfully: "Only in terms of temperament and personality, you really don't look like fellow travelers who can share the same goals or cherish each other."

"If I say that Jianzi and I do share the same goals in our work, and we can even share many problems, what do you think?"

Chu Junyi only thought for a second, "...that is, I was deceived by appearance, and those who can be friends with you are as bad as you in nature."

Long Sujue collapsed, almost out of breath from laughing.

Not far away, without knowing it, Jianzi, who had been asserted as "what kind of pot goes with what kind of lid", came to the edge of the wall.There are dense trees at the corner, and you can only vaguely see the pink dumpling head undulating in the crowd, earnestly making preparations. ——If you turn around, you can see Sharo more clearly, but Kenko stopped.

The little pink figure appeared and disappeared among the trees, Jianzi finally saw Shaluo's face clearly:

The short warm-up exercise made her short of breath, and a pink flush appeared on her face, taking away the unhealthy pallor on her delicate little face.The teacher seems to have explained in advance that each warm-up movement Shaluo only does one eight beats, and she stands there for the next three eight beats, smiling happily to help other students count the beats.

The other student teams received the medicine ball, and began to gather around to listen to the teacher's explanation of throwing skills, and then went up one by one to try throwing.Sha Luo could only assist the teacher by arranging the picked balls one by one. She still had a smile on her face, and she didn't feel that she was an outsider at all.

The little girl he had been silently caring about finally emerged from Xun's narration, past memories and blurred photos—a small bright face full of joy and gratitude.

"Why do you want to help Sharo... I don't know why, maybe it's because of the nightmare I often have.In my dream, I often heard my sister calling my name behind many houses and faces, calling, brother, save me.When I saw Sha Luo for the first time, she was a small one, lying on the bed with her eyes closed. I looked at her and seemed to hear her saying, brother, help me. 』

Sour, astringent, bitter, and annoyed sadness welled up in one breath, stabbing Jian Zi's throat choked, and stabbing him so hard that he couldn't open his eyes.

——What continues in Shaluo is not the life of Xing, but the hope and redemption of Xing.

——Even if it is an incomplete life, it is still full of joy and gratitude.

Taking a deep breath, Jianzi closed his eyes, trying to calm down the boiling emotions.

Noticing something was wrong with him, Long Su strode over without thinking, not paying attention to Chu Junyi's horrified expression behind him.

"Jianzi, are you okay?" Holding his lover's arm, Long Su himself couldn't figure out what was going on with this feeling of his heart being squeezed tightly.

Opening his eyes and looking at him, Jianzi smiled, "Now, it is indeed 'hearing is believing, seeing is believing'."

Letting go, Long Su didn't want to expose his reddened eye sockets, "Friend, you should know by now that I've always been honest and reliable, and never lie."

Jianzi was speechless for a while, "Well...not to mention anything else, if measured by the thickness of your skin, you must be the most reliable."

"My friend praised you." After being "complimented" like this, he still showed a complacent look of wanting to spin around, how many people are there in Shelongsu?Jianzi is really amazing.Fortunately, Long Su was very measured this time, and took the initiative to back down before he exploded, "I'll go back to the car and wait for you."

"Well, I'll stay for a while." Jianzi also knew it was not appropriate to stay for a long time.He had met Sha Luo several times with Xun. Although his childhood memories were easily blurred, his white hair and white eyebrows really had some characteristics.If he was really recognized, how should he answer if he asked about Xun... He couldn't assume.

Long Su turned around, facing the livid and pretty face of his childhood friend.

He was stunned for a moment before he felt something was wrong. Chu Junyi couldn't hold back anymore: "Long Su, Jian Zi...are you really your friend?"