Years of Intoxication

Song Juhan did not sue.It was an ordinary fight, and it didn't cause serious consequences. Zhou Heyi was still a foreigner, so the police let him go after a few words of education.

Why did you pick him up.

As soon as Zhou He walked out of the police station, seeing He Gu, he lowered his head in embarrassment and did not speak.

He Gu looked at him for a while, then reached out and touched his head: "Stop doing such stupid things."

Zhou Heyi kicked the stone with his feet and whispered, "Is he serious?"

"……fine."

Zhou Heyi seemed relieved: "He deserves it."

"Whether he deserves it or not, you can't use crime to solve the problem."

Zhou Heyi raised his head slowly, his eye circles were a little red: "I'm sorry old brother, I caused you trouble."

"never mind."

"You are several years older than me, so I have always wanted to appear mature, lest you think I am naive." Zhou Heyi smiled wryly, "The image is completely ruined now."

He Gu was very helpless, but he didn't have the slightest strength to educate Zhou Heyi: "You think too much, I won't blame you, I just hope that you can learn a lot from the pitfalls, and when you do things in the future, you should pass your brain first." .”

Zhou He nodded.

"Okay, let me take you home, your friend is very worried about you."

Zhou Heyi said softly: "Song Juhan... how could he let me go so easily? Did you go to find him?"

He Gu was silent for a while: "No, it's not a big deal. I asked a friend to help."

The two got into the car.Zhou Heyi leaned on his seat, pursed his lips slightly, and his eyes fell on the gate of the police station not far away, his eyes were very gloomy.

He Gu suddenly realized that Zhou Heyi should be a little scared.After all, he is only in his early twenties, and he has never experienced such a thing, and he is not in his own territory. Even if he doesn't show it on the surface, he should feel panic in his heart.

He Gu stretched out his hand, squeezed his neck, and said softly, "He Yi, I'm fine now."

Zhou He turned his head to look at him, his eyes were cloudy, as docile and pitiful as a puppy.

He Gu sighed softly.

"Brother Gu, if..." Zhou Heyi's voice choked up, "If I don't go to America, but I stay here, can we be together?"

He Gu frowned slightly, his eyes full of pity: "He Yi, go study hard, you have dreams and goals, these things are much more important than vague feelings, you will meet more in a new place man, you will soon forget me."

Zhou Heyi shook his head: "I will never forget you."

He Gu smiled lightly: "I will never forget you either."

Sending him home, Zhou Heyi hugged him and kissed him lingeringly, as if pouring all his enthusiasm and love into him, and finally let go of him reluctantly, and said sadly: "Brother Gu, you are the gentlest, most gentle and loving person I have ever seen." The best man, Song Juhan is not good enough for you, you must stay away from that lunatic."

He Gu said lightly: "I will."

Zhou Heyi took a deep look at him before getting out of the car, and hurried upstairs without even daring to turn his head.

Both of them knew that they would not see each other anytime soon.

It seems as if nothing has changed, but in fact everything has changed.

He Gu stopped at the same spot for a long time, and after the heavy sadness in his heart passed, he restarted the car and went home.

When He Gu got home, he saw that the hourly worker had already prepared a meal for Su Su. Seeing him, Su Su rushed over happily: "Brother, why did you come back so late, I still want to go to see my mother with you."

"I'll take you to see your mother tomorrow." He Gu pinched her chin, "Did you listen to the teacher today?"

"Yes, the teacher always praised me for my good foundation."

"Have you eaten?"

"It's over, where's my brother?"

"I have eaten."

He Gu hugged her onto his lap: "Susu, brother has something to discuss with you."

"what?"

"My brother is going to accompany a friend tonight, can you sleep well by yourself?"

Su Su's eyes widened, and she immediately shook her head: "I'm afraid."

"I'll sleep with you before leaving. You're a big girl. Sleeping alone is nothing."

Susu pursed her lips, unwillingly: "Who are you going to accompany?"

"A friend was hurt."

"What kind of injury is it, more serious than mother?"

"It's different from my mother, but I also need others to accompany me."

Susu reluctantly said: "Then you have to wait until I fall asleep before leaving."

"I will. I will be back when you get up tomorrow, and I will buy you your favorite beef brisket pickled noodles."

"Okay." Susu looked at He Gu and whispered, "Brother, it would be great if we knew each other earlier."

Why couldn't help laughing.

"Don't laugh, really, I like you so much, I really hope that you will be by my side when I was born and grow up with me."

He Gu touched her head: "It's not too late now."

Susu buried her head in the socket of his neck, smiling happily.

He Gu coaxed Su Su to sleep, then left the house quietly, and drove to Song Juhan's place.

He couldn't say whether he was numb or calm, in short, he was very calm now.When he finds that there is no way out and irreversible, he will face any difficulties with the calmness he has cultivated all his life. Panicking is neither in his character nor useless.

Now, he was going to face Song Juhan.

If there is really a power in the world that can change a thing beyond recognition, then he and Song Juhan have already experienced it.He witnessed with his own eyes how he and Song Juhan came to this unbearable day step by step, but it was difficult to give him such a Zen-like name, but he couldn't figure out the reason.He is both a victim and a bystander, watching the relationship between the two rot at an embarrassing speed, but he is powerless.

How he wished that Song Juhan would stop a long time ago. In that case, he would let himself forget all the unhappiness in the past, leaving only the pure beauty of liking someone.

Unfortunately, it's too late.

When he arrived at Song Juhan's house, he took out the key and opened the door - the key he had never accepted.

When he opened the door, Song Juhan just sat up from the sofa, looked sleepy, obviously waiting for him, and complained: "It's so late."

"Coax my sister to sleep." He Gu stood in front of Song Juhan, waiting for the next "instruction".

Song Juhan took his hand, made him sit on the sofa, and gently arched his gauze-covered head into his arms: "I've been waiting for you, and I haven't eaten yet."

"What do you want to eat."

"I'm too hungry, I don't want to eat." Song Juhan put his arms around his waist and said softly, "You don't have to worry about your mother, I will help her, just let her treat with peace of mind."

He Gu stared fixedly at the night scene outside the window: "Okay."

"I will... I will solve all your troubles, help you take care of your family, and let you live a carefree life." Song Juhan closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembling slightly, "I will treat you well for the rest of my life, so don't leave I."

He Gu was silent for a while, his eyes were empty: "Okay."

Song Juhan tightened his arms, even though this person was in his arms, there was still unspeakable sadness in his heart.

He knew that he was abnormal, and from the day Hegu wanted to leave him, he was abnormal.The person he thought he could have forever was the person who was always silently waiting for him behind him, the person he regarded as air, and when he wanted to leave, he realized how he could live without air.

In seven years, Hegu used seven years to plant a seed in his heart, and then cultivated it into a towering tree in the slanting wind, drizzle, and silence. He enjoyed all the benefits of the tree, But he didn't realize that countless roots had already been deeply implanted into his blood vessels, nerves, flesh, and bones, and a single hair would affect his whole body. To pull out this big tree would be like peeling and cramping, more painful than death.

He already felt scared, how could there be a person in this world who made him afraid of losing to such an extent.

Why can't see through Song Juhan's many twists and turns, he only knows that he and Song Juhan were nurturing in the past, and they are still nurturing now.It's just that he was voluntary in the past, but now he is forced.

That's okay, he should have a dog.As long as Song Juhan can no longer go crazy and bite others, it is enough for him to bear it alone.After all, in this world, no one can adapt to Song Juhan better than him.

As for whether he will be in pain, afraid, ashamed, sad, tired, who cares.

In the evening, Song Juhan slept with He Gu in his arms. The medicine he took had sleeping ingredients, and he slept soundly next to He Gu, but He Gu didn't close his eyes all night.

He looked at Song Juhan who was sleeping peacefully several times, seeing that defenseless appearance and that slender neck, he felt a kind of malice.Maybe there was an easier way to end their mutual torture, but he couldn't.

So they can only continue to torture each other.

The next morning, He Gu left early.He promised Susu that he would go back before she woke up, send her to painting class, and then go to the hospital.

After sending Susu away, he went to find his mother with a meal. His mother seemed to be in good spirits today, and chemotherapy also had an effect, temporarily inhibiting the spread of cancer cells.

The two were chatting, when He Gu's cell phone rang, he looked down, it was Song Juhan's, and he went out to answer the phone.

"Where have you been?" Song Juhan asked straight to the point.

"Come to the hospital with my mother."

Song Juhan was silent for a while: "Then after you accompany her, come to me, I am also a patient."

"I have to pick up my sister from get out of class at night, cook for her, and put her to sleep. I can only go to you at night."

Song Juhan didn't speak, after a while, He Gu found that the phone had been hung up, he didn't care, and threw the phone into his pocket.

At dusk, he watched his mother finish her meal and went to pick up Susu. The two of them bought some ingredients in the supermarket and planned to have hot pot at night.

When they returned home, the sky was still slightly bright, and the two saw the familiar figure at the door of the house again, both squatting on the ground and covering their heads with hoods, but they were not intimidated after what happened last time .

Su Su's eyes widened: "Song Song Song..."

Song Juhan raised his head, put his index finger on his lips, and smiled slightly towards Susu.

Susu's face turned red all of a sudden.

Why had nothing to say, so he had to open the door, Song Juhan took the big bag in his hand, and walked into the room.

Susu looked up at Song Juhan all the time, and after Song Juhan took off his hood, he stared at his gauze-covered head again.

He Gu couldn't help but said: "Didn't you hear that the doctor told you to rest?"

"I can't calm down without you here." Song Juhan said naturally.

Su Su shouted: "Brother, so I went to accompany him last night."

He Gu put his hand on the top of her head and turned her around: "Go and change clothes, wash your hands."

Su Su was obviously a little excited, and jumped back to her room, and said "yo ho" the moment the door was closed.

Song Juhan hugged He Gu and kissed him deeply: "I miss you so much."

He Gu pushed him away: "Don't come here casually in the future."

"Why not? Your mother is not here, and your sister likes me too. If you can't come to see me, I will come to see you."

"Have you nothing else to do?"

"I'm injured now, what can I do. It's even more troublesome to be seen by others." Song Juhan said with a smile, "Is it right to eat hot pot? I know how to do this, and I know how to chop vegetables."

He Gu picked up the bag expressionlessly and carried it into the kitchen.

Song Juhan was dumbfounded, disappointment flashed in his eyes, but he also followed in.

When He Gu was handling the ingredients, he was there to help, but he found that He Gu would at least chat with him a few times before, but now he refuses to say anything unless necessary.

During the meal, Su Su kept pestering Song Juhan to ask this and that, Song Juhan has always been impatient with children, but he was surprisingly gentle and friendly to Su Su, making Su Su's face burnt with excitement, why did it take so much today? It took twice as long to put Susu to sleep. When he returned to the room, Song Juhan had already taken a shower and was lying on the bed in his obviously short pajamas. When he saw him enter the room, he looked at him with a smile on his face. , with a certain longing in his eyes.

He Gu closed the door, and said flatly, "My sister just fell asleep, you have to do it, don't make any noise."

Song Juhan's expression froze: "I...I didn't want...that's not why I came to you."

"What could it be for?" He Gu's tone didn't even contain sarcasm, but was calm, "I think you're still alive and well, and this injury shouldn't affect your performance."

Song Juhan sat up, his breathing became a little short of breath: "Why, I won't force you anymore."

"You said the same thing half a year ago." He Gu stood at the head of the bed, looking down at him, "Do you want to do it or not, and sleep if you don't do it."

Song Juhan bit his lips: "I really went crazy that day, I regret it so much that I don't know what to do, if I'm such a beast again, I'll chop my thing up, I will never, never do it again Force you."

He Gu pulled the corner of his mouth and smiled, but there was no smile in his eyes. He lifted the quilt and got on the bed, and lay down with his back to Song Juhan.

Song Juhan sat there for a long time, slowly closed his eyes, he lay back under the quilt, and hugged He Gu from behind, for him, even just hugging like this was enough.