toxic roommate

What kind of love words are the most touching is a profound question.

Tao Mengzhu wrote so many confession scenes that she couldn't think of which one was the one that touched her the most.

Is it the cry when life is hanging by a thread, when facing life and death side by side?

Is it the uninhabited streets and alleys, under the dim street lights, the two hold hands, telling the truth plainly?

Or, it is hugging each other in the crowd, silently declaring everything that is unspeakable.

Whenever she thinks of these things, she always thinks that she is an affectionate person, but no matter how many affectionate stories she has written, it still can't change the fact that she can't even flirt with girls.

Therefore, she couldn't write this love letter.

She has never been so at a loss for a person, and she has never looked at a document so dizzy.

But just to write something?It's common to get stuck in your thoughts. When you're most stuck, touch your fish and scratch your head, and the inspiration you should have will always appear. What can't be written?

For her, writing is like playing with her, but this love letter is a feeling she can't afford to play with no matter what.

She is afraid that her desire/desire will scare Zhen Shuang away from her. She is afraid that this home will once again become a refuge for her to escape from the world and spend her days in darkness. She is even more afraid that if one day Zhen Shuang will Become her destined passerby, and in the days to come, every passerby she will face will be far away from Zhen Shuang.

——I can't control my liking for you, but I can't muster up the courage to like you. Once I'm free, I always struggle and hesitate, asking myself over and over again, when will I tell you these thoughts.

Tao Mengzhu wrote, deleted, and deleted. It took him a long time to write such a sentence. After staring at it for a few minutes, he felt that it was too hypocritical, so he silently deleted it completely.

"Don't think of yourself as a romance heroine, be more down-to-earth!" Tao Mengzhu hugged her head and complained to herself, and suddenly had an urge to give up.

She really couldn't write a love letter or something.

But if I can't write it, my roommate will spend Qixi Festival with others!

Tao Mengzhu lay on the keyboard suppressing the volume and wailing for a long time, the more he thought about it, the more depressed he felt, he gritted his teeth and got up, went to the living room lightly and poured a large glass of water down his belly.

The sleeping Xiao Ritian heard the sound of footsteps, silently opened his hazy eyes, watched Tao Meng walking back and forth inside and outside the bamboo house, then closed his eyes and fell asleep again.

Back at the computer desk again, Tao Mengzhu felt more and more a hot current with an inexplicable pain, from bottom to top, and finally stuck in his chest, no matter how hard it was, he could not help but gritted his teeth and leaned on the chair Back, let your body stretch as much as possible, and took a deep breath.

However, gritting your teeth for a few minutes was of no use, and breathing became more and more difficult.

Tao Mengzhu frowned tightly, closed the document on the computer, got up and walked back to the bed, lay down flat, closed his eyes and tried to sleep.

But the heart-wrenching pain made her sleepy and unable to sleep. After ten minutes, she finally gave up struggling, got up and sat back at the computer desk, Baidu started "stomach pain", "heart pain", "chest pain", "stomach pain chest pain", "difficulty breathing" and all the key words she could think of.

To be honest, after living for so long, she couldn't even tell where she was hurting at this moment and what kind of pain it was, so that she searched a lot of reasons and even solutions, but she didn't know which one was the most painful. It is really applicable to oneself.

The pain lasted for more than half an hour. She tried a lot of pain relief methods from Baidu, no matter whether she was sitting, lying down, or pinching acupuncture points, it didn't work.

She laughed at herself dumbfoundingly: "If it's not that you found the wrong method, then it's because your reading comprehension is too poor, and you can't meet the movement standards without pictures... I don't have a heart attack, do I?"

Later, the pain was so severe that Tao Mengzhu almost lost the ability to think. For a while, she just wanted to grit her teeth and endure the night... She thought, maybe it was like she felt dizzy, dizzy and nauseous every time, she gritted her teeth and endured it, dawn it will get better.

Later, I don’t know which unscrupulous person replied in a certain stomach pain problem that Baidu knows: “Drink hot water and press it, it will be much better.”

Tao Mengzhu saw it and believed it, so she gritted her teeth and went to the water dispenser and turned on the boiling switch, leaning against the corner of the wall next to the water dispenser and fell into a hopeless wait.

It is said that hot water can cure all diseases. Fever, cold, stomach pain, and aunts all need it. Maybe drinking it will really heal you?

She waited and waited and waited by the water dispenser, and couldn't help but slowly bent over and curled up in the corner of the wall while pressing her chest.

[Grass mud horse, my heart hurts] Probably this is the feeling, right?

Tao Mengzhu directly wondered if she was shocked because her roommate was going to spend Qixi Festival with others... But, could the heartache she wrote in the novel really be what she felt at this moment?When your heart hurts, do you really have the heart to think about so many messy things?

That would be too unsightly...

In a trance, she felt that her vision was gradually blurred in the dark night, and the effort required to inhale was getting bigger and bigger.

As the sound of breathing became heavier, Xiao Ritian who was lying on the side opened his eyes again to look at the master who was huddled in the corner, his eyes were extremely confused.

It limped to Tao Mengzhu's side and called twice. Seeing that Tao Mengzhu didn't respond, it rubbed its head against her leg again.

Tao Mengzhu's little furry head was very itchy. She raised her head and frowned at Xiao Ritian, reached out and touched its head, and said, "Go to sleep, I'm fine."

Xiao Ritian was unmoved, but stuck out her tongue and licked her toes. Tao Mengzhu regained consciousness a little and said, "Are you hungry? I'll get you something to eat..."

As she spoke, she stroked the wall and stood up, but unexpectedly, her eyes suddenly went dark, and she fell straight to the ground.

Xiao Ritian quickly dodged a little to the side, and after being dazed for half a second, he stepped forward and licked Tao Mengzhu's arm, seeing that her eyes were tightly closed, completely unresponsive, she barked anxiously.

However, its barking did not wake Zhen Shuang who was sleeping soundly. Ten seconds later, it quickly ran to Zhen Shuang's door, barking loudly, and scratching the door desperately with its little paws.

Xiao Ritian's noise kept coming into his ears, Zhen Shuang opened his eyes in a daze, scratched his disheveled hair, opened the door with bare feet, before he had time to ask questions, he saw Xiao Ritian turned to the water dispenser. The direction ran over.

"What's wrong?" Zhen Shuang rubbed her eyes and yawned, then slowly looked in the direction where Xiao Ritian was running.

In the next second, she gradually adapted to the darkness and saw a person lying on the ground with her eyes—instantly stunned.

Zhen Shuang felt that she must have not woken up yet, and she must have made a mistake, so she glanced at the next room.

The landlord's computer was still on, but the person was gone.

No, no, no... Where is the person missing, isn't he just lying next to the water dispenser!

Confused, she rushed back to the room and unplugged the phone that was charging, ran to Tao Mengzhu's side quickly, flipped through the address book, and called Yu Xiaoqiu.

Xiao Ritian watched her anxiously spinning around, one person and one dog, each more at a loss than the other.

The phone beeped several times, Zhen Shuang became more anxious as she listened, and froze in place.

Just when the phone was about to hang up automatically, Yu Xiaoqiu on the other end finally answered: "Hmm...huh?"

For the same word, there are two different long sounds, from humming in a low voice as if waking up from a dream, to listless questioning in doubt.

"The leader is down!" Zhen Shuang was taken aback when she opened her mouth. At that moment, her voice was faintly crying.

"What?"

"She fainted, I don't know what's going on! What should I do! Put her on the bed!" Zhen Shuang said, sniffed Tao Mengzhu's breath, touched his chest again, and said a stupid nonsense: "What's wrong with you?" I'm angry, my heart is still beating, I haven't died yet..."

"Waste... Hey, what did you do to get her a bed when you fainted suddenly!" Yu Xiaoqiu woke up suddenly, was silent for two seconds, and said calmly: "Don't worry, I'll call an ambulance, you wait for me... "

"Oh good!" Zhen Shuang replied in a daze, and the beeping hangup tone rang from the other end of the phone.

The living room fell silent for an instant, and the ticking second hand of the wall clock disturbed people.

……

Tao Mengzhu was half lying on the hospital bed by the window and yawning, with the needle tube of the hanging bottle in his hand, the medicine dripped down very slowly.

Zhen Shuang was peeling the apple with great difficulty, his movements were extremely slow, but his mouth was chattering very quickly.

"I finally know why your ex kept telling me that you must be put to death. You are really capable. As long as you can't die, you will do it to death, right? Will you go to bed early if you agreed? What three After ordering, I fell asleep and went to the living room? Why do you slap your face like eating noodles with salt, without blinking? Last night, Riri and I were really scared to death, even with balls, Yuyu , Populus euphratica and the others follow you in a hurry!"

"Actually, I just wanted to drink some hot water last night, but the hot water said it didn't want to see me." Tao Mengzhu looked at the ugly apple that Zhen Shuang had shaved, and added: "I was a little uncomfortable at the time, and it was okay to lie on the bed. Can't sleep."

"It's uncomfortable, you don't know to call me, you throw coins or make sticks, you! You still know how to hum when you are in pain every day, why are you still in a daze than every day? You are so painful that you can't sleep and you don't say a word. No one, if you hang up one day, it will take several days before someone finds your body!" Zhen Shuang said, rolled his eyes, and said: "If you don't wake me up every day, you are in danger now, you know !"

"Hmm..." Tao Mengzhu nodded in response.

"Well, it's over in a moment?" Zhen Shuang handed the peeled apple to Tao Mengzhu angrily, and said, "You must reflect on yourself!"

Yes, she is such a person who can't take care of herself, not only can't take care of herself, but she is also very afraid of trouble, no matter if it's troubling herself or others, she doesn't want to.

If I survived the illness, I went to the hospital to hang water if I couldn't make it through. If I endured the pain, I went to the hospital for an examination if I couldn't make it through.

In the past, she really thought about it, if her health is not good, then go, live alone, die alone, don't even need to look at the almanac, die and be buried in the sun...Of course, this is just thinking Think, who is really not afraid of death?

She clearly felt that her body was no longer what it used to be. Not only would she be so tired that she would be in a trance after staying up all day and night, and her memory was getting worse day by day.

After deciding to write for a living, she once said to herself, while she was young and had the capital, she worked hard. Unexpectedly, in just over three years, she realized that she had almost exhausted the capital brought by her youth up.

At the age of 23, I was admitted to the hospital. Tao Mengzhu, how much younger can you be?

"Why are you in a daze?" Zhen Shuang asked.

"I'm reflecting on myself." Tao Mengzhu replied seriously.

"Has there been any results from reflection?" Zhen Shuang asked again.

"Well... how soon can I be discharged from the hospital?" Tao Mengzhu changed the subject.

"Three days!" Zhen Shuang pursed her lips, and said, "Let you do it, tell me, is the money you earn from staying up late for so many days enough for you to go to the hospital once?"

Tao Mengzhu completely ignored the second half of Zhen Shuang's ridicule, and couldn't help raising the corners of his mouth.

Three days_(乛▽乛)”∠)_

It means that roommates don’t have time to accompany others to do Qixi activities?