Years of Intoxication

Why didn't he sleep well all night, the heating in the room was turned on too high, Song Juhan was born with body heat, and he had to stick to him all the time, he woke up twice in the middle of the night, but he didn't want to wake Song Juhan up, he would rather Song Juhan just fall asleep like this , It was better than the embarrassment of two people face to face while awake.

He endured it until after six o'clock in the morning, and he couldn't sleep anymore. He went downstairs for a run and bought breakfast along the way.

Morning jogging is really helpful to wake up the mind. He has woken up from the indescribably bad and depressed state yesterday. He finds it funny. What was he awkward yesterday?That was the relationship between him and Song Juhan, and Song Juhan was also that kind of person, did he know it on the first day?

Think about it calmly, the recent frequent infidelity between the two of them is due to Feng Zheng's sudden return to China, maybe this is an opportunity for him to become independent from Song Juhan's shadow, he has become more and more adaptable to gradually alienating Song Juhan Well, maybe, maybe there will be a day when he can leave first.

After breakfast, He Gu changed his clothes, found out the suitcase, and started to pack his luggage. He booked a flight ticket to Shencheng tomorrow morning.

At this time, Song Juhan came out of the bedroom rubbing his eyes, and woke up immediately when he saw why he was packing his luggage: "What are you doing?"

He Gu didn't raise his head: "A business trip." He passed Song Juhan into the bedroom to get his clothes, "Your breakfast is on the table."

"When are you traveling?"

"tomorrow."

"Tomorrow?" Song Juhan frowned, "I rented a private jet and plan to take the whole team to Saipan Island for vacation, you should go too."

"I'm going on a business trip." He Gu picked out two changes of clothes and put them in the box.

Song Juhan looked at He Gu without raising his eyes, and a fire arose in his heart early in the morning. He strode over, grabbed his arm and pulled him up from the ground. Forced to look at Song Juhan.

Song Juhan narrowed his eyes: "Why, are you avoiding me?"

"Hiding...no."

"You didn't even look at me, and you said you didn't avoid me?"

He Gu sighed: "I really have to go on a business trip, so go and have breakfast."

"How many days are you away on business?"

"Not sure."

"We're going to Saipan for ten days, and you'll come over after your business trip."

He Gu's eyes dodged a little: "I... I'm really not sure when I'll finish my work."

"How dare you say you didn't avoid me?!" Song Juhan grabbed his shirt angrily, "What happened to you all this time? Is it because of Feng Zheng? Is it because of yesterday?"

He Gu grabbed Song Juhan's hand, slowly pulled out his collar, and said softly, "You think too much, I'm just busy with work."

Why is the unsalty attitude, which made Song Juhan feel like he was hitting the cotton with his fist, and he was furious: "You are still angry about what happened that day, right? I was so fucking messed up that day, and I regret it too Yeah, if you hadn't lied to me first, and I drank again, I would never have treated you that way. Have I hurt you in all these years? I said you can hit me. If you want any compensation, just ask, you What's the use of holding back your resentment?!"

He Gu sighed: "Hitting you won't make me happy."

"Then how can I make you happy?"

"Why do you care if I'm happy or not?" He Gu asked back.

Song Juhan was at a loss for words for a while, why those bright and clean eyes made him unable to look directly, he didn't know how to answer for a while.

"You apologized, I accepted, now you go to eat." He Gu continued to squat down to pack his luggage.

Song Juhan watched He Gu's hair whirling condescendingly, and an unspeakable emotion rose in his heart. This person was clearly in front of him, but he seemed to be walking further and further away.

He Gu was tidying up, but his eyes were secretly looking at Song Juhan's feet. Seeing that he hadn't left for a long time, he could feel a piercing sight coming from directly above. Nodding: "Don't you want to eat?"

"You eat with me." Song Juhan said forcefully.

"I have already eaten."

"I sit there and watch me eat."

He Gu stood up: "Come on."

The two sat down facing each other, Song Juhan hesitated for a while before eating.Why did you just look at him like that.

Sometimes when I look at Song Juhan like this, why do I often find it incredible that I have been with this person for so many years?How did the self many years ago fall in love with him like a demon?Maybe it's because I never really got it, so I have an obsession that I can't let go of.

Song Juhan ate two mouthfuls, looked up at He Gu: "Come over after the business trip, you know."

"There were so many things to do a year ago. I really didn't have a vacation. The boss couldn't allow me to take a vacation."

Song Juhan frowned, and said mockingly: "You didn't come by yourself, so I have to bring someone else."

He Gu lowered his eyebrows and let out a "hmm".

Song Juhan put down his chopsticks with a snap, folded his hands on his chest, and looked at He Gu with his chin raised: "The one in the lounge yesterday is a model who has become popular recently. He has a very good figure. You should also work out more diligently. You don't have enough waist recently. Tight."

He reason nodded and said nothing.

Probably because his heart was already full of knives, and he couldn't find a place to start this kind of petty trouble.

"Who do you think I should take? Should I take someone with a good body, a nice voice, or someone who is gentle and caring? I want to take a girl, or I will be troubled by being photographed." Song Juhan said at the same time, While observing He Gu's reaction.

He Gu nodded again.

Song Ju coldly snorted and continued to eat with his head down.

He Gu still watched quietly, he thought, there will be a day when he can only look at Song Juhan, and he will not even have such a good distance.

Song Juhan left after eating, as soon as he left, He Gu felt his body's strength was drained, and he couldn't recover after sitting on the sofa for a long time.

He Gu could actually feel Song Juhan's anxiety and dissatisfaction, because he was used to controlling him, but suddenly found that the control was a little loose, so he felt unaccustomed and annoyed that his authority was violated.If he continues to be so "ignorant", the two of them will really be over.

He is in an extremely painful contradiction. On the one hand, when he thinks of breaking up with Song Juhan, he doesn't know what will happen to him when he wakes up the next day, but on the other hand, he is looking forward to the fatal knife deep in his heart. , he wanted to have a good time, a fatal blow, better than this kind of corruption.The wounds on his body repeatedly failed to heal. After more than six years, he was really tired.

The next morning, He Gu boarded the plane with simple luggage and arrived in Shanghai.

After all, Shencheng is in the south, and it is much warmer than the capital city. Why did he feel a wave of moisture when he got off the plane, and even his breathing became much smoother.

He took a taxi to a hotel, then texted his mother and made an appointment for lunch.

He put down his luggage, trimmed it, took the black pearl necklace he bought at the airport, and took a taxi to the hotel.

It seems that he and his mother haven't seen each other for four or five years. Before meeting, he was a little nervous.

Knocking on the door of the box, a woman in a beige suit with jewels stood up with a slightly excited expression.

He Gu was stunned, there was an eight or nine-year-old girl in the room.

"Why." Sun Qing strode over, grabbed his arm at a loss, and looked up at her son.

"Mom." He Gu patted her on the back, his voice subconsciously gentle.

She is richer than in the impression, but she is also older than the impression. Time is really a good medicine to heal wounds. Facing his mother, he found that he had lost the original complaints.

Sun Qing's eyes were red, her hands were stiff, and she tried to hug why, but she didn't seem to dare to rush in.

He Gu took the initiative to bend down and hug her. This short woman has intelligence and strength that are completely opposite to her stature, but as a mother, she is not much different from other mothers.

Sun Qing hugged He Gu tightly, and carefully stroked He Gu's head with her fingers, trying not to cry.

The little girl looked at them curiously.

Sun Qing let him go, and said embarrassedly: "I haven't introduced you yet. This is the daughter of your Uncle Li and me. She is nine years old this year and her name is Susu. Susu, come here."

Su Su came over.

"Susu, this is what your brother and mother told you."

Su Su looked up at He Gu, and said in a grown-up tone: "My brother is quite handsome, just like me."

Both Sun Qing and He Gu couldn't help laughing.Sun Qing touched her head: "Nonsense, if you want to look like you, you look like your brother."

Su Su blinked her eyes: "You are so old, let me call you uncle." After speaking, she laughed.

"Don't be big or small."

He Gu smiled lightly and said, "I never thought I would have a younger sister." He rubbed Susu's face with his finger, and Susu bit her lip shyly.

Sun Qing was a little embarrassed: "I forgot, I never mentioned it to you."

Of course He Gu knew that she hadn't forgotten it, but she didn't dare to mention it, but he didn't care. If he still cared, he wouldn't take the initiative to take a look today.

"Come on, sit down."

The three sat down, and He Gu carefully looked at his mother whom he hadn't seen for many years: "Mom, you have lost a lot of weight." Not only was Sun Qing thin, even with makeup on, she could tell that her complexion was not good, and she seemed very tired .

"Hey, I'm too busy at work." Sun Qing picked up a piece of meat for He Gu, "You too, why are you darker than before, eat more."

"Going to the construction site all day long, drying it out."

"How are you doing in Nanchuang?"

"Not bad, enough to eat and drink." He Gu remembered something, took out the necklace, "A gift for you."

Sun Qing opened it happily: "It's so beautiful, thank you son." She picked up the necklace and couldn't put it down.In fact, the piece of jade on her neck was more expensive than the pearl, but she immediately took off the jade and asked He Gu to put the pearl on her.

Susu came over: "Mom, isn't this very expensive?"

"Yeah, my brother has studied well since he was a child, and now he is doing well at work. Susu wants to study like his brother, you know?"

"Oh." The child turned his head when he heard about studying.

During the meal, Sun Qing kept picking up food for He Gu, asking how he was doing, and finally asked an important question: "Do you have a girlfriend?"

He Gu shook his head: "I'm busy with work, so I don't have time to talk."

"You are not young anymore, how lonely you are alone."

"Let's see fate." He Gu perfunctory.

After dinner, Sun Qing said to Susu: "Susu, don't you want to go to the lobby to see the big turtles? Go and see, mom and brother talk."

"Okay." Susu ran away impatiently.

How did he know that his mother had something to say, and he had an intuition that it was related to Susu, otherwise why did he never mention it before, but brought it so abruptly this time?

Sun Qing looked at the direction where Su Su disappeared, and sighed: "Su Su is only nine years old..."

He Gu frowned: "Mom, what's wrong?"

Sun Qing turned to look at He Gu, and said sadly: "He Gu, I'm really, really happy that you came to see me today. In fact, I've always wanted to see you, but I didn't dare. I know, you never truly forgive me. I."

"Mom, it's all over, don't talk about it." He Gu actually understood very well that in the early years, Sun Qing really didn't want to see him. What she couldn't face was not this son, but a man she once looked down upon. The fact that most men have children and waste their youth.

But time will change everything after all, just like he forgave the past, Sun Qing also feels the love between mother and child.

"I've wanted to see you for a long time. I originally wanted to celebrate the New Year this year. I wanted to reunite with you no matter what. I didn't expect you to come here on my own initiative. I really..." The gratitude in Sun Qing's eyes was not half false, "Son, mother Nian is really sorry for you."

He Gu felt very uncomfortable, he said in a hoarse voice: "Mom, it's over." If he didn't come today, he probably wouldn't realize that in this world besides Song Juhan, there are people who can touch his heart, maybe he It's because he subconsciously rejects such concern, so he simply doesn't see him. With his character, he would rather not have it because he is worried about losing it.

Sun Qing sighed: "Why, mother told you one thing, don't be too uncomfortable, you will know sooner or later."

He Gu's heart tightened: "What's wrong?"

"I have breast cancer."

He Gu sat up straight: "Is it serious? Can it be cured?"

"It's still in the middle stage, and it can be cured, but the effect of the treatment is hard to say." Sun Qing held He Gu's hand, "I have a good career now, and I have realized my ideals when I was young. I thought I would be satisfied, but my marriage is useless. Now that I don’t even have health, this is probably my punishment.”

He Yuan didn't expect to hear such a story. He always thought that his mother was doing well, and he even bought the stock of his mother's company, which has always been a good stock.At this moment, he really regretted coming. If he didn't come, at least his mother was always good in his impression.

When Sun Qing said this, she was very calm: "Actually, it's nothing. How can a person be free from illness or disaster at an old age? I'm very calm. The only concern in my heart is Susu."

"Isn't Susu pretty good?"

Sun Qing shook her head, and her eyes immediately showed a bit of shrewdness: "Lao Li has two sons, both of whom are your age. Although Lao Li also loves Susu, he and his parents are patriarchal. My son is not a fuel-efficient lamp, if I leave early, Susu may only be a dowry, which I absolutely cannot allow."

"Is it too early to think about this now? Your illness is still very promising, and Susu is still young."

"Son, you follow me on this point. Both mother and son have the character of planning for a rainy day, not to mention this is about my daughter." Sun Qing looked at He Gu eagerly, "If I don't get sick, I'm not afraid of anything, but now I I'm really worried that if I fall, Susu will have a hard time, son, mom doesn't know who to rely on now, can you help mom?"

He Gu was surprised and said, "Mom, what can I do for you?"

"I have owed you for so many years, I want to give you money and you don't want it, Lao Li and I have no relationship, only the property is not easy to divide, so we have been dealing with it, I want to give you the shares in my hand, When Susu becomes an adult, you only need to return half of it to her."

"Mom..." He Gu couldn't help but backed away, his mind couldn't keep up with the rhythm, why did he make so many things happen if he didn't come over for a meal?

Sun Qing grabbed his hand to prevent him from retreating: "Son, mother believes in you. You have never valued money since you were a child. Apart from you, who else can I trust?"

He Gu took a deep breath: "Mom, let me digest..."

Sun Qing held his hand tightly, her eyes full of anticipation.

He Gu closed his eyes, opened them again, and calmed down: "Mom, are you being too reckless for doing this? There should be other ways, so you can't do it so extremely. You're not completely falling out with Uncle Li like this." gone."

"I don't care anymore, he is not the same person as before, and neither am I." Sun Qing's eyes were a little red, "When we started our business together, it was very difficult, but we are very happy and have a good relationship. Now everything is fine. It's changed, Susu is so young, if I let go, Lao Li will be her only guardian, and then my things will not be at the mercy of their father and son. You are my own son, and I will give most of the inheritance to you , there is absolutely no problem in terms of emotion and law."

He Gu was still a little dazed, he sighed: "Mom, this is not a trivial matter, it can't be explained clearly in a meal."

"I understand, I didn't let you decide now, but it's not a bad thing, right?" Sun Qing said softly, "Mom's only hope is that you can take care of your sister for me, even if you don't want to live with her. It's okay, just take care of her and make sure she gets what she deserves going forward."

"I, I'll think about it." He Gu has 1 things in his heart that he doesn't want to agree to. He is a person who is very afraid of trouble. His desire for money has always been indifferent, especially if too much money is just a number to him, it doesn't mean much , comparatively speaking, all kinds of troubles that may be incurred because of a large sum of money can completely deter him.If it was someone else, he would definitely refuse.

But this is his mother who is supporting the orphan.How can he refuse?

He regretted coming this trip very much, but in fact he had to face it sooner or later.

After dinner that day, Sun Qing sent him back to the hotel, and the two chatted for a long time in the guest room, most of which were to learn about each other's life over the years, and finally Susu was so sleepy that she almost fell asleep on He Gu's bed, and Sun Qing left , Said to take him for a walk tomorrow.

After Sun Qing left, He Gu thought carefully about what happened that day, and felt dumbfounded.

Someone rushed to give him money, but he didn't want it and couldn't refuse.

His mother is right, being rich is not a bad thing after all, since you can't refuse, you should think in a good direction, and try your best to solve the trouble.

After living in Shencheng for two days, Sun Qing did her best to receive her. She wished she could make up for the vacancy that had been left for many years. He Gu and Su Su also became acquainted. Although this little girl is a bit naughty, she is also smart and kind. Likeable.

Before leaving, Sun Qing grabbed his hand and told him to think carefully and communicate with her anytime if he had any questions.

As soon as He Gu returned to the capital, it was as if he had a feeling. The phone calls from work came one after another. He was supposed to go to work tomorrow, so he ran to the company early.

When I arrived at the office, several female colleagues were chatting and gossiping, and the executive lady who was keen on introducing people was still very loud: "Oh, these celebrities are in a mess. A group of men and women are playing around in swimsuits, aren't they too open?" gone."

"He's at the beach, so why not wear a swimsuit?" Song Juhan's big fan girl in the office argued.

When Chen Shan saw He Gu, she was startled and stood up nervously: "Mr. He, why are you here?"

"I have something to do, so I came early." He Gu glanced at them, pretending to be serious and said: "Gossip during working hours, huh?"

Several people dispersed in a hurry.

When He Gu passed by Chen Shan's desk, he saw the newspaper on her desk. It was a candid photo of Song Juhan and his team having a party in Saipan. He used some very exaggerated and intentionally eye-catching words. Why did he see at a glance that many people brought wives or boyfriends and girlfriends?But Song Juhan was indeed very close to a woman.

Chen Shan was afraid that he would get angry, so she whispered, "Mr. He, let's just rest for a while, and we didn't talk for long."

He Gu smiled lightly: "Just kidding, it's okay, you call Xiao Chen and the others, bring the latest information on the Sixth Ring Project, and I'll hold a meeting."

"Hey." Chen Shan thought for a while, "Mr. He, do you also like Song Juhan?"

He Gu's expression froze: "What?"

"Last time at Song Juhan's concert, I saw you on TV. You have friends who are insiders, right? Standing next to the stage."

He Gu coughed lightly: "Well, my friend works in the gymnasium, so I happened to have nothing to do that day so I went to see it."

"Wow, I really envy Mr. He, then have you had close contact with Song Juhan? Do you want to get an autograph?" Chen Shan looked at He Gu with bright eyes.Ever since Chen Shan found out about his sexuality, she seemed to have a friendship with him to share secrets, and her relationship became a lot closer, and her words were not as stiff as before.

"No, there are too many people."

"Oh, then you're so close. Does Song Juhan have good skin? Is he really 188 tall? Is it a joke?"

He Gu said: "Okay, there really is, why don't you inform Xiao Chen?"

Chen Shan shook her shoulders, as if waking up from a dream: "Mr. He, I was wrong."

"Go quickly."

He Gu glanced at Song Juhan's lightly smiling happy face on the newspaper, and felt a deep pain in his heart.