Years of Intoxication

He Gu slept for a day in a daze. At night, the fever subsided and he suddenly became very hungry. He called Xiao Song twice, but there was no response. fall.

It wasn't until he was almost at the door that Xiao Song ran in wiping his saliva: "Brother, I fell asleep just now, what do you want? Are you hungry?"

He Gu sighed, and said softly, "I'm hungry and want to go to the bathroom."

"I'll help you." Xiaosong helped He Gu to the toilet, "I'll go to the kitchen and warm you up."

After He Gu went to the toilet, he looked at the pale and haggard man in the mirror, and suddenly a surge of anger rose in his heart.He has always been a person with good self-control. He can put himself in a position where he can handle time, fame and fortune, emotions, and gains and losses. But when he meets Song Juhan alone, he spends ten times more self-control. It's just that I can barely make myself less guilty.

Song Juhan is simply his evil debt, he has emptied himself to pay it off.

He Gu washed his face, then slowly moved back to the bed, waited for Xiaosong to bring him food, and just climbed into bed, he heard the sound of the door opening outside, and Xiaosong called "Brother Han".

He Gu's nerves immediately stretched like taut strings.He didn't want to admit it, but Song Juhan last night scared him.

After knowing each other for so many years, it's not that the two of them have never had a fight, but they have never fought. Song Juhan smashed things when he was in a hurry. He knew that Song Juhan was holding back, because he had seen Song Juhan fight with others, and the strike was too heavy. The drunken man, whose face was completely opposite to his wildness, let him know for the first time how terrifying Song Juhan can be.

He lay down and covered himself with the quilt, trying to pretend to be asleep, but Song Juhan had already entered, holding the hot porridge in his hand, and put it beside the bed.

Song Juhan sat on the chair, looked at He Gu's tightly closed eyes, and the tired dark circles under the eyelids, bit his lip lightly, and stroked He Gu's hair: "Open your eyes, I know you're not asleep."

He Gu slowly opened his eyes, he looked at Song Juhan, there was no emotion in his bright black eyes.

"I asked Xiaosong to go home, he made porridge, you get up and eat some."

Why didn't he speak, he wanted to see if Song Juhan could really be so calm and composed.

Under such blunt gaze, Song Juhan felt his scalp numb, and he plucked his hair irritably: "I drank too much last night...but, but you lied to me first."

He Gu felt a surge of anger in his heart, he sat up, took a bite of the porridge, and said, "I lied to you, what are you going to do, kill me?"

Song Juhan stared straight at his eyes: "You... are you just for Feng Zheng?"

"It has nothing to do with Feng Zheng." In fact, even if Song Juhan didn't say anything, he planned to completely alienate Feng Zheng. He was not blind. Feng Zheng's obvious sowing of dissension last night had already exceeded the limit of friends.But his decision is his decision. If he compromises with Song Juhan, he will give up his last bottom line. In the past six years, he has retreated again and again, and finally pushed himself into a narrow corner, so narrow that the whole world only has Get that one person down.As long as he still has the slightest idea of ​​self-help, he can't let Song Juhan occupy his whole world, otherwise his world will collapse on the day of separation.

Just because of this insistence, he can't retreat.

Song Juhan clenched his fists: "Why, sometimes I really want to take your head off and see what's stuffed inside!"

He Gu stared blankly ahead, eating porridge mechanically.Song Juhan was by his side, but he didn't feel anything, the anger receded as soon as it reached his throat, he couldn't even muster up the strength to get angry, besides being tired, he was still tired.

Song Juhan saw why he didn't speak, and his chest heaved violently a few times. Finally, he suppressed his displeasure, slowly stretched out his hand, and smoothed Hegu's hair: "Don't see Feng Zheng again, okay." The tone was full of discussion .

"Okay." He Gu said flatly.

Song Juhan probably didn't expect He Gu to agree so simply. After being stunned for a while, he suddenly became a little happy: "You, you are not obedient, why do you have to mess with me? You know I have a bad temper..." Song Juhan said more The sound is quieter.

He Gu put down the bowl and said wearily: "I'm tired." After finishing speaking, he was about to lie down.

"Wait a minute." Song Juhan suddenly took out a document bag, "This is for you. I originally wanted to give it to you on your birthday, but there was a problem with the procedures and it was delayed."

"Put it there." He Gu didn't even look at it.

Song Juhan frowned: "Don't you even ask what it is?"

He Gu got into bed and closed his eyes.

Song Juhan took a deep breath: "The fund I bought for you is enough for you to earn for a lifetime."

Why is there no response.

Song Juhan was so angry that he threw the file bag on the bedside table: "Why, you are fucking harder to please than my dad."

He Gu heard the words and opened his eyes: "If you want to apologize, just say 'I'm sorry'."

Song Juhan was startled, pursed his lips, and whispered, "...I'm sorry."

"I want to sleep."

Song Juhan felt a little flustered, He Gu had never been so indifferent to him before, he pushed He Gu: "If you are angry, hit me, I promise not to fight back."

He Gu looked at him quietly: "Does it make sense?"

"You think anyone can hit me. I'll let you punch me in the face, but the face can only be punched with one punch."

"I mean, does it make sense for you to do this?" Is it because of guilt?Song Juhan would also feel guilty, which is really rare.

"What's meaningless!" Song Juhan gritted his teeth, "I've already apologized, and I don't care about Feng Zheng's matter with you anymore, what else do you want?"

He Gu took a breath slowly, and said hoarsely, "I want to sleep."

Song Juhan took off his coat viciously: "Okay, if you want to sleep, I will accompany you."

Before He Gu could stop it, Song Juhan had already kicked off his shoes and climbed onto the bed, lifted the quilt and got in.

He Gu wanted to hide as if he had been electrocuted, but Song Juhan hugged him from behind: "...Song Juhan!"

Song Juhan pressed his forehead against He Gu's back and said softly, "You are so hot."

Why did he tremble like being licked by an animal's mouth, his face was extremely ugly, but he couldn't break free from Song Juhan's arms.

"Don't move." Song Juhan closed his eyes, took a deep sniff of the heat emanating from He Gu's skin, "He Gu, I was not normal last night, so just treat me as a drunk, okay? I don't want to hurt you, don't I'm afraid I'm okay."

Why is the body stiff, and the brain is congested and dizzy.

"I can give you whatever you want, as long as you ask, I will treat you well." Song Juhan kissed He Gu's neck, "Can you just... forget about last night?"

Saying these few soft words exhausted Song Juhan's strength to breastfeed, and he felt his face was getting hot.

Why are you at a loss.This is the first time that Song Juhan bowed his head to him. This kind of Song Juhan is really strange, just like the lunatic last night.

If it was changed before, he would definitely be touched, but now he is left with deep helplessness.He could only close his eyes, wishing he could close his ears, hoping to erase the oppression of Song Juhan by his side from his five senses.

He has never wished Song Juhan to disappear from his side like this moment.

Sometimes he felt that he might be looking forward to a breakup, because he couldn't muster up the courage to resist his persistence for six years, so he wanted Song Juhan to give him a quick relief.

But Song Juhan just tightened his arms.

He Gu is in good health, and the fever subsided quickly, but the spirit has been sluggish.

The boss thought why he was tired, and his conscience found out that he temporarily dispatched two people, why he really couldn't ask for it.

On the third day after that dinner, He Gu received a call from Feng Zheng.

Feng Zheng heard the coldness in He Gu's voice, and said apologetically, "He Gu, I'm sorry, I was a little impulsive that day."

He Gu said indifferently: "You are not only impulsive, you have crossed the line."

"I just watched Song Juhan get angry at you like that. What does he think of you? Has he ever respected you!" Feng Zheng became more and more excited as he spoke.

"Feng Zheng." Sadness welled up in He Gu's heart, "I don't want to be a pawn in your rivalry with Song Juhan. It seems that time has passed and we can't go back, because too many things have changed."

"Why, I'm really sorry, but I'm really doing it for your own good. If you go on like this, you will ruin yourself."

"Feng Zheng, you used to be my best friend, let me think about it." He Gu had a sore nose, hung up the phone before his voice changed, and pulled Feng Zheng's phone into blacklisted.

That's it, that Feng Zheng with a bright smile and a bit of a young master's temper has long since disappeared, and he would rather that person live in his youthful memory.

In fact, Feng Zheng didn't do anything wrong, but he went too far, too deep, and couldn't turn back.

From that day on, Song Juhan would show up at his house every now and then, saying that he was crazy busy preparing for the concert, but he might suddenly go to bed at two o'clock in the middle of the night and hug him tightly to sleep.

He Gu was also so busy that he wanted to stick his feet to the construction site. When he got home, he just took a shower and slept. He had no time to think about Song Juhan, or he avoided thinking about it.So Song Juhan appeared at his house six times in two weeks, but the two of them didn't speak a few words.

One day, He Gu came home early and cooked a bowl of noodles for himself. While he was eating, Song Juhan also came.

During this period of time, it was the first time that they met each other before it was dark, and they were a little at a loss for each other.

Song Juhan sat down at the dining table, coquettishly said: "I haven't eaten yet."

He Gu put down his chopsticks, got up and went to the kitchen to cook noodles.

Song Juhan stared at He Gu's back, pursed his lips, stood up, hugged He Gu's waist from behind, and rubbed his shoulder: "I like to eat what you make."

Why didn't he speak, and concentrated on cutting the green peppers.

"My concert will be on New Year's Day, and I have prepared the best location for you."

He Gu paused: "I have a ribbon-cutting ceremony for a new building on New Year's Day."

Song Juhan frowned: "It's fine for your boss to go to the ribbon-cutting of the new building, it doesn't matter if you go or not."

"That's my project."

"The ribbon-cutting was also during the day, and my concert was at night."

"The real estate is in Tang City, I can't come back." He Gu thought sadly, he would never miss a single of Song Juhan's concerts, but now...

Song Juhan was annoyed, and let go of his hand: "Why, you did it on purpose."

He Gu also stopped, he turned his head and said word by word: "I really can't make it back."

"Why!" Song Juhan roared angrily, "Have you had enough trouble during this time! I apologize to you, and I am willing to make it up to you. Besides, you lied to me first. If it hadn't been for seeing you and me for so many years, would you have changed?" I've been fucking someone else... long ago... what else do you want?"

What do you want?He Gu was also confused about this question, what was he thinking?

Maybe, he wants to go back to the past, but how long ago was it?Is it the past when he and Song Juhan were "mutually beneficial" and lived in peace, or the past when he was full of passion and affection, or before he was with Song Juhan, only let that perfect golden boy live in his good memory the once upon a time?Going back to the past, whether to know Song Juhan or not is really a question of the century.

"Say it, what do you want?! If you dare to say it, I dare to promise you!" Song Juhan pointed at He Gu, his eyes bloodshot with anger.

For a moment, He Gu wanted to say, do you dare to have a serious relationship with me, but he couldn't say it.When he thought this way six years ago, Song Juhan responded with sarcasm, smashing that wishful liking to pieces in the most ridiculous and cruel way, but now he is more mature and transparent than then, so what? Will bring shame on myself again.

He knew that Song Juhan was a little bit guilty because of guilt, and there were so many people coming and going around him, and he was never so troublesome as him, so he had some nostalgia for him. After all, people will be loyal to habits. If he takes it seriously, then The more you live, the more you go back.

He paused, and said blankly: "That ribbon cutting is very important."

Song Juhan kicked the trash can flying, turned around and rushed out the door.

Why closed his eyes, he felt a little weak, not physically.

Song Juhan disappeared for several days, He Gu felt less pressure on the one hand, but on the other hand, he tossed and turned every night and could not sleep, he forced himself to adapt to life without Song Juhan, but found that he would think about it countless times every day .

It's not all his fault, the promotion of Song Juhan's concert is everywhere, as if the whole world is shouting in his ears: Song Juhan, Song Juhan, Song Juhan!

He Gu really couldn't bear being alone, for the first time in his life, he felt lonely and wanted someone to accompany him, so he called GuQingPei.

GuQingPei happily agreed to his invitation.

The two made an appointment in a quiet small bar, and the moment they met, they found that each other was not in a good state, and both couldn't help but smile wryly.

"Why, what's the matter with you, too busy?"

He Gu nodded: "There are two projects to be delivered this month. Where's Mr. Gu? He also looks very tired." In his impression, Gu QingPei is always high-spirited, and it's really rare to show a tired face like this.

"Hey, it's all about the company, and I can't even explain it clearly." Gu Qingpei shook his glass and chuckled, "I also did it myself. I didn't do my leisure work, but I insisted on practicing. I am sick."

"I believe Mr. Gu's decisions are all deliberate."

GuQingPei smiled and said: "That's true, but the pressure is a bit high recently... It's a coincidence that you asked me out, I'm going to Hangzhou on a business trip tomorrow."

"Oh, it's not an early flight, is it?"

"No, drink it at ease."

"By the way, my friend invited me to drink in this street last time, and the son of your chairman came with me."

GuQingPei paused his hands, narrowed his eyes: "Who?"

"Call it Yuan Yang."

GuQingPei looked a little uncomfortable: "Which day?"

"The middle of last month, Saturday."

"Oh." GuQingPei snorted softly, "That young master is not easy to get along with."

"Yeah, I don't pay much attention to people, Mr. Gu got in touch with him?"

GuQingPei sighed, seemed to be hesitating, and finally said: "Not much." Just as he was talking, his phone rang suddenly, he shook the phone, "Zhuang Jieyu." After speaking, he answered the phone .

The two exchanged a few words, GuQingPei said: "I'm in the bar street, which store are you in? I'm in Qingzhuan, why are you there, um, okay, come on." After hanging up the phone, he He smiled and said, "What a coincidence, he's here too, and he's about to ask me out."

He Gu feels uncomfortable when he thinks of Zhuang Jieyu, but he can't show anything.

After a while, Zhuang Jieyu came, alone.He came up and rubbed GuQingPei's neck affectionately, "Brother, what have you been up to lately, I can't even call you."

"Work, nine to five, how can you be as comfortable as you actors."

"What are you at ease? Being at ease means that you have no money to make." Zhuang Jieyu sat down next to GuQingPei, put his legs on the low table presumptuously, looked at He Gu and said, "Hi, long time no see."

He Gu nodded, as a greeting.

"You have a good momentum now, aren't you taking on a new play?"

"I don't know if I can get it yet. The other actor has a financial backer, but I don't have anyone to support him." Zhuang Jieyu pretended to sniff, "Brother, you can count on me."

GuQingPei chuckled and said, "I can't afford it."

Zhuang Jieyu said with a smile: "You are handsome, I will give you a [-]% discount."

He Gu couldn't get used to such a suave and suave GuQingPei, so he could only cover up drinking wine.

At this time, GuQingPei's phone rang again, he looked down, sighed: "Boss." Then he took the phone and went out.

As soon as GuQingPei left, Zhuang Jieyu stared at He Gu with a pair of small deer eyes.

He Gu frowned and ignored him.

Zhuang Jieyu stood up and sat next to him: "Hey, my movie is up, are you going to contribute to the box office?"

"No."

"Anyway, we also know each other. You can't even give up a few dozen dollars. You're so picky."

"I don't watch movies."

"Hey, there are still people who don't watch movies."

Why didn't you answer the call.

"Hey, it's all because of you. Song Juhan doesn't talk to me anymore. It's hard for me to get into a new play. Originally relying on him, I could definitely win this role."

He Gu said flatly: "It has nothing to do with me."

"It's up to you." Zhuang Jieyu bumped into his shoulder, "Why don't you make it up to me?"

He Gu tilted his head and looked at him: "Did you forget what I told you last time?"

"I remember, but after thinking about it, you are really shy. You look serious on the surface, but you are actually very shy. It's kind of cute when you think about it." Zhuang Jieyu laughed, "Hey , I'm really curious about you, people say that the more boring people are, the stronger they are, do you want to try it with me? If you don't want to do 1, I can do 1."

He Gu was so angry that he wanted to slap him. He had never seen such a thick-skinned person as Zhuang Jieyu. If he took one step back, the other party would take three steps forward, which made him helpless. Really do it.He said stiffly, "Don't push yourself too far."

"A person lives for a lifetime. You can get what you want. If you can get it, you can get it, but you can't get it. How can you make an inch of it." Zhuang Jieyu approached him and said mysteriously, "I just want to know, you What does such a mature, abstinent, sullen man look like in bed."

He Gu stared at him, Zhuang Jieyu showed a beautiful and lovely smile and blinked his eyes.