first love again

Chapter 10

Xu Miao and Jiang Yifan have been together since the summer of their third year of high school.

Everyone was struggling for the college entrance examination, but they secretly fell in love. They were still young at that time, without the slightest sense of guilt, and they were full of liking for each other.

The cold winter is the most suitable for talking about sweet and warm love.

It's more comfortable than snuggling under a warm blanket.

Because it is the third year of high school, there will only be one day on New Year's Day, and they made an appointment to spend the New Year's Eve together at night.

Jiang Yifan was born in a scholarly family. His father is a university professor and his mother is a high school teacher. The family education is very strict. Jiang Yifan will never be allowed to get along with a classmate with poor grades like Xu Miao.

And Xu Miao's mother left since she was a child, and her father drank and gambled all the year round. He often didn't come home, and there was often no one at home, so he made an appointment to stay at Xu Miao's house at night.

On the night of New Year's Eve, they went to press the road together, and they were about to be blown into idiots by the howling cold wind.

Xu Miao was wearing thin cotton clothes and thin casual shoes on his feet. The whole body was only warmed by a scarf. This was a Christmas gift from Jiang Yifan.

At the age of seventeen or eighteen, men are very face-saving. Even though the family has no money and is frozen like a dog, they still stubbornly lift their chins and say in a trembling voice that they are not cold.

Jiang Yifan didn't say anything after hearing the words, took him to dinner, stepped into the warm room, Xu Miao's tight jaw and gritted teeth finally loosened.

While eating, Xu Miao's cell phone vibrated suddenly.

This Nokia was given to him by his father when he was worn out. He said it was convenient for him to contact him, but since Xu Miao got the phone, the ringtone suddenly stopped. He only used it to play Snake.

Seeing an unfamiliar number, Xu Miao felt a little strange, and pressed the button to connect.

On the other end came the voice of the policeman, saying that his father had died in a car accident.

Xu Miao's teeth were trembling uncontrollably again, his whole body was chilling, every step he stepped on the tip of the ice pierced him with pain.

Jiang Yifan accompanied him to the scene. His father was lying on the ground, covered by a white cloth, with a pool of blood beside him and a broken beer bottle.

Xu Miao wanted to cry and laugh at the same time, but he never expected that this person would hold beer in his arms even when he died.

If only the beer was his son.

This new year is destined to not be able to pass well.

Xu Miao became an orphan on the last day. Because his father was a gambler, almost all relatives in the family severed ties with them. When he was attending to his funeral, only a few relatives came to help arrange the funeral.

After the funeral, only his uncle asked him how to live in the future, Xu Miao didn't say anything, it was useless, and his uncle's family was also quite difficult.

In the last semester of the third year of high school, although he studied hard, he only got three books in the college entrance examination because of his poor foundation.

The tuition fees of the three private colleges are very high. Xu Miao had no money to study, and out of self-esteem, he did not accept Jiang Yifan’s help. Looking for a job, and Jiang Yifan went to Beijing to study at university.

They started a long-distance relationship and only saw each other for a long time because they were both busy and the train tickets to and from Beijing were too expensive.

This New Year's Eve, Xu Miao wanted to surprise Jiang Yifan, so she kept it from him and pretended that she was busy with work and couldn't spare time, but when he went to Beijing, it was in vain.

Because Jiang Yifan also came back without telling him, and wanted to give him a surprise.

By accident, they failed to celebrate the New Year together this time, so they could only hold their mobile phones and giggle to wish each other a happy New Year.

In the third year, near New Year's Day, they broke up.

Xu Miao was sweating all over. He hugged Jiang Yifan's shoulders, his eyes were red, and he felt extremely uncomfortable. His low and inaudible voice was faintly crying.

After being hearty, Xu Miao's whole body seemed to be washed with water, even her hair was wet with sweat, and the black hair on her forehead was in strands, making her look lazy and sexy.

Xu Miao was naked, with a smooth and graceful waistline. With his back to Jiang Yifan, he suddenly didn't want to speak.

From time to time, the sound of fireworks is heard from a distance outside, which sounds very lively.

Jiang Yifan looked at him with deep eyes, and called his name, "Xiao Xu."

Xu Miao still turned her back to him, didn't turn her head, and only said softly, "Huh?"

"To take a shower?" Jiang Yifan said.

But Xu Miao shook her head and said, "I don't want to move, I'll go later."

Jiang Yifan: "Yes."

Xu Miao thought for a while, then turned to look at him, her pitch-black eyes seemed to have been washed, black and bright like obsidian, and he said, "Come, let's chat."

"Yeah." Jiang Yifan gave him the initiative of the topic, "What are we talking about?"

Xu Miao fell silent. After thinking for a long time, he didn't know what to talk about, but he wanted to talk again, and after he didn't want to do it, he fell into endless embarrassment and silence.

After hesitating for a long time, he said discouragedly, "What do you want to talk about?"

Jiang Yifan was obviously much more decisive than him. He stared into his eyes and asked straightforwardly, "How do you feel about me now?"

"I..." Xu Miao's voice seemed to be choked, his thoughts were confused, and he didn't know how to answer.

Jiang Yifan looked at his expression, and said again: "Can't figure it out?"

Xu Miao pursed her lips and nodded slightly.

"Okay." Jiang Yifan said, "Change the question."

Xu Miao hesitated a little, fearing that it would be a difficult question to answer, so he hesitated and said, "Okay..."

Jiang Yifan: "Why did you break up?"

really!

Xu Miao was a little annoyed. He scratched his hair and muttered depressingly, "Can't you ask some easy questions?"

Jiang Yifan kept him locked in his eyes, and said expressionlessly, "No."

Xu Miao kicked him and said angrily, "Then get lost."

He didn't use much force, and kicked Jiang Yifan's abdominal muscles. Jiang Yifan remained motionless, still looking at him quietly. After a long time, he finally slowed down, "I won't ask, huh?"

Xu Miao replied awkwardly, and then got up, "I'm going to take a shower, you change the sheets, it's all dirty."

Jiang Yifan: "Yes."

The bathroom was steaming hot, and the warm water was pouring on the body, which was very comfortable.

Jiang Yifan put on a condom and didn't touch the inside, omitting the next step of cleaning up. He simply took a shower, dried his hair, put on thick pajamas and walked out of the bathroom.

When he came to the room, there were a few things on the bed, Jiang Yifan was against the light, so he couldn't see his expression clearly.

Seeing those things, Xu Miao's expression changed, she quickly lifted the quilt to cover her, and glared at Jiang Yifan, "Why are you rummaging through my things?"

"Sorry." Jiang Yifan's voice was very deep, still without any emotion, "I accidentally saw it when I was looking for the quilt."

Xu Miao didn't say anything, and put those supplies back, a little annoyed, "Don't touch my things in the future!"

"Ah."

Xu Miao's face was still very unnatural, and he didn't dare to look at Jiang Yifan. He climbed onto the bed with his eyes downcast. Jiang Yifan looked at his figure and said in a low voice, "You usually use those—"

Xu Miao blushed, and hurriedly interrupted Jiang Yifan, "I don't use it often!"

Jiang Yifan was silent.

When Xu Miao was found using these things, the more he thought about it, the more he felt at a loss. He opened his mouth, but couldn't help explaining, "Well... I'm an adult, and I have needs... It's not surprising to use these—"

"Little Xu." Jiang Yifan's voice was a little hoarse.

When the words were interrupted, Xu Miao was stunned, "Huh?"

"Don't go on talking." Jiang Yifan's face was rarely relaxed, and his tone was slightly unnatural, "There is a picture."

Xu Miao: "..."

He threw a pillow over and became annoyed: "Don't think about it!"

Jiang Yifan took the pillow, put it aside, and agreed, "Okay."

Xu Miao's face turns red and turns pale. It's okay to be caught and use these supplies, but to face such an embarrassing conversation, he really wants to punch Fei Jiang Yifan and hibernate in the ground, but he will never come out to see anyone after this winter.

It was impossible to escape helplessly, he could only hide under the quilt, and resolutely refused to make eye contact with Jiang Yifan.

Jiang Yifan turned off the light and lay down.

In the silent night, there is only each other's steady breathing.

There was some light by the window, Jiang Yifan's eyes adapted to the darkness, he looked to the side beside him, Xu Miao felt that the bed was too stuffy, so she quietly poked her head out to breathe.

"Xiao Xu." Jiang Yifan said.

Xu Miao expressionless, said indifferently, "I fell asleep."

Jiang Yifan acted as if he had never heard of it, and continued in a flat tone, "You don't have to feel embarrassed, I will do the same, thinking of you—"

Xu Miao hurriedly shouted: "Shut up!"

He twitched the corner of his mouth and said awkwardly: "I also have a sense of picture."

After the words fell, it didn't take long for Xu Miao to laugh out loud.

There was also a smile in Jiang Yifan's eyes.

The atmosphere suddenly became harmonious again.

"Did you laugh too?" Xu Miao asked.

Jiang Yifan: "Yes."

"You can't laugh out loud." Xu Miao clicked her tongue and said, "I've never seen you laugh out loud before."

Jiang Yifan said, "When you fell asleep."

Xu Miao: "...Don't talk about it, it's weird."

Jiang Yifan didn't answer any further, and reached out to rub his black hair, "Go to sleep."

Xu Miao closed her eyes and went to sleep obediently. Before going to sleep, the corners of his mouth were still curled.

This year's New Year's Day is the most satisfying time for him, enough to make him dream all night.

Waking up the next day, Xu Miao found that she was sleeping in Jiang Yifan's arms with her head resting on his arm.

He blushed a little, and got up quickly, but unexpectedly woke up Jiang Yifan.

Just after waking up, Jiang Yifan opened his eyes, his eyes were lazy and careless, "Are you awake?"

Xu Miao sat up, facing Jiang Yifan early in the morning, a little flustered, as if waking up from a dream, subconsciously opened her mouth and said, "You should go."

Jiang Yifan raised his eyebrows, and he got up too. Unexpectedly, his arms had become numb after being pillowed all night, with a slight itching. He frowned. He hadn't hugged Xu Miao to sleep for a long time, and his arms were not used to it.

Xu Miao jumped over him and got off the bed, tried not to look at him, took out her clothes and ran to the bathroom to change.

After changing his clothes, Jiang Yifan also came out of the living room, with no expression on his face, his posture was natural, just like his master: "Do you want breakfast?"

"No." Xu Miao scratched her hair, hesitated for a while, and asked, "Are you free from class today?"

"No."

"……"Depend on.

Xu Miao held back for a while, then said dryly, "Why are university teachers so relaxed?"