throbbing for you

Fu Sitian didn't change the ticket, and didn't want to change the ticket. Fu Sitian sat at the station with a daze, and it was time to say goodbye.She returned to Ningcheng according to the original train number.

It was already 07:30 in the evening when we arrived at Ningcheng's home.The house was pitch black except for Fu Siyu's faint light peeking out from under the crack of the door.There were still no slippers belonging to Fu Sitian in the shoe cabinet. Fu Sitian sat in a daze for a few seconds, changed his shoes, packed his mood and walked to Fu Siyu's room.

She raised her hand and knocked on the door, but after two clicks, the door opened.Fu Siyu leaned against the door with his arms around his chest, and the corners of his lips showed obvious sarcasm, "Hey, let me see, who is this coming back?"

Fu Sitian forced a smile and asked, "Xiaoyu, where are uncles and aunts? Are you working overtime?"

"How would I know." Fu Siyu smiled, "How can I know about issues that you, Wen Quxing, don't even know about? My parents know that you, a busy person, can still take care of them. I don't know how touched you are."

"Little fish..." Fu Sitian was at a loss.

Fu Siyu hates her appearance the most, as if she is the most wronged, innocent and harmless in the whole world, and she needs the love of others the most.He didn't even want to give her the sly smile, "Is there anything else you can do? It's okay, don't make me disgusted by shaking me in front of my eyes, okay?"

Fu Sitian's face turned pale, and he couldn't hold back his smile, but he still cared about her: "Have you eaten yet?"

"My parents are not here, can you stop pretending?" Fu Siyu seemed to have been poked into some nerve, her voice suddenly raised an octave, and she became irritable, "What are you pretending, what are you pretending!"

If you really cared about her, you wouldn't know that she needed comfort most when she failed the college entrance examination, but came back after hiding until now.

She turned back to the room, suddenly picked up something, and threw it viciously at the door.The box hit the door panel, making a loud "bang", and the lid was knocked open. The scratched notebooks, broken fountain pens, smashed rabbit decorations inside... were fragmented and fell to the ground.

It was a gift from Shi Yi for the Lantern Festival.

Fu Sitian lowered his head and stared blankly, as if he couldn't react.

"Pretend it! Pretend it again!" Fu Siyu roared angrily.

The last thought was gone.The pain came belatedly, Fu Sitian raised his hand to support the door frame, and his eyes suddenly turned black.

"Why are you doing this to me..." Her voice was as harsh as if it had been honed by sandpaper.

Fu Siyu's eye circles also turned red, "Why? Fu Sitian, you actually asked me why, and I still want to ask you why?" Her tears rolled down, and she couldn't bear it: "Why did you come back! Why did you show up at my house! Why did my dad Mom wants to take you in! Why are you better than me in everything! Why are you trying to prevent me from going to high school, and now I can’t go to college, why!"

"Why is it not enough for your father to ruin someone else's life, you have to come and ruin mine." She was hysterical.

One wrong step, one wrong step, from the moment Fu Sitian appeared at her house, everything was wrong!

"Fu Sitian, don't you want to come back? Why are you coming back? Get out, get out of my house!"

Fu Sitian felt chills all over his body, he was on the verge of falling, bit his lower lip dripping with blood, but he didn't even dare to let out a slightly heavy gasp.She should have said "I'm sorry", but the sadness and desolation bent her spine, and it took all her strength to stand upright like this.

Sorry, it's not what Fu Siyu wanted to hear.

Fu Siyu suddenly kicked the door hard, pushed Fu Sitian away and walked out, "Okay, if you don't go, I'll go, let me go!"

Fu Sitian was anxious and dizzy, he couldn't hold the door frame steady, and fell to the ground. "Little fish..." she called weakly.

Fu Siyu didn't look back at her, her swaying steps gradually merged with the night.

Fu Sitian's world fell into darkness.

After an unknown amount of time, Fu Sitian regained consciousness and struggled to open his eyes.At first, there was a dazzling light, and gradually, the light revealed its shape, which was the ceiling, the ceiling at the door of Fu Siyu's room.It's the real world she should be in.

She seemed to faint.

If only I never woke up.For a moment, she flashed this thought, and then she was horrified by herself.

In the cold light, she seemed to see the woman's gentle smiling face again: "Come on, you are mother's little sun, mother's hope."

Mother……

impossible.She wants to grow up well, and grow into the hope that her mother wants.

She slowly supported herself to sit up, first called Fu Siyu, but Fu Siyu didn't answer, then she called Fu Jiantao and told him that she and Fu Siyu had quarreled, and now Fu Siyu ran away from home and brought her mobile phone, but she didn't answer her phone.Uncle told her not to worry, he called to see.

She hung up the phone, picked up a piece of chocolate that Ben had been reluctant to eat from the ground, and held it in her mouth to relieve her dizziness. Even the wrapping paper was reluctant to be thrown away, and she put it in her pocket.She supported the door and stood up. After recovering, she went out to look for Fu Siyu.

Walking to the first floor with a lack of energy, Fu Jiantao called, saying that Wang Meifen had contacted Fu Siyu, and now he went to find Fu Siyu, it was fine, don't worry.

Fu Sitian felt a little more at ease, with a pale face, he remembered that he went to the convenience store across the street to buy a piece of bread, and ate his first meal of the day.

Ten minutes later, she sat blankly in the living room, worriedly called Wang Meifen, and asked if Wang Meifen had found Fu Siyu, and Wang Meifen answered angrily "I found it" and hung up the phone.

Fu Sitian heaved a sigh of relief and completely let go of his heart.

She picked up the treasures destroyed by Fu Siyu back into the box one by one, opened the suitcase, put it carefully, closed it, and dragged it into the room for temporary storage.

After waiting until ten o'clock, Fu Jiantao came back alone.He said that Fu Siyu had gone to grandma's house and would not be coming back tonight, and Wang Meifen was there to accompany her.

Fu Sitian agreed, and took the initiative to apologize to Fu Jiantao: "I shouldn't have quarreled with Xiaoyu."

Fu Jiantao had no choice but to touch Fu Sitian's head: "I don't know about her. Uncle doesn't blame you. She wants to repeat, but her mother and I refuse. She has been carrying a bomb every day recently. Seeing who bombs Who. Don't argue with her."

Fu Sitian nodded, paused and said, "Uncle, I'll go back to my hometown tomorrow to stay with grandma for a while."

Fu Jiantao immediately said, "No need!"

"Xiaoyu is in a bad mood, it's already annoying enough, I'm my sister, I'll let her, let her be quiet for two days." She said playfully.

Fu Jiantao was stunned, thinking of the quarrel at his mother-in-law's house just now, finally sighed and said, "I have wronged you."

Fu Sitian's nose was slightly sore, but he held it back immediately, and said with a nonchalant smile: "Grandma will definitely be upset when she hears this, why would she be wronged when she goes back to her hometown?"

Fu Jiantao frowned, and patted her on the head lovingly.

That night, Fu Jiantao called the old man. The next day, Fu Sitian dragged the suitcase he dragged from Shi Yi's house, took the bus again, and went to his hometown.

After bumping for a long time, she stepped into the yard of her hometown, and the first time she closed the door, the flexible bamboo strips fell from the old man's hand.

"What did I tell you before, tell me!" The sound of "slaps" was endless, and the bamboo strips fell on her white and tender body again and again, and after each blow, there was a swollen red mark.

"Don't trouble your uncle or aunt." His teeth were shaking from the pain, and tears were rolling in his eyes, but Fu Sitian was trembling, not hiding a single tear.

"There's more!" The old man's face was grim.

"Don't make my sister unhappy."

"Then how did you do it! Don't you think you didn't add enough chaos to the family? I should have thrown you out back then, and let you die." The old man beat more and more, and the more he beat, the more angry he became.

Fu Sitian was trembling all over, with the smell of blood in his mouth. He still endured it as he did countless times before, without saying a word, and only convinced himself over and over again in the numb pain that this was the punishment she deserved.

This is what she deserved.

So, never have unkind thoughts again, and always be a good person.

For the whole of August, Fu Sitian lived in fear in his hometown, walking on thin ice.She never contacted Shi Yi again, and Shi Yi never looked for her.

Chen Xizhu introduced her to a part-time job as an interpreter, and when asked about her and Shi Yi's progress, Fu Sitian only said that Shi Yi had no other thoughts about her at all, and that they had always been too whimsical.

Chen Xizhu felt guilty, thinking that Fu Sitian had too many fantasies because of her instigation, and Fu Sitian comforted her in turn.Chen Xizhu remembered and reminded Fu Sitian: "Should you consider changing the dormitory after school starts? She walks in front of you every day, it's too torture."

"It's okay, it won't happen." This was her only hope.

Fu Sitian's behavior was very flat. After Chen Xizhu cared about her a few times, he thought she had really let go.After all, I walked out quite simply after falling out of love.

She didn't know how wrong she was until she went to school together by train and saw Fu Sitian at the train station.

Fu Sitian lost a lot of weight.She was already thin, but now she is so thin that she can't touch any flesh.

She is so pitiful, with a more delicate beauty, and the rate of turning heads is higher, but Chen Xizhu has no intention of admiring it at all, "You came back from the refugee camp, and you are so skinny."

Fu Sitian didn't take it seriously, and teased her: "Are you envious?"

"I'm envious of your size." Does she feel distressed?After seeing through Fu Sitian's pretending to be relaxed, she felt uncomfortable seeing her smile now.

She clearly hasn't come out yet, why was she so stupid before.

But Fu Sitian didn't want to say more, so she could only pretend that she didn't find anything.

When they reached the intersection of Fu Sitian's dormitory building and were about to leave, Chen Xizhu couldn't help loosening the suitcase, and emotionally hugged Fu Sitian: "Tiantian, I'll be here if you need anything."

Fu Sitian was stunned for a moment, feeling warm in his heart, and just about to raise his hand to pat Chen Xizhu's back, Shi Yi's elegant figure flashed past him out of the corner of his eye.

Fu Sitian hurriedly turned his head to look for it. There were people coming and going on the road ahead, but there was no figure she wanted to see.

It's an illusion.She lowered her eyes, patted Chen Xizhu on the back, and said goodbye to Chen Xizhu.

She went up to 1510, stood at the door of the dormitory which was half-hidden, and heard faint voices coming from inside. She unconsciously tightened her hands while holding the suitcase handle, took a deep breath, and pushed the door open anxiously and expectantly.

Inside the door, Yin Fanlu and Jian Luhe were cleaning the table, and greeted her at the same time: "Si Tian, ​​you are here."

Upper bunk, balcony, toilet, bathroom... Looking around, Shi Yi is not there.

Fu Sitian's eyes darkened.

"Si Tian?" Jian Luhe's voice came again.

Fu Sitian came back to his senses, and said embarrassedly: "Oh, I was distracted for a while, and suddenly remembered that I forgot to bring something. You guys came so early."

"Actually, I just arrived." Yin Fanlu smiled and said, "I brought you some local specialties for everyone, and I'll give them to you later."

"I brought it too." Fu Sitian put down his schoolbag, took out some warm shortbread from the bag, and distributed it to Yin Fanlu and Jian Luhe: "It's still hot, it should still be crispy if you eat it now."

"It smells so good." Yin Fanlu twitched his index finger.

Jian Luhe took a bite directly, and said happily: "It's really crispy, it crackles when bitten."

Seeing that they were eating happily, Fu Sitian showed a genuine smile on his face.After hesitating for two seconds, she pinched the remaining cake in her hand and asked Jian Luhe softly: "Is Shi Yi still here? It might not taste good if it's cold."

Jian Luhe swallowed the cake and said, "She came, took some things and went back."

"Going back? Then... Then will she come over tonight?"

Jian Luhe asked strangely: "Didn't Shi Yi tell you?"

"What?" Fu Sitian's voice tightened.

"She has something to do at home temporarily, so she has applied for a boarding house this semester."

The temperature from his whole body was taken away in an instant, and Fu Sitian was cold from head to toe.

Shi Yi...was it too late to avoid her?

The little light left in my life was also extinguished.

The author has something to say: I don’t want to bake little rabbits recently, and I’m going to serve a new dish—skinned rabbits (why I’m a little excited.)

Fu Xiaotu hugged Jiji distressedly: woo woo woo.