Rihu's Pit Brother's Journey

Ji Guoyansheng's first impression of Osamu Dazai was actually very bad.

"Hi everyone, I'm Dazai Osamu, your Chinese teacher, yes, it's the Dazai Osamu you thought of? Signatures are only for beauties, not boys~"

...It is simply a masterpiece of a bad person, definitely the kind of person that my father would say 'don't be'.

Iwakatsu didn't even remember his appearance. Yes, Osamu Dazai was good-looking, even for a child like Yuanyi and Iwakatsu who was already at the peak of his appearance, he was very handsome, but he It looks too skinny.

Following the country's criteria for judging whether a person is excellent is never appearance, but strength. To be specific, it is the value of force and brains.

At that time, Jikuni Iwakatsu had never read Dazai Osamu's works.

He has heard of such an author who has written books. The types of books are fantasy stories and decadentism. In short, neither of them is in his preference, and he has never paid attention to them.

As a result, Dazai-sensei, whom most of the class touts and pursues, has no attraction for him.What's more, the other party's lack of etiquette and frivolous style made him have a very bad impression of him.

Looking back now, it may be because of this, yes, it should be because of this, but Dazai Osamu noticed Iwakatsu.

"Student Yansheng, help me collect my homework."

"The weather is fine today. I'm going out to gather wind and find a good place to hang myself. You are in charge of the self-study of the class, Yan Sheng~"

"Student Yansheng~ Teacher is stuck in a cement bucket, come and save me~!"

...you just die.

Mr. Dazai is really a man who easily triggers negative emotions.Even Ji Guoyansheng, who is cold-faced and cold-hearted, has the urge to beat him to death.

From looking for trouble at the beginning, to entanglement later, to pranks without any reason in the end, it has invaded the students' private space to the point of heinous.

Ji Guoyansheng finally lost his temper.

"What do you want to do, Dazai-sensei, can you just tell me?"

Osamu Dazai widened his eyes, looking surprised: "Hey? So it's not facial paralysis? I thought facial paralysis was a family inheritance in your family. Look, Yuanyi-kun is like that, right?"

Ji Kuniyan Katsu was annoyed, and he beat Dazai Osamu.

Now that I think about it, that guy did it on purpose.You Qi mentioned Yuan Yi, which was too deliberate.

This is great, Teacher Dazai caught the handle, okay, the student beat the teacher, and he secretly photographed it, this will be taken to the school, no, no, no, just show it to his father, he will feel better.

"I really can't help it. Who told you to take action, Yan Sheng. From now on, you are mine, um~ accomplice, let's go, let's do something interesting!"

After that, he was taken away by Osamu Dazai, sneaked into a human trafficking organization, dug up the other party's treasury, intercepted the trafficking route and sent the police, and blamed all these things on the head of another gang organization.

Yan Sheng: ...? ! !

Wait, aren't you a Chinese teacher?What are you doing!

There is no denying that doing these things is really exciting and addictive.

But Osamu Dazai has a bad mind. After he made such a vote, he taught everyone like an ordinary Chinese teacher.

Occasionally he would ask Yan Sheng to come out privately, but after calling him out, he would just spit out sludge like dumping garbage, telling him that the weather today is really bad, and I feel sorry for my suicide failure. Do you know that people have no future or hope in life? Barbara these words.

Ji Guoyan was full of problems, but could only bear with it, listening to this sludge spirit create mental pollution for himself.

Then Osamu Dazai said to him: "Do you want to read my work a little this time?"

Ji Guoyan Sheng: ...? ?

You do this because you are dissatisfied that I am not your reader?

He simply felt that his heart, which he didn't know what it was, was feeding the dog for nothing!

But you have to admit that Dazai's trick is very useful, and Ji Guoyansheng really began to wonder what kind of book such a person would write.

So he read one of them, the one with the lowest level of mental pollution from the book reviews, a book about supernatural wars.

After reading it, he was confused.To be honest, I finished reading it completely and missed the central idea at all.What is Osamu Dazai trying to talk about in this book?What do you want to express?He just saw a bunch of people beating up with weird abilities, and then Yokohama was bombed several times in this book.The stalks of various names and titles are flying very vigorously, and the story is also very exciting, but it is completely unclear what kind of central idea the author wants to express.Even the protagonist is not Osamu Dazai himself, but a boy named Atsushi Nakajima.The boy's character is not his style at all, he is just a very orthodox messenger of justice in the world.

"I don't understand at all why you wrote this book and why anyone else enjoys reading it."

Ji Guoyansheng told his teacher about his impressions after reading this book.

Dazai was curious: "Hey? Why why?"

Yan Sheng said with a straight face: "There is no reason. I just feel that you in the story are too fake and not like you at all. He may have played a good person according to his friend's last words, but it was so disgusting that it made me want to vomit. The story itself is the same, it caters too much to the orthodox, it’s a story about the orthodox hero defeating the villain for more people to buy, unlike the story you wrote.”

Dazai-sensei's expression changed from surprise to calm, and finally a very soft, sad smirk like a clown whose truth has been exposed.

"That's it. Actually, I... am really not good at stories like this. What I write is like sludge and spiritual pollution."

...He has self-knowledge, this man.

"I just wrote that, thought that and wrote that, and then... somebody killed himself."

"Even if you make an excuse, it's not the book's fault, but it's useless for people who like such books to be full of pessimism, right?"

"So it can only be the book's fault."

"My friend told me, I am so talented, try to write other stories. I just imagined, if it was a world with supernatural powers, and I was a mafia, how would such a story develop. "

"Sure enough...is it still too fake? I really am not good at being a good person."

There is no beginning and no end.I have absolutely no idea what he wants to express.

And as an adult, is it okay to say this to your own high school students?This is mental pollution!

Even if he thought so in his heart, Ji Kuniwakatsu didn't know why, and he couldn't refuse Dazai-sensei's request from then on.

Whether it's collecting homework, pulling him to cheat or abduct him, or listening to him pour out his negative emotions, as long as it is proposed by Dazai, he will always find it difficult to refuse.

And Dazai Osamu is also very cunning, he hides a wonderful preference for Iwakatsu in a form that is almost teasing.The other students, including his younger brother Enichi, didn't notice at all. They just thought that Mr. Dazai always liked to oppress Iwakatsu to help this group and that group.

Yuan Yi couldn't help but said to him: "My lord brother, if that teacher's request is too much, you should refuse. The teacher's status is not an excuse for him to order you at will."

Yansheng: ...

He didn't even know how to explain it to his brother.

Even an explanation would be difficult to understand, because from a reasonable point of view, his behavior is illogical, and he is completely following Dazai Osamu's orders without any reason, which is really the case.

After that, Osamu Dazai hanged himself from a tree.

Too bad the branch broke.

Osamu Dazai was taken away by the police and fined for obstructing public order. He had no money, so he asked Iwakatsu to pay the fee for him.

...I have never seen a teacher who asked students to come to the police station to collect them.

This guy is so bad it's not surprising when he gets fired.

But looking at the crying and saying, why did I fail, why did I not only fail but also be arrested by the police, why am I so unlucky...

Such a child-like Osamu Dazai.

Ji Guoyansheng still took him to eat ramen.

From the beginning to the end, he never asked the teacher why he did this. It was not out of consideration, but the whole thing was so ridiculous that even the policemen on bail could not stop laughing when they sent them away.

...It's like a buffoon, anyone would think so.

Even after a long time later, when he thought about it again and again, he still couldn't think of any merits in this person that could be called a teacher.

I have to admit that Osamu Dazai is indeed very smart, but his smartness is used in undesirable places.As a human being, as a teacher, he had absolutely no positive influence on his students.

Ji Guoyan Sheng didn't understand at all why this guy had so many fans and so many girls shed tears for him.

But he couldn't tell why, no matter how much he pretended nothing had happened, as long as this person called his name, he would go over, no matter what the reason was or what it was for.

…Similar episodes have happened many times since then, ranging from being hanged and crashed into the water repeatedly, to the point where the police even memorized his cell phone number.

Then, another thing happened.

Rumors suddenly appeared in the school that Dazai Osamu was in love with a lower grade female student.

He couldn't remember the girl's name, anyway, it was a very groundless nonsense, because Iwakatsu, who was with Osamu Dazai most often, had never seen this girl at all.

Teacher Dazai had to clarify publicly: "There is no such thing. Occasionally, some girls feel embarrassed to tell their parents something, but they like to ask me to confide little secrets and ask for some advice. Of course I will not tell others the privacy of teenagers. I hope Don't get me wrong, everyone."

Then that girl, not knowing what to think, left the class crying, and then transferred directly.

Because of this incident, Mr. Dazai's reputation in the school plummeted.

In Yansheng's view, this is completely unreasonable, without any logic and no need to pay attention to it.But this seems to have hurt Dazai.Obviously not a person who cares about public opinion, but unexpectedly easily hurt by others' malice.

"Sure enough, I'm still not fit to be a good person, Iwakatsu."

Dazai said that as if joking.

But he could see that this grown-up was really hurt because of such a trivial matter.

"Don't care about them. They are all dispensable people, they don't matter to you."

"So, who is the important person, Iwakatsu? No, I don't have such a person."

Yan Sheng didn't know how to answer, so he could only say, "It's not those people anyway."

He can't speak much.

In the end, that's all I can say.

Ji Guoyansheng finally couldn't hold back, and secretly investigated it himself.

It turned out that the girl was prostitution, and at first she was only encouraged to go, but then she couldn't stop, and she was very scared, so she went to Mr. Dazai to discuss it.Iwakatsu didn't know what advice Dazai gave her, but he probably didn't take it. Anyway, she was still prostitution after transferring to another school, and she didn't clarify that she and Dazai Osamu didn't actually have that kind of relationship.From the point of view of the girl, telling her that she has a secret is already a betrayal, and she wished that Dazai would be questioned by everyone, so that his life would be bad.

... The cause and effect are so outrageous that Iwakatsu thought for a moment that he had made a mistake. It was hard for him to imagine that this was what Osamu Dazai, who wrote such a book and made him play the villain again and again, did.

This guy who everyone thinks is shameless and shameless is so fragile psychologically that he is easily hurt by the behavior of a random high school girl who is not considered betrayal.He's supposed to be the kind of guy who goes 'ah, I knew that' no matter what happens.This kind of thing, shouldn't he already know that it will develop like this, so he took action in advance?

... Or, knowing that it will develop to this point, still want to try to see if there will be something beyond imagination.Using himself to test human nature is also very similar to his style.

Iwakatsu didn't understand Osamu Dazai, what he was thinking, and what he wanted to do, but he didn't think about it further.

Yansheng has his own troubles, about his family, about his father, about his mission to come to this school, and the younger brother who took away everything from him, etc. He shouldn't put too much energy on it on others.They're just a normal teacher-student relationship, aren't they?

……

…………

Three months after that, the young writer 'stumbled' from the academy rooftop.

Another month after that, Jikuni Iwakatsu participated in an experiment by Saiki Sorasuke.

This is something that happened in the very distant future.

The author has something to say: Dazai is an unexpected and fragile person.His reasons for choosing to die aren't that great or deep, it's just that, at his most vulnerable, the straw falls and he's on his own.Only Yansheng noticed his fragile side under the surface.But Yansheng felt that his attention to this person exceeded the limit, so he flinched.He has always regretted it, even if he said one more word at that time, the ending might be different.

... It is said that many people who make such choices are not without warning. People around them actually have the opportunity to stop them, but often everyone does not notice, and they are only busy with themselves.This is the case here.

Iwakatsu is the one who was hurt by this fact, and even time cannot erase the irreparable psychological trauma.It is not Osamu Dazai who needs to be treated now, but himself, but he does not realize this.

...But it doesn't matter, Brother Keng's younger brother will tell him that those pains are really nothing!That's right, they really are brothers, right?