I'm actually straight

It was destined to be a sad two days. Compared with Wei Wen's restless sleep and food, Ye Shuwen barely had a better time.In fact, he already knew the final answer, and the only thing he could do now was to keep reminding himself not to waver, not to soften his heart, and not to let the damage continue to expand.

He has never been in love, just fell in love with Wei Wen, but it made him hurt, he was already afraid.

It is the instinct of human beings to seek good luck and avoid bad luck. Knowing that the road ahead is difficult, especially after a fall with a bruised nose and a swollen face, I believe that there are always a small number of people who are willing to continue to move forward.

Two days later it was the weekend, Ye Shuwen woke up very early in the morning, carefully shaved off his new beard, washed his hair while washing his face, changed into a set of expensive casual clothes, and finally turned on the computer to play World of Warcraft .

He didn't leave Wei Wen's phone number. Wei Wen said he would come to him, so he could only wait.

The buddies in the dormitory got up one hour later, and when they saw that he was looking like a dog, they teased him about whether he was going on a blind date.

Ye Shuwen smiled and explained that something happened, but did not elaborate.

The classmates thought that he had a good relationship with the three buddies in the dormitory, but in fact he knew that it was only relative.Not to mention that he has experienced so much, and he has closed himself unconsciously. Taking his age as an example, these first-year freshmen are all his younger brothers and sisters. There is a generation gap of three years, and there is almost two generation gaps between him and them. Facing those vibrant smiles, he felt that he couldn't fully accept all of this with an open heart.

In the past six months of college, he felt very lonely.

His life was delayed by six years because of an accident.

How many six years are there in a person's life?

At 10:30 in the morning, the sun rose high and shone brightly on the earth. The phone in the dormitory rang, and the aunt in the reception room called to tell him that someone was looking for him.

Ye Shuwen quit the game, got up and straightened his clothes and hair, picked up the backpack on the bed, threw it behind his back, and walked out of the dormitory.

Downstairs, it was indeed Wei Wen who was waiting for him at the door.

Wei Wen is tall, with a white and clean face that has been specially cleaned up. He is wearing white short-sleeved shorts. Standing in the sun, a faint halo emerges from him, making it impossible not to pay attention to him.

At this moment, he was surrounded by two boys and seven or eight girls, who had obviously recognized him.The students of the School of Physical Education will naturally pay attention to sports news, not to mention that Wei Wen stole the limelight in the Olympic Games this year.

"Book." Wei Wen smiled, rolled his eyes, pushed aside the crowd, and greeted him.

Ye Shuwen wanted to shrink back into the darkness for a moment.

They left the dormitory building, followed by a few girls. They took out their phones to call for friends, and occasionally passed the words "Olympic champion" and "Wei Wen".

The pace of the two of them quickened unconsciously, and almost stopped a car before the encirclement formed. Several girls beat their chests and stamped their feet. Before Ye Shuwen looked back, Wei Wen said, "I'm sorry."

The corner of Ye Shuwen's mouth twitched, it was better not to smile.

Seeing Ye Shuwen's expression, Wei Wen fell silent, even the smile on his face dimmed.

"Where are you going?" the taxi driver asked the two of them in authentic Chengdu dialect.

Ye Shuwen said, "Chunxi Road."

Chunxi Road is a famous pedestrian street in Chengdu. Just like Wangfujing in Beijing, it is lively and famous, but the food may not be authentic, especially if you go to Chunxi Road for hot pot, you are waiting to be slaughtered.But Ye Shuwen didn't want to go to other places, he just wanted to make a quick decision.Meeting again made him finally confirm that he and Wei Wen were in the past tense, and the two of them already lived in completely different spaces, so why bother to meet together.

Wei Wen didn't know why, so the smile returned to his face: "Yes, Chunxi Road."

The car is driving on the road. There are not many cars on the road at this point. Chengdu people have the habit of running out on holidays. The congested streets on weekdays are much smoother on weekends. It doesn’t take long to drive from school to Chunxi Road.

Wei Wen didn't know the time, so seeing Ye Shuwen's silence, he found a topic and asked, "Do you have a cell phone? Write down my phone number."

Ye Shuwen hesitated for a moment, and gave his phone number.

Wei Wen took out his mobile phone and took notes happily.Then he asked again: "Do you want to eat hot pot today?"

"Yeah." Eating hot pot at noon is a bit strange, but now Ye Shuwen can't care so much.

"Is it authentic?"

"Ah."

The taxi driver glanced at the two of them from the rearview mirror, and kindly reminded them in Mandarin with salt and pepper: "Are you from out of town? Go to Chunxi Road to eat hot pot. The food there is expensive and not delicious. Let me introduce you. One, not far from there, definitely tastes much better than that place on Chunxi Road."

Ye Shuwen's face changed slightly.

Wei Wen smiled and said: "No need, master, we still need to buy something on Chunxi Road, and eat hot pot by the way."

"Oh." The taxi driver suddenly realized, "It's not bad to buy clothes there, you are so tall, everything you buy looks good."

"Thank you." Wei Wen didn't want to talk more, but just thanked him.

Ye Shuwen's heart beat like a drum, and he suddenly remembered that when Wei Wen and himself came to Chengdu, he seemed to complain to Wei Wen that the things on Chunxi Road were not authentic.

When they arrived at the place, the two got out of the car back and forth. Ye Shuwen looked at the Chunxi Road with many tall buildings in front of him, feeling a little dazed for a moment.

He has only been back to Chengdu for half a year, and he basically stayed at school for the past six months. He did not expect that Chunxi Road would change a lot in just a few years. Many buildings were built around it, and the original cement road under his feet was also paved. The tiles have been replaced, and the people who come and go on the road are young and beautiful men and women.

When he came back to his senses, seeing Wei Wen waiting for him, Ye Shuwen walked in a random direction.Wei Wen raised his eyebrows slightly and followed behind.In fact, Wei Wen lived in a hotel near Chunxi Road in the past two days, and he has been here twice, and he might be more familiar with Ye Shuwen than Ye Shuwen. Seeing the direction he was walking, it was a commercial street.

Entering the commercial street of Chunxi Road, Ye Shuwen was lost in the steel jungle, surrounded by people, and everywhere he could see were neon signs of all sizes, and the food shops he occasionally saw were basically snacks. Hot pot has nothing to do with it.

Wei Wen checked his words and said, "Speaking of which, I haven't changed my clothes for two days, and my neck is soaked in sweat. If you're not in a hurry, accompany me to buy a set of clothes."

Ye Shuwen nodded hastily.

Wei Wen hid the smile at the corner of his mouth, chose the direction of a big shopping mall, and walked over.

This shopping mall is doing promotional activities. There is a banner with red background and yellow characters hanging at the door. Two pieces are [-]% off, three pieces are [-]% off, and the more you buy, the more you get.Next to the gate, there are sales promotions for electrical appliances and small household appliances, and the shopping guide is shouting promotional slogans with a microphone.The floor was covered with a discolored red carpet, and there were many people coming and going.

Entering the shopping mall, the first floor is gold and silver jewelry, the second and third floors are home appliances, the fourth and fifth floors are clothing, shoes and hats, and the upper two floors are restaurants and children's playgrounds.Ye Shuwen accompanied Wei Wen all the way up to the fourth floor, found the leisure and sports area, and visited it family by family.Wei Wen chose slowly, and Ye Shuwen was also absent-minded, walking around like this for more than half an hour unconsciously.

When we came to the store with the Adidas clover logo, before the two of them could speak, the shopping guide looked at Wei Wen with a smile on his face and said, "Sir, our goods for the model mentioned yesterday have not arrived yet, can you wait for two more days?" ? Or I’ll introduce you to other styles to see if you like them.”

The expressions of Wei Wen and Ye Shuwen changed at the same time.

Wei Wen secretly thought it was bad, and looked at Ye Shuwen.

Ye Shuwen was puzzled: "Did you come yesterday?"

Wei Wen touched his nose: "I live nearby."

Ye Shuwen's face turned red immediately: "Why didn't you say it?"

"I didn't expect you to come to Chunxi Road."

"You see my joke?"

"No, I, I just didn't speak at the first time, and I was embarrassed to speak later."

Ye Shuwen bit his lower lip, thinking about his guilt and confusion, he suddenly felt extremely embarrassed.Today, I just wanted to reject Wei Wen with confidence, but now I have sold such a fool, what a fart!

"Don't be angry." Wei Wen grabbed Ye Shuwen's wrist nervously, as if he was afraid that he would run away, "I just think that whatever is fine, being with you is fine."

Ye Shuwen stared at the gossip-eyed shopping guide in embarrassment, and twisted his wrist to try to pull it out, but Wei Wen exerted so much strength that he even felt great pain: "That's good! I'll explain it to you, I..."

"Ye Shuwen!!!" Wei Wen yelled suddenly, and Ye Shuwen choked out his voice in shock, while he said with red eyes, almost begging, "We'll talk about this later, let's go eat hot pot first Let's go, eat hot pot, let's go." Without giving Ye Shuwen any chance to speak again, Wei Wen pulled Ye Shuwen and walked towards the elevator.He thought he was ready to be rejected, but at this moment, he panicked as if he was about to die.

Being pulled all the way to the elevator by Wei Wen, surrounded by strange eyes looking at them, Ye Shuwen struggled hard: "Let go! Why don't you let go first!"

"..." Wei Wen gritted his teeth and did not speak.

Ye Shuwen stopped talking nonsense, and simply used his other hand to break Wei Wen's hand.No amount of strength in Wei Wen's hands could match Ye Shuwen's full strength. His fingers were torn open one by one, and Wei Wen's eyes were so red that they were about to bleed.

Someone behind them was impatient with their tugging. After looking at the time, he pushed Ye Shuwen away and prepared to go around to the front.

The bright lights in the mall flickered.

Ye Shuwen just opened Wei Wen's last finger.

In the blink of an eye, Ye Shuwen lost his balance and fell backwards.

Behind him is a staircase with iron sheets and ravines.

"Ye Shuwen!"

Ye Shuwen only heard a scream, and Wei Wen's panicked face, followed by a sharp pain.

The world is dark.

……

"Why you again?"

……

"Just let him go!?"

……

"Haven't you hurt him enough?"

……

"Come at me if you want revenge, he doesn't know anything, please!"

……

"You go, please, you go, don't get close to him again."

Ye Shuwen looked at the ceiling and remained motionless. Hearing his mother's curses in the corridor outside the house, he frowned subconsciously.He wanted to get up several times, but he couldn't. He had a broken left leg and had to put on a plaster cast. There was still a bloody gash on his head, which ran from the temple to the back of the head. He was forced to shave his head bald.

It has been two days since his accident, and his mother finally found him.

The cursing this time was already expected, but hearing it with my own ears was far more uncomfortable than I imagined.

That day Ye Shuwen didn't fall into a coma for a long time, and he opened his eyes before the ambulance arrived.

Wei Wen's grief-stricken, almost numb face suddenly collapsed at that moment, and tears gushed out like a spring, almost making him worry whether the other party's body had enough water.He had never seen a person cry so sadly, let alone Wei Wen.

The ambulance came, and he was carefully carried into the ambulance. Wei Wen also sat beside him. The doctor put an oxygen mask on his mouth, checked his pupils with a flashlight, and he blinked. Uncomfortably avoided, and in a blink of an eye, Wei Wen was holding his hand tightly.Wei Wen's hands were covered with brown blood, but his own hands were clean after being seriously injured. Wei Wen lowered his head, as if he was holding the most precious thing in the world, and kept dropping kisses on his white fingers one after another.

He glanced at the doctor worriedly.

The doctor glanced around in Wei Wen's direction, calmly withdrew, lowered his head and began to quickly record something.

Originally wanting the doctor to stop Wei Wen, he had no choice but to look at Wei Wen again.This time their eyes met, and he saw Wei Wen's body shaking violently, his pale face looked more like the one going to the hospital.

"I..." Ye Shuwen opened his mouth and said with difficulty, "It's okay, you..."

"Is your head dizzy?" The doctor quickly threaded needles and threads on his head like embroidery.

Ye Shuwen stopped talking, and replied, "It hurts a little bit."

"Such a big bleeding hole, it must be painful, bear with it, the analgesic will take effect immediately."

Wei Wen asked nervously: "Doctor, is he all right?"

"It's not life-threatening for the time being, don't worry." The doctor's attitude is not bad.

Hearing these words, both Ye Shuwen and Wei Wen breathed a sigh of relief, Ye Shuwen turned to Wei Wen and said, "I'm fine, you..."

"How does your foot feel?" the doctor asked.

Ye Shuwen stopped talking, wondering: "Feet?"

"Your leg is broken, don't you feel it? Compared with the head, the problem of the leg is more serious. The fracture and the ligament are damaged. You need to have surgery in time when you go back."

Wei Wen asked nervously: "Doctor, is he all right?"

"It's hard to say, the ligament is not a trivial matter, but we will do our best. What is your relationship with him? The operation requires the signature of relatives." The doctor said.

Wei Wen wanted to ask about the phone number, but Ye Shuwen answered, "I will sign it myself."

"No, you must be a relative."

"Then let my brother sign."

Wei Wen looked at Ye Shuwen and nodded.Don't ask why, since Ye Shuwen wanted this, he would not refuse.

When I arrived at the hospital, I didn't enter the operating room immediately.The operating room was full, and it was not a very urgent operation, so Ye Shuwen was put into the ward first, and Wei Wen went to go through the formalities.

In the ward for the two of them, the other bed was temporarily vacant. After everyone left, the ward became completely silent.

Ye Shuwen moved his foot, the pain was so painful that he trembled all over, tears welled up in his eyes in an instant.

Are you going to be lame in the future?

It doesn't seem too difficult to accept.

Fall in love with a man.

Expelled from the national team.

Even a small Hong Kong team can't qualify for the self-defeating.

At the "senior age" of 24 years old, he is in the first year of university.

then.

Now a cripple.

These days are going from bad to worse, what could be worse?

Anyway, I don't need to swim anymore, anyway, I don't have to worry about food and clothing in this life, even if I'm paralyzed in bed, it's okay, I can always live.At most, I waited until I was old, and after recalling the experience of these days, I laughed at myself, it was really unlucky!

that is it.

The door was pushed open, and Wei Wen walked in with a large stack of papers.

Ye Shuwen looked over, his gaze didn't look like a young man's, full of vicissitudes and depression, dark and heavy, he fixed Wei Wen's footsteps not far from the bed.

"Thank you." Ye Shuwen said.

"It's me..." Wei Wen shook his head, wanting to say it was his fault.

"You can go." Ye Shuwen said, "You can go when I enter the operating room. My mother is here to see you."

"..." Wei Wen's body swayed, he walked towards Ye Shuwen, carefully tested, and then squatted beside the bed, trying to curl up his height of nearly 1.9 meters into a ball, looking straight at the person lying on the bed, "It's okay , I will apologize to Auntie."

"No, I was not careful. When my mother came, she would be nagging endlessly. After so many years, I'm tired of it."

"Auntie scolded me, it's okay, let me stay with you and see that you're okay."

"No, don't let her see you when you leave, I'll be thankful."

"I'll wait for your surgery."

"I let you go!" Ye Shuwen suddenly slapped Wei Wen on the head, Wei Wen was caught off guard and sat on the ground, Ye Shuwen beat the hospital bed and yelled hysterically, "I told you to go! You I didn’t see tears coming out of my pain! Tell you that I don’t understand! You have to be scolded! Without you, what the hell am I doing now!? You don’t see what I am now! You can’t see I hate you so much!! Damn reunion!! I don’t want to see you in my life!! Do you know!! I don’t want to see you!!”

Wei Wen sat on the ground in embarrassment, his lips trembled, but he couldn't say a word.

Ye Shuwen covered his eyes with his hands, crying like a child who has been greatly hurt.

Wei Wen stood up with difficulty, leaned on the wall, and walked out the door little by little. His bent back seemed to be ten years old in an instant, and his shoulders that had never been afraid of any difficulties could no longer bear the crying behind him. A giant blade pierced him through, and the pain made him unable to breathe.

When Ye Shuwen calmed down, the doctors and nurses arrived late, he was pushed out of the ward, and Wei Wen was no longer seen on the way to the operating room.

Unspeakable disappointment.

But it is what he himself desires.

Complicated thoughts accompanied his entire operation. Lying on the cold operating table, looking at the shadowless lamp in front of him, he seemed to be floating in memories, turning into a speck of dust, watching those laughing, crying, joy and pain , those bits and pieces.

I don't know where I am.

After the operation was over, the doctor's face blocked the shadowless lamp. He was about to say something, but seeing tears on his face, he wondered, "Why don't you say it hurts?"

"It doesn't hurt." Ye Shuwen sniffed, holding back tears.

The doctor raised his eyebrows.

"I broke up today." Ye Shuwen continued.

The doctor smiled, a very warm smile, and the shadowless lamp protruded from the back of his head, like the halo on the head of a Buddha: "If you don't get rid of the old one, you can't get a new one. Such a handsome guy, can he still have a girlfriend?"

"Will I be lame?"

"The incision is neat, the operation is relatively simple, and it's done very well. You don't have to worry. The key is to persist in rehabilitation."

"Thank you doctor. By the way, can I still swim?"

"swim?"

"never mind……"

"As long as it's not strenuous exercise, proper swimming can help you recover. Did you learn to swim?"

"Yes, I have also been to the national team, and I participated in the 2000 Sydney Olympics."

"Oh, amazing. Are you still swimming?"

"No, retired."

"Well, then it's fine. It's not high-intensity training. Your foot is completely fine."

"Great, thank you doctor." Ye Shuwen grinned, showing a row of brilliant teeth.

The nurse pushed him back to the ward. The nurse patiently and enthusiastically explained the precautions along the way. Ye Shuwen nodded as he listened, and carefully wrote it down.

Entering the ward, Wei Wen greeted him.

Ye Shuwen widened his eyes in surprise.

Wei Wen didn't speak, his eyes were still a little red and swollen, he silently took over the work of the nurse, and followed the doctor to carry him to the hospital bed.

After settling down, Wei Wen followed the doctor and went out again. The nurse was busy hanging up the bottle, and then said: "Your face is covered with blood, and I will ask your brother to wipe it for you later. Only when it is clean will you feel comfortable and comfortable. When you are in a good mood, you will be in a good mood, and when you are in a good mood, your illness will disappear."

Ye Shuwen was dumbfounded.

The nurse's face turned red, and she explained embarrassingly: "I was transferred from the pediatrics department two days ago..."

The red-faced nurse lady left the ward, and Wei Wen walked in step by step.The two looked at each other silently at a distance of three to five meters. After a long time, Wei Wen said, "I'll wait for your family to come before leaving."

It was only then that Ye Shuwen remembered that he was crying so hard that he forgot to call his family.

"I'll get you water to wash your face." Wei Wen didn't wait for an answer, and didn't ask any more questions. He went under the bed and took out a washbasin and towel, and went out silently.

After the door closed, Ye Shuwen took out his mobile phone from the bedside table, and slid his fingers on the buttons...

Wei Wen came back soon, holding a washbasin filled with warm water in his hand, and a light blue towel floated on it. He walked fast, but the water was always steady.

The basin was placed on the bedside table, Wei Wen wrung out the towel, Ye Shuwen wanted to take it, but Wei Wen said: "You can't see it, let me do it."

Ye Shuwen thought for a while and nodded.

Wei Wen put a warm and moist towel on Ye Shuwen's face, first melted away the dry blood stains, and then wiped slowly, little by little, gently and meticulously without missing every bit of stain.

The reddish-brown blood melted in the washbasin with the red cross printed on it. Wei Wen walked back and forth five times before cleaning Ye Shuwen's body. The two of them didn't talk to each other from the beginning to the end, but some memories were awakening in their minds.

... In a daze, Ye Shuwen saw the little brother washing his feet, holding his feet with warm big hands, carefully rubbing his red and swollen little finger, the smell of medicinal wine permeated the simple room, when they looked at each other , heartbeat, so a lingering kiss raised the temperature in the room...

After wiping his face clean, Ye Shuwen's parents hadn't arrived yet, so Wei Wen went out and brought two fast food.

Ye Shuwen took the fast food and ate it whole.He didn't finish the hot pot, his leg was broken, and he was so hungry that his chest stuck to his back.

After eating, Wei Wen cleared the table, Ye Shuwen lay back on the bed, and soon fell asleep.

Open your eyes again, it's almost dinner time.

Wei Wen was still sitting beside him, looking at him hesitantly.

Ye Shuwen didn't explain, and he never called his parents.

Over the years, he has accumulated too many things in his heart, and the unfamiliar environment has made him lack a way to vent. Anger and grief have been accumulating in his heart, and he has long been overwhelmed.

The appearance of Wei Wen is not the last straw that crushes the camel, but the accident caused by Wei Wen is definitely the last node that crushes Ye Shuwen.For a moment, the pain weakened his will, and his pessimism about the future destroyed his forbearance. He cursed Wei Wen, yelled out the anger in his heart, and vented all the things he had encountered in these years with crying.

Flood diversion is better than blocking.

This crying brought out all the wailing in Ye Shuwen's heart.

Some people are naturally optimistic, even if they are forced to sink because of certain things, they will return to their own world sooner or later.

Ye Shuwen is not a person who will make himself suffer forever.

The memories on the operating table let him know that he still misses Wei Wen.He told the doctor that he broke up, but in fact he didn't want to break up.He planned to call his parents, but in the end he decided to give himself and Wei Wen one last chance.

I don't want to continue to regret it!

Life is already very sad, if even the last bit of desire is pushed away by myself, who else in this world can save him!

Ye Shuwen didn't explain, but admitted it in his heart, he still couldn't bear to lose face, he just said lightly: "The doctor said to eat light food."

Wei Wen's eyes lit up, and he got up immediately: "I'm going to find a porridge restaurant."

When leaving the ward, Wei Wen had a smile on his lips, and his feet barely touched the ground. This kind of ending made him crazy.

Wei Wen is a smart person, some things don't need to be said too clearly, at least the clues so far are enough for him to have an accurate guess, no matter what changed Ye Shuwen's mind, he would only be grateful for this opportunity that fell from the sky.

The two of them lived peacefully for two days, but Ye Shuwen didn't go back to the dormitory, and the news that he didn't go to class finally reached his mother's ears.The phone rang twice in his hand. Even if Ye Shuwen didn't want to answer the phone, he knew that his mother's energy in Chengdu was enough to find him in a short time.So he finally pressed the answer button.

Mother Ye rushed over and almost collapsed the moment she saw Wei Wen. Ye Shuwen listened to the scolding in the corridor outside the house, and finally an idea gradually took shape in her heart.

Soon, Mother Ye walked into the ward wiping her tears. Ye Shuwen saw Wei Wen looking at him from outside the door in distress. He took a deep breath and said to his mother: "Mom, Wei Wen and I want to be together. It has been decided, this time, no one can stop us."

Mother Ye's feet were weak, and she sat on the edge of the bed as if exhausted.

Wei Wen was still poking his head outside the door, and seeing the sudden change in the atmosphere in the room, he showed a puzzled expression...