Sad Jiangnan

It is also very coincidental, maybe it is destined by fate somewhere.Due to my father's request, I went to various temples to participate in the cage. Once I came out of Facheng Temple and was about to go back to Onomiya, but the attendants said, "Going back at this time, it happens that Taiyishen is traveling, and the direction is not good."

Fuji Quansuke said, "Then what can we do, should we go to the minister of Kujo Hall?" As he spoke, he also laughed.Everyone knew that the relationship between Minister Kujo and Fujiwara Taizheng was particularly tense, so they didn't think it was a joke, so they suggested to him, "At this time, go to Heyuanyuan for a while."

This Heyuan Temple is the residence of Genda Nagon.In fact, Fujikonsuke also thought of that toubian just now, but he didn't like Genda Nagon very much, and felt very embarrassed.Everyone said this, Fuji Quansuke felt a strange pleasure of self-betrayal in his heart, and immediately promised, "Go to the person who walked in front of me, and tell the leader there." After saying that, he got on the bullock cart and set off Went to Heyuanyuan.

But I didn't hear from the messenger for a long time, so I thought it was a bad start.Fujikonsuke was very disturbed in his heart, for a moment he put Genji's grievances behind him, and genuinely worried about this difficult matter.When I got to the place, I saw someone greet me in front of the gate, and the car went into the yard.Soon there were attendants gathered here, leading Fuji Quansuke to settle in the guest room that had been arranged in the east.

Then Gentou Benen hurriedly said, "You must have worked hard after walking so much at night." His tone was full of enthusiasm, but his eyes kept looking elsewhere.

Fujikonsuke said, "It's too much, I want to thank you first. I'm ashamed that I didn't say it in advance."

Yuanyuanbian replied, "It's really a neglect tonight, I have to wrong you to stay here for the night."

Suddenly there was a woman's laughing voice outside the curtain, passing by from far to near.Fujikonsuke asked, "What's that sound?"

Yuanyuanben said, "I'm really sorry, I'll go out and have a look." Then an attendant came in from outside and told Touben, "So and so".Toubian also said something to his companion, and then told Fuji Quansuke, "It's one of my older sisters who came back from worshiping at Kurama Temple today, and that's why it's a little noisy. I just ordered them to be quiet."

Fujikonsuke thought to himself, could it have something to do with the "Doctor Ji" in the blue dress?Although he couldn't hear it very clearly just now, there was only a voice that made him feel very familiar.On a night when the moon is high, the person under the daffodil field must be her.So I stopped pretending to be polite and issued an "um".

Yuanyuanbian was also thinking, did he misunderstand something, this person was outside the wing room that day, but he heard clearly what I said to Fujinaka Nayan.I didn't know what was going on, so I said to Fuji Quansuke without authorization, "Actually, I have two older sisters, and one of them got sick and went to practice in a temple. The one who came back today was accompanied by her earlier. Yes." After saying this, I felt that it was redundant, and even more embarrassed.

Fuji Quansuke thought, "Are you afraid that I may have a strange misunderstanding? This person is really interesting, what does their family affairs have to do with me." He replied as usual, "I see." The tone was very ambiguous, Don't say anything else.Yuanyuanben might as well resign.

On an early autumn night, a gust of cold wind blows into Fuji Gonsuke's room.This place is no better than my own home on Zhongyumen Road. At night, there are water flowing and insects singing, which is especially pleasant.The wind of Heyuanyuan is sandwiched between the trees, which is very gloomy.After the wind stopped, it was as quiet as the world, and there seemed to be no one on duty in the corridor.Suddenly, the wind picked up again, shaking the five latticed windows with a "woo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo!"

Ruojun couldn't sleep, so he snuggled up to Fuji Gonsuke and cried, "I'm scared."

Fuji Quansuke laughed at him, "You are so cowardly." After a while, he said, "This place is so quiet, the person on duty may have been taken away by ghosts."

Ruojun let out a small "ah", and quickly pulled the coat over his head, trembling vigorously.Fuji Quansuke originally wanted to say something to tease him, but now he has no interest.He said, "I'll go outside and have a look." Ruojun just kept saying, "Don't go." But he didn't dare to move.

Fujikonsuke opened the paper partition and walked from the room to the corridor.By the light from the fire in the room, I saw that the attendants were sleeping on the bedding they brought.Fuji Quansuke was very satisfied in his heart, and walked around them for a while.

Just before I fell asleep, I heard a woman's voice not far away. The elder sister of Yuanyuanben probably lived near here.But it's not very clear which room it is in, and I can't help feeling a little regretful that I didn't send my body to look for it just now.Just thinking, if I walk around here and still get nothing, then I will go back to sleep.

But within a distance of two or three rooms, I saw a house, dimly glowing with a faint fire.When I got closer to observe, I found that the windows were not installed, but the bamboo curtains hanging on the windows were all down, and only a few tents were used to prop up them.Fuji Quansuke was amused and thought, "Will it not be blown down by the wind?"

When the wind came, it seemed to be sucked in by the curtains hanging on the tents, without making a sound.The bamboo curtain does not shake because it is against the curtain.

Fuji Quansuke thought again, he made a big mistake just now, this is really a smart way.When the wind stopped, a strong fragrance rushed into the nose.Attracted by this smell, Fuji Quansuke got closer, and by the light of the lantern, he noticed more clearly that colorful skirts were seeping out from under the curtain.Listening carefully to the movement in the room, no one was talking, as if they had fallen asleep together.

So, this is the room of Toubian sister.Fujikonsuke hesitated for a few steps, thinking he had to give it a try.So imitating the appearance of the officials in the palace, he leaned in from the gap between the tents.It was found that a person was sleeping in the wing room, probably the person's maid.Paying no attention to her, he bypassed furniture such as candlesticks and cabinets, and entered the inner room.After a closer look, there was indeed a woman sleeping under her clothes.

Fuji Quansuke's heart skipped a beat. After all, he had never done such a thing before. He stood there for a moment without moving, and even thought of going back.Come here quietly, and then leave quietly, completely pretending that nothing happened, it is too useless, if people who don't know know it, they will laugh at it.But this is not a secret, if you don't tell others, who will know?Fuji Quansuke hesitated for a while, but still thought, "I and those people are not in the same way after all." Then he really lost interest.Turning around to go, there was a very soft breath sent to the ears.

Fujikonsuke couldn't help thinking depressingly, that Nadeshiko is as docile as this breath, which makes people very conflicted. She insists on calling her my sister and wants me to get along with her day and night.When I saw it, I thought it was a little cute, but every time I think about it afterwards, I feel worse than death.The people in this house made me feel the pain of the family for no reason.Confucius said that the one who started the evil has no successors.Where is timidity that can compromise.For anything in which you are the protagonist, if you want a result, you must have a cause.I am standing here now, which is the subjective cause.I cannot escape.

So he squatted down, hugged the person in the clothes, and whispered, "I miss you for a long time."

The man woke up immediately, and asked aloud, "Who is it?" But Fuji Quansuke was hugging her, and she was very frightened, and she didn't even dare to struggle after speaking.

Fuji Quansuke picked up the man, did not answer, and reached out to bring the candle in the room to him.The firelight illuminated the faces of the two of them very clearly.Fuji Quansuke said to the lady of Heyuanyuan, "It's your love."

Heyuanyuan said, "However, I don't have anyone I love." This should have been something I thought in my heart, but I said it directly, which is very puzzling.Fortunately, it can be seen at this time that her appearance is beautiful and upright, and her hair is also very thick.Only the green clothes were dyed an ugly brown-black under the orange light.Fujikonsuke thought, she should be three or four years older than me, but she looks very small, so she thought she was Toubian's younger sister.I still had some doubts in my heart, but I couldn't see Nadeko's shadow at all between his eyebrows and eyes.

Fujikonsuke said intentionally, "You made me suffer a lot, do you know that. I'm homeless now."

The daughter's family is always a little shy, but when he heard him say this, she raised her head to look at him.Heyuanyuan thought to himself, it must be Mr. Fujiwara who came today, and he only took a quick peek at it before dark, but he didn't expect it to look even more beautiful up close.But no one could understand a word he said.What I said just now may be something that Fang violated tonight, so I justified, "I'm also to blame for Tian Yishen's matter, you are really unreasonable. Let go of your hands."

Fuji Quansuke didn't listen to her, "You are so strange, you are so bold to men, you keep staring at me."

He Yuanyuan lowered his head and said, "It's really annoying for you to look at others." But his body was very relaxed, and his upper body was leaning on Fuji Gonsuke.

Fuji Quansuke said, "Do I look disgusting?" He Yuanyuan didn't have the nerve to answer this question.Fujikonsuke went on to say, "My ugly appearance taught you to be frightened and hate me. I also hate me like this."

Heyuanyuan thought to himself, what kind of nonsense is this, and what is the purpose of telling it.But Fuji Gonsuke's attitude was clearly very sincere, not like what a lover said when flirting.Because he didn't lower his voice, he still had the hoarseness of a young man.Heyuanyuan wondered strangely, if he followed his words, would it really make him sad?Instead, he comforted, "Are you a nobleman of Prince Udona, I think you are very similar."

Fuji Quansuke said with a smile in his heart, after making a fuss for a long time, she didn't know who I was!He straightened her face, and asked, "Just now I thought I was annoying, which sentence is the truth?" She was very mature, but now she said the words like a child.

But Heyuanyuan didn't hate it, he just felt that he was older than him, so he felt embarrassed when he thought of this, and said to Fujikonsuke, "You don't have to take the willful things you said just for fun at the beginning, so don't take it seriously!"

As he said that, he blew out the candles and wanted to fall asleep, the meaning was already obvious.As for Fujikonsuke, like a moth that has lost its light, although it does not stay still for a long time, it is not much different from wood.The sky is twilight, and I bid farewell to this place in a hurry.

Fuji Quansuke returned to Ono Palace, slept again, and woke up with the sun already shining on the mat.Just came out from the inner room, and saw Nadeshiko in the corridor by the mirror pool, taking a kick with a Cuju.There was only a maid beside her who had never met before, looking at her with a smile.

Fujikonsuke went over there and was seen by Nadeko.He hugged Ju in his arms and ran up the steps at the back.Fuji Quansuke said to her, "Don't run, you will fall." He walked over and pulled her arm.Nadeko hid behind the maid again, but the maid scolded her, "This is your brother too, it's outrageous." Then she said to Fujikonsuke, "She's a coward."

The corridor just now was basking in the sun, Nadeko had a little sweat on his forehead, and his cheeks were also reflected in pink. He was wearing a lavender undershirt, which was very cute.Fuji Quansuke squatted down and said, "Nadeko is at this age, he should shave his eyebrows."

The maid couldn't help but blushed and said, "She is ignorant, and the family is very fond of her, so let her go."

Nadeko still looked at him quietly, Fuji Quansuke felt that she also looked a bit like his father in her eyebrows and eyes, and felt as if she was stung by a rose thorn in her heart, which made her very uncomfortable.He hugged Nadeko's arm and said, "You've grown up and your teeth aren't stained, that's out of character!"

Nadeko was like a caught butterfly, twisting her body to escape, but Fuji Gonsuke was very strong.Nadeko struggled as hard as she could, but there seemed to be no movement. For a while, her eyes were a little red.

Fuji Quansuke let go of one hand, fearing that she would run away, he held her with the other hand.Changing his attitude, he asked softly, "Why not?"

Nadeko turned her head and whispered, "Don't be like you!"

The maid scolded her, "There are no rules! At the age of ten, you can no longer be willful."

Fuji Gonsuke said, "Nishizhidao's big brother over there also stained his teeth black."

Nadeko looked at him dubiously, and didn't think much of this fancier's funny attire.Fujikonsuke thought to himself, I just came over after falling asleep, it looks ugly.

Then I looked at my own reflection along the reflection of the mirror pool, because the white/powder on the face fell off a little, and it looked bumpy and uneven, which was really ridiculous.So I took Nadeshiko to her room and taught someone to bring makeup materials.

Nadeko held Cuju in her arms, looking around in the room.Fuji Quansuke asked her, "Where did big brother go?"

Nadeko's eyes twinkled, and she replied, "I went outside and refused to tell me where to go."

Fujikonsuke thought to himself that he must have gone to the palace to visit his younger sister as usual, but Nadeko didn't know what to do, so he didn't tell her at all.He said to her, "You listen to me, next time I will teach my elder brother to take you too."

Nadeko murmured, "Ah, that's not the case. Big Brother always refuses to tell me the truth, and keeps many things from me. I'm really unhappy."

Fuji Gonsuke actually heard it very clearly, but asked Nadeko on purpose, "Why do you always have such different attitudes towards me and big brother?"

Nadeko didn't want to answer his words at first, but here, seeing Fuji Gonsuke's attitude gradually softening, which was also different from usual, she said, "You are too fierce."

Fuji Quansuke thought, everyone in the family is afraid of his brother's attitude, and he has never heard of a servant who would complain about me.Does this child have eyes that can see through souls?

Fuji Quansuke asked again, "Is there any difference between me and big brother?"

Nadeko pondered seriously, but couldn't answer.Then asked her why she didn't want to wear makeup.She just said she didn't like it.

Fujitsusuke said in his heart, I was so naive back then.Previously, there was a wet nurse who stayed for a short time, and her husband was a Kosuke.Before I go to bed at night, I always hear her talk about her husband's Renguoli, where there are black mud and snowy beaches in summer, where you can catch sea urchins and crabs, pick up various shells, catch dragonflies, and fish for salt.Aquatic products are not like the ones in the capital, they can be eaten as soon as they are taken, and they must be shaved clean from the scales to the internal organs.There are many egrets in the fields, their bodies are white and slender, and they are all as beautiful as jade carvings.In winter, you have to go to the mountains to see the snow. The water in the river is frozen into a thick layer. Then, the maple leaves that have fallen in autumn are also glued inside, and you can vaguely see fish swimming in it. It's like a picture comes alive.I also want to catch sika deer and tigers and make their skins into boot linings. The process of making leather is also very interesting.I personally chop firewood to burn charcoal. The firewood is cut from the mountain and dried to light the fire. The charcoal needs to be burnt with firewood to bake the room. It is also very interesting to do everything by yourself.

These claims are unheard of in the capital.Even after hearing about it, it is hard to imagine what it is like, so I am fascinated by it, no less than the expectation of "seeking osmanthus in the moon in the mountain temple".The people there are not like the life of the people in the capital. They do everything by themselves, and they seem to be very comfortable.

Whenever he showed yearning, the wet nurse told him worriedly, "How can such a noble person as you go to that kind of place? It's a life in the country, and it's just for your pleasure." A casual wish, became panicked.Then he said to Fuji Quansuke, "The skin is also very dry, all of them have yellow teeth, and the hair has not been washed all the year round, so how can it be eye-catching?" He also said, "Then, of course, there is no such thing as a lowly person like that." It’s a blessing to dye your teeth. Go out early and return late every day, and go to sea every day, and the salt on your body is enough for the family to eat for a month.” Thinking of this, I don’t feel like covering my nose with my sleeve.I thought it was a very vulgar thing, so I said it to make everyone laugh.

Fuji Quansuke still thought, "Isn't it great not to have to do such tedious things every day? I've never liked these fashions like rouge and lead powder."

But the conflict in my heart can't compete with the current trend.When you reach a certain age, you will naturally be in the same class as the noble children with shaved faces and lavender clothes. Otherwise, you will laugh at the nobles, and you will not be allowed to raise your head when you enter the palace to pay homage.It is hard for people today to imagine the kind of rejection that did not enter the mainstream at that time.

Therefore, there is another rumor in the world, saying that since the beginning of his illness, my elder brother gave up the habit of tidying up his face. Because his eyebrows and beard grew, he was unwilling to pull them out, and he looked ugly, so he used a mask to cover it up.

Soon, a few servants waiting for makeup came in to wash Fuji Quansuke's face makeup.Nadeshiko thought to herself, it looks like a bare cypress tree just now after it has been washed clean, how funny it looks!But I don't find it annoying.

When everything was done, Nadeko's maid also came into the room and said, "Look, wouldn't it be better this way, Kisaragi is shining brighter."

Fujikonsuke ordered them to go out, and wanted to talk to Nadeko alone for a while.So she asked Nadeko, "Sure enough, it still looks this good, right? I'll teach your wet nurse to fix it for you later."

Nadeko took a good look at Fuji Gonsuke, and felt that the red lips really matched the white/pink better.This time I painted the eyebrows very softly, not as offensive as before.My heart was pounding.

Fujikonsuke asked, "Is this good-looking or that good-looking?"

Nadeko lowered her head and whispered, "My brother's mask is beautiful."

Fuji Quansuke's heart skipped a beat, and he immediately stood up, "Didn't everyone tell you not to let you say such things?" As soon as the words came out, he felt a little regretful.Fortunately, Nadeko is a child, but she looks unhappy.

Seeing her turning her mouth aside, biting her lip again, and the sides of her cheeks sunken, Fujiquan felt that it was too rough, so she wanted to catch her and discipline her well.As a result, he took two steps and almost fell. Looking back, he saw a doll kicked away by him.

Nadeko let out an "ah", got up and ran to pick up the doll.Fuji Quansuke ran faster than her and grabbed the doll first.Nadeko grabbed his arm and said, "Give it back to me." However, he quickly let go of Fuji Gonsuke and bent down to pick up something.

Fuji Quansuke took a closer look at the doll. It was wearing a two-blue armpit gown with patterns of rattan flowers and a neat hat. The features on the face were drawn with ink and the eyes were clearly outlined with gold clay. It was the handwriting of that maid.

Furious, Fujikonsuke held the doll between his fingers, and stretched out his hand to grab what Nadeko had picked up.Nadeko was frightened by this, and curled up on the ground with one hand wrapped around the other, stubbornly refusing to let go.Against a young man like this, there is no chance of winning.Nadeko's defense that she thought she could take advantage of was quickly destroyed by Fujitsu, and the pair of small hands were opened, revealing a piece of whiteness.

As soon as Fujikonsuke held it in his hand, Nadeko screamed, "Give it back to me! Give it back to me!"

I'm afraid it's what Toubian said, putting a mask made of paper on the doll.Two pieces of Koryo paper cut into an oval shape are glued together, one side of which is painted with the same face as the doll, and small holes are drilled on both sides, and red thread is used to simulate the mask.The binding was not very firm, and the silk thread on one side passed through the small hole, and I don't know where it fell.

Nadeko kept yelling "Give it back to me!" Seeing that Fuji Gonsuke was indifferent, she sat down on the ground, pretending to cry.Fuji Gonsuke knelt down and handed the doll and the paper to Nadeko.Nadeko's tearful eyes stared at him desperately.

The undershirt that Nadeko is wearing today complements her pink cheeks from time to time, so if she doesn't make an expression, she won't be as cute as when she's crying and laughing.The thick black hair on the forehead often swayed around her face, like a calyx holding a jade flower.Fuji Quansuke thought, what would happen if this girl died?The excitement of the unknown is what prompts such people to put their delusions into practice.Fuji Quansuke suddenly realized that I had been looking forward to her death for a long time.

But in the past, Fuji Quansuke fantasized about the death of countless people.Either use a saber, or use a soft cotton rope. In a pinch, bare hands are also fine.He is obsessed with the death of others, and his heart can be learned from the world.The only regret is that there are so many people who deserve to die, and all of them are full of fat.With a hot head, wishes can indeed come true.But for the rest of my life, I dare not even think about what kind of abyss I will face.

All kinds of resentment piled up in my heart, just like one mission after another.To start from scratch is hard, shameful and ugly.I have to spend a lot of thought, trying to forget them inadvertently.

Today's moment is very unusual.After a while, he strangled her throat, and there was no way to shout loudly.In a moment, he fell down in his arms.She could barely feel the strength of grabbing her arm just now.The body of such a girl is also like a fallen leaf, a piece of postcard.After death, the sunshine is still lovely, and the autumn wind is as cool as ever.Only for Fuji Gonsuke, the tears in Nadeko's eyes gave him hope in life.

He thought, in this world, it is a pitiful thing for a woman to be born.Then, like Nadeko, I am a worthless and poor person.One was born pitifully, the other died pitifully.Why can't they perfect each other?

While she was enduring tears, Fuji Gonsuke put his hands around her neck.It turns out that the neck thickness of a young girl is not much different from that of a cat or a dog, but it feels softer.Tighten it a little, and it will snap like fine grass.Fuji Quansuke exerted a little force, but the "thin grass" did not break in response. It turned out that there was also strength in the thin grass.

Nadeko's face flushed red, and she burst into hiccups as thin as gnats.Tears like spring water gradually stopped flowing.

Suddenly the maid outside the house asked here, "What happened?"

Nadeshiko fell ill with a fever and cough.Although it was a minor ailment and pain, it took a lot of thought and time to recover from the illness.Fortunately, after recovering from the illness, she was as beautiful and lovely as before, but things went against her expectations, and she gradually revealed a weird appearance again.At first, it was unreasonable hiccups and tears, inexplicably hiding behind the maid and father, still trembling.

The family members were very surprised, thinking that it was caused by evil spirits, so they invited noble Dharma masters and abbots to do various rituals, such as practicing Dharma, taming, exorcising and so on.However, when blessing and reciting the mantra, everything was as usual, and there were no living or dead souls attached to the body of the possessed boy.It is said that the lady in the house is healthy and there is nothing abnormal.

My father was puzzled by this, and after a long time, he finally discovered the source of the weirdness.Whenever Fuji Quansuke approached her, he would show that attitude.Over time, for unknown reasons, Fujinaka Nayan and his father also became estranged.Seeing them coming, they hid in the tent and refused to come out.When it is severe, it will cry and scream.

One day Fujikonsuke was called to his father, and his father asked him, "What did you do to Nadeshiko?"

Fujitsusuke thought that this day would eventually come, so he didn't speak.He sat upright with his hands on his knees.

Father said, "Say something, I'm asking you."

Fujikonsuke said, "I don't understand your intention."

Father said, "By this time, don't you understand?"

"What do you want to understand?"

"Okay, then, your brother is already in that state. It's not an exaggeration to say that I have only one son left.... If you have some bad habits, of course you can forgive me. Did you hit her? "Strangely, Nadeko didn't have any scars on her body either.After his father finished asking, his eyes wandered around on Fuji Quansuke, and he was very disturbed in his heart.

Suddenly, my mother's words came to my ears verbatim, "So listen to what my mother said, and you are the only thing in my mother's heart."

Fuji Quansuke asked, "If you tell the truth, can you get forgiveness?"

Black furrows appeared between the father's eyebrows, and his eyes seemed to have ripples, and he did not necessarily show such an expression in condolences to his mother.Also, he doesn't speak.

Fujikonsuke said, "What else can I do? It's really strange. You can't understand a word of your words."

Father asked, "What did you say?"

Fujitsu said, "I didn't do it."

"Didn't you hit her?"

"No."

"Pushed her, snatched her toys, or something else? You bullied her, tell Dad the truth." The father's attitude softened.

"Has anyone seen it? How about teaching him to identify it?"

The father was silent for a while, then asked, "So, that kind of thing... have you ever done it?"

Fuji Quansuke raised his voice, "You actually asked such a question, do you think of me like this? I'm leaving."

"She's afraid of you, and you can see it yourself. Are you going to lie to yourself now? What have you done?"

"Nothing was done."

"Why are you afraid of you?"

"I don't know."

At this time, the sound of footsteps suddenly sounded behind the screen, followed by a shadow falling from the sky, the sound of footsteps approached Fuji Gonsuke, and stopped abruptly.Hearing the sound, Fujiquansuke raised his head, and was looking at him in horror with his pale mask.

The father's voice suddenly became higher, "Zhengxin!..." Accompanied by the ending of the voice, it was his brother's slap on Fuji Quansuke's face.Fujinaka seems to be indulging in the sweetness brought to him by this long-lost violence, just like the attraction of rotting meat to Fuji Gonsuke. After the slap fell on the face, it rang four or five times.

When the father came back to his senses, a stream of blood flowed from one of Fuji Gonsuke's nostrils, like a long snot hanging on his face, which was very funny.Now my father was also stunned, unable to speak for a long time.

Fuji Quansuke looked at his brother, still sitting still, "I didn't expect that one day, you would treat me like this." Then he said to his father, "That girl shouldn't have come here in the first place."