Years of Intoxication

The two of them stared at each other in silence for several seconds.

Song Juhan's dark eyes were like a bottomless pool of water, and his thick and interlaced eyelashes were like a raging net, binding something from the depths of his soul, making it suffocating.

He Gu blinked his eyelids and lowered his head unconsciously.

Song Juhan supported his chin, and wiped off the tomato juice on his forehead with his big hand, like blood.

He Gu turned his face away, but Song Juhan wiped it one after another, from his cheeks to his hair, and then to his neck. Finally, his eyes were red, and he couldn't help but hugged He Gu into his arms, his voice trembling uncontrollably: "sorry."

He felt so, so much sorry for this person that he had tons of apologies and didn't know where to start.

He Gu gently pushed him away, and said in a low voice, "If they capture Susu's face..."

"They dare not post, including your photo." Song Juhan said quickly.

"Brother Han, get in the car quickly, let's get out of here first." Xiao Song stepped into the driver's seat from the back seat, looking around nervously, lest the reporter follow up.

Song Juhan got into the car, and after closing the door, the car was so quiet that he could hear each other's heartbeats.

He Gu looked at the time: "I have to take Susu to Shanghai."

Song Juhan said softly: "I will arrange for you to go tomorrow, so let's avoid it today."

He Gu nodded wearily.

Song Juhan touched Susu's head, and said softly: "Susu, I'm sorry, did you scare me?"

Susu stared and shook her head: "I'm not afraid of them."

Xiao Song said angrily: "Those fans are really crazy, there are children throwing things, what the hell."

Song Juhan was so uncomfortable that he couldn't lift his head, he kept peeking at He Gu, but He Gu didn't want to look at him, and kept his head down to wipe Su Su's hair.

Song Juhan opened his mouth several times, but finally swallowed the words back.

Silent all the way.

Xiao Song drove to a nearby hotel, led them into the suite, and said, "Brother Han, I'll go buy clothes for you, you should take a shower first."

He Gu said: "Susu, go take a bath."

Susu took a look at the two of them, and walked into the bathroom slowly.

There were only two people left in the room. He Gu looked at his embarrassed appearance in the mirror. He hadn't recovered from the panic of being surrounded by hundreds of people, and he didn't even have the energy to get angry.

"...Why?" Song Juhan called out cautiously.

He Gu unbuttoned, took off the wet, sticky and smelly shirt, and threw it into the trash can. He turned his back to Song Juhan and said, "Didn't you expect such a thing to happen when you did that at the concert? "

Song Juhan looked at He Gu's bare back and thin waist, his throat was tight, he swallowed, and then said in a deep voice, "I thought about it, but if I don't do that, my dad will use more vicious methods to deal with it." You, I want to cut off the retreat once, so that he can't make up for it, and he will give up."

He Gu turned to look at him: "Do you have to involve other people in the matter between your father and son?"

Song Juhan was speechless.

He Gu took out his mobile phone from his pocket and sent a text message to Sun Qing, saying that he was delayed by something and would go back tomorrow.He knew his mother would see the news sooner or later, so he could hide for a while.

"That song...is it nice?" Song Juhan whispered.

He Gu was stunned, his back was visibly stiff.He paused: "I forgot."

"you are lying."

He Gu didn't even dare to turn around, he was afraid to see Song Juhan's eyes, those eyes conveyed the strongest affection across the TV screen and thousands of people from a distance of more than ten kilometers.

Song Juhan walked over, hugged He Gu from behind with his strong arms, and pressed his cheek tightly against He Gu's neck: "Every sentence of that song is what I want to say to you, if you say you can't believe me, I will quit Go behind the scenes, so that there won't be so many messy people around me, I will write songs quietly at home, as long as you are with me, I will only sing for you."

He Gu's heart trembled, and Song Juhan's voice was so nice that it made people's bones go numb.

He really couldn't imagine that Song Juhan would do that.Song Juhan is a person who is careless about everything except music, but he gave up the stage for himself.

It was not until this that He Gu believed that Song Juhan really liked him.The one miracle he'd been praying for during those seven humbling, aching years had actually happened.

He couldn't help being shocked.

However, he used to think that he would cry with joy the moment he saw the miracle, but now there is only indescribable sadness and irony in his heart.

After he has seen all the evils of Song Juhan and experienced all the injuries, can they go back again?He has been tortured to the point of being full of anger and exhaustion. Before that, he must not have believed that one day when he faced Song Juhan, he would feel no joy, only anger, helplessness and pain.

The relationship between them has been broken to this point, can they go back?

Song Juhan, who has retreated behind the scenes, is still Song Juhan who has wealth, beauty and status. Whatever he wants, he still comes with a wave of his hand. Does this guarantee that he will not have two minds?Can this guarantee that he won't mess up again?

Who will guarantee him a lifetime.

He Gu is already scared now, he is afraid that he will be bewitched by Song Juhan again, if he repeats the same mistakes, one day he will fall harder and harder than now, and he may not be able to get up again.After all, Song Juhan gave him too many things that he didn't dare to ask for in the past. After having these things, can he bear to lose them?

Song Juhan hugged He Gu's obviously stiff body tightly, and said in a hoarse voice, "Say something, say something."

He Gu's eyes were empty: "You are always so willful and reckless, because you are not afraid of anything, but I..."

"Who says I'm not afraid!" Song Juhan said anxiously, "I'm afraid you don't want me."

He Gu broke free from his embrace, and finally mustered up the courage to look directly at him: "That song is very nice."

Song Juhan was overjoyed.

"However, I am no longer the Hegu who can be moved by singing a song."

Song Juhan's expression collapsed almost instantly.

"There used to be such a reason. Seven years ago, you sang me a song that day. I was so moved that you fucked me until I bled. I was in so much pain that I didn't make a sound." He Gu couldn't help it. Smiling, "I'm as obsessed with you as if I was drunk, and I've been drunk for seven years."

"But I woke up and found that you are not that good, at least not worthy of me being so cheap and stupid, putting myself in it for the rest of my life." He Gu's gaze was as calm as water, but under the stagnant water, there was still a surging undercurrent "After waking up, I saw you, me, and us more clearly. I made a very clear decision to separate from you. I think this is the best for me. As for you , I used to only think about you, now I want to only think about myself. You sang me that song, I was a little moved, but that's it, I won't be sorry for your decision to quit the stage and anything that happened after that Responsible."

"I didn't..." Song Juhan was trembling even with his breath, and his voice was choked up, "I didn't make you responsible for anything, I chose you, I chose you, whether you will forgive me or not, I don't regret it, If you feel that you can't trust me for a year or so, I will always be by your side and accompany you for the rest of your life. I, Song Juhan, have only loved one of you, and one is enough. One has already made me want to die in pain. Why, I just I want to tell you that I am willing to do anything for you, I can give up the stage for you, I can turn on my dad for you, I can come out for you, I can tell the world that the person I love is you, can’t you Do you believe that I will give you my whole heart!"

He Gu felt that it was difficult to breathe. Song Juhan's words seemed to be crying blood. He lowered his head as if he was overwhelmed. Yes, he has never wavered, but at this moment, he knows that he has wavered.

Has Song Juhan changed?Can he change?Isn't the person who keeps saying that he won't hurt him anymore, forces him, and treats him well, but keeps him in the hotel to humiliate him, and threatens him with his mother, isn't he also Song Juhan? !

Song Juhan is a bastard. He knew it seven years ago. Will such a person change?

How could he be swayed by such a person? !

He pushed Song Juhan away: "That's enough, let me stay by myself for a while."

"Why..."

"Get out!" He Gu shouted uncontrollably.

Song Juhan's eyes were full of pain, but in the end he didn't say anything and left the room quietly.

He Gu felt that his legs were weak, and he sat down on the bed slowly, his heart was in a state of confusion.

After a while, Susu finished washing, he couldn't wait to shut himself in the bathroom, and washed the unpleasant and embarrassing smell off his body vigorously.

These were also given by Song Juhan.

Song Juhan said he loved him, but what he brought to him was often pain, embarrassment and shame.

When he came out of the shower, Xiaosong had already delivered the clothes. He Gu put on clean clothes and huddled under the quilt, feeling that the pores on his body were finally stretched. He was finally relieved from the nightmare at the airport, just because he The entanglement with Song Juhan dragged Susu down, which made him very angry.

Susu seemed to be able to read what was going on in his mind, and looked at him without blinking: "Brother, I'm fine, I'm not afraid."

He Gu patted her head: "You are amazing, much stronger than when I was a child."

"really?"

"real."

Susu said angrily: "Those people are disgusting, they will be punished sooner or later."

"Don't think about those people, they are not worth remembering." He Gu stroked her head, "Sleep, sleep, I will take you home tomorrow."

Su Su obediently closed her eyes, He Gu looked at her immature face, she lost focus, and Song Juhan's face appeared in front of her eyes again.