throbbing for you

It was the same last time, like a dream, Shi Yi stood in the dormitory in the dark, looked at himself with very gentle eyes, and then pushed himself into the abyss with very hurtful words.That kind of pain was too unforgettable. Since then, even in her dreams, she has restrained herself, not daring to go beyond it.

There is only a moment of ecstasy, and then there is a sober panic.Subconsciously, she wanted to withdraw her hand.

Shi Yi held her even harder, not letting her break free.

Fu Sitian suddenly became confused, his head couldn't function, and his heart was completely out of order. "Shi Yi..." She trembled as if she wanted to ask something: "You..."

Shi Yi stared at her without blinking, with pleading in his eyes.

Fu Sitian's question disappeared in his throat.There was sadness in her eyes, and she suddenly gave a wry smile, raised her head, closed her eyes, and murmured to herself, "I must be crazy..."

Otherwise, how can there be hallucinations.

The thin voice was crying.Shi Yi couldn't see her expression, but could only see the girl's tears continuously slipping down from her chin like broken beads, piercing her heart.

She didn't know why Fu Sitian said that.But she never wanted to see Fu Sitian cry, never wanted Fu Sitian to be so wronged and miserable.She wet her eyes, let go of Fu Sitian's hand, and climbed up holding the handrail of the ladder. She stood at a height shorter than Fu Sitian's by a head. with tears.

The coldness of the fingertips on the cheek is too real, and the gentleness is too real.Fu Sitian pinched his fingertips fiercely with his fingertips on the quilt.

The pain was numb, and this falsehood didn't end.Fu Sitian opened his tearful eyes, looking at this face that she was so fond of, she couldn't love, and couldn't forget, she completely collapsed. "Shi Yi... tell me, am I dreaming? Am I crazy?"

Her pale little face was full of tears, which seemed impossible to wipe away.Shi Yi stroked Fu Sitian's cheek, his throat was blocked, his voice was hoarse, but his tone was so soft that water could be wrung out: "It's not a dream, it's real. Si Tian, ​​I'm sorry to keep you waiting for so long."

"It made you feel wronged."

In the darkness, Fu Sitian's breathing suddenly became deeper. "Shi Yi, why... why are you doing this?"

Why don't she like her and don't let her dislike her? Why does she want to give her hope, tease her, and push her into deeper despair after she has clearly convinced herself to give up and is used to living in the dark? .

She couldn't bear it anymore, she wanted to hold back crying but she couldn't do it, choked up so that she couldn't speak: "What do you want, what do you want from me?"

She bit her lower lip tightly, fearing that the cry would leak out, so she curled up and hid her head in her knees.The sobs were held in his throat, very light and muffled.

The voice is weak but piercing.Shi Yi's tears rolled down uncontrollably.

She leaned forward and embraced Fu Sitian's whole body.In the embrace, the girl's shoulders trembled, and she was so skinny.Shi Yi's heart was cut like a knife, "I don't want to do anything." She pressed her forehead against Fu Sitian's hair, and her voice was tinged with astringency, "I want to be with you. I want to accompany you for insomnia and sleep peacefully. I want to give you the stars and the smile.”

"Si Tian, ​​promise me to be my girlfriend, okay?"

Fu Sitian's body trembled even more.Her head was filled with the echo of Shi Yi's voice, "Si Tian, ​​promise me to be my girlfriend, okay?" A huge wave of joy swept towards her with endless sorrow, engulfing her mercilessly.

Every cell in her body was clamoring for her to agree, but she bit her lower lip and said with blood in her mouth, "No, Shi Yi."

She raised her head to look at Shi Yi, her long eyelashes fluttered, tears fell down, her eyes filled with endless love and despair.

Shi Yi didn't understand.Si Tian... rejected her?She was still unwilling to react, but the heartache had already swept through her limbs, and she almost couldn't grasp the armrest to stabilize her body.

"Why? Don't you like me?" Shi Yi lost all expression, her voice was as low as stagnant water.

Fu Sitian shook his head, exhausted his last strength, and said sadly: "Shi Yi, you have a boyfriend."

"Didn't you say disgusting?"

When she advised Shi Yi, she also advised herself: "Don't be like your father." Don't hurt innocent people in the name of love.

Shi Yi slowly frowned, and the more he frowned, "I have a boyfriend?"

"Who? I don't know myself?"

The inexplicable and displeasure on her face did not seem to be fake, Fu Sitian even forgot to breathe, he was stunned, his head shook some possibility, and his heart beat wildly in an instant.

"You... Didn't you agree to the pursuit of the boy who often takes classes with you?" She said with a tight throat.

Shi Yi looked at her pitiful and nervous expression, and suddenly understood, the pain faded away, he was thankful and angry at the same time, "Who are you listening to nonsense?"

Anyone could hear the denial in her tone.

Fu Sitian's tears stopped, he opened his lips slightly, and a huge surprise burst out of his eyes.

Shi Yi had a false alarm and couldn't help sighing.She raised her hand to touch Fu Sitian's forehead, "Who do you think I am?"

Fu Sitian seemed to have been stunned by surprise, he didn't move, and the reflection in the pulsating water was all her.Shi Yi's heart softened again, following the movement of flicking her forehead, his knuckles slid down, and gently scratched her nose, "I am a different person from him."

Her expression was solemn and reassuring: "I admit, I thought about escaping and being with Xia Ke. But I couldn't do it. I rejected him. What's disgusting is not the liking itself, but the first person who deceives the innocent." Three."

"I'll never be like my dad."

"Si Tian, ​​I apologize for my prejudice."

Fu Sitian's numb body was completely revived, and she heard her heart beating happily and powerfully in her chest for a long time.The whole person was in a state of ecstasy, as if he was alive after a catastrophe. He obviously wanted to laugh, but in the blink of an eye, tears blurred his vision again.

But Shi Yi was still giving her more happiness, stimulating her tear glands, "So I don't have a boyfriend, I'll ask again."

She grabbed Fu Sitian's hand, interlocking her fingers, with calm eyes and a smile, but there was an unconcealable tension in her voice, "Si Tian, ​​do you still like me? Do you still want to be with me?"

At that moment, Fu Sitian was convinced that he saw his own bright starry sky in Shi Yi's eyes.

She couldn't bear it any longer, lowered her body, put her arms around Shi Yi's neck, and said to her countless times that she wanted to kill her, thinking that she would never see the light again: "I like you, Shi Yi, I like you, I like you very much like you very much."

Tears flowed down his neck into Shi Yi's heart.

Shi Yi hugged her back tightly, his nose was suffocated, and his eyes were covered with mist.

Just as she was about to speak, the dormitory door suddenly squeaked.

She heard it, and Fu Sitian also heard it.Before he had time to think about it, Fu Sitian quickly let go of Shi Yi and sat upright on a reflex. Shi Yi was inexplicably guilty by her reaction, and quickly jumped off the ladder and stood on the ground.

Can't panic, everything is done in one go, everything is only in the blink of an eye.

The "squeak" of the door disappeared, and several seconds passed without the imaginary footsteps.

The two turned their heads to look at the door in unison.A thin gap appeared between the door and its frame, and the light in the passage cast a thin streak of light on the wall.

It must be the wind...

Shi Yi mechanically turned his head to look at Fu Sitian, and Fu Sitian was also looking at her with a blushing face.Looking at each other, Shi Yi suddenly couldn't help but licked the corners of his lips and laughed out loud.

What a stupid thing she did tonight.

Fu Sitian was so affected by her smile that he also bent his brows and eyes, his long eyelashes still had tears, and his tears turned into a smile.

Neither of them was willing to move their eyes away, looking at each other's smile for a few seconds, the two were sweet in their hearts, but also a little embarrassed.

The laugh stopped, and the air was quiet for two seconds. Fu Sitian lowered his eyes and asked softly, "Did you come here by car?"

Shi Yi dried his throat, "Yes."

"Then... do you want to go back?" Fu Sitian unconsciously twisted the corner of the quilt with his fingers, glanced at Shi Yi quickly, and lowered his head again.

Shi Yi thought she was so cute.It felt like something was about to overflow.

She approached, raised her head deliberately to find Fu Sitian's eyes, and asked, "Then can I not go back?"

Fu Sitian's eyes were rippling, he bit his lip and said nothing, propping up his arms, he stepped back.It's self-evident what it means.

Shi Yi let out a laugh in satisfaction.The feeling of shackles that had trapped her for a long time disappeared completely.

"Lend me the slippers, can I wash my feet?"

"Okay." Fu Sitian responded obediently.

There was only a pair of elegant cotton slippers beside the ladder, Shi Yi bent down to lift them up, and walked to the bathroom, Fu Sitian suddenly called her nervously: "Shi Yi, did you come here without shoes?"

Shi Yi froze, hiding his embarrassment, and let out a natural "hmm".

The sound of the bed shaking immediately sounded in the quiet space, and immediately, Fu Sitian landed in front of her bare feet.

"Shi Yi, you..." She hesitated to speak, "Idiot."

She scolded her, and the circles of her eyes quickly turned red again. She snatched the slippers from Shi Yi's hand and squatted down, telling her in a muffled voice: "Put on the shoes first, and I'll turn on the light to see if there is any injury."

The warm little hands touched her feet regardless of the dirt, and the warm liquid dripped down.

Shi Yi's heart was burned.

She stretched out her hand to pull Fu Sitian's shoulder, and Fu Sitian looked up at her without knowing why, his clear eyes were full of distress.

"I wear it myself."

Fu Sitian blinked, and opened and closed his seductive lips slightly, "Okay, I'll turn on the light."

She stood up and was about to turn around and walk towards the door when Shi Yi suddenly grabbed her wrist with one hand and protected the back of her head with the other, and pushed her onto the ladder.

Before she had time to be surprised, Shi Yi's nose tip rubbed against hers, and her soft lips fell down.

Fu Sitian couldn't describe the feeling at that moment.

It was as if an electric current passed through her whole body in an instant, the pores all over her body stood up, and her whole body seemed to be filled with a heart, beating so hard that she was almost out of oxygen.

Shi Yi lightly licked her lips, and pressed them repeatedly, Fu Sitian couldn't take it anymore, his whole body was so hot that he felt dizzy and was about to go limp.

Shi Yi let her go.

She leaned against her forehead, panting lightly, her eyes were still stained with burning heat, her red lips slowly raised, her whole body was like a white rose in full bloom.

Cool and luxurious, soft but not flattering, captivating.

"Si Tian." She called her with a smile. "I didn't have time to say it just now."

"I like you too."

"I like you very much."