nine year itch

Gu Ze stood in the toilet, and what Xiao Wen said just now echoed in his ears for a long time.

Youqing saw Da Ma and Xiaowen who were still in a panic when they came in to class, and then saw the empty seats next to them, and suddenly felt their heart pounding.

Although Gu Ze arrived late and left early, it was common for him to miss classes.But at this moment, he just felt that Gu Ze knew something.

For the next whole day, Gu Ze didn't come to class.The teacher handed out the papers for the mock exam, saying that it must be handed in before get out of class ends the next day.

Looking at the vacant seat next to him, Youqing silently put the extra white paper into his drawer.

The next day Gu Ze came to class, and the class representative came to collect the test papers before school ended.He quietly put one of the test papers he finished on his desk.Youqing wrote this paper with her left hand, and several options were changed.

As a result, Gu Ze saw the test paper, not only did not appreciate it, but also crumpled the paper and threw it on the ground.

Seeing his actions, Youqing suddenly burst into tears.The class representative saw Gu Ze's cold and displeased expression, so he directly chose to skip this person.

After collecting the papers, everyone left one after another, only Youqing and Gu Ze were left in the class.Youqing was afraid that others would notice his strangeness, so he turned his back and sat facing the window sill.On the other hand, Gu Ze filled the entire aisle with his long legs, and the two sat back to back like this.

"Youqing, they said you like men, is it true?" Gu Ze, who hadn't spoken to him all day today, suddenly spoke with a hoarse voice.

Hearing this, Youqing froze all over, and the blood on her face faded completely.He knew there would be such a day, but he didn't know that it would come so soon.

He thought he had mustered up his courage, but found that when this moment came, black clouds were overwhelming the city.

After a while, he said with a trembling voice, "Yes."

Although he knew it was probably true, but hearing Youqing admit it with his own ears, Gu Ze also trembled in his heart.

"Is it because you like me that you are nice to me?" Gu Ze asked again.

Gu Ze didn't know why he asked such a question.

He originally expected that if Youqing admits that he likes the same sex, he will beat him up and tell Youqing to go as far as he can in the future.

But just now, when she heard Youqing's crying voice, she felt the slight tremor of the thin body behind her, but the words in her head blurted out uncontrollably.

"I, I don't know." Youqing shook her head tremblingly.

Hearing this ambiguous answer, Gu Ze suddenly felt his blood surge. He really wanted to shout and question Youqing, I am so good-looking, and so many girls handed me love letters, why do you look down on me?

But at this time, the person behind him was lying on the balcony and began to sob tremblingly.

Gu Ze was at a loss, he really wanted to reach out to hug that thin figure, but he wanted him to stop crying and get out of the classroom quickly.

Finally, Gu Ze rushed out from the classroom.

Youqing didn't know how long he lay there crying alone, he felt that his sleeves were all wet.He didn't do his homework again today, so he staggered back to the dormitory alone.

The next day, Youqing came to school with swollen eyes. The teacher saw that he didn't do his homework again, so he severely criticized him and asked him to stand outside the door as punishment.

Gu Ze was late again in the morning, he glanced indifferently at Youqing who was standing outside the door, and entered the classroom without looking back.

From then on, until the end of this semester, the two of them never spoke a word or had a meal.

With the winter vacation approaching, Gu Ze returned to Beijing, while Youqing returned to his hometown in the county.

When school started again, Gu Ze greeted You Qing lightly, and the two barely reconciled.

But now Gu Ze is just like other students, he only has necessary communication with himself, and has nothing to do with him other than that.

There are less than three months left before the college entrance examination, and the whole class is engrossed in studying hard.

As a result, fate cruelly played tricks on Youqing again.

It was a cloudy day with light rain, the teacher hurriedly called Youqing to the office, and for the next week, Youqing never came to school again.

Youqing's father had an accident in Beijing.

He ran a red light while delivering food, and was hit by a turning car directly into the green belt. Emergency rescue failed and died on the spot.

Youqing's grandparents passed away very early, and Youqing's father had only one disabled elder brother, who also died of illness a few years ago, so the police station had to call Youqing's school.

When Youqing learned of this, she passed out directly in the office.A group of teachers rushed him to the school hospital in a hurry.

Youqing felt that she fell into a deep sleep, and had many dreams about her father. The father's frontal appearance in the dream was not real, but she only vaguely remembered his short and stooped back.

My father is usually taciturn and irritable, but every Chinese New Year, he would bring him new clothes and Beijing sugar figurines.

He seldom talked with Youqing on the phone, and every time he called, he would only say a few words. It was nothing more than studying hard and listening to the teacher's words over and over again.

After waking up, Youqing got on the green leather train to Beijing in a dazed state.

When Youqing was at the funeral home, someone gave him a bank card, saying that there was 5 yuan in it, which was given by the driver.Although the driver was found not guilty, his conscience was somewhat disturbed, and he also learned that there was a school-going child at home, so he voluntarily paid compensation.

Youqing held the small and thin card tightly, as if holding a ball of fire in his hand.

As soon as he walked out of the door, there was a sudden gust of wind, and Youqing couldn't hold it tightly, so the card fell to the ground lightly.

He returned to his hometown with his father's urn in his arms, and buried the ashes on the back mountain where his father brought him to play when he was a child.

It has been more than a week after all this has been dealt with. The teacher organized a fundraiser for him at the school and raised more than 3 yuan.

When Youqing returned to school, she lost a lot of weight again.The classmates looked at the black cloth on his arm, and they were all as silent as a chilling cicada.

He walked down beside Gu Ze like a walking dead. Gu Ze looked at his sallow face and didn't know what expression to make.

Although Youqing still went to class, ate and studied as usual, but she felt lifeless, like a puppet with a mechanical clockwork.

Youqing sometimes wonders why her fate is so rough?

Is it because he is a different kind, so his mother abandoned his family and children since he was a child, and his father was also tragically involved in a car accident.

Is this God's punishment for himself?

This idea gradually took shape in his weak mind, and he had some thoughts of committing suicide.

After class, he came to the roof of the school alone and stood on a platform at the edge of the building.Staring blankly at the empty playground and the sunset in the sky.

"Youqing!" Suddenly a person broke open the door of the roof and rushed over.

Youqing turned around when she heard the voice, and saw that it was Gu Ze.

"Youqing, don't be impulsive, you come down first." Gu Ze said anxiously and worriedly.

Youqing didn't seem to understand, and he was still standing on the platform. When a gust of wind blew by, Gu Ze seemed to see Youqing's small body crumbling.

Youqing turned back to look at the sky again.

Gu Ze took advantage of the time when he was stupefied when he looked back, and pulled the man off the table with a stride, and both of them fell to the ground.

Gu Ze hugged Youqing tightly behind him, and shouted loudly: "Youqing, are you dying!"

Gu Ze turned the person over, looked at Youqing's pale and dull expression, held his thin shoulders tightly, and asked him in disbelief: "Youqing, what did you want to do just now? Do you want to jump off? "

"I know something happened to your family, you don't feel well, but the deceased is dead, you still have to live well!" Gu Zeshi shook Youqing's body vigorously, trying to wake him up.

"By the way, don't you like men? How about I date you? Can you stop doing this!"

Hearing this sentence, Youqing seemed to be hit by a thunderbolt. He suddenly cried loudly like crazy: "It's because I like men! My father, my father will die!"

Seeing Youqing like this, Gu Ze was scared and surprised, "What does your father have to do with this?"

"Because God wants to punish me! Because I'm a different kind!" After speaking, Youqing cried again as if the world was ending.

Seeing Youqing like this, Gu Ze hugged him tightly with mixed feelings in his heart.

Youqing kicked, fell, hit and made noise while crying in his arms, but Gu Ze didn't move at all.

When the person in his arms gradually calmed down, Gu Ze held his face in his hands, stared into his eyes and said word by word: "Listen, Youqing. Your father's accident has nothing to do with your liking for men. , you don’t want to connect these two things anymore.”

"When I returned to Beijing during the winter vacation, I asked my buddies about this. There is a special circle in Beijing, where men and men make friends and fall in love. Some people even write books and publish their experiences. buy it."

Gu Ze actually didn't ask any buddies, how could he have the nerve to tell others about this kind of thing.He just searched on the computer himself.

"Really?" Youqing stopped crying after listening to his words.

"That can be false. According to your logic just now, liking the same sex is a heterogeneity, and it will be punished by God. Then why can people live so well?"

Youqing looked at Gu Ze in front of him, his deep eyes were full of seriousness.

The setting sun had gradually sunk to the bottom, only the afterglow was left shining on Gu Ze's ivory white skin.Although Gu Ze's few words were just hearsay, they largely comforted Youqing's painful and confused heart.

The setting sun has completely set in the sky, but Gu Ze has a sun rising in his heart.

Gu Ze helped Youqing back to the classroom on the second floor, for fear that he would do something stupid again.

"Youqing, stop thinking about it, do your homework well, I'm going home too." Gu Ze walked away step by step.

Is Beijing really that good? Youqing couldn't help but yearn for it.

At first, he planned to study at a free normal school, but now he wants to go to a university in Beijing.

Gu Ze's current home is in Beijing. If he is admitted to the school there, maybe the two of them can continue to be good friends like they are now.