The first kiss was given to fake slag Gong

【Ju Ran Perspective】

After entering high school, what greets Ju Ran is no longer walking side by side at the entrance of the noisy market.Instead, I listen to the wake-up bell every day and follow strange roommates to catch up on self-study in the morning.

The entire first grade was divided into 25 classes. I was in the experimental class, and he was in the tail class of the legendary crane that got stuck.

This is a semi-closed school with a holiday once a month, so theoretically the two of us can only see each other once a month.Can be more diligent than Cowherd and Weaver Girl.

Of course, I think that in practice, we can meet more times together, eat together, go back to the dormitory together, and go for a spin on the playground between classes.

Perhaps it was because Wei Yiming was used to taking the initiative in junior high school, so I was always in a passive state, waiting for him to come to me, waiting for him to hold my shoulders, talking and laughing, talking and talking about everything.

But he was not what I expected.

His popularity seems to be very good. Every time he comes down the stairs, he is surrounded by people. He stands in the middle of the crowd and spins this basketball. He looks very happy.

My seat was at the window, and we were separated by a layer of glass and two layers of thin air, and he passed me by.

He is tall, standing in a patch of sunshine, just an ordinary crew cut looks so bright.The breeze stirred his loose autumn clothes, and the youthful feeling made me feel a little inferior.

Suddenly, there was an invisible wall between me and him.

When did you stop talking?

The deskmate asked me a question about force analysis, I took out the paper and began to talk to him patiently.

Maybe I should also become a little better, so that I am not ashamed to stand in front of him.

So, I fell in love with learning, either actively, or forcedly, or desperately needing the attention of others. I look forward to my name being included in the excellent list reported on the school broadcast every time I pass the top [-] exams. .

This broadcast can be heard by all 25 classes, and I think Wei Yiming must also be able to hear it.

The teachers in the experimental class have very strict requirements. Everyone in the morning self-study and evening self-study gets up earlier than a chicken and goes to bed later than a dog. Some students who can’t keep up with the progress have to continue to burn the lights.

Occasionally, I have to fight at night. It is very important to lay a good foundation. If you have done enough questions, you will feel comfortable doing the questions.

Of course, I didn't realize until many years later that I did so much in the first place just to hear Wei Yiming's praise at the end of every month, "My brother is really amazing!"

I really want to be as powerful as he said.

When I was not aware of homosexuality and what jealousy was, I first felt the sour taste.I just want to become very powerful, stronger than those boys who surround Wei Yiming every day.

It was the first time I had a selfish desire, wishing that Wei Yiming would be my only brother.

Of course, brother doesn't mean anything, until I saw a beautiful little girl next to him, who is not tall and has a sweet smile.

Two people standing together, male and female appearance, like a landscape.

As a brother, I should go up to bless him, or boo with him and other brothers.

But when he walked to the window of our class and looked at me, I subconsciously avoided my gaze, took out a book, and drew the key points for my deskmate in a mess.

The deskmate thought I was going crazy, and punched me with a smile.

I was guilty at that moment, and I didn't even know why I was guilty.All I knew was that my "good brother" was about to be snatched away.

I was very troubled, the more troubled I was, the more pimples appeared on my face, especially when I saw that Wei Yiming's face was clean and dry, I felt inferior again. In the summer, I told others that I had a bad cold, so I put on a mask .

Youth is such a mysterious thing, like a stock with ups and downs.

After two months of silence, we finally met.

Wei Yiming and I had a physical education class together.

Whenever the teacher announces the disbandment, Wei Yiming will play basketball with a bunch of boys.I followed the other so-called good students in our class back to class and continued to study the questions.

It was a special day, so good, I was dizzy.

Just black eyes, in the end.

Of course I regained consciousness very quickly.

It was woken up on Wei Yiming's shoulder.

I don't know where our classmates are.

Surrounded by Wei Yiming and his group of buddies.

"What's wrong with me?" I asked.

"The doctor said that you have endocrine disorders, anemia, malnutrition..." Wei Yiming frowned, and he could see that he was a little uncomfortable, but his next sentence asked, "Did you come to see your aunt?! Ju Ran. "

Then a group of his buddies roared with laughter.

My face darkened instantly, "You are the only one who came to my aunt, and your whole family came to my aunt."

Maybe at that time I could no longer treat him as a brother subconsciously, so when the brothers around him laughed at me because of his words.

My tantrum came up and I felt like I was being fooled into thinking he didn't care about me.

In a fit of anger, I don't know where the brute force came from, and I ran out after throwing everyone away.

When I went out, I heard the doctor say that I was under too much study pressure.

Before I reached the teaching building, Wei Yiming grabbed me by the collar, and he was the only one who came out to chase me.

I am angry when I don't speak, and I don't know what kind of anger I am.

Wei Yiming clung to my collar, looking like he was going to fight, he asked aggressively, "What's wrong with you, go back to the infirmary and lie down for me."

He couldn't help but drag it back, boys get along rough with boys, maybe he gets along with his buddies like this.

I just let the flow take its course and cried, since there was no one around anyway, there is no shame in crying.

Wei Yiming was stunned, and quickly let go.

A man does not cry lightly, I suddenly felt that it was worth crying this time, my mouth was full of salt, but when I saw Wei Yiming standing on the side at a loss, looking for toilet paper to wipe my tears, I burst into tears again For laughing.

Later, I was carried back, and I wiped my tears and snot all over his jersey in retaliation.

"What's wrong with you? Ju Ran,"

"Yiming, will you not play with me in the future, or ignore me?"

"No,"

The dialogue is only three sentences, which is very clumsy.But this is the most secure answer I have heard in a long time.

Later, Wei Yiming changed his sex. Although he didn't come to see me during the big class break, he went with me for dinner and after school.

He felt that I might be stressed in the experimental class and needed to vent.

I also don't deny that it is much easier for others to find reasons than to find reasons for myself.

In the second year of high school, I passed two test papers in the final exam and transferred from the experimental class to the regular class.I have to say that the stress-free environment is conducive to learning. There are not so many constraints, but I feel the joy of learning.

On the contrary, at this time Wei Yiming suddenly became diligent and eager to learn, he carried my schoolbag after school, and I supplemented his knowledge.

He said he had a dream, and it happened that our dreams were exactly the same.

Two people who walk in unison and walk side by side will reduce a lot of fatigue.Maybe we are.In the third year of high school, they entered the experimental class together.

【Wei Yiming's Perspective】

I have a neighbor who has a son who was born in the same year and month as I am.Will grab toys from me.

So, when I bullied him, I took it for granted, and after the bullying, I felt very distressed.

But we were born in the same year, the same month and the same day, he is a head shorter than me, very cute, we were inseparable from elementary school to junior high school.

So after the senior high school entrance examination, I didn't worry about it. Even when I went to school with him to find my class and found that I was not on the same floor as him, I didn't worry about it.

I am the active party, not because I don't want to feel the feeling of being held passively.It's just that I can't help it at all, just like I couldn't help provoking him when I was a child.

After school on the first day, I came to the door of his classroom.

He didn't leave his seat. His deskmate was a tall, thin boy with glasses. The two were talking and laughing.Ju Ran didn't notice me at all.

I was quite impulsive that day. Maybe adolescents are prone to impulsiveness. I turned my head and left. I couldn’t see how Ju Ran looked at others with his usual smile on me.

After being together for 16 years, I unknowingly developed the friendship into a private property. At that moment, I suddenly realized that I have such a strong possessive desire for him.

It's this weird possessiveness that's at work.

My intentional indifference to him, the first time there will be the second time, one time after another, every time I pass by his window, I will always see him talking and laughing with that boy.

My heart hurts, I feel that the treasure I have hidden for 16 years has been poached away.

But it seemed like he didn't realize anything.

He studied well, was very smart, and easily entered the top [-] in his grade.Every time I heard his name from the list, I would excitedly introduce it to my deskmate, "Did you hear me, this is my junior, from the experimental class, so smart."

But now I know his methods are so rare that I have to use the radio.

Miss, separated by a floor, like separated by a mountain.

I intentionally led my roommates babbling past his class like idiots.

Everyone in the experimental class is studying, and no one looks up at all, so I am like a clown when I make such a big scene.

My purpose of doing this is very simple, I hope Ju Ran realizes my indifference to him, needs him to personally keep me, needs him to pay attention to me immediately.

My 16-year relationship between us, when I saw him smiling so brightly and looking so good-looking at others, I lost confidence.

In the later period, the contrast with what I thought was too great, Ju Ran never looked for me once, even if I stopped in front of their window and stared at him.

He didn't even raise his eyelids, and continued to discuss the issue with the people around him.

I don't know how much he loves learning, until he fainted on others in that physical education class.

God knows how many times I looked at him from the time he entered the stadium to the time he left with his study team.

But when he passed out, I felt like the sky was falling.It seemed that the things that were overflowing in my heart were suddenly hollowed out.

We are young and frivolous, and we always talk about whether we will die or not.

At that time, I was really afraid that Ju Ran would not be able to make money if he closed his eyes.

Fortunately, he woke up, with snot and tears rubbing against my shoulder, and he asked me in a trembling voice, "Will you stop playing with me?"

At that moment, I felt very guilty. How cruel must I be to be willing to leave him alone for two months, just like letting him have a snack?

Fool, we were both fools at that time.

The author has something to say:

Fanwai is too hypocritical, enter with caution, enter with caution~~~