Sad Jiangnan

One early morning when the morning dew was heavy, a plainly decorated ox cart drove out of the east gate of Ono Palace, heading south all the way, and Nadeshiko was sent away since then.Among the servants, a saying suddenly became popular, saying that brothers who used to sleep in the same quilt and eat the same utensils will turn against each other one day, and the world is so impermanent.Several maids who had previously served Prince Udone shed tears all day long, always saying that it would be better to become a monk and cut off the world of mortals.

One evening at the end of August, Taijin Sadamitsu asked for an interview with Fujitsusuke.After being allowed to come to Fuji Quansuke, he said, "Go and apologize to the young master."

Fuji Quansuke originally thought something happened to his brother, so he agreed to the meeting this time, so he couldn't hold his tongue, "Did he ask you to say that?"

Dingguang Dajin was also very surprised. He felt that Fuji Quansuke was one year older, but what he said seemed to be a year backward. "When Madam was alive, he was by the son's side day and night. Therefore, I will not leave Madam's side for a moment." Left and right. She had trouble sleeping and eating, and she often shed tears because of the young master's affairs. The sudden and long death must have something to do with it."

Fujiquan thought, if he didn't mention his mother, I would have almost forgotten about this person.She was clearly the person who accompanied her since she was a child, but as she grew up, the memory of her became thinner and thinner.Even if I try to be fair, I still feel that it must be the companionship that is gradually disappearing.So much so that the word "mother" becomes like a white horse at the White Horse Festival when it is well-informed and sensible, and I am just a person standing on the steps to watch the white horse once a year.In the months leading up to her death, she was inseparable from her brother.Just because I know this clearly, I feel very annoyed when I think of this person through reminders from others.

Just say, "Did you tell me these things until now? You are an incredible loyal servant. But if you want to impress me with such words, you should avoid it."

Dingguang Dajin said, "I think you were never so cruel before. Now you must be insincere."

Fujiquan thought, "I used to be a little insincere, but now I have the confidence to speak up."

Dajin continued, "Now I want to tell you something you don't know, I hope you can listen quietly."

So he began to narrate that one night when Prince Udauchi was still alive, it happened that Fujinaka Nayan was suffering from that abnormal illness.Because the matter of Fujinaka Nayan lingered in his heart, Prince Udano was depressed and couldn't sleep.At this time, when I get up and leave the house, I am full of thoughts, and I will inevitably think of the past, a happy family, family happiness, and so on, all within easy reach.Seeing under the moonlight now, Ono Palace Mirror Pond is as elegant as before, Narcissus is still cute, and thinking of the person in front of Jianhu water is probably in the same state of mind, sobbing a few times, not feeling tears.

But at this moment, by the moonlight, I also saw a person who couldn't sleep at night, who was also admiring the scenery here, and couldn't help but move forward.That person also seemed to have a tacit understanding, looking back at the inner prince.

At first the moonlight was hazy, and there was a cool mist on the pool, making it difficult to see clearly.Inner Prince asked if it was her eldest son, and walked up to that person.The inner prince's screams woke up the servants here, and the attendants on duty rushed over one after another.The inner prince tried his best to explain, "It's okay, it's okay." He also said, "I twisted my ankle while walking, but it's actually not a serious problem." The result was a farce, and everyone dispersed.

Dingguang Dajin said, "But how can the inner prince be the one who makes a fuss because he twisted his ankle? At that time, I could see clearly that a figure was hiding in the inner room and disappeared soon. Then Shouldn't it be the son's back?"

Fujitsusuke thought that his mother must have seen his brother's face.This woman couldn't even accept her son's growth into that kind of virtue from the bottom of her heart.But Fuji Quansuke did not comment on this matter, only said, "I am a person who always pays attention to the truth. If I made a mistake first, why should I use your persuasion?" After finishing speaking, he ignored him.

When Ding Guang Dajin saw that he was not good enough, he couldn't help thinking suspiciously, if he really hadn't done those things, it would be really difficult to make a decision in terms of right and wrong, so he had to resign.

But in Fuji Gonsuke's heart, he always remembered what Dingguang Dajin said.At night, it is difficult to fall asleep like the mother in the story.

It was also said earlier that Fuji Quansuke has always been brooding about other people's opinions.There is a conflict between not getting into oil and salt at the right time and being brooding about it. Between the two, there is always one thing that needs to be compromised.

Fuji Quansuke also came to his elder brother's Nishiyuto one evening, and did not inform anyone beforehand.But through the curtain, he said to the air, "I know, you are inside."

Only the evening breeze caressed the bamboo curtains, and there was no sound inside or outside the room.

Fuji Quansuke continued, "I don't expect you to answer me, please listen to me." Then he told alone what he saw and heard in the daffodil field.But in the silent air, there was no loud reply.Fujitsusuke thought, then, brother is really clear.In the end, I thought it was hiding each other's secrets, but in fact it was hiding from those who knew each other's secrets after knowing each other's secrets!I'm also taking this seriously as a big deal, like a fool.

At this time, Fuji Quanjie's face was red and red, and he was embarrassed to leave as if nothing had happened, and he had to step down the steps for himself.Then she said to Zhulian, "But why do you want to do such a thing on purpose? After thinking about it, I think that Nadeko is the child of that woman. How can I like it?"

Inside the bamboo curtain, it was still very quiet.Fujikonsuke decided that someone was in the room, and then said, "The reason why my mother passed away was also caused by this, right? In fact, you knew it very well from the beginning to the end, but you still indulged the girl very much. Why?"

What answered him was a "whoosh", something came out of the bamboo curtain like an arrow, rubbed Fuji Quansuke's ear, and fell into the mirror pool with a "gudong".

Before Fuji Quansuke looked back, a deafening "roll" erupted in the room.Fuji Quansuke was stunned for a moment, and the bamboo curtain was violently boiling like the lid of a boiling cauldron.

Fuji Quansuke still has a secret in his heart, and he urgently needs to tell his brother.The deeper secret that couldn't be compared with the Narcissus flower field, which was laid on the shallows, made Fujiquansuke stand up and take a step forward, with the tip of his nose against the bamboo curtain and his palms sweating, "You really hate me so much!" Me? I always thought that there shouldn't be any or possible barrier between us. But it's not like this until now... I always thought that you still have the possibility to forgive me..."

Ding Guang Da Jin's begging came from the bamboo curtain, "Second Young Master, hurry up!"

Fuji Quansuke was stunned, because of the presence of the third party that he didn't know before, suddenly there was a chord in his heart.Immediately turned around, ran down the corridor, and almost fell to the ground because of the steps.

Fuji Quansuke kept thinking in his heart, why did my brother, who replied every time, must betray me first?It doesn't matter about Nadeko, or about my mother.Among the few memories, which one is not in the position of making compromises?The same thing, such as Cuju, my brother did it, but my mother just said "be careful", and looked at him with a smile.But whenever my mother sees me picking up the Cuju, she will keep her face straight in front of me and refuse to say a word.

Now that my mother has passed away, it's okay not to mention these trivial matters.What about Nadeshiko?Nadeko broke into her elder brother's west hall, and Nadeko broke her elder brother's strings. How could he have heard a strong word.At Nadeko's age, even though he has been taught by his elder brother for a long time, his calligraphy is still nondescript, and he finds it unreasonable to teach himself.Is it possible to be forgiven at a young age?My brother is very clear, as long as his attitude towards me is slightly similar to that towards Nadeshiko, I will not feel uncomfortable all day and all night.But my pain, he made no attempt to understand.

Thinking of this, my cheeks became hot, and a few tears fell down.Today's incident made me even more unacceptable. I was clearly speaking for my brother's mother who was closer to my brother. Why did my brother treat me in that way?So the tears were like the Kamogawa water after the heavy rain, more and more, and finally flowed, and wept loudly.

Such a brother must be possessed by evil spirits, as the family members said, and he did those incomprehensible actions just now.The mother's death, like a floodgate blocking madness, collapsed overnight.Today's arrogance is unstoppable.When the demon possessed him, a mutation occurred in response to his brother's wish.Rather than saying that it was the possession of the monster, it was better to say that the elder brother tolerated the monster.

Because of his ugly appearance and weird personality, it is no wonder that he is alienated and despised by everyone.Fujitsusuke thought to himself that the scandal with the female official after that was inseparable from these two reasons.It turns out that no matter how powerful a monster is in this world, it cannot resist the temptation of a woman.Is the woman the antidote to the monster, or a more powerful monster?

That woman was a servant serving the Emperor on his travels, and lived in a single room in the Todu Hall connecting the Zichen Hall and the Qingliang Hall. Because the Todu Hall was named Changqiao, people called her the Changqiao Bureau.But if you want to go back to the flowing memory and find the clues of her entering your life, it is as clear and clean as the surface of the mirror pool in winter.

Then, it must have happened when I was talking softly to Nadeko.Although my brother's attitude towards him is completely different from others, I thought it was a derivative of his love for Nadeshiko.It's a different kind of punishment for yourself.

After a while, incense was lit again in the opposite hall to the west, and the servants who had been evacuated went back and forth between the west hall.The maids, who were about to become monks, seemed to have been liberated from universal desires, chatting and laughing happily with each other, and everything was just like the situation when the inner prince was alive.

All this is like a dream, for Fuji Quansuke, he is still so friendly.But any painful torture must have a prerequisite for the purpose of liberation.My brother's hands beat briskly, and his walking steps were also coated with spring breeze.At the beginning, the subtle clues, like the end of an autumn hair, were not noticed by people.

The father of the main hall often visits, and various banquets are no longer absent day by day, and the sky above the West Palace is frequently lingering with orchestral strings and bamboos.As time went by, the elder brother came to Onomiya Fujiwara's family again like a newborn child.He is no longer the elder brother who has sealed himself off on the isolated island of the west, even through the mask, Fuji Gonsuke can still notice that the elder brother loves to laugh.

The female room of the Peace Palace, however, did not have a good evaluation of her brother. "He is a boring person. Although he wears straight clothes that confess his love, he always stands in front of the door like the six Tibetans. I never take out the fan or the paper. When I am with such a person, I don’t want to say a word. Of course, if you don’t understand the style, you will feel hateful.”

"Since the appearance cannot be changed, if you are good at flirting and writing some poetry, there are women who are very different from others who are willing to make good things happen."

"If you have an ugly face, you should pretend to be beautiful, so that people are willing to pay the bill. But I heard that you have to be a bull-headed king because of your ugly appearance. After hearing this, everyone felt scared. If you didn't run away, you would be giving yourself face." Woolen cloth."

This kind of message, which can be heard everywhere, is of course easy for people to imagine, brother's reputation in Nei Li.But among the thousands of flowers, there must be one that is unique.

Yuanyuanbian said to his brother in front of the Zichen Palace, "This year's post-bright moon festival banquet is very lively. If you actively participate, it must be the icing on the cake."

My brother replied, "What's the point?"

"Didn't it be great when you auditioned in front of the imperial court?"

"Always talking about flattery with inconsistency is very annoying in the eyes of people who are clear in their hearts. In my opinion, it's just a trick of the oak tree."

"Oh, to be able to reach the level of Yang'a Xielu is already acceptable. Most of the people are nothing more than lowly people, or useless. What's more, if you are always so out of gregarious, although you will get easy happiness in your heart, don't Must be something good."

My brother said, "What is permanent in the world? The abyss of the Asuka River yesterday has become a shoal today. [1]"

This is a manifestation of discouragement, and Yuanyuanbian said, "I don't complain about falling in autumn. The servants, after all, are women with different identities. They often go in and out of the palace with their true faces. There must be a lot of troubles and troubles." .Although it is not like the Ji doctors who ride tall horses and serve on the left and right sides of the imperial chariot, how is it different from a man like that?"

The brother remained silent.

Toubian asked again, "There are not a few people who want to be contemptuous. Has there been any reply to the letter you wrote?"

Brother said, "I didn't write a letter."

Toubian said, "I'm thinking, at the Houmingyue banquet, if I can recite a sentence that shocks everyone, that person will reply to my letter. Although a reserved woman is very good, she is too arrogant. It's going to be annoying."

My brother didn't answer that.Even knowing that it is difficult for others to change one's mind, Fujitsusuke, who eavesdropped, was very anxious about it.

On the night of the Hou Mingyue banquet, unexpected changes happened because of this uneasy and kind head bean.In such a peaceful banquet, it is only natural for each other to enjoy the moon and feast, or to sing together, explore the music, or arrange dance and music in the inner teaching workshop to add to the fun.Suddenly, someone called the call, saying that someone was going to compose a dance and music song, which was another trick, without specifying who it was.

A few ministers saw the person who called the name very clearly, and thought to themselves, isn't this the great progress of waiting for Fujinaka Nayan?Are you delusional?So they all looked at each other, feeling very interesting.Everyone thinks that the difference between this high priest is that there are more grievances hidden in his heart than women, and his personality outside is very weak.So tonight, there will be a temporary good show to watch.They all deliberately said something to create an atmosphere of booing.For example, waiting for a letter from a mistress is like waiting for a reply from a dancer, which is really painful.

Fuji Quansuke was also very unhappy when he heard this kind of discussion, but his face still had the usual expression.

One of the emperors also asked, "What dance music is it?"

At this time, Gentou Ben pushed Fujinaka Nayan out of the seat, and whispered, "Let's dance, let's dance. No one has seen your dancing posture before." Saying this, he blew the dragon flute without authorization.Then there are other instruments to join together.It was clearly arranged in advance.

Although Fujinaka Nayan had expected such a situation, unexpectedly he was still so flustered.I was very embarrassed and thought of running away, but all the officials and officials were sitting under the table, and my father's eyes were among them.As soon as he walked out like this, everyone's eyes fell on him, and he was already in a difficult situation, so he had to think, "The number of people in the Eight Immortals Dance and Taipingle does not match, and Jia Lingpin is too old. Luo Ling The king is too solemn to suit the current season."

As if to solve his difficulties, the tone of "hu drinking" gradually appeared under the stage.Everyone is happy to hear the music.Under the dim light, the appearance of the dancer is indistinct, and his manners are graceful and graceful.

The previous activities of reciting poems and composing poems felt dull, and the resentment in the hearts of the ministers who still had a break also disintegrated because of the dance.It is natural to think that such a person should not be ugly, and it doesn't matter if you take off the mask and show your face to everyone.But because of this mask, some incidents happened in Qingliang Palace.So everyone was silent, just thinking quietly in their hearts.

After the banquet, Toubian came to talk to Fujinaka Nayan, "I wrote more than a dozen letters, but I didn't get any reply. It's really annoying. I must be hated!"

At this time, although Fujinaka Nayan was silent.Toubian thought in his heart that he must have received a reply from the Changqiao Bureau when he heard the vague and dull laughter just now, and he felt a little unwilling, so he deliberately asked, "Did you get a reply?"

Fujinaka Nayan said as usual, "I didn't write a letter."

Toubian thought, Fujinaka Nayan has a serious appearance on the surface, but he has no such honesty behind his back.Then, with naughty thoughts, I said, "Then, I wrote it to you on my own initiative. It's really annoying. How can I teach women to find it annoying?"

Fujinaka said, "Don't say such boring things anymore." But when I said it, I regretted it because it was too old-fashioned, and said, "Always in front of the women's room, deliberately say unpleasant things. Poems are written again. Yours is very beautiful, like this, men also find you annoying."

But Toubian said, "Don't look at me like this, but men like me very much." He was talking about being a knife for others and writing poems.Then, he relentlessly asked Fujinaka Nayan about the contents of the letter, but Fujinaka Nayan hid himself and refused to mention it.

Fuji Gonsuke heard such and such things from the attendants or the maid, so of course he couldn't sit idly by.Fuji Quansuke was promoted to councilor not long ago, and it was the time when he felt very fresh about all the deeds in the palace.Therefore, I often go east to west, and get to know the Changqiao Bureau of Qingliang Temple as usual.However, this person's poetry is not outstanding, and his family background is also very ordinary. His father is the guardian of a small country, and he must have spent a lot of thought to send his daughter to the palace. Maybe one day it will happen to me too.

In terms of attractive places, there is not a single place.Originally in such an environment in the capital, as long as the appearance is not too ugly and the education is not lacking, there are probably the right men who will come to take care of them.Anyone who has spoken to this person from the Changqiao Bureau has lamented her decent way of speaking and her elegant demeanor.Even if he ran in front of her and said some contradictory words, it was not in the category of anger at all.In such an era, women are too knowledgeable and sensible, and it is not necessarily a good thing if they understand righteousness.If you have talent, you should also have an attitude of dealing with things like light and dust. If you show an attitude of being content with the situation, knowing the male and keeping the female, it is commendable.

The former lady of the Heyuan Hospital, after menstruation, neglected to communicate with letters, and often sent letters such as "living in the river and touching the shore, it is difficult to see each other in dreams, it must be afraid of people's words [2]" Fuji Quansuke is very disgusted by the words of lamentation and ridicule.In this world, the most important thing, apart from life, is undoubtedly a person's appearance.People with ugly faces can certainly arouse the sympathy and pity of ordinary people.But if you want to say that you really like such ugliness, it must be an unknown ulterior motive.

Needless to say, whether the appearance of the two people is commensurate.This person from the Nagahashi Bureau came to Onomiya to be the head of the maid, but he still felt inappropriate, and there was news that Fujinaka Nayan was going to change his wife!It's really whimsical, and it's a big joke in the world.It is self-evident that his heart of attaching great importance to success is self-evident.How can there be such a reason?

Under the guidance of a familiar woman's house, Fuji Quansuke met with Nagahashi Bureau.The female room is also a sophisticated person, and deliberately arranged a room with no one around.Therefore, Fuji Quansuke said straight to the point, "If you want to cling to my brother like you are clinging to plants, let me tell you, don't have that kind of thinking."

The Changqiao Bureau laughed and asked, "Why?"

Fuji Quansuke was relatively young, so he couldn't help being serious about that answer, "You have self-knowledge, it's better to have some."

Changqiao Bureau said, "Why do you think so?"

"You are also very clear in your heart, because your behavior is driven by your thoughts, so the meaning is obvious. Do you have to make it clear?"

If you say it at this time, then say it.It is completely unintelligible, and the Long Bridge Bureau replied, "So, is it possible for you to believe that I am not for that reason? It is unrealistic to say that I have no thoughts that are beneficial to myself, so I It should come out."

Therefore, Fuji Quansuke had nothing to say, but it is not his style to show weakness to others, "There is no need to tell me such words as 'returning in life, returning to death in death'. I have told the truth myself."

The Changqiao Bureau said, "A woman is by no means willing to suffer and suffer. If her husband can be good, it is naturally a beautiful thing. Looking at the world, there are so many mediocre people, and there are no two or three happy marriages. Such an illusory dream is hard to come true, but making some fantasies from the bottom of your heart is the wrong thing that everyone accuses you of?"

Fuji Quansuke thought that this was a big mistake, so he said, "It's the first time I've seen such a thing in such a euphemistic and eloquent way! It's human nature, but it's not right. Do you think that my brother's face is really ugly?" Changqiao Bureau said nothing, and he continued, "In this Jiuzhong Palace, everyone carefully dresses up their faces and dresses up their clothes. Naturally There are not many beautiful people. There are not many people who have had smallpox, so are there any ugly people? Sallow cheeks are not a problem, and they can be covered up with white lead. Eyebrows are no big deal if they are curled like insects. It’s nothing more than pulling out and repainting, and it can also be done. Rouge is used to dye lips, and safflower is used to decorate nails. In fact, the original appearance can’t be seen at all. But ordinary nobles can dress up like heaven with a little diligence. People are equally handsome. According to this standard, ugly people are strange."

The Changqiao Bureau took it very seriously and let him speak.

"It's just that my brother was born with smallpox. Isn't it strange that he was rumored to be absurd?"

Fuji Quansuke thought to himself, if she asks about the mask, I just have something to say, but I hope I don't ask like that.

The Longbridge Bureau asked, "Why are you wearing that mask?"

Fuji Quansuke said, "I think you have heard the story of King Mausoleum. The elephant burned his body because he had teeth, and Duke Yu wanted to conquer his country with a jade in his arms. If you want to keep the treasure without being envied by others, you can only do the next thing How can you stand shoulder to shoulder with such a person with both good looks and good looks. Taking advantage of the hypocritical excuse of 'ugly looks', thinking that a man like my brother is also in his pocket, is really absurd. Stop thinking like that!"

So, I deliberately made a "rustling" sound from the clothes, and stood up "dongdongdong".The Changqiao Bureau thought he was leaving, and thought to himself, this man's tone is so arrogant.But what I said, I picked out my most worried place, which is not unreasonable.What can I do?

He opened the curtains of several tents, but unfortunately, it was hazy and black, only his clothes could be seen, and the sound of footsteps soon became inaudible.

Another time, when I heard that Fuji Quansuke was coming to stay on duty, many women ran into the Qingliang Temple to peek among the ghosts.The Changqiao Bureau wanted to take this opportunity to take a look.So I was sandwiched among the women's rooms, just in time to hear the Tibetans singing their names and singing the strings, and my heart was beating thumpingly.It is very interesting to hear the name of a familiar person or a familiar voice.But it's a pity that you can't see anything under the darkness of night.

After finally staying in the daytime, I felt in my heart that my face must be very disappointing after working all night like that. I was thinking about going back when I accidentally saw Fuji Quansuke's face and felt his cheeks were very hot.

Many women in the room didn't have such an opportunity because they fell asleep, and they were very annoyed, but they said, "It's not unusual to see people in the palace all the time." Everyone also went back to their rooms.But in the dream at night, the appearance of Fuji Gonsuke often appeared, combined with the figure at the Houmingyue banquet, it created an unrealistic assumption.

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[1] Untitled Anonymous under Miscellaneous Songs of Ancient and Modern Waka Collection, translated by Zhou Zuoren

[2] "Ancient and Modern Waka Collection" Love Song II Untitled Toshiyuki Fujiwara, translated by Shanghai Translation Publishing House