The Legend of Nanshan Jun

Brother Mu moved very quickly, and arrived at Donghua Pavilion that afternoon, but hesitated outside my room for a long time.

"How?" I was the first to speak.

In fact, when I saw him coming in, my heart was half cold.

Mu Bin took a deep breath, handed a prescription to my hand, pointed to one of the medicines, "Do you know this medicine?"

I looked carefully and shook my head.

"It's this medicine that makes you have a miscarriage and can't conceive."

"Didn't you feel sore when you took Hongsu soup? It's because of this medicine."

"But even if you take it every day, it won't hurt your body."

"Ling Xi, what's wrong with you? Are you okay?"

Mu Bin supported my body that was about to fall, with a concerned expression on his face.

But my body was still trembling involuntarily, and I felt unprecedented fear.

Holding on to the last shred of hope, I asked with a trembling voice, "Do other imperial physicians know about this medicine?"

Mu Bin did not answer, but nodded slightly.

At this moment, my world seemed to collapse.

Nothing in the world scares me more than this.

"Xiao Xi, don't be afraid, I will always be by your side, and no one will hurt you again." Mu Bin hugged my crumbling body and patted my back lightly, trying to soothe my fear at the moment.

I pushed him away, took a few unsteady steps and stepped to the door, holding on to the door rail to stabilize myself.

"Brother Mu, you lied to me, right? Why is there something wrong with this prescription?" I muttered to myself like crazy, "This is a prescription prescribed by your master, and it is a prescription that several imperial physicians have seen. , Are they all blind?"

No... how could they be blind?

Everyone speaks in the same voice, and if black and white are reversed, there is only one reasonable explanation - Li Zhenrui.

No wonder he stared at me every day and drank the medicine. It turned out that he was not worried about my body, but just didn't want me to get pregnant.

Seeing my madness, Mu Bin was heartbroken, but he refused to lie to me.

"Your fetus is inherently unstable, and your health is not good. If you use ordinary abortion medicine to damage your body, you can use this medicine to nourish you unconsciously..."

This sentence seemed to delay me once again, and it hurt my heart.

So, I had a miscarriage not long after...

So, in the past six months, although I have been with him every day...but I have not been able to conceive...

I tried my best, but I couldn't keep my baby.

Tears kept overflowing from my eyes, and I was crying heartbroken.

Yeah, when did I see his smile from the moment he knew I was pregnant?When did you see even a glimmer of expectation from him for the child?

He didn't want me to be pregnant at all, and I foolishly hoped to have the same blood with him.

How ridiculous?

How sad?

If I could, I wish I would never know the truth. The truth is too cruel for me to bear.

Xie Lingxi, you were played around by this man, but he stabbed you in the back.

You touched the blood on your hand, and thought it was a good medicine to cure the disease, and licked it off inch by inch ignorantly.

It's really hard for me to accept, it's hard to believe that this man who spends time with me every day and spends every night with me, would treat me like this.

I trusted him with all my heart and fell in love with him, but in exchange for this kind of treatment from him?

I really can't accept it, can't accept it...

My mind was heavy, and everything around me began to spin, faster and faster, as if I couldn't hear the voices of Brother Mu and Dieyi.

My throat was fishy and sweet, and I vomited a mouthful of blood in the "wow" of their exclamation.

I saw the blood on the ground clearly, and then gradually became clear, and my eyes finally stopped spinning.

I waved away Die Yiyu's hand that came to help me, and stumbled to go out.

This place does not belong to me.

I shouldn't be here.

But as soon as he stepped out with his right foot, he stepped on the empty steps with an unstable center of gravity, and the whole person fell heavily to the ground uncontrollably, unconscious.

When I opened my eyes again, I saw Li Zhenrui sitting by the bed and looking at me.

"Xi'er, are you awake?" He stretched out his hand to hold my hand, with concern in his voice.

The moment his hand touched mine, my hand trembled, almost instinctively wanting to withdraw it.

"I heard that you were injured from a fall, are you feeling better now?" Li Zhenrui asked.

I avoided his gaze, lowered my eyes, and only nodded slightly.

Li Zhenrui was a little dazed, and after a while, he suddenly remembered something, gently lifted a corner of the quilt, "Let me see how the injury is doing."

My leg ducked in, but he finally touched it.

He lowered his head, gently touched his bruised knee, and said to himself with some distress, "There are bruises all over."

Then I bent down, put my lips on my injured area, as if coaxing a child, and smiled, "Okay, it doesn't hurt anymore, Xi'er won't cry."

The tip of my nose was a little sour, but it wasn't because I was moved.

He took a bottle of medicine, poured it in the palm of his hand, took a little bit of it, and gently rubbed my injured area with the other hand, then turned his head to look at me.

As soon as I met his gaze, I lowered my head again.

Li Zhenrui seemed to have noticed something strange, and asked suspiciously, "Xi'er, are you angry with me?"

I kept my head down and didn't speak.

Time seemed to pass very long, every minute and every second seemed like a hundred years.

Until Li Zhenrui's self-blaming voice sounded, "It's my fault, I didn't come to see you immediately."

And I still don't say a word.

It was as if he had lost the ability to talk to him, unable to utter a single word.

Li Zhenrui became more and more confused, and his expression was not as calm as before, "Xi'er, what's wrong with you?"

"Did I do something wrong?"

"Even if you want to punish me, you have to make it clear!"

what can i say

What should I say?

Just thinking about what he did to me makes my heart throb so hard I can barely breathe.

I buried myself in the quilt, and tears rolled down in the dark.

I cried silently, but the pain was utter.

Li Zhenrui hugged me through the quilt, "Xi'er?"

"Are you crying?" He asked tentatively outside.

I quickly stopped my tears and didn't dare to move my body any more.

I'm really confused, today's abnormality will definitely make Li Zhenrui suspicious.

The first time Mu Bin came to see me today, I knew about the problem of the prescription. No matter how stupid Li Zhenrui was, he could guess who told me, so Mu Bin would be in danger.

I was getting more and more depressed because I couldn't vent, and I had to pretend I didn't know, but I finally came back to my senses.

I quickly wiped away the tears on my face, and didn't remove the quilt until my eyelashes were dry. I leaned into Li Zhenrui's arms, but avoided his eyes.

Li Zhenrui was a little surprised, hugged me back, patted my back and smiled, "What's the matter, you surprised me just now."

I replied a little sullenly, "I made a fool of myself today, I don't want to be laughed at by the emperor."

Li Zhenrui couldn't help laughing, he didn't expect it to be such an unexpected reason.

"Fool, why would I laugh at you? I'm only worried about whether you've hurt yourself or not."

The tip of my nose started to feel sore again, and I took a deep breath before I complained and felt wronged, "It really hurts."

I stretched out my other leg, and a big part was broken, but Mu Bin had bandaged it to stop the bleeding.

As soon as Li Zhenrui's hand touched the injured place, I showed an unbearable expression. Li Zhenrui quickly withdrew his hand, and only patted my back to comfort me, "It's okay, just bear with it for a few days and it will be fine."

He kissed my forehead lightly, "There will be no scars, I promise."

I nodded, and my eyes fell on the injured leg for a long time.

Even if the wound on the leg can heal, the wound on the heart will never heal in this life.

The bowls of red su soup have torn a hole in my trust in him, revealing the bloody truth.

The embankment of a thousand miles was destroyed in the ant's nest.

From then on, I could no longer trust him with all my heart.

He's been with me since the afternoon, and it's been hard for me to get along with him.

Forcing a smile is not something I am good at, so I can only pretend that I am reading the book carefully and occasionally answer a sentence or two of his questions.

I didn't expect that Li Zhenrui would be interested in astrology, and he even asked me a lot about my views on national fortune and current affairs.

And I, only when I say these things, I barely have some energy.

At night, despite my persuasion many times, Li Zhenrui still did not return to the Hall of Eternal Life. He lay down next to me and held me in his arms.

Skin to skin touched, I was stiff for a moment, and then slowly relaxed my body.

Li Zhenrui held my hand, his gaze kept on my face, but he didn't speak.

I closed my eyes and turned my face slightly.

Li Zhenrui put his right hand on my cheek, turned my face to him, and said seriously, "Xi'er, you are not happy."

Although I had to face his face, my eyes were still loose, and I replied unconsciously, "No."

Li Zhenrui said affirmatively, "You are unhappy, I can feel it."

I always thought that Li Zhenrui wouldn't pay attention to these trivial things, but I didn't expect him to be sensitive sometimes, or maybe my disguise was too failed.

That being the case, I don't have to pretend to be happy anymore.

The matter of Hongsu soup needs to be resolved as soon as possible.

I tried my best, covered my lower abdomen, frowned and said, "I feel uncomfortable in my lower abdomen after drinking the Hongsu soup today, and it seems to be red."

When Li Zhenrui heard this, he was surprised, "Why didn't you tell me about this earlier? How is it now?" After speaking, he reached out and touched my lower abdomen, and gently massaged, "Is this better?"

I shook my head and said, "I've already asked Imperial Physician Mu to prescribe medicine for me, and I'm fine."

Only then did Li Zhenrui feel relieved, "It's fine."

I hastily added another sentence, "Emperor Mu's new prescription is very good, I don't want to take Hongsu soup anymore."

Li Zhenrui paused for a moment with his massaging hand, and then replied, "Okay."

My heart throbbed unexpectedly again.

When I dreamed back at midnight, I was awakened by the nightmare, covered in cold sweat.

Since coughing up blood that day, I contracted a cold again, and my condition recurred, and my body became much weaker.

Fortunately, Mu Bin treated and adjusted me, and I gradually got better, but I was often accompanied by coughing, insomnia and dreaminess, and palpitations.