For the sake of my brother debut, I decided to become a Uranus superstar

It was six past eight in the morning.

Luo Xiao covered his head with his hands in pain, the pain in his temple reminded him of the fact that he lacked sleep, but the tight thread in his brain could not be loosened no matter what, even if he continued to close Lying quietly with eyes on is nothing more than torturing myself with anxiety.

The needle in Lin Suyu's hand had been pulled out at some point, probably the nurse on duty at night helped him pull it out - thinking that the nurse's sister didn't shake him up and tell him to roll away, Luo Xiao couldn't help it more Thank you.

The pinhole was left on the back of Lin Suyu's white hand, which was as conspicuous as his thin blue blood vessels.

Putting Lin Suyu's hand holding her clothes back to his side, Luo Xiao sat up, only to feel that her eyes were darkened, and her mind was as dizzy as if lead had been poured into it.Resisting the urge to bang his head against the wall, he walked slowly to the bathroom, pouring cold water on his face several times before he could clearly see his numb and stiff expression in the mirror—even his eyes were unfamiliar It's like looking at another person.

It's so tiring.

Even if he poured three cups of milk tea into his stomach every day, Luo Xiao's figure still lost weight at a speed visible to the naked eye. The boy who originally had some baby fat on his face now has thin and conspicuous facial bones, and his jawline looks like the corner of a roof. Cutting out the graceful arcs that dance smoothly, although it makes the boy more handsome and handsome, it also makes him less soft and pyrotechnic.

If this goes on like this, I'm afraid that I will lose weight soon.

Luo Xiao doesn't like his current state very much, but in terms of his current state of vomiting after eating everything and drinking milk tea every day, it is a miracle that he still has the strength to go on stage. Don't even think about it.Knowing his situation, You You took him to try new dishes almost every day, but he seemed to be anorexic, no matter what dish he put in his mouth, he couldn’t swallow it, even if he forced himself to swallow it, he would spit it out after a while .

No matter what, I have to force myself to eat something today...

He wiped the water from his face, only to find that his hands were shaking slightly.

He knew that being an idol was not an easy task, but who knew it would be so difficult for him.

The most difficult obstacle is not from outside, but from himself.

The words of the cruise sounded in the ears——

"Ah Xiao, what happens to our group in the end depends entirely on your performance... You have to hold on."

I have to hold on.

The young man in the mirror opened and closed his lips, and said so silently.

Obviously he didn't want to do this either, but his whole body was tense and he couldn't relax, as if he had been cast in cement and couldn't move.

"Cabbage, radish, eggplant...just treat them as vegetables..."

After imagining the scene of a bunch of Chinese cabbage on the seats under the stage, Luo Xiao twitched the corners of her mouth, feeling like she wanted to vomit even more.

He walked out of the bathroom, and Lin Suyu on the bed curled up his legs. He didn't know when he rubbed to the edge, hugging the railing so tightly that he couldn't leave - when will this kid change his habit of rubbing against people and walls when he sleeps.

I wanted to go out for a walk while Lin Suyu was still asleep, thinking of Lin Suyu's nonsense before, if I woke up and couldn't see anyone, I was afraid that I would make a fuss again, so Luo Xiao had to sit by the bed and took out her mobile phone, ready to Get in touch with the program team.

It just so happened that a phone call came at this time, but he was taken aback for a moment. After hesitating for a while, he stood up and walked to the corridor outside.

"……mom?"

A familiar female voice came through the receiver, and she said straightforwardly, "Hey, why did you answer so quickly? Could it be that you haven't slept all night?"

Luo Xiao: "...how is it possible! She's asleep!"

Facing his own mother, Luo Xiao couldn't help putting on a soft coquettish ending, even though he didn't like it very much - he was already 16 years old, how could he still be coquettish to his parents!

Realizing that he was using the local dialect of Mingzhou again, Luo Xiao's face darkened, and he quickly switched to Mandarin: "Why did you call so early?"

Luo Zhi casually stuffed the slices of bread into the bread machine, took a sip of milk and said, "Didn't you say that you and Susu are going to perform on stage today? I asked for leave from the company, and the plane at [-]pm should arrive in the evening. Don't panic, big boy, it doesn't matter if you don't have fans, don't be sad, Mom is here to support you."

Luo Xiao: "...Ah!?"

and many more! ?

Mom, wait!

Thinking of the lyrics he sang were "kiss your blood-stained lips" and "tell my love in your ear", Luo Xiao was sweating for a moment, and felt that he was about to lose his voice. This time it was even more like a stick in the throat, I just felt that my legs were going to be weak.

His mother was watching from below, how could he still sing! ?

After holding back for a long while, Luo Xiao said slowly: "Mom, we need tickets to enter this stage, so you can't come in."

Although they are more familiar with the staff now, especially Lin Suyu, he can basically call out the names of the staff who have met once, and he is good at being cute and coquettish. If he comes forward, let alone Luo Zhi, even Luo Zhi can bring in another senior singing and dancing troupe.But how dare he tell his mother this kind of thing.

Thinking of the picture of her own mother calling herself from the bottom, Luo Xiao even had the idea of ​​running away.

terrible!Nightmare? This is it! ?Hell is nothing more than that!

Luo Zhi laughed out loud, "Oh, what's the matter with your tone, you don't want me to come and see you two?"

"I didn't mean that to cut it..." Luo Xiao was anxious, and all kinds of soft endings were full of babble, "I'm under pressure for you to come here, right, just, how dare you come to see this kind of thing La……"

"Okay, I got it, I got it." Luo Zhi smiled and prevented her son from blowing himself up in a fancy way, "I'm lying to you, it was too late when you told me, you can't buy a plane ticket anymore."

"……Oh."

Hearing that her mother wasn't coming, Luo Xiao felt a little bit disappointed while being thankful, and couldn't help whispering: "Forget it this time, I'm not used to it... Next time I'll tell you earlier, you Come again."

Although...it is very possible that this will be his last public performance, and there will be no next time.

But when he said this, hope would rise in his heart, as if as long as the agreement was made, there would really be another one.

"Have you not gotten used to it yet?" Luo Zhi obviously understands her son's personality, "Don't be so nervous that you can't sleep all day long, I remember that you didn't fall asleep for several days in a row during the high school entrance examination. I ran to the sofa in the living room to recite words at night, almost scared me to death..."

Speaking of this matter, Luo Xiao shyly said: "I can't help it if I can't sleep, I want to sleep too..."

"But you did well in the exam. Didn't you enter a school retroactively? Mom always thought that the more pressure you have, the higher you play. You are nervous, but the more you are forced, the more you play. The better it is... just don't get angry so much at ordinary times, you can have appropriate pressure, it's not worth exhausting your body..."

Probably all mothers are like this. When facing their own children, they can’t help but say a lot of things. Sometimes they know everything clearly, but thinking about it like this seems to make me feel more at ease. .

Luo Xiao listened without saying a word, the sourness in his heart soured that he almost couldn't help crying, suppressing the astringent feeling, he slowed down his speech, trying to make his tone more relaxed: "I Got it, Mom, don't worry, I'll take care of myself."

"No, no, in addition to taking care of yourself, you must also take care of Susu. As for Susu, let Erzai come over and answer the phone."

Luo Xiao quietly opened the door, glanced at Lin Suyu who was still sleeping in a mess hugging the railing on the bed, and replied: "He is sleeping."

"Oh, you're tired...then don't call him. Are you still tired, go back and lie down for a while?"

"I'm not tired, I'm fine."

Luo Zhi was silent for a while, before saying: "You know, I agree with you two to take a year off from school to become some kind of idol, not because I want you to have a real career or become such a great person, but I don't want you two to become idols." In the future, when I look back on this period of time, I will regret it... Do you remember what you told me back then?"

"……Um."

Thinking back to the beginning of everything, it was obviously just a few months ago, but it gave him the illusion that it was a lifetime away.

"Because, that's my dream... I know I'm whimsical, but I don't even have the qualifications to try...?"

At first, he just wanted to stand on the stage and sing and dance without any scruples or haze like he dreamed of a long time ago.

There is no need for a brilliant and shining stage, or even the applause and approval of the audience - just simply want to stand under the spotlight and reach out to touch my dream.

At that time, after listening to his words, Luo Zhi also asked: "Then, when singing and dancing, do you feel happy?"

Just like now, through the radio waves, the question that spanned thousands of kilometers from Mingzhou to Bianzhou seemed to travel through time and space, and sounded familiar again——

"So are you happy now?"

"I'm very happy," he choked out.

That's right, although he was burdened with too much pressure that he shouldn't have, and occasionally lost himself in endless fatigue and exhaustion...

But, he was really happy.

"Well, that's good." Luo Zhi paused, her voice became soft and gentle, "No matter what the result is, I'm very glad that you once made such a request to me...Mom is proud of you."

It wasn't until she hung up the phone that Luo Xiao squatted down and buried her face in her arms.Where no one saw, the boy who had been pretending to be strong finally shed tears.

To become a better adult, start by not crying.

However, if no one saw it, just pretend that he hadn't cried—it doesn't matter if he shed tears so secretly, right?

Feeling her back being gently patted, Luo Xiao sobbed and said, "I'm not crying."

Lin Suyu turned his head to look at the window, and lazily said "Oh", probably because he was afraid that Luo Xiao would not believe it, he added: "I just came out to see the scenery, and I can't take my hands free to take pictures casually, so you don't have to pay attention to me."

Luo Xiao raised her head, glared at him with tears all over her face, and buried her head back again.

Outside the window, the sun has slowly risen.