Years of Intoxication

After Susu fell asleep, He Gu got out of bed quietly, put on his clothes, and closed the door behind him.

He heard that Song Juhan entered the next room when he went out just now, he walked to the next door, raised his hand against the door panel, sighed, but didn't have the courage to knock down for a long time.

He wanted to ask Song Juhan how to arrange tomorrow, but after thinking about it, it was completely unnecessary, so he took his mobile phone, walked to the safe passage, and called his mother.

He briefly explained what happened at the airport today, so that she would not be worried when she saw the news.

After making the phone call and returning to the room, Song Juhan and Xiaosong came back from the outside. In the narrow hotel corridor, the three of them had no way to avoid it.

Song Juhan's mouth was bruised and half of his cheek was swollen, when he saw He Gu, he turned his face subconsciously.

He Gu was startled: "Did you have a conflict with the reporter?"

"No, I went home." Song Juhan said nonchalantly.

No wonder, only Song He could slap Song Juhan in the face, he pondered for a moment: "Tomorrow, how do we go to Shencheng? What time do we go?"

"I asked my dad to get the plane, and you can go there any time you want."

He Gu nodded: "Then it's ten o'clock in the morning." After finishing speaking, he wanted to go back to the room.

Song Juhan moved half a step, stood in front of him, looked down at him, and said softly, "Are you hungry? Xiaosong has brought food back."

He Gu happened to look up and saw Song Juhan move his mouth when he spoke, his eyebrows twitched in pain, he hesitated for a moment.

Xiao Song immediately came up to him: "Brother, let's finish our meal. You haven't eaten anything since the afternoon. Where's Su Su? Tell her to eat."

"She fell asleep, she was scared today, let her sleep well." He Gu said.

"Oh, then let's eat next door, don't disturb her." Xiao Song took out the key card, swiped open the room next door, and let He Gu in.

He Gu didn't want to talk to Song Juhan in front of Xiaosong, so he went in.

Xiaosong arranged the food, and He Gu took a look at it. Many of them were his favorite food, but after the "sharpening" of his body and mind in the afternoon, he really didn't have any appetite.

Song Juhan wanted to peel the shrimp for He Gu, but he frowned because of the shell of the shrimp. He tore the shrimp as big as a palm into several pieces. Swap for a destruction.Xiao Song wanted to take over, but he snapped his hand open.

Why couldn't bear to see him wasting food like this, snatched the shrimp from him, picked the shell of the stomach twice, and then lightly peeled off the whole shrimp shell, revealing the whole shrimp meat Coming out, he threw the shrimp into Song Juhan's bowl.

Song Juhan hurriedly said: "Here, for you to eat." He picked up the shrimp and put it into He Gu's bowl.

He Gu was not polite and stuffed it into his mouth.

Song Juhan picked up another tail and imitated He Gu's way to fiddle with his belly, Xiao Song whispered, "Brother Han, let me do it."

Song Juhan rolled his eyes at him: "Eat yours."

He Gu put down his chopsticks: "I'm done eating, I'll go back first."

"Hey, I'll finish peeling soon!" Song Juhan said anxiously, "You've only eaten a few mouthfuls of rice, eat more."

"I'm full." He Gu went to the bathroom to wash his hands.

"Then I'm done eating too."

"Brother Han, you didn't eat..."

Song Juhan turned a deaf ear and insisted on coming over to wash his hands together with He Gu under the small water column of the faucet.

He Gu frowned, shook off the water, dried his hands, turned his head and walked out.

Song Juhan also followed.

It wasn't until He Gu walked out of the guest room that he stopped helplessly and looked back at Song Juhan: "What are you doing?"

Song Juhan thought for a while, then whispered, "Is it too early for you to go to bed now, it's only after nine o'clock."

"not early."

"There is an open-air garden on the roof. The desserts and drinks are very famous. Let's go up and sit."

"No."

Song Juhan couldn't help holding He Gu's hand, his voice was so low that he could hardly hear him: "Do you think I'm quite useless?"

He Gu was startled: "What do you mean?"

"I'm always causing trouble for you." Song Juhan took a deep breath, his expression showing a bit of determination, "Ah Sheng, I was the one who brought you the trouble, and later... my dad, in order to guide public opinion, Pushed you out, I know, but I didn't stop it. My dad was so angry that he had a heart attack at that time, and I didn't dare to go against him, but the biggest reason was because, at the time, I felt...your reputation, Your work is not as important as mine." The more he spoke, the lower his voice.

These reasons have been thought of for a long time, but hearing it from Song Juhan's mouth, it still makes his blood surge.

He recalled that period, which can be said to be the darkest time in his life, when he didn't dare to go out, couldn't meet people, his privacy was exposed, his face was lost, and his future was completely destroyed, but he never really felt how much Song Juhan apologized, just like Song Juhan. Speaking of which, his reputation as a little-known little person and a job with an annual salary of only a few hundred thousand are not as important as Song Juhan's tens of millions of contracts.

But he didn't do anything, so he deserved to bear all that.

He said in a deep voice, "What are you talking about now?"

"I want to apologize to you." Song Juhan said sadly, "My mother said, I should start by seriously reflecting on all my mistakes and apologizing one by one. I'm sorry, your reputation and your work are equally important."

He Gu's chest heaved violently a few times, and when he heard Song Juhan mentioning this incident and apologizing, he couldn't tell what it was like in his heart for a while, probably the resentment that had been stagnant for a long time finally dissipated.

"Also, seven years ago, my purpose of approaching you was not pure. I used you to frustrate Feng Zheng, and I even laughed at you as 'you can't afford it'..." Song Juhan said, his voice trembling, "I... …sorry, there’s a lot more…”

"Okay, don't talk about it anymore." He Gu thought to himself, judging by the ethics of normal people, it would take a day and a night for Song Juhan to apologize to him, but most of the things he didn't need, because it was all on his own I found it, I don't have the face to blame others, now Song Juhan brought up the old matter again, just stabbed him in the chest, which didn't make him feel much better, after all, all the past events were all bloody evidence of his past crimes, he didn't want to to recall.

Song Juhan's eyes dimmed: "I've been thinking about things that I need to reflect on and apologize to you, but later I found out that there are too many... I thought I was doing you a favor by giving you a house and a car. , but those things are neither what you need nor what I value, I always make it difficult for you, order you, and lose my temper at you, in order to see that you react a little differently than usual, and deliberately make others mad at you." The more he The more uncomfortable it is to say, "I have done a lot...to make you sad, for so many years, you have been enduring..."

He tried to reverse the relationship between the two, thinking about why he did those things to him, one by one, and finally he almost collapsed.How He Gu endured him for those years, how he was so wounded and never left, how much affection he has, can he bear such consumption.If she didn't really love him, how could she endure such torture, but even for such a reason, she finally gave up on him completely.

It was him, it was he who personally killed the why he loved him, the why he loved, missed and needed the most.

I have been loved like that, and I can't let go of it for the rest of my life.

He Gu couldn't bear it and shouted in a low voice: "I fucking told you to stop talking, I don't need your apology, an apology is useless."

This Song Juhan was getting more and more unfamiliar to him, maybe he was more used to the former Song Juhan, at least that Song Juhan, he knew how to deal with it and how to resist it.

"Yes, apologizing is useless." Song Juhan said in a hoarse voice, "I just want you to know that I am experiencing all the hardships you have suffered, so that you will not be happier."

"It has nothing to do with me." He Gu said coldly, and wanted to go back to the room.

Song Juhan's voice came from behind: "Why, if you can persist for seven years, so can I."

He Gu quickly opened the door, rushed back to the room, and closed the door hard.

Susu woke up with a start and muttered something.

Why did he just wake up like a dream, and said with a dazed breath, "Susu, it's okay, you can continue to sleep."

Susu sat up: "Brother, what's wrong with you? You look very nervous."

"It's okay, I just went to eat some food, are you hungry?"

"Not hungry, sleepy."

"Then go to sleep." He Gu closed his eyes, took a breath in the dark, and then slowly calmed down.

The next day, Susu woke up very early and woke up hungry. There was no breakfast in the hotel so early, why did she plan to go down and buy some for her.

As soon as he opened the door, the door next door also opened, and Song Juhan came out, although his cheeks were bruised and his face was tired, he also smiled: "Going for a run?"

"Go and buy breakfast for Susu." He Gu suspected that Song Juhan was leaning against the door and listening to the voice.

"I will go with you."

"Did you go out to be surrounded?"

Song Juhan took out a mask and hat from his pocket, and skillfully disguised himself: "It's so early, there are few people on the street, let's go."

Why didn't bother to argue with him, and went downstairs on his own.

At six o'clock in the capital, there were very few pedestrians and vehicles on the street, without the impetuousness of the usual congestion, giving people a sense of cleanliness.

Song Juhan stretched his arms: "I haven't run in the morning for a while."

Why didn't he speak, he was looking for a breakfast place.

"There's one over there."

Sure enough, He Gu saw a wonton shop in front of him, which was actually the chain store of Song Juhan's favorite small crab roe wonton.He hesitated.

Song Juhan took his hand: "What a coincidence, it's actually this store, we..."

He Gu shook off his hand, walked in on his own, and ordered some wontons, side dishes and soy milk.

When Song Juhan heard that He Gu ordered crab roe, his eyes couldn't stop smiling.

On the way back, Song Juhan showed a somewhat lonely smile: "I used to finish work late, and if you came to see me, you would pack up from downstairs."

He Gu also remembered those years.At that time, he was nervous when his cell phone ran out of power, and he had to carry a power bank with him wherever he went, just to not miss any call from Song Juhan. All the fun in his life, the absolute focus of life, he loves Song Juhan humblely and piously, and carefully maintains the delicate relationship like walking a tightrope.

Now that I think about it, he was really possessed.It's a pity that until now, no, maybe in his whole life, he can't completely get rid of that demon.

"careful!"

He Gu leaned half of his body, and was pulled into his arms by Song Juhan. He woke up like a dream, only to find that there was an open manhole cover in front of him, and there was a maintenance sign beside it, and he stepped forward without realizing it.

Song Juhan stared at him: "What's wrong with you? You're going to fall in any further."

He Gu pushed him away, adjusted his emotions, and said calmly: "I have seen it a long time ago."

Song Juhan wanted to help He Gu bring breakfast again, but He Gu still refused.

Back at the hotel, Susu had already woken up.The little girl tied a neat ponytail by herself and wore the lake blue dress that Xiaosong bought for her. Her face was as tender as a flower full of morning dew. The lethargy caused by being awakened yesterday was swept away. She looked Energetic.

"Brother." Susu called out happily, then her eyes fell on Song Juhan, she pursed her lips restrainedly, and whispered, "Brother Han."

Song Juhan smiled and said, "You're hungry, come and eat."

Su Su glanced at He Gu with a questioning look, and He Gu said lightly, "Come and eat."

Susu ran over numbly, and got close to Song Juhan, seeing that there was no response for some reason, she just sat down.

Why didn't he pay attention, handed her wonton noodles, and ate it himself.

Song Juhan picked up a few small crab roe wontons for Susu: "Try this, your brother and I both love it."

"This restaurant also has them in Shanghai, and I like to eat them too." Susu secretly looked at the two of them while eating.

He Gu said: "Concentrate on eating, pack up after eating, and let's go to Shencheng."

Su Su suddenly felt terrified: "But, let's go to the airport..."

"It's okay, we're going to be a private jet, no one will bother you."

Susu's eyes lit up: "Private jet? The one on TV?"

"Ah."

"Yes, there is a big TV, a bar, a sofa, and a bedroom."

Song Juhan nodded: "Yes."

Susu exclaimed excitedly: "Can I take a photo?"

He Gu scolded: "No, eat honestly."

Susu suddenly wilted.

Song Juhan smiled and said, "Yes, but you can't say whose plane it is."

Su Su nodded fiercely.

Song Juhan rubbed her head: "Susu is so beautiful in this dress. This is a new style that hasn't been released yet. Before next month, you will be the only one in the world wearing it. Do you like it?"

"I like it! It's so beautiful!"

"Then brother Han treats you well?" Song Juhan's smile is extremely bewitching.

"Okay." Susu's face was flushed, almost intoxicated.

"That's good." Song Juhan looked at He Gu appreciatively.

He Gu glanced at him coldly, lowered his head and continued to eat.

Song Juhan was so disappointed that the corners of his eyes drooped.