Sad Jiangnan

"You also know that I don't have a son, right?" The uncle is actually the one with the prettiest face among the father's brothers.But when sadness appeared on his face, the appearance of his father came back to him. "Isn't this a very pitiful thing? It would be nice to have one, but there isn't one."

If I keep silent, my uncle will speak without authorization.But for a while, no one said anything, and unconsciously, they drank all the weird-tasting stuff.On the food table, there is still more than half of the tea soup in my uncle's bowl, and only a thin layer of foam remains on the bottom of my own bowl.

"So?" When he played with his fingers, he became more courageous unconsciously.

"so……"

"Yes?"

"How about being my son?"

I never thought about what I said sincerely before, it turned out to be so humorous.Perhaps there was a slight smile on his face at first.After the uncle finished speaking, he showed his shiny black teeth, and then the two of them laughed.The room was filled with the laughter of the two for a while, and my own tears seemed to flow out.Then he said out of breath, "Oh, oh, don't make fun of me!"

"Really. I really mean it. Look at me as Guan Bai. When I die, you can also try to be a part of me. Maybe it's possible to be a regent."

"I don't know if it will be fulfilled, it sounds really tempting."

"Don't want to?"

"Who wouldn't want to?"

"Zheng Rong, don't put on airs. You really resent that so-called elder brother, don't you?"

"Really? Who said that?"

"What, of course I said it. I said, I'm your uncle, right? Even if it's your father's previous thoughts, I know it well."

"That's not necessarily the case. My mind is different from that of my father."

"Then let's guess." The uncle put one arm on the food table, propped his head, and looked at himself comfortably, "I can't see where I got angry at this point. Pretending to be in front of outsiders He looks respectful and respectful, but in his heart he resents everyone more than anyone else. Since childhood, that person has dominated you in everything, and he is very beautiful, right? Everyone likes him, and wherever he goes, it seems that the sun shines It will be the same wherever you are. No matter how good you are, as long as you are not as good as him, you are no different from mediocrity. In fact, don’t put the words of the three cardinal principles and five constant principles in front of me. Did I come to you today to talk about the Tao of Confucius and Mencius? Is it true? To be honest, I was once bewitched by him, but what happens now? So, what do you think?"

In fact, this uncle was only half right.The extreme of hate must be love.No one has surpassed my hatred for my brother.It can also be said that this is a variant of love.After all, he admired Minister Fujiuchi spiritually, and he didn't need any reason.

"How can your words benefit me?" After saying this, he put aside all his modest and respectful remarks.There was a serious look on Fujida Nayan's face.

"You have to be content with yourself, what else do you want?" The smile on the uncle's face also disappeared.

"In a few words, you revealed your true colors. I thought you were so calm. Besides, uncle, you called me first, right? Uncle, look, a bad person like my father is greedy and ugly. Originally I thought I could live to be eighty, or at least sixty. I just died like that. I should be more narrow-minded."

"So, should I be narrower to you, too?"

"You should be narrow-minded towards other people. Now you are playing a good uncle. Beautiful people will die early, right? Not at all, you can only be more beautiful."

In fact, things have become very simple.For example, if the actions or secrets of the Minister of Internal Affairs are provided, it will be inevitable to have him step down.Thinking of this, my uncle may feel that he should sleep more peacefully at night.

The two reached an agreement that the only requirement of Fuji Dai Nayan was to recognize him as an adoptive father, and put it after Minister Fujiuchi stepped down.This is not enough to ask for, and the minister of Jiutiao Palace agreed.

Everything should have ended here.But one day not long after, it was the time when the ministers gathered together to plan what to do in the coming year.The elder brother who came late brought a woman to the outside of Qingliang Hall.

This kind of weird and absurd behavior, if it is done by my brother, it is easy to reason.The word tricky and weird seems to be deeply engraved on my brother like a tattoo.Several generals and prime ministers from Daban's family looked at my brother and burst out laughing first.Even though he had found a way out for himself not long ago, his nose still felt sore.

As if he didn't hear those criticisms and ridicules, the elder brother came to sit down in the hall as if no one else was there, straightened the front skirt of his clothes, and told the woman to speak.

That strange woman, who called herself Lihu's female official, exposed in front of everyone that the so-called Prince Hengping was not of royal blood at all.When I was serving Lihu Nvyu, the guard general of my companion would often sneak into Lihu's dormitory under the cover of official business, and carry out indecent acts of deception with Nvyu.After September, the so-called prince under the female imperial court was only doing dirty work like a lieutenant general.

Having said that, my brother walked away again under the watchful eyes of everyone.Everyone in the Otomo family stood up because of this, but there was nothing they could do about such an older brother.The mask turned towards him before he left. For some reason, there was always a feeling that his brother was looking at it specially.

The person who was the protagonist in the scandal, his cheeks flushed red with anger, held his imperial sword, and wanted to go to his brother aggressively, but his father and his uncle stopped him.I had no choice but to yell "crazy, lunatic!" at the same spot.

I sat there, unable to think for a long time. The word "crazy" doesn't mean any exaggeration to my brother now.

Because of one thing, we have to stop everything.Under the instruction of His Majesty the Emperor, officials from the Ministry of Punishment were dispatched to visit Zhaoyangshe to verify the authenticity.But it is conceivable that there are people who have good things to say, "If it is really nothing, why are you so angry? After thinking about it, I feel that it happened after all." In fact, maybe it is not necessary. To waste this kind of talk is only because people in this world would rather believe it.In addition to those who fear that the world will not be chaotic, soon even the boys who play football and hide the hook will know about it.But if you think about it a little bit for the general, if this incident happened to you, even if it didn't happen, wouldn't there be a reason to be angry if someone spread rumors like this?

When Prince Xingbuqing went to Lihuyuan, he heard that Lihu Nvyu had moved back to her mother's house.Now, without questioning anything, it became a real matter.So, how to punish it?Up to now, because the child born of the "fornication" has become a monk, the matter has been put on hold.

Soon, my uncle sent a secret messenger to look for him.Just like last time, I visited Kujoden secretly.The guard at the gate invited Teng Da Nayan in, and the uncle was sitting in the room with three screens last time, looking at him coldly, not a trace of the ease he had in the past.

In fact, I was still terrified of such a meeting, and I couldn't get used to it at all.Especially the uncle said sternly:

"Then let's explain it face to face."

"What, it's clearly written in the letter, right? I don't know anything about it." In order to ease the atmosphere, I took it for granted and sat down generously, and deliberately asked the attendant, "Is there any honey water?"

But my own intentions were completely undetectable, and my uncle's face became as ugly as when the farce happened.The attendant watched his uncle's face, but did not dare to move.

I had no choice but to say, "Then let me make a guess. A person like my brother, who never returns home at night, can arouse anyone's suspicions? He was born with that appearance, but he can't let go of women. Why can't he let go? You can figure it out." Is there anything in this world that cannot be parted? Just thinking about this makes me so sick that I can’t eat. Of course you know about the scandal between him and the Longbridge Bureau. Afterwards, he said to the Longbridge Bureau that if Let her go out and ask her to go back to Chikuqian country. Haha, you actually said that! You really have a brother. So, the prime minister (female officer of Lihu) has something to hold in your hand and say I don’t know if it’s true or not, and it’s conceivable.”

Speaking of this, the uncle suddenly shouted, "Stand up for me."

"what?"

"What do you want to do? What are you doing here?"

Of course I was annoyed like this, "Why do you have such an attitude? You were angry with Zhengxin, so what does it matter to me? Did I make you angry? If you want to get angry, go to him, don't rush." I come!"

Now the two stood up together and clenched their fists.Uncle looked at him, and after some time, his tense expression relaxed a lot, but then he asked the question that he was most worried about.

"Do you have any feelings similar to family affection for your father or brother?"

Originally hidden in the deepest part of my heart, my questioning of my father will actually be used on me one day.The most terrible thing is, calm down and think about it carefully, what you have done can't escape the scope of being held accountable like this.In front of the uncle whom he looked down upon, he suddenly became a lot shorter, and he didn't even have the confidence to speak.

"Yeah, sometimes I also reflect on why I am like this? I have to give an explanation. I am an emotional person. I think of a word, is it self-interested? Sometimes I see my brother or father I am also very affectionate towards others, trying to please others. If my father has another woman, another child, or my brother is getting married, I will feel very uncomfortable. If I say it is jealousy, I don’t treat them as relatives at all. Look at this kind of thinking. It's just uncomfortable, because your things are used by others, don't you feel comfortable? Then let me tell you, I am such a person. If I have to clarify things now, I can only say this It's the same for you and me. Of course, if you don't talk about it, of course you will try to pretend to be beautiful as much as possible."

In fact, it is unrealistic to say that there is no fictional element in this passage.But my sincere eyes stared at my uncle without squinting.Uncle's attitude actually softened, "Oh, I believe you. I just didn't expect that your brother is so vicious. Will I not be angry? Think about it for me."

Very slender hands stretched out. Even in their old age, such a pair of men's hands are still very beautiful. There is a sense of translucence of porcelain under the light without powdering. This person can come out of the same mother's womb with his father, It is really puzzling.

Those hands held up his sleeves, and the two of them sat down again, and the attendant also brought drinks for the occasion.It is said that the honey from Sagami, which was collected in the new year this year, is served in a ring cup painted with pear lacquer and decorated with white petals of early cherry blossoms, which probably imitates Shirakawa in the falling flower season.Fujita Nayan completely lost his appetite.

"As for me, I don't just say beautiful words. Since I took this position, have I done anything to your brother? Not to mention the past. As a result, I just want to continue the incense, but your brother wants to put I'm dying. I can't even think about it."

The petals of the cherry blossoms are floating in the cup, like a few small boats without sails, which will be submerged by the sudden torrent at any time, and it will be a matter of time before they are submerged.Thinking of this, he picked up the cup distractedly and drank it in one gulp, leaving only a broken petal on the rim of the cup.This scene made me feel even more uncomfortable.

"He tried his best to pursue the fourth princess, and he didn't go home at night. Isn't it because of this?" I said such a sentence unconsciously.

"That's right, I think so too. You are such a nice person. Let me tell you something, as a reminder."

"What wake up?"

"It is said that he looks ugly, but in fact, no one has seen his appearance, so this matter becomes very difficult."

"Didn't you see General Zuo Jinwei?"

"What is that, are you doubting me?"

"I've seen it, of course, I've seen it very clearly." Fujita Nayan straightened his body all of a sudden.

"really?"

"To put it bluntly, it's for the sake of paying off the merits. I can show you that face."

"That's really nice, thank you so much."

"What are you going to do?"

"Then, I'll go find someone who looks ugly, just like the Minister of the Interior."

"Ha, that's pretty hard to find."

"There's nothing wrong with putting on makeup if you have to. If you find such a person, everything will be very convenient. You can give him a set of ordinary clothes and dress up as a minister. Send him to the palace and find a chance to rape him." The fourth princess. Tell the emperor about this again, and let him be exiled to Settsu, no, to Chikushi."

"Exile to Chikushi?"

Uncle was a little nervous, rubbing his teacup, "What's wrong?"

"Okay, I've been meaning to do this for a long time."

The word "exile Chikushi" is like a bright light, lighting up in the bewildered heart of Fujidai Nayan.It turned out that the self who had been in the fog and mud was longing for such a result.

After the two agreed, they parted and waited for the timely wedding.However, an event happened that no one expected, which made all the plans worthless.Or, in fact, it should be like this.The imaginary god that he didn't believe in at all chose his brother between himself and his brother.

It was a sunny afternoon, and the palace was preparing for the trial performance of the temporary sacrifice, so it was very lively.More than five nobles, all of them were present.Even the dancers or musicians who were not allowed to go to the hall usually dressed in a very stylish way and came to perform in the front yard of Qingliang Hall.This should be the time when my brother is at his most majestic. Whether it is Tang Zheng or Qin, all the musical instruments that can be imagined, there is no one that cannot be handy, so he sits in a very conspicuous position in the hall.Because it was inconvenient to play, he held a pipa in his hand and plucked the strings twice casually. All eyes were on him.

Teng Da Nayan thought that doing such a ostentatious thing was just to show courteousness to the fourth princess who was peeking from some corner.But thinking about not having to see this person again in the near future, I felt a little relieved.

After the fun was over, His Majesty also left.When the staff of the dormitory was scattering the leftovers in the yard, the nobles who should have dispersed gathered in front of my brother.Fuji Da Nayan was not very far away, so he could clearly see that the leader was none other than Otomo Zuo General.I couldn't help standing up, and saw General Zuo suddenly push my brother from the sill to the mat in the courtyard.

With such a heavy "boom", even the guards waiting at the burning place were frightened.When the female officers screamed in fright, they stared at all this with their own eyes wide open, unable to say anything.Afterwards, General Zuo jumped down the railing, grabbed the helpless elder brother's shoulder, and snapped off his mask with a "crash".

The elder brother covered his face with his sleeve as nimbly as a sparrow, and the mask rolled around on the ground, just turning back to his hand.Seeing this, my brother crawled on the ground to pick it up.The high-ranking and respected Gongqing couldn't help laughing.General Zuo was even more proud. After picking up the mask in his brother's hand, he threw it into Yu Chuan inside from a distance.The mask sank into the water with a "thump" and disappeared.Maybe it was the power of the big companion, someone took the lead and said loudly, "Raise your head, let me show you! Could it be Concubine Yang from the Tang Dynasty?"

Everyone laughed together, "Look, look!" The voices of "Look, look!" were like waves, covering up one after another.The elder brother lying on the ground was really like a beaten dog, his shoulders trembling back and forth.I don't know why, just like this, I lost my mind.Seeing that his brother was not moving, the general said, "He's lying on the ground like a dog!" He grabbed his shoulders and arms and pulled them back together.

The world seemed to freeze.Expressions, movements and voices were all suspended at that time.

How to best describe that face.Countless words flashed through Fujida Nayan's mind just now, ugly, disgusting, bizarre, rotten, horrible, maybe it will take a little longer, ugly like a ghost, hideous, is that okay?Now, like that mask, they all sank to the bottom of the water.The sweetness of the tsubaki pancakes in my memory spread in my mouth.It is more slender than the rain dew on the vines, almost like a golden carp under the sun, its appearance is vividly in front of your eyes.

"Ah, ah!" The general's voice was more frightening than seeing a ghost, "This, this... this..." The elder brother finally reacted, covered his blushing face with his sleeve, got up and bumped Drive away the crowd and flee in a hurry.

"How can it be like this?"

"Are ghost-like ugly faces all fabricated?"

"What kind of spell did you do to look like that? Or is there something else covering your face?"

"That night, I saw it clearly, it was definitely not such a face."

"Who is that? Is it the Minister of Internal Affairs?"

Buzzing non-stop, everyone is a fly, swarming around him and refusing to disperse.General Zuo yelled at himself, "Hey! Why are you lying to me?"

What?I lied to him?No.Where is it? ...Did he see his own painting?

Uncle's voice just rang in his ears, "No matter what he looks like, he can behave like a dog, so why not teach my family to be a minister too."

Everyone's voices became far away, and they spoke freely, completely unable to be heard by themselves.Whether it's pink lips or porcelain white skin, it's like a beautifully decorated Chinese painting, once it's shown in front of you, you can never forget it again.

Who could have the heart to pluck out the eyebrows that are just right in thickness?In sunny weather, the eyelashes are like mother-of-pearl on Tang ware. For some reason, they emit tiny spots of light.If the elder brother's face was seen by the goddess, she might be envious.No, I will definitely be jealous.Not to mention, unless there are people like Anren Zijian in Japan, there is no need for comparison for my brother.

Thinking of this, my hands trembled.The lamp in my heart illuminated the dim pool of water in my heart, and the unbelievably beautiful golden carp swam in front of my eyes in an instant.

It is almost impossible to fully recall the face with floating tree roots that I know better than anyone else.At this time, a pair of eyes in the crowd shot at him like arrows.

Toubian was looking at himself, and the air around him seemed to be boiling.Those same hot eyes, containing the infinite desire for women, seemed to be living with two golden carps growing out of a woman's head.

No, absolutely not.Brother has nothing to do with carp.That person is definitely not my brother.

"Hey, are you a farmer? My elder brother can run faster than a dog in half-boots. My younger brother must be no different, right?" General Zuo patted himself heavily on the shoulder.

"Sorry……"

"Haha, I'm sorry? Is it really your brother? If you can't even remember your brother's face, maybe you have to learn the song of Nambatsu again! By the way, can you use a pseudonym?"

Three or two people couldn't help laughing.

"To get him back, I'll go find my brother."

"What? What are you looking for?"

A fierce hatred surged into my heart all of a sudden.Such a brother must be found.Pulling away the left general's hand, he ran like a gust of wind.The potbellied ministers all became little black spots behind their backs.