Years of Intoxication

GuQingPei frowned and looked at He Gu: "What's wrong? Song Juhan?"

He Gu rolled his Adam's apple and said calmly, "What's wrong?"

The man glanced at GuQingPei, obviously unwilling to say: "You will know when you go back and have a look."

"I'm on vacation." He Gu pursed his lips, "Don't bother me if there's nothing important. By the way, you Mr. Song should also hope that I can go as far as possible."

The man's face sank: "Mr. He, Mr. Song asks you to return to China immediately, if you don't cooperate..."

"I don't cooperate, are you going to tie me back?" He Gou suppressed the uneasiness in his heart, and said viciously, "Song He will leave if he asks me to go, and return if he asks me, what is he? Things, if he needs anything from me now, let him call me personally." He Gu pushed him away, and pulled GuQingPei into the hotel.

Back in the room, He Gu couldn't hold it any longer, and said tremblingly, "Give me the phone."

GuQingPei put his hands in his pockets and looked at him leisurely: "You were so domineering and handsome just now."

He Gu smiled wryly: "Mr. Gu, give me the phone."

GuQingPei took out his mobile phone from his pocket and threw it to him: "What is Song Juhan doing again?"

"He's injured." He Gu's hands were trembling, and he pressed the power button hard.

"Injured?" GuQingPei asked in surprise, "How did you get injured? Is it serious?"

"It's not light." He Gu stared at the phone screen, but he held his breath and waited for a long time, but there was nothing.

During the few days when he shut down the phone, there was no news from Song Juhan.

This made him feel extremely uneasy, because it was not in line with Song Juhan's usual style. He gritted his teeth and called Song Juhan back, but the phone was turned off.

Could it be... Could it be that Song Juhan's injury really got worse?Otherwise, why would Song He want him to return to China, and even sent an assistant to find him?

He Gu patted his forehead hard, his expression distorted.

GuQingPei looked at him worriedly, but could only remain silent.

He Gu was anxious and annoyed, grabbed his phone and strode out, when he passed by GuQingPei, he said "I'll go out for a while".

Why didn't he ask the matter clearly about why he was angry with an assistant just now, and why didn't he ask the matter clearly, no matter how useless Song He was, he wouldn't make fun of his son!

As soon as he walked to the lobby, his cell phone rang. He nervously put it in front of his eyes. It was an unfamiliar number. He answered it quickly. The other end of the phone was silent for two seconds, and Song He's voice sounded annoyed. Tiredness: "Why, you will appear in front of me today, otherwise you will not have a good day in the future!"

Why didn't bother to pay attention to his threats: "What's wrong with Song Juhan?"

"Come back and see for yourself!" Song He gritted his teeth, "I really want to kill you!"

What else did He Gu want to ask, Song He had already hung up the phone, and when he looked up, the assistant was standing not far from him, looking straight at him.

He Gu took a deep breath and lowered his head.

GuQingPei chased him out: "Why, what's wrong?"

He Gu turned and looked at him: "Mr. Gu, I'm going back to China now, I'm sorry for being in such a hurry."

GuQingPei has obviously guessed it: "Go ahead, you can come over anytime when you're done with your work."

"Thank you for your hospitality for half a month." He Gu's mind was so confused that it was about to explode.

"Why are you being polite." GuQingPei whispered in his ear with a smile, "If you really like it, go back and take him down, what are you afraid of?"

What to be afraid of.

He Gu kept echoing three words in his mind.

He has always been afraid. In the past, he was afraid that Song Juhan would get tired of him. Later, he was afraid that Song Juhan would change his mind on a whim. Now he is afraid that Song Juhan will change his mind one day. Those seven years of humble and self-confident feelings made him lose the slightest confidence in himself and Song Juhan. Believe me, he is afraid of too many things, but emotionally, he can't be brave.

GuQingPei patted his back hard: "Go back."

He Gu went back to his room to pack his simple luggage, followed his assistant to the airport, and the assistant sent him to the plane. It turned out that the man was the manager in charge of publicity in the Singapore company, and he was indeed Song He's assistant before.

Back in the capital, it was still daylight, when he got off the plane, someone from Song He picked him up and took him straight to the villa in Xiangshan.

On the road, He Gu still couldn't help asking the driver what happened to Song Juhan, but the driver didn't know at all, and his heart sank all the way.

When we arrived at the place, it was already dark. This area is full of vacation villas, and no one will live there permanently, so in that villa area, the only one with lights on must belong to Song Juhan.

He recalled the weekend he and Song Juhan spent here last summer, it was a rare sweet and happy weekend, Song Juhan's occasional tenderness was like charging energy, enough to support him to keep himself in the cold night .

That time seems to have passed for a long time.

He took the luggage from the driver and walked in.

Before his hand touched the door, the door was opened from the inside. Vanessa's beautiful but haggard face appeared in his sight. Before he could say a word, Vanessa hugged him and said with a sob: "You Finally home."

"What's the matter?" Vanessa's eye circles were red, she was in a bad state at first sight, He Gu's body began to tremble, what happened to Song Juhan?He was already afraid of knowing the truth.

Vanessa pulled him in: "Would you go and see Ju Han, he...he refuses to treat, eat, or sleep. It has been many days."

There was a buzzing in He Gu's mind, and it took a long time before he put down his luggage and hurried upstairs.

What is Song Juhan doing? !What else does he want to do!

He suddenly pushed open the door of Song Juhan's room, Song Juhan was sitting by the bed, turned his head to look out of the window, heard the noise, did not turn his head, just said calmly: "I saw you by the window."

His voice was deep and weak, without the lazy magnetism of the past, instead it was as low as sandpaper.

He Gu sternly said: "What are you messing around with?! Do you want to lose your arm!"

"It's not broken yet, why are you nervous?" Song Juhan raised his chin, his neck was thrown back, and his curly hair was scattered behind his head.

He Gu clearly saw his protruding collarbone and thin cheeks, Song Juhan had lost a lot of weight.

"Do you still want to play musical instruments? Have you done rehabilitation? What's the matter if you don't eat or sleep?"

Song Juhan sneered, turned to look at He Gu, his eyes were bloodshot: "Why do you pretend to care about me so much, do you care about me?"

"Why are you crazy!" He Gu looked at the cold food on the table, "Eat the food."

"My mother begged you to come back and see me. You are very tolerant of others, but you hate me the most." Song Juhan laughed, as if he had no strength, suddenly Taking a breath, he grabbed the quilt with five fingers, and the veins on the back of his hand were bulging.

Why do you feel that this kind of Song Juhan is too abnormal, is it because you haven't replied to the message for a few days?

He Gu took a bowl of porridge, walked up to Song Juhan, and sternly said, "Hurry up and eat for me!"

Song Juhan raised his head, his eyes were black and blue, he didn't rest normally, his whole body was sickly pale, he said slowly: "I'm not hungry."

He Gu pinched his chin: "Song Juhan, what's wrong with you!"

Song Juhan knocked over the bowl in his hand, and gasped for breath: "Go, lest I pester you, and you are so frightened that you ran abroad." As he spoke, he laughed again I got up, and there was a crying voice in the laughter, "Am I annoying you so much, you want to hide from me all over the world? I am willing to save you. I don't want to blackmail you with this. I dare not force you It's 01:30, why...why I just want to stay by your side, you can't bear it?"

He Gu watched Song Juhan's tears start to fall down, his heart ached like twists and turns, his mind went blank, he felt as if he had done something very bad to make this person so sad, but what did he do?Why, after so many years, Song Juhan almost shattered his heart, but now he feels wronged?

Song Juhan pushed him away violently, laughing and crying at the same time: "Let's go, why, you go, if I have the strength, I might tie you up again, so I can't eat, as long as I have strength, I will Zuo Hun, let's go, go to a place where I can't see you, touch you, or bother you, as long as you're happy, don't pretend to come back to care about me."

He Gu held back his tears, he clenched his fist and wanted to hit Song Juhan's face, but he felt that Song Juhan was so weak that he would collapse in the wind, and this punch was replaced by a slap in the face: "You fucking think you are now Aren't you being stupid, don't you think you're threatening me now!"

Song Juhan shook his head, his face ashen ashes: "I am giving you what you have always wanted, you see, I am not pestering you now. You should wish that I starve to death, so that no one pesters you anymore. "

"Fuck you! I'm just going abroad for a vacation, are you going to die or live!"

"Vacation?" Song Juhan laughed, "Do you think I don't know that you are looking for GuQingPei? In order to avoid me, you even went abroad to work."

"Who said I'm going to work abroad, who?" A person flashed in He Gu's mind, "Song He? Did Song He say that?!"

Song Juhan stared at him blankly: "You...are you really going on vacation?"

"Of course I'm going on vacation!"

"Then why didn't you reply to my message, why did you turn off the phone?!" Song Juhan didn't dare to recall the feeling that he was looking at his phone every day expecting even a single word of response, but in the end he was in vain.Just when he was injured, He Gu was a little gentle to him and let him see a glimmer of hope, He Gu used indifference and avoidance to deal him the heaviest and heaviest blow, breaking him to pieces.

"I'm happy!" He Gu roared, "I'm confused and want to be quiet for a few days. Are you an idiot? Do you believe what Song He says!"

"You don't even come to see me, you don't respond to a single message, and you turn off the phone when you go out..." Song Juhan's expression was a bit ferocious, and there was a painful crack in his heart, "What do you make me think, you are just trying to hide me."

He Gu closed his eyes, he didn't dare to look at Song Juhan's eyes again, he rubbed his forehead irritably: "I...I'm just messed up, I'm just going on vacation, not going to work there."

Song Juhan was silent for a while: "My mother told you to say that. My father also told me in the end that you are not going to work, but to go on vacation. You are all lying to me."

"Why should I lie to you? In this life, you, Song Juhan, are the only ones who lie to me. I don't fucking care about lying to you." He Gu waved his fists in hatred, "It's not rare!"

Song Juhan stared straight at him, his lips trembling, "Then...will you stay in the capital?"

"I'm not sure, maybe I will go to Shanghai." He Gu said in a deep voice, "But I won't avoid you anymore."

Song Juhan was silent for a moment, chuckled, fell back into the chair, and laughed: "You are just on vacation, just on vacation." He wiped the liquid from the corners of his eyes, but wiped more and more, and finally broke down in tears.

He Gu couldn't take it anymore, he rubbed Song Juhan's soft curly hair, and said softly: "Enough, don't cry, don't lose face."

Song Juhan slowly hugged his waist, the normally strong iron wall was now so soft that it made people sad, but he still hugged Hegu with all his strength, like holding a life-saving straw, and said in a hoarse voice: "I'm so sorry. Scared, really... scared."

He Gu took a deep breath, his eyes still clouded.Why didn't he realize before that Song Juhan was so capable of torturing people?

"Don't leave me, why, please don't leave me." Song Juhan's voice was heartbreaking, "I seem to be possessed...I miss you all the time, don't leave me..."

He Gu felt that something in his body shattered in response to the sound, fell into dust and mud, and melted into the earth, it was probably the cage he sealed himself.

Get it if you like it, what are you afraid of.

Such a simple truth, but he didn't dare to look directly at it.

He was afraid of so many things that he would rather choose to build layers upon layers of defenses to cut off all hope than to give himself the slightest chance.He endured the heartbreaking pain and strangled the budding hope with his own hands, just because he was afraid that the suffering would come again, and he was afraid that he would not be able to bear it.

But what's the big deal, a person is as good as the sky in this life, and it's just a death. He was willing to give everything in exchange for Song Juhan's liking. Now that Song Juhan likes him after all, why doesn't he dare to gamble with everything again.

If he wins, he wins, if he loses, if he loses... if he loses, he loses, and as the same sentence says, if he dies, he will die.Song Juhan once said that he couldn't afford to play, he was not convinced at the time, and he is not convinced now, he can afford to play, he risked his life, and planned to play with Song Juhan again, the biggest one, all The chips are pushed in one at a time, all the happiness and joy in his life, and his life.

So, He Gu listened to the roar from the depths of his soul, that exhaustive roar, when it came to his lips, it was just a dull sentence: "Okay, I won't leave."

Even such an understatement of five words has overdrawn all the strength of He Gu's body, and even pierced Song Juhan's heart in an instant.

Song Juhan suddenly raised his head: "What did you say?"

He Gu looked down at him, his eyes were so complicated that people couldn't figure it out: "I won't leave."

Song Juhan's eyes widened.

For a long time, he has done everything, but he can't get any promise, even if it is to lie to him, as long as he says it, he never cares about lying to him, because the promise of why is worth more than ten million gold, once it is made, it will never retort.

"You said...you said you wouldn't leave me." Song Juhan hugged He Gu's waist tightly, "You said you wouldn't leave me."

He Gu nodded slightly.

Song Juhan stood up abruptly, and without knowing where the strength came from, he grabbed He Gu's shoulder tightly: "What does this mean? He Gu, please explain clearly, what does this mean?!"

He Gu's body was full of turmoil, but his face was as calm as a lake: "That's what you thought. The reason why I went on vacation was to give myself a quiet environment to think about. Now that I'm done thinking, I'll give you Answered."

Song Juhan was trembling even for breathing, he smiled, and his face was filled with panic again: "Why, did I have hallucinations?"

"No." He Gu forced himself to remain calm, "I'll give you a chance to start again, we get to know each other again, get in touch again, and then maybe we can re-establish our relationship. Song Juhan, this time let me see how you are With some sincerity, let me see what kind of person you are, and see if you are worthy of my trust."

Song Juhan was ecstatic, he hugged He Gu violently, he was overwhelmed with excitement: "Why, why, why!"

After saying these words, He Gu felt that the stagnation in his chest had dissipated.During the half month in Singapore, all the things about Song Juhan that tormented him repeatedly and entangled him had made him unable to sleep well at night.The more than one year of tossing with Song Juhan seems to be longer than his past 29 years, but the heavy fog was lifted, the blossoming heart knots were opened, and the heart that loved Song Juhan was finally presented in front of him. The heart that was wrapped up by him with pain, inferiority, resentment, and rationality, and hidden in the deepest part of his soul, still radiated a faint but persistent light in the most difficult days and nights.

He didn't know how much energy it has to love someone. When he thought he had exhausted all of it, he found that it might be an endless stream of water. When it was moistened, it was like a surging sea. A trickle, but never exhausted, the strongest desire from life, never, exhausted.

Song Juhan hugged He Gu like crazy and refused to let go, and finally fell asleep in He Gu's arms because of serious physical exhaustion.

He Gu looked at the wet tears on Song Juhan's face and showed a bitter smile.

To love someone is to cross the catastrophe.