No one really thinks it's hard to be a stand-in, right?

"Crash-"

In the bathroom late at night, there was the sound of water.

Fu Chenyu's hands were flushed red from washing in cold water, but he rubbed his fingers desperately as if he didn't feel anything.

The boy's face was pale, and he didn't have the shame and surprise of an adult, only endless fear.

In the dream, Ji Mian's face kept appearing in front of his eyes. Fu Chenyu was startled, and looked up at the mirror. In the mirror, there were only his eyes full of blood and desire that had not faded.

After a while, he suddenly felt that his appearance was very disgusting.

"Whoa-"

There was another sound of water, and Fu Chenyu suddenly splashed cold water on his face.

It was already late autumn in November, and he was a little sober after being stimulated by the cold water. It took Fu Chenyu a long time to calm down while supporting the white tiles with both hands.

When he returned to the bedroom, he had already put on clean pants and sheets.

Fu Chenyu sat in front of the computer, skillfully searching for three words on the Internet: homosexuality.

No matter how ignorant he is, he knows that it is normal for boys to be interested in girls under the influence of various jokes from his peers.

However, he had desires for Ji Mian, and thoughts he shouldn't have had about his playmates from childhood to adulthood.

He thought that his love for Ji Mian was pure, but now this pure love is being touched by black lust unscrupulously.

The seeds buried deep in Fu Chenyu's heart seemed to be gradually sprouting, and the vague emotions from childhood gradually took shape, and he realized that his possessive desire for Ji Mian was far more than that.

In the past few years, domestic search engines had relatively conservative views on homosexuality. Some asked whether they were gay, and some parents asked whether their children were gay, but there were no effective suggestions.

More voices showed "abnormal", "abnormal", "this is a disease that can be cured".

Fu Chenyu finished reading in silence, and went to foreign websites without hesitation.

The attitude towards homosexuality in foreign countries is much more relaxed, but it still shows that this is not a kind of love that can be recognized by most people.

This road is doomed to be difficult, and it is doomed to be isolated and helpless.

Fu Chenyu sat in front of the computer for a long time, as if he had become a statue.

He didn't turn off the computer until the cheerful birdsong sounded outside the window and the sky was rising, and he lay back on the bed again.

That night, the 13-year-old was sleepless all night with a bitter secret and an almost hopeless love.

Ji Mian's first grade of junior high school was uneventful, and it was the end of the year in a blink of an eye.

I don't know if it's his illusion, but this semester, Fu Chenyu seems to have a much colder attitude towards him. Every time he took the initiative to invite Fu Chenyu to walk with him after school, or to play basketball on the playground, Fu Chenyu refused with various reasons.

Even sometimes, he ignored him.

If it weren't for the things we experienced together in elementary school, Ji Mian would have thought that Fu Chenyu hated him.

Because of Fu Chenyu's estrangement, Ji Mian was a little gloomy, even Lin Minzhi noticed that he was depressed.

Lin Minzhi thought that Ji Mian was worried about the final exam. After all, it was the final exam of the first semester of the first year of junior high school. It was related to the placement of the second year of junior high school and whether she could stay in the experimental class. She also advised Ji Mian to take the exam lightly and not be too nervous.

Ji Mian listened absent-mindedly, Lin Minzhi looked at her son who was growing up, and felt a little concerned.

I don't know... Does Mianmian have some puberty development...

Lin Minzhi has paid close attention to Ji Mian's growth this year.

He also quietly looked at Ji Mian's clothes basket, there was no dirty clothes that he got up to change in the middle of the night, and he didn't change the sheets.

My son is... a bit late in development?

Lin Minzhi was worried. He heard that boys who develop late tend not to grow tall. Ji Weiguo and she are not very tall. What if Mianmian grows too short and cannot get a wife?

Perhaps her worry really had an effect. On the day before the final exam, Ji Mian suffered from insomnia for the first time.

He went to bed at twelve o'clock, and woke up from a dream at three o'clock in the middle of the night. His pants were sticky, and he knew what it was without looking. Ji Mian blushed in embarrassment.

Traveling through time once, I didn't expect to experience puberty again... so what!

His already white skin turned red from his neck to his cheeks, like a boiled shrimp.

Ji Mian hurriedly changed her pajama pants and bed sheets, and hid in the bathroom in the middle of the night to wash them. Early the next morning, Lin Minzhi saw the changed bed sheets hanging on the balcony.

She didn't say anything, but added an extra egg to her breakfast, wishing Ji Mian that she would finally grow into an adult on this day!

Although the matter of growing into an adult made Ji Mian embarrassed and ashamed, he still performed very well in the next day's exam.

The nine subjects were tested for a total of two days, and the last one was finished on the second day, and I had to go to the class to collect the winter vacation homework.

The class was very lively, and the most discussed was a new ice skating rink near the school. Everyone discussed going to play during the holidays.

He Xi invited Ji Mian while packing up his homework: "Ji Mian, can you skate? Let's go together, it's only ten yuan an hour."

Ji Mian was a little moved, he subconsciously glanced at Fu Chenyu, wondering if he should ask Fu Chenyu to play with him.

Fu Chenyu hadn't paid much attention to himself for more than a month, and suddenly left Ji Mian cold, making Ji Mian puzzled and at the same time feeling very awkward.

Why don't you find an excuse to repair the relationship.

He Xi went to invite Su Luoyu: "Susu, are you going?"

Su Luoyu is very handsome now, unlike Ji Mian's gorgeous appearance, he looks very cold and indifferent: "When? Fu Chenyu, are you going?"

He invited Fu Chenyu by the way.

Ji Mian's heart skipped a beat, and she turned her head to look.

Fu Chenyu looked away from the playground, and before he could answer, a few girls suddenly stood at the door, looking into their classroom with blushing faces.

She's not a first-year student, but looks like a second-year senior.

"Fu Chenyu, I'm looking for you!"

A roar in the classroom immediately attracted everyone's attention.

Several girls gathered around the girl with the melon seed face in the front, the melon seed face was so red, she whispered softly: "Fu Chenyu, can you come out for a while?"

Ji Mian was taken aback, thinking, this posture, this is the rhythm of confession!

He grew up with Fu Chenyu, and he has often seen girls have a good impression of Fu Chenyu, but there are very few who have the courage to confess to this cool guy with a cold face.

Suddenly, Ji Mian felt a sense of watching his child grow up. He was inexplicably relieved and a little proud. Look, the boss is really popular, even more popular than the protagonist!

He was secretly biased, thinking that Su Luoyu's vision is really not very good, how could he fall in love with Li Jue?Is it because the boss is not affectionate enough and rich enough?

While saying that he loves Su Luoyu, Li Jue is looking for a substitute like Su Luoyu, a proper scumbag...

Thinking of this, Ji Mian realized that he was that cannon fodder stand-in, and the smile on his face froze instantly.

Ji Mian wanted to gossip for a while, but the girl had already led the boss away, so he could only retract his stretched neck regretfully.

Su Luoyu suddenly said, "Ji Mian, are you very interested?"

Ji Mian and Su Luoyu are also half childhood sweethearts, they grew up, but he doesn't have a deep friendship with Su Luoyu, he is afraid that his life will be lost.

But I usually chat like this now.

"It's okay." Ji Mian said, "I just think it's too early to fall in love now."

Su Luoyu's eyes were slightly dazed, and she suddenly asked, "Ji Mian, do you have someone you like?"

Ji Mian's heart suddenly became vigilant. There was something in this familiar opening sentence... Could it be that the protagonist Shou has already fallen in love?

He suddenly remembered that in the original novel "Tenderness on Strange Road", Su Luoyu should be staying at a friend's house at this time, and this friend is Su Luoyu's childhood Bai Yueguang, Li Weishi.

It is said that he died very early, so all the men who later fell in love with the protagonist Shou were jealous of Li Weishi's weight in Su Luoyu's heart!

However, why did Su Luoyu share this with herself!

Ji Mian complained silently: The girl's Huaichun rhythm...is not suitable for sharing with a straight man like me...

"No." Ji Mian shook her head: "I'm still a student, and students should put their studies first."

While he was talking, he had the feeling of admonishing Su Luoyu. After all, in the original book, Su Luoyu and Li Jue both seem to be in love. When they talk about love, they toss and destroy the world, and the friends around them take three layers off for their love. Skin.

Not to mention his cannon fodder double, his life was lost by the two of them.

Su Luoyu sighed faintly, looking preoccupied.

The next second, he cheered up: "Ji Mian, it's my birthday soon, would you like to come to my house to celebrate my birthday?"

Ji Mian's first reaction was to refuse, but He Xi answered faster than him: "Susu, why didn't you invite me?"

Su Luoyu smiled and said, "Please, definitely please, as well as Fu Chenyu, Kang Jun and the others, come. I like excitement."

It turns out that I didn't invite myself alone...

Phew, Ji Mian heaved a sigh of relief and readily agreed.

Among the classmates in the class of the protagonist Shou, that is an ordinary passerby!Not really special.

Moreover, it seems too deliberate to refuse the protagonist's acceptance. The best way is to maintain a close relationship with him and become an ordinary classmate.

Well, be more cautious, save your life!

Fu Chenyu came back soon, and He Xi wanted to gossip, but because of the indifference of the boss who refused to be thousands of miles away, he shrank his head back tremblingly.

Ji Mian said softly: "Fu Chenyu, what does senior sister want from you?"

Fu Chenyu raised his eyes and saw Ji Mian's face, the feeling of guilt and loathing for himself surged in his heart instantly.

It's been a month and he still can't get over how he felt that night, the first time he felt dirty.

Facing Ji Mian's clean eyes, Fu Chenyu almost ran away, not even daring to look at each other.

"She confessed." Fu Chenyu made a long story short.

Ji Mian's eyes are wide open, he's always been like that whenever he's startled since he was a child, exactly the same as the cotton bunny that Fu Chenyu raised.

"Then have you agreed?"

"No."

It was cold and indifferent, and he was still hanging out.

Ji Mian sighed, "Actually, I think that senior is pretty."

Fu Chenyu didn't speak, but when he heard Ji Mian's answer, he held his breath and panicked, as if he couldn't let it go, he squeezed out a sentence: "Do you like this type?"

Ji Mian shook her head: "I'm just expressing my admiration for beautiful girls. After all, there's no boy who doesn't like watching..."

He fell silent halfway through his speech, and quickly shut up.

Ji Mian suddenly remembered that Fu Chenyu was the man who didn't like looking at beautiful women!

He is the affectionate villain No. [-] in BL novels!

Although he didn't speak, he understood what Ji Mian meant.

Fu Chenyu closed his eyes coldly, and tasted a sour taste.

Yes, Ji Mian likes girls.

Su Luoyu's birthday is January No.17, and Ji Mian picked a pen from the gift shop and gave it to him.

When paying, Ji Mian saw a fountain pen with a fox cap on the counter, and he immediately remembered that Fu Chenyu had a little fox pendant that looked the same.

Fu Chenyu was still at odds with him, he wanted to buy a pen for him and make up with him.

On January 17th, Ji Mian came to the Bay Area by bicycle.

It was the first time for him to come to Su Luoyu's house, so he was a little nervous.

I heard from grandma and the others that Su Luoyu's parents divorced when he was in elementary school, and he was sentenced to Yang Chaoying, who now lives in Li Weishi's house.

Li Weishi was the white moonlight of Su Luoyu's childhood. It is said that he was a piano teacher. He took good care of Su Luoyu when he was in the Children's Palace. After coming and going, the two became good teachers and helpful friends.

But at that time, Su Luoyu, who was going through a trough in his life, was brought home by Li Weishi, and got along with him under the same roof. Aroused the heart of love.

When I asked Ji Mian if there was anyone he liked that day, he was probably worrying about his young heart.

Of course, Ji Mian knew all of this through the original novel.

When Ji Mian arrived, Su Luoyu's other friends also arrived.

The protagonist Shou, naturally socializes widely and has many friends. In addition to one class, there are also friends from interest classes.

The appearance of Ji Mian surprised everyone at the scene, after all, his appearance is also very high, if he doesn't compare with Fu Chenyu, he is also a handsome guy!

"For you, happy birthday." Ji Mian generously gave the gift.

"Thank you." Su Luoyu thanked in a low voice, he looked very happy today.

After Ji Mian gave the gift, she pretended to be a stranger who didn't exist, sitting on the sofa and watching other people's excitement, without saying a word.

His eyes searched for Fu Chenyu's shadow, but he couldn't find it.

Ji Mian felt a little lost, tightly holding the fox fountain pen in her pocket.

That's right, the boss doesn't look like someone who will come to someone else's birthday party, not to mention, this is the home of a rival in love!

"Susu, are all your friends here?"

In the kitchen, a young man in his 20s came out, tall and handsome, with a pair of passionate peach blossom eyes.

Ji Mian doesn't need to guess, this must be Li Weishi. Generally, handsome men in novels have something to do with Su Luoyu.

He looked at his experience curiously, and thought, is this the soul hero of "Tenderness on Stranger Ways"?

The man who runs through the entire text and makes all the supporting actors hate him so much?

She was really good-looking, but it was a pity that she didn't live long and passed away early.

And Li Weishi seemed to have noticed Ji Mian.

His eyes stayed on Ji Mian's face for a few seconds, and then he gave him a gentle smile.

Ji Mian looked away: ... the protagonist is suffering from the white moonlight, I'd better not make eye contact with him, lest he die quickly.

Under Li Weishi's command, Su Luoyu cut the cake and sang the birthday song with everyone.

The snacks on the table were eaten all over the place, Ji Mian drank two cups of coconut milk, his stomach felt a little swollen, and he wanted to go to the bathroom.

When he came out of the bathroom, Li Weishi was flipping through the photo album. He was chatty and lively, and had many topics. Even junior high school students had a common language, and with just a few words, everyone admired him endlessly.

Ji Mian was dumbfounded, thinking, it is worthy of the white moonlight received by the protagonist, this configuration is top-notch!

Li Weishi was showing everyone the photos of Su Luoyu when he was a child, and Ji Mian found a place not too far away to sit down and looked at a few photos.

After flipping through one book and taking another, Su Luoyu's face was already blushing, "Brother Li!"

Li Weizhi smiled and said, "You were so cute when you were young, you still don't let people see you."

Saying that, he opened the photo album, but this photo album is different from the previous one, in addition to Su Luoyu's photos, there are also some old photos of Li Weizhi himself.

Middle school, high school, college, and work.

He Xi looked at it, then suddenly pointed to a photo and said, "Brother Li, who is this?"

Ji Mian saw a pair of brothers in the photo, they looked alike, the elder brother was Li Weishi, and the younger brother was a primary school student.

He instinctively didn't like the elementary school student next to Li Weishi. Although the man hadn't grown up, there was already a hint of arrogance and evil in his brows, which looked disgusting.

Li Weishi smiled and said, "Oh, this is my younger brother, Li Jue, who is also in the first year of junior high school this year, just like you."

As soon as he finished speaking, Ji Mian's head went blank and buzzed, as if someone had hit him hard with a hammer. In an instant, he couldn't hear anything.

For a moment, Ji Mian hoped that he had heard wrong.

His face was as white as a wall in an instant, his heart was beating violently, and his body was trembling uncontrollably.

Li Jue... Li Jue...

Li Weishi turned out to be Li Jue's own brother!

Li Jue's name is like the whisper of a demon, just hearing it makes Ji Mian shudder.

I don't know if it's an illusion, but after many years, Ji Mian's feeling of suffocation on the verge of death reappeared, his eyes turned black, and fragments like fragments kept flashing in his mind, followed by the icy sea water, Li Jue The arrogant and handsome face appeared in front of him. He and Su Luoyu hugged each other tightly, and their faces were full of joy for the rest of their life after the catastrophe.

During the kidnapping planned by Fu Chenyu, Li Jue chose to rescue Su Luoyu and gave up on him.

The heart-wrenching despair and pain of being deeply betrayed and ruthlessly abandoned by her lover almost made Ji Mian fall to the ground.

"Ji Mian? Ji Mian..." He Xi waved his five fingers in front of his eyes, worried: "Are you feeling unwell?"

Ji Mian came back to his senses and found that his whole body was limp. He opened his mouth to speak, only to hear his own hoarse voice: "I'm fine."

He Xi asked suspiciously, "Are you really all right? Are you sweating a lot?"

Ji Mian waved his hand weakly: "It's okay, I'm a little hypoglycemic, I'll just go for a walk."

He didn't want to stay in this room for a moment, and Su Luoyu's existence reminded him all the time that he might not have escaped from the plot in the book for so many years.

As if being choked by a certain fate, Ji Mian felt that he was going to be out of breath. As soon as he ran downstairs, he retched into the trash can.

He vomited up everything he ate just now, Ji Mian's aching stomach kept convulsing, his pale as paper cheeks were covered with fine sweat.

Ji Mian rested for a few minutes after throwing up, bought a bottle of water to rinse her mouth in a trance, and walked aimlessly on the street.

It took a long time before he calmed down slowly, and his heartbeat gradually stabilized.

Just now, he was too flustered.

Because he was not prepared at all, the moment he heard Li Jue's name, he had a series of terrible reactions due to stress.

Ji Mian pinched the bridge of her nose with her hand and sighed.

Although the plot of "Tenderness on a Strange Road" unfolds in his mind from time to time, Ji Mian does not notice some details that need to be considered.

Li Weishi and Li Jue have the same surname, so he should have suspected it earlier.

Unexpectedly, Su Luoyu's favorite Bai Yueguang turned out to be Li Jue's own brother. It has to be said that the two brothers' looks are indeed [-]% similar.Ji Mian suddenly realized, could it be that after Li Weishi passed away, Su Luoyu used Li Jue as a stand-in?

He froze for a moment, amused by his own thoughts.

If it is really what I guessed, then Su Luoyu and Li Jue's life-and-death relationship is quite plastic.

Both of them said they loved each other the most, but one used the other as a substitute, and the other found a substitute for the other.

Just remembering that he was the cannon fodder stand-in between the two of them, Ji Mian really couldn't be happy.

He walked along the direction of the setting sun, and unknowingly came to the community where Fu Chenyu's house was located.

Lin Jianyi has now secured the No. [-] position in Tongcheng, and the community they live in is naturally a community house allocated by the state. There are cadres above the department level inside, and there are layers of security guards.

Ji Mian didn't know why he came here, he thought that when he was flustered, he would walk home and escape to the safe haven that Lin Minzhi built for him.

It may be because there is still a Fox fountain pen in the pocket that has not been given away.

It may also be because... I want to see Fu Chenyu.

He wanted to see him, and wanted to confirm if this Fu Chenyu was his Fu Chenyu.

He grew up with him, is his best friend, has experienced the snowstorm and SARS together, and has a good buddy who has a "life and death" relationship.

And not that... Fox who had the gentlest smile on his face, but who could shoot and smash his calf without hesitation.

Impulsive, Ji Mian regretted it a bit.

Because he couldn't enter Fu Chenyu's community at all, so he could only wander downstairs.

On the third lap, Ji Mian heard Fu Chenyu's cold voice: "What are you doing here?"

Ji Mian turned her head and saw Fu Chenyu's appearance in the setting sun.

His shadow was stretched long, and he had a familiar, indifferent expression on his face.

"Fu Chenyu..." Ji Mian was discouraged for a moment, her nose was sore, and tears immediately came to her eyes.

Fu Chenyu was a little uneasy when he was frightened by this accident, but his face still tensed up on Brother Ku's persona, but his tone softened a bit: "Yes."

Ji Mian almost cried out in embarrassment, he quickly swallowed his tears, and took out the fox fountain pen from his pocket: "I bought a pen for you."

Fu Chenyu's fingers curled up.

Ji Mian's nasal voice was very heavy, and his voice revealed deep grievances, as if there was still a trace of fear and fear, he begged softly: "Fu Chenyu, don't ignore me."

Don't ignore me, don't be him.

Fu Chenyu's hard-hearted heart that had been cold for a month suddenly collapsed under the grievances of the young man, and he was so broken that he couldn't fight back.