The Post-Photographer's Guide to Keeping Pets

That was the most painful time for Rong Jinnian. She wanted to seek relief, but she couldn't find the way. Therefore, maybe the only way to stop the pain is to die.On the day of reporting at the beginning of school, others were sent by their parents, but her parents were still arguing at home.

Rong Jinnian didn't hold out hope, got the ticket, and didn't disturb her quarreling parents. She carried a big bag alone, with the 1000 yuan she had saved in her pocket, and boarded the train going south.

She is an adult, and her mother said that when she becomes an adult, she will be independent, so Rong Jinnian doesn't want to rely on anyone anymore.

It was the first time he traveled far away, alone, and Rong Jinnian would never forget the fear.

She was like a bird flying out of a cage for the first time, clutching her backpack tightly in her hand, lowering her head and not daring to look at anyone, only she knew the fear in her heart.

At this moment, I suddenly miss Xia Qingyi very much, so Rong Jinnian always looks back subconsciously, or takes a quick glance forward, imagining that she will see Xia Qingyi in the next second, aren't they Are you ready?Always keep ten steps away.

The night outside the car was getting dark, Rong Jinnian started to feel hungry, people around were eating instant noodles, eating chicken legs.Rong Jinnian glanced eagerly and swallowed, but she didn't have anything.It was the first time I took the train. I didn’t know that I had to buy food and drink in advance and bring them with me because the food on the train was very expensive.Hunger and thirst, you just need to endure it.

The lunch box seller came from the aisle, when Rong Jinnian heard the meal, he was very hungry, but he was ashamed to speak, she was used to Xia Qingyi doing everything for her, but now Xia Qingyi is gone.

Rong Jinnian was inexplicably wronged, and finally summoned up the courage to speak up. When Rong Jinnian heard the person at the next table ask how much it was, and when he heard that it was 25 yuan, Rong Jinnian didn't have the intention to speak again.She only has 1000 yuan, she can't break it open, she can still bear it, Rong Jinnian swallowed.

It was late at night, and everyone around him began to doze off. Rong Jinnian was so hungry that his stomach hurt, and he couldn't sleep at all.

I don't know if it was late at night, but Rong Jinnian's thoughts of missing Xia Qingyi became even stronger. If it was the past, Xia Qingyi would come to her and tell her stories, but she was already lying on the bed, ready to sleep.

But now, she is heading towards an unknown world, where there is no Xia Qingyi, she should be happy, because finally she no longer has to live in Xia Qingyi's shadow.

But the joy in her heart faded with the long train journey. Although she always deliberately confronted Xia Qingyi and said that she didn't like her telling stories, at this moment, she actually began to miss it.

Rong Jinnian told himself: Xia Qingyi hates you, have you forgotten?Need I remind you again and again?

Looking at the dark world outside the car window, Rong Jinnian felt that it was the same as her own future. Once, she thought that with Xia Qingyi, her world would have light, but after all, she just thought.

Xia Qingyi, why do you hate me?Countless times, Rong Jinnian wanted to ask, but she didn't dare. She had an inexplicable fear and yearning for Xia Qingyi in her heart, but there was uneasiness in her thoughts.

Rong Jinnian lowered her head, tears were rolling in her eyes, she pressed her bag tightly against her cramped stomach, Xia Qingyi, I still miss you so much, even if you hate me, I still miss you so much, why? manage?I don't know how to live in a world without you.

She was used to obeying Xia Qingyi's everything, but now, suddenly, Rong Jinnian was allowed to be independent, and she felt panicked.

For a moment, when the car stopped halfway, she got out of the car with her big bag in her arms. She wanted to escape, she wanted to find Xia Qingyi.Why did you leave Xia Qingyi?Can you live without her?Rong Jinnian asked himself, isn't it just patience?I have endured it for so long, why can't I bear it now?

She lied to Xia Qingyi, Xia Qingyi must hate her to death, people who already hated her, plus hatred, she went back to Xia Qingyi, how would she make it up?Kneel down and beg her to forgive?Rong Jinnian stood in the dimly lit station, tears rolling down his face.

Rong Jinnian, you have nowhere to go. Rong Jinnian looked around, but within ten steps, there was no one she knew well.

Xia Qingyi disappeared, because she walked away on her own initiative, and Xia Qingyi didn't follow.

Rong Jinnian cried and also resented, Xia Qingyi, I hate you, I've chased you for so long, why can't you chase me once?Do you know how many things I give up in order to keep ten steps away from you?

The train sounded an alarm to remind the train that it was about to leave. Rong Jinnian got back on the train with a big bag in his arms. A person who hates her, hates her, and never approves of her, what is there to think about?Isn't it because of this moment that she endured so much pressure to cheat Xia Qingyi?They finally drifted away, and she should be happy, so happy that she wanted to cry.

At the moment when she stood in a foreign land, Rong Jinnian's eyes were all dazed, and there was still an inexplicable panic in her heart. She was afraid, afraid of all strange things.

Rong Jinnian needs to apply for a student loan, but it needs to be approved. The other party asked her to come back in the afternoon to confirm. Rong Jinnian nodded stupidly, and after walking a few steps, she came back and asked, "Then where do I live?"

The other party told her that it would be good to come to confirm together in the afternoon, because the money must be paid before proceeding.Rong Jinnian let out an oh, and stood in the bustling crowd with excited faces, surrounded by parents.Rong Jinnian carried her bag and walked aimlessly. She found a phone booth and called home, hoping to find some comfort.

Her parents really gave her a huge "surprise". On the phone, her mother was frightened and told how Rong Jinnian could leave without saying goodbye, without taking any money, how would she live?Before Rong Jinnian said anything, she heard her mother say in relief: "Niannian, you have finally grown up, your father and I can divorce, and mother can be relieved." Mom's crying came.

Rong Jinnian couldn't say a word, tears fell down, she didn't want to hear this, she wanted to hear her mother say: "Don't be afraid every year, mother is always here, mother will always love you." So, Mom is also living in such pain, why is everyone living so tired?

Rong Jinnian hung up the phone directly, she touched the phone for a long time, after a long time, she dialed a number again.

Rong Jinnian memorized that number by heart. She pressed it countless times, but she didn't have the courage to press it.If Xia Qingyi connected, what would she say?Say you miss her?It's ridiculous.

Rong Jinnian didn't dial out in the end, and walked out of the phone booth, the sky began to rain.

In the rain, the tears became more unrestrained. Rong Jinnian was walking on the street alone, not knowing where to go. She had no money to pay for the dormitory, so she had no place to live.The only 1000 yuan on her body is all she has, and she is not willing to spend it. Maybe she can take out [-] yuan to eat first.

The home is gone, and Xia Qingyi is gone too. Does she have nothing?Rong Jinnian suddenly despaired, what did she do wrong?

When they were in an alley, a group of people suddenly appeared behind them. At that time, Rong Jinnian didn't know that the leader was Ou Ruolan, and they followed her for a long time.

Rong Jinnian's 1000 yuan was forcibly taken away, no matter how much Rong Jinnian begged and cried, it was useless.

At that moment, Rong Jinnian was desperate, sadly she was still thinking, if Xia Qingyi was here, it would be fine.

When she needs Xia Qingyi, Xia Qingyi will never be there. What's the use of missing you so much?Rong Jinnian cried until his voice became hoarse.Yes, I didn't know what to do except cry, I was beaten until I lost consciousness.

When the rain was getting heavier, Rong Jinnian began to regain consciousness. She had just gotten up when she heard the sound behind her. She turned her head in fear. A well-dressed girl was holding an umbrella and was looking at her.Rong Jinnian was suddenly terrified, she had nothing but this life.

This person is Yang Xuanni. It can be said that the days without Xia Qingyi, thanks to Yang Xuanni, Rong Jinnian survived.

But this also happened later. Rong Jinnian, who was rescued by Yang Xuanni, fell seriously ill.Rong Jinnian didn't call her family, she knew it was Yang Xuanni who paid her all the expenses in advance, Rong Jinnian was grateful, but it was more of a burden.

Except for Xia Qingyi, everything others gave her was a huge burden. Rong Jinnian thought about Xia Qingyi like crazy, as long as Xia Qingyi wanted her, she was willing to pay any price.

So, one night, Rong Jinnian suddenly woke up from a dream, like crazy, with only one thought left in his mind, she wanted Xia Qingyi and nothing else, even her life.

Barefoot and wearing a hospital gown, Rong Jinnian ran down the stairs to the telephone booth closest to the hospital.

Rong Jinnian ran all the way, at first he could feel pain in his feet, but the back was already numb.Rong Jinnian ran desperately, as if if she was one step too late, Xia Qingyi would leave forever.Except for the phone call at home, she never called the phone card last time, and there was still money in the card.

Rong Jinnian's hands were trembling, he pressed the most familiar number, and just beeped, Rong Jinnian began to say: "Xia Qingyi, don't want me, okay? I was wrong, I shouldn't lie You, I was wrong, forgive me, okay? I'll go find you! Tell me where you are?" Rong Jinnian didn't dare to waste a second, didn't dare to take a breath, the phone was still beeping.

"Yiyi, why don't you talk?" Rong Jinnian was trembling with cold, tears began to roll down, "You must be angry, aren't you? It's my fault, it's all my fault, I'll kneel down for you, okay?" Okay?" Rong Jinnian wiped away tears, tightly clutching the phone that was never connected.

"Yi, Yiyi, Yiyi..." Rong Jinnian knelt down with a plop, and cried, "I knelt down for you, did you hear me? Yiyi, it doesn't matter if you hate me, you hate me It doesn't matter, as long as you let me continue to like you, I promise not to tell you, not to cause you trouble, don't want me, okay? Yiyi... I beg you."

The phone already indicated that no one answered the call you made, but Rong Jinnian didn't seem to hear it, "You still don't want me anymore, I hate you, Xia Qingyi, you hate me so much, but I still can't bear you, So, I hate myself even more." Rong Jinnian was crying so hard that he couldn't say a complete sentence.

Her Yiyi didn't want her anymore, completely abandoned her, Rong Jinnian was in despair.Crying and laughing suddenly, Rong Jinnian knelt there, leaning against the glass so as not to fall down, Rong Jinnian wiped his tears and said with a smile: "I must have done too many sins, that's why I don't have a home , without you, since you all don't want me, I don't want myself either."

Isn't it just death?When Rong Jinnian thought of death, she had no fear, but felt that it was the last ray of light in her world.